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Sometimes Riley doesn't appreciate himself enough. Sometimes he hides himself away and lets himself spiral. Sometimes he doesn't see himself the way MacTavish does.
"It's just scars," Riley says, though that has never stopped MacTavish from loving him.
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08 Sep 2026
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MacTavish would never make him interrogate a target. There was no doubt in his mind that, when Ghost picked up the blowtorch, when he’d rounded on the informant, when he’d waved the blue flame in his face as if it wasn’t the identical blue of his eyes behind the sunglasses, that Ghost had been acting on his own will.
ghost is alarmingly good at getting information out of targets. he’s not nearly as good at dealing with it
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07 Sep 2026
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It had been a long time since he had been anything but a ghost, a long time since anyone had wanted him to be— and as much as he trusted MacTavish’s judgement, Ghost knew he was better suited to it when there was a problem with a clear solution, one where he was only expected to switch off his mind and do anything it took to get to it.
It was busy. There wasn’t a moment of quiet, not a moment where he could stop and think— and worse than that was the way that people looked to him as he thought, waited for his opinion, staked their own on his.
Second-in-command. The words didn’t even suit him, came out oddly on his lips as he sounded them out.
ghost is coping with the war, and the new position, and the distance, absolutely fine as far as anyone is concerned. he doesn't have the right to feel any different, anyway.
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07 Sep 2026
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“I know that— sir,” MacTavish tried, but Shepherd wasn’t having it—
“There’s nothing Ghost can do for you that another one of your soldiers can’t. I appreciate your concern, but Ghost has spent a lot longer working under me,” he told him firmly, at odds with the gentle way he placed the folder back on his desk and readjusted it out of his line of sight, “and I’ll make sure he’s utilised best.”
As if that was what he was concerned about— but he didn’t voice that, accepting the answer for what it was.
the international stage has finally settled to a point where mactavish feels confident enough to ask ghost out properly. ghost, on the other hand, is nowhere to be found, busy carrying out shepherd's orders
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07 Sep 2026
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And it was an impossibly long shot, but on the off chance— on the off chance they made it, perhaps there was an ending at all; on a quiet night, or early in the morning on a weekend, when it was just them and the warm glow of sunrise on the horizon, he could bare out his soul to him, and his voice wouldn’t hesitate or fail him.
soap tries to imagine asking ghost out, and through absolutely no wish of his own, the 141 decide to share their thoughts on first dates
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04 Sep 2026
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It was a weight that choked him on nights like that, the impossible pressure of seeing everything falling apart and being completely and utterly helpless to stop it— he knew the gun cleaning kit wasn’t in his room, and his hands shook on his door handle as he pulled the door closed, the sound echoing across the hall like a gunshot.
In times of high stress, people tend to resort towards comfort, however that might look.
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04 Sep 2026
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The silence was worse than anger. He waited, but the longer the quiet stretched, the worse he knew he was making it— he opened his mouth, and closed it, wordless, and another drop of rain crawled across his skin.
“Jesus Christ, Simon,” MacTavish sighed finally, and the disappointment made the knot in his chest tighten angrily. “You said you’d stop doing this.”
not for the first time, ghost gets himself in a fight. in the aftermath, both of them confront some new realisations
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04 Sep 2026
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There was something liminal about the night. It was in the silence, he was almost sure— in the thick blanket of the night sky, draped over everything, in the way it remained blissfully unbroken by gunfire, in the mist he could see where his blinds were cracked, softening the horizon, as if the land just fell away into nothing.
mactavish takes the opportunity of a late night to practise getting some things off his chest <3
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04 Sep 2026
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“Will you?” Ghost asked, as MacTavish stepped out onto the pavement, blinking at nothing. He looked around, and his eyes fell on a young couple; the boy had an arm around the girl’s waist, and they were both laughing as he tugged them along.
“Yeah,” he replied, for no other reason than the alcohol. “Yeah, probably.”
“Alright,” Ghost grinned, like it was that easy. “Train’s inbound at six tomorrow evening.”
riley gets invited along to a family reunion while mactavish is in the middle of a sexuality crisis. he resolves to try and solve the issue by getting drunk together
note 17/09/2025 - i changed the name from ‘a year and a war’ to ‘look of love’! it’s the same work <3
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04 Sep 2026
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MacTavish blinked, did a double take at his phone, frowned deeper, and—
“Ghost?”
“Who d’you think?” Ghost replied, exasperated, and there was the sound of him rummaging about down the phone— “have you seen my lighter or not?”
or— a series of phone calls while they’re deployed apart
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03 Sep 2026
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“You hold your soldiers to high standards, MacTavish,” Lopez remarked, with a thin smile; he gave a polite huff of amusement before returning his gaze to the field, raking over it to find who he was really after.
After over a year of knowing him, working with him, and living with him, he probably should have lost the ability to be surprised by him. But if there was anyone who could stun him, knock him flat on his feet no matter how long it had been, it was Ghost.
ghost impresses another captain during a training exercise; mactavish seeks to remind him whose tags he wears :)
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02 Sep 2026
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It had been a dream. It had just been a dream, him conflating nightmares and memories, his traitorous mind tainting the good things in his life with dead men, but—
But, he had wanted it. It was just a dream but it had felt— good, he’d felt good, and he’d wanted it, he asked for it, it was his hands and his lips and his choice—ghost has a difficult nightmare and has to come to some conclusions in the aftermath
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02 Sep 2026
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“—and I don’t know how it got there, either,” he continued, like he hadn’t heard him, running an agitated hand over the mask, “no one outside the squad knows where my office is, I didn’t see anyone come in or leave— it was there when I got back from the mission, so I don’t know how long it’s been there—”
“Riley—” he cut in again, kneading at the furrow in his eyebrow—
or— one man’s attempt to give his prickly lieutenant a gift
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02 Sep 2026
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He was on his back, and there was a sharp, aching pain in the back of his head, throbbing in time with the shooting pain behind his eyes with every beat of his heart— his radio was going haywire a few inches from his ear, conversations drumming along at breakneck speed.
A nightmare, he reassured himself, licking at dry lips.
Not for the first time in his life, Ghost gets buried alive.
He’s not sure how many times he can dig himself out.
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01 Sep 2026
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“Maybe when you become a lieutenant, and they’ve got you as busy as me, you’ll find out,” Ghost snarked back, sitting back in his seat. “Maybe they’ll give you a better callsign while you’re there, Bug.”
MacTavish knocked his knee into Ghost’s, and decidedly kept his face even at the way Ghost’s nose had scrunched up with his scowl.
“Play nice.”
“The point is,” Ghost declared over the engine, glaring at them all and daring them to say anything, “I’m not tired, and I’ll sleep when I’m back at base.”
for all his posturing, ghost manages to make soap seem like a very good tactical pillow after a mission. not that soap minds, even with all the teasing
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01 Sep 2026
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But Ghost had no government to protect him, and if they took off his mask, and he was identified on national news, it would exponentially complicate everything— but it wasn’t that that had his pulse shooting up, it was the sound his knuckles had made against his cheekbones that made him sick.
or— an embassy is taken over by a small team of insurgents, and ghost and soap work to get it back while they wait for backup
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01 Sep 2026
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Every time he fell asleep in MacTavish’s bed, every time MacTavish soothed nightmares away with pet names and soft touches smoothing over trembling skin, every inside joke, every time he wiped away his tears, every time they made each other laugh, every time he looked a little too long at the way Ghost smiled, or the pink flush that dusted over his cheeks when he was embarrassed, or the way his eyes would flicker into half moons when he got happy— Ghost wouldn’t trust him with all of it if he knew Soap was fucking in love with him.
soap realises he’s in love; he decides to cut it all off before it gets any worse.
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31 Aug 2026
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“Well— alright,” Ghost accepted it easily. “I can get ‘em for you.”
“I— what?”
“I’m stationed at Redford Barracks,” Ghost replied carelessly. “There’s a Tesco right outside, half an hour on the bus into Edinburgh town centre. Can you wait that long?”
soap, on medical leave and roped into taking care of his niece, calls for the very best backup he knows; he discovers some things about himself in the meanwhile.
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31 Aug 2026
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So Ghost had done it slowly, carefully, testing each footstep like a cat in the snow— Soap would get a mumbled story about his family, a reference to a different life, one of the layers of fabric he wore pulled off nearly casually, a story about a scar, his eyes, his face, the scarred expanse of his body when he was too tired to tug on a shirt and too hypervigilant to not still be tracking every miniscule movement of MacTavish’s hands.
a mock interrogation goes wrong and soap and ghost confront each other on their very different perspectives of ghost’s face
(alternatively— 4 times mactavish calls ghost pretty, and one time he believes him)
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30 Aug 2026
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“Are you making fun of me?”
MacTavish’s eyebrows shot up, surprised.
“What?”
“Why would I spend Christmas at yours?” Ghost asked, half between bewildered and angry; one final curl of smoke escaped his mouth before he plucked the cigarette from between his lips and stubbed it out viciously on the railing, pulling the mask down and hiding anything else of his expression.
ghost has been off all december, and soap has absolutely no clue why. he invites ghost to spend christmas with him instead
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29 Aug 2026