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Edward struggles with an addiction.
He doesn't want anyone to know -- it's terribly embarrassing to admit that you harm yourself and can't stop.
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"Ed is so undeniably afraid of anyone finding out. He is scared of their calculated judgements, of their disgusted looks, yet for some reason he hopes someday that Al will catch him and tell him everything will be alright.
But that fear drives him – it makes him feel more ashamed. He's already destroyed himself and that made him pathetic. He deserved this."
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Ed struggles with self-harm.
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22 Apr 2026
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equivalent exchange (what's the weight of a childhood) by dovegraye
Fandoms: Fullmetal Alchemist - All Media Types
29 Jan 2026
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"What do you say to a compromise?” The man started smiling, leaning his forearms on the counter to look more directly down at Ed. He should have run. He should have seen the edge to that smile and the darkness in those eyes and run as fast as he could.
Instead, Ed looked back.
or, a mission goes wrong and mustang finds out something ed was hoping to take to his grave.
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23 Mar 2026
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Shell-Shocked by catsandcanaries
Fandoms: Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood & Manga, Fullmetal Alchemist - All Media Types
14 Feb 2026
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When Ed spends a month in Resembool "reconnecting" with his father, it's a little odd. When he returns requesting to be dismissed from the dorms so he can move in with Hoenheim, who just recently bought a place in Central, it's shocking. When things start to escalate from there, and Ed starts showing signs of something more, it's dangerous. Will Ed be able to seek out the help he so desperately needs? Will Roy and his team be able to get to the bottom of things before it's too late?
Please read the tags for trigger warnings!
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18 Mar 2026
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when it feels like too much by CluelessOnex
Fandoms: Fullmetal Alchemist - All Media Types, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood & Manga, Fullmetal Alchemist (Anime 2003)
13 Jun 2026
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After a brutal and life-altering attack against Ed, he struggles to accept and cope with the aftermath. Ed finds himself slowly coming to terms with what happened and beginning to heal with the help of his brother, Mustang's team, and...Mustang?
Parental!Roy, sibling bonding, familial hurt/comfort; additional tags will be added as updates are posted.
PLEASE read the warnings and tags! This work includes non-explicit references to sexual violence against a minor! Underage and Non-Con tags are included because it is heavily referenced; it is not explicit.
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14 Mar 2026
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Hindsight's 20/20 by CluelessOnex
Fandoms: Fullmetal Alchemist - All Media Types, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood & Manga
20 Mar 2026
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In one of the rare instances in which his father had talked to Ed instead of in his general direction, he had said that there were hundreds of souls in his body. He had said it with the same certainty that one might say the sky was blue and the grass was green. Mom never acted like it was unusual, so Ed figured it was okay.
Some people just have bigger imaginations than others, after all.
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Before he could stop it, he let out a choked laugh.
Mustang now looked openly concerned.
“Mustang,” he whispered, “I think I’m losing my fuckin’ mind.”
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I decide to, once again, project my mental illnesses on Edward. Edward does not have a good time. Everyone does their best to help, but understanding is limited and stigma is high. Basically, Hohenheim's body is home to hundreds of souls and I took that literally.
Parental Roy! Hurt/comfort! Angst!
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14 Mar 2026