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but they bring their boys up different by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Feb 2026
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Ilya knows what he is. He has always known what he is. The word for it in Russian tastes like something you'd scrape off a boot.
The word in English is bisexual, which is a nicer word, which he has heard, which he does not use. He uses other words. He uses the word his brother taught him. He uses it on himself before anyone else can.
He grows up. He gets good at hockey. He moves to America. He... falls in love.
(Or, five times people fail to notice Ilya being queer, and one time they have no choice.)
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20 Mar 2026
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Summer: blistering pavement, spontaneous thunderstorms, warm nights filled with sirens that wail and whine until dawn. Summer: despair, withered optimism; (silk sheets, sibilant whispers, ice baths, terror);
There's a lot to hate about the city during the summer months.
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01 Mar 2026
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shifting my shape when your tongue forms the words (like: i hate you when i love you the most) by stendhal
Fandoms: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
21 Aug 2025
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Should anyone have bothered to ask, he’d tell his
truths—(delusions):- Language:
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01 Mar 2026
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He walks, eyes half-shut, and thinks about:
New York City, all those decades ago—skylights, fine jewels, designer clothes and Broadway shows; he thinks about:
London, all those centuries ago—cold Aprils, the clack-click-clomp of horse-drawn carriages on cracked cobblestone, dear sweet Sebastian; and now: now, he has:
Los Angeles: home to real stars, real wealth and the city’s own brand of filth that lives in the putrid grime buried beneath the glitz and glamour.
It's been a good night, but there'll be more: days, nights, years, decades.
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01 Mar 2026
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Astarion was the only thing that had kept Gale alive this long. So Gale felt it was only fair to demand that Tav help them deal with Cazador.
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27 Feb 2026
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In the wake of a disastrous project, the only thing left for documentarian Astarion Ancunin is an insane job offer. A lone biologist, a research station, and a single shark.
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28 Feb 2026
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At least the others could conceivably have meant it when they said they wanted to visit, they missed him, they hoped he was well. Not Gale, he'd been too busy off gallivanting on his goddess's orders. He'd been made a Weave Anchor, according to Shadowheart. Whatever that was, it kept Gale busy, apparently. Astarion was surprised he even found the time to come tonight. He must've been on official Weave business, dropping GP in a pewter bowl in Baldur's Gate.
Well, anyway, Astarion wished a horde of quasits would swoop in and gnaw Gale's face off.
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28 Feb 2026
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It’s Karlach’s one fucking rule, the one thing that’s got her through eight years of Hell. They can treat her like shit all they want, but that doesn’t mean she has to agree. She’s worth more than this, she deserves better than Mizora, deserves to share a bed with someone who likes her, someone kind. No matter what Gortash or Zariel or Mizora or any of them try to tell her, she deserves kindness.
Mizora’s lips nudge her ear, and Karlach feels her cunt leak. “I’d be willing to cuddle afterwards. Just for a little while.”
She deserves--no fuck that, Karlach just wants--to be held.
Eight years into the Blood War, Karlach’s starting to lose hope of things ever getting better. She’s tired, lonely, and miserable. And a prime target for a devil looking for someone to take her own issues out on.
Or: Karlach’s touch-starved and Mizora’s manipulative.
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28 Jan 2026
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punchline by shrobbery for namikazes
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
04 Jan 2026
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punchline
/ˈpʌn(t)ʃlʌɪn/
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the final phrase or sentence of a joke or story, providing the humour or some other crucial element.- - -
Ilya is— he’s allowed to love Shane out loud now. Because he does. He loves his husband. Adores him with every staccato beat of his heart so surely, so intently, that he’s positive that if he were to be hooked up to a polygraph machine and be asked if he loves Shane Hollander, the shape of his pulse as he answers “yes” would coincide with the rhythm of Shane’s bashful laughter anytime Ilya tells him that his freckles are stunning.
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It’s funny, though. He can almost see Irina’s brand of humor slip through the cracks, like sunlight peeking past the gaps in their blackout curtains. He can almost hear her laugh. Gone as she is, she lingers and clings to him like cigarette smoke.
Ilya, Shane, freckles, fate, and his mama. Alternatively titled: the stars outside of Moscow
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27 Jan 2026
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conscience runs, ‘til out of breath by tothemoon
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Jan 2026
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Ilya considers, then, the idea of a smaller joy, the kind so molecular no one would know how to make him feel sorry for any of it. He thinks of Svetlana and him at McDonald’s, drunk and laughing; sprints, instead of long and dreadful runs; and even then that familiar swath of freckles, all faded from weak winter sun.
There are times when Ilya is sorry, and there are times when he is not.
(or: Heated Rivalry, as told through so many apologies.)
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27 Jan 2026
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Goodbye, Mama by Some_Stupid_Reckless_Idiot
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 Jan 2026
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Ilya is in Russia following the death of his father. He visits his mother's grave after his father's funeral and admits secrets he's finally ready to share with the one person he's ready to tell.
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27 Jan 2026
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Ilya is like his mother in the way that he plays with fireworks and skates on not quite frozen rivers.
Shane often finds himself lost in translation.
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An exploration of Ilya and Shane, their mental health, and their relationships
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- Part 1 of mental health fics to exorcise my demons
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27 Jan 2026
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capable hands tied by asha_dasha
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
25 Jan 2026
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He wants to throw the phone against the window, only resisting the urge because it’s his tether to Shane. He wants to unread the post. He wants someone to tell him he’s wrong, that his parents were somehow in love.
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One of Troy Barrett's reposted infographics ignites a mental health crisis for Ilya, when he realizes his mother was a victim of marital rape.
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27 Jan 2026
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Would You Like Someone to Worry Your Mother? by SpaceJackalope
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
25 Jan 2026
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After the third time he had restarted a paragraph without truly reading it, David put the magazine down. “Yuna,” he said slowly, “have you ever wondered…”
She glanced up. “Hmm?”
“...whether Shane might…be gay?”
Yuna blinked a few times. “Our Shane?”
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26 Jan 2026
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"You're a woman. Hold your head high like one."
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11 Jan 2026
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Nym, Rhol and Naoise take time to appreciate Hoots.
"I'm going to explore you until you're little more than melted wax." Nym nibbled Hoot's rounded ears, raking nails through her hair. "Such filthy things we'll discover, darling. When I next see you, your cheeks will blush not from your hooch, but from how well I undid you, and how well I could do it again."
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- Part 14 of Baldur's Blush
- Part 2 of Sharess's Messes
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09 Jan 2026
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a delicate flame courses beneath my skin by NightmareGiraffe
Fandoms: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
26 Mar 2024
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“I do not need to touch you to consume you.”
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Only foolish istiks give up without even trying. Lae'zel comes to Karlach on the night of the tiefling party.
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05 Jan 2026
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“Some sort of doctor you are!” Shadowheart accuses. “Don’t tell me, your ‘practice’ here is simply subterfuge for drinking all the mortal blood you can find…”
To her credit, the doctor doesn’t look abashed at all, not one bit. She only looks back at Shadowheart steadily.
“You wouldn’t have come here if ordinary remedies had proved any help.”
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23 Dec 2025
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Karlach lets out a sigh. “He doesn’t love you.”
“I know,” Wyll says, because he does know that, even if his stupid body doesn’t.
His body is an animal that still thinks Astarion is his mate, even years later. Still searches for his scent in a crowded room, feels anxious when they aren’t together, purrs contentedly when they are pressed skin to skin. But that isn’t love; it’s just biology. A mating bond that refuses to fade entirely—aided in no small part by Wyll’s inability to keep his hands and his knot to himself whenever they are together.
Wyll Ravengard loved Astarion. Years later, he tries not to. Though their relationship ended the night Astarion ascended, Wyll still finds himself drawn back again and again to the omega, his body and heart convinced they’re still mates, even if his brain knows they’re not. Astarion lures him close with his smile, taunts him with his scent. Unable to resist, Wyll goes to him, repeating a cycle that always ends in regret and may one day lead to his ruin.
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- Part 1 of Lovefool
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26 Oct 2025
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Nocturne holds onto her knees and whispers with the graveness of a deathbed confession: "Nightsinger forgive me, but I've been left hollow." Her bright purple eyes cloud with tears. "I have turned my back to Lady Shar and all she has left me with is this shame and guilt. I want to be cut away from her. I want her so repulsed by me she won't deign to touch me anymore."
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01 Sep 2025