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    As free agency opens up, Shane is reminded that when asked to make the same choice Ilya is expecting him to make now, he'd utterly refused.
    With the realization that his fiance has been completely unsupportive since they were outed and things imploded with Montreal, Shane decides to make a different choice.
    Will it break them once and for all or be what brings them back together?

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    29 Aug 2026

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    Newly signed with the Ottawa Centaurs, Shane's plan is to avoid social media for at least forty-eight hours. This plan goes up in smoke when ESPN publishes an online article about Shane's signing with the headline "A Chink In The Armour?"

    Before Shane and his team can quietly resolve the issue without it going viral, Troy f--ing Barrett decides that actually, racism is bad and he should start posting about that too, starting with ESPN's article. Inevitably, everything gets out of control and Ilya, Troy, and the Centaurs are left to grapple with the uncomfortable reality Shane faces as a gay Asian-Canadian who plays hockey.

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    27 Aug 2026

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  3. Public Bookmark 81

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    When Shane was told of his friendship with Troy, safe to say his reaction wasn't the same as usual. Shane had looked taken aback, a small stiff smile frozen on his face. He had thought that he was at fault. Like he had done something else for Shane to act that way.

    He hadn't figure out that it was because of Troy.

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    27 Aug 2026

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    In 2022, Ilya wakes up in a hospital in Ottawa with no memory of how he got there. He has hazy recollections of 2015, but he can't remember anything about the past seven years. He is shocked to learn he is now married to Shane Hollander, a fact that forces him to reconcile the decisions of his past self with the expectations he inherited from his father.
    --

    “I have this for you.” Hollander reached into his pocket, pulling out something gold, glinting under the cold hospital lighting. Holding his fist out, Hollander unfurled his hand, and the bottom fell out of Ilya’s heart, cratering through his stomach and spilling onto the floor.

    Shane Hollander stood before him, palm outstretched, cradling Irina Rozanova’s golden crucifix.

    Ilya flinched back, like he had been burned. Hollander’s warmth had moved too close, too fast, morphing into a threat and a violation. Hollander should not have that cross.

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    22 Aug 2026

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    Emmy: When did you first hook up with him?
    Jane: 2010
    Caro: WHAT
    Megan: GIRL
    Tia: SEVEN YEARS??
    Megan: My jaw is borderline unhinged rn

    Or: In 2017, Shane finds a place where he can talk about his sex life...a group chat for girls who have slept with Ilya Rozanov

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    21 Aug 2026

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    Everyone reading this knows Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are in love.

    Hayden Pike and Cliff Marleau are about to find out the hard way: in an empty parking lot, after a hit that ended Shane's season, with absolutely no idea what they're going to do about it.

    Two idiots, one secret neither of them asked for, and a slow, reluctant, increasingly unhinged campaign to put it right.

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    18 Aug 2026

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    Jane
    Are they both bad?
    Do you hate them?

    Ilya
    Have been having a mild breakdown, sorry
    You see, my boyfriend sent me two photos of himself wearing glasses when he knows that this makes me insane man

    Jane
    Oh come on
    You literally see me in them everyday!

    Ilya
    I do
    And I have had an orgasm every day for the last 421 days
    You see the connection, yes?

    Ilya does lots of boring things with Shane. They are his favourite things in the world.

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    13 Aug 2026

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    “You handled it well. You flunked a bit the questions we had prepared, but you did well.”
    Flunked?” Shane asked, voice pitching up as the words salted over the open wound, the infected gutting from the top of his throat down to his stomach.
    “You should have rectified and make your position clear about Scott Hunter. We don’t want you to sound like you’re antagonizing him,” Yuna added, matter-of-factly, her eyes narrowing on the knot of his tie, adjusting it like it still mattered.

    Shane’s body shook violently against his will, dislodging from under her touch. Yuna looked up, surprised by his reaction.
    Surprise that shifted to horror immediately.

    “No, that’s not what I meant–”
    “I need to–” he gasped, bringing a hand to cover his mouth, while Yuna tried to grab his arm. Any other time, he could have avoided her, but Shane was falling.

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    08 Aug 2026

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    After the events on the roof in Vegas, Shane finds himself wandering the streets and ends up at a bar where he later becomes the victim of sexual assault.

    "Something is wrong with Shane Hollander.

    He no longer returns Ilya’s texts, not even to tell him to fuck off. Over the summer, Ilya thinks this is about Vegas. Thinks maybe he somehow pushed Hollander too far that night. The look on Shane’s face was anger, but Ilya had seen the terror below it too. He understood that terror.

    It’s the pre-season when Ilya realizes something else is going on. The charming, bright-eyed golden boy is no longer present in interviews. Hollander answers questions like he’s a wooden man reading from a book. No fire, no passion, no personality, no smile. He is a dense brick. The light of him has gone out and Ilya clocks is immediately."

    This will follow Shane's path of recovery from unimaginable violence through his eyes, Ilya's eyes, and those of close friends and family.

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    05 Aug 2026

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    after the plane incident and realizing just how fragile life can be, shane and ilya come out to their teams, with varying levels of success.

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    He tries to sit and do a puzzle David had given him for Christmas, but he’s too anxious and agitated to do much more than just the perimeter in the end. Then he tries to eat some lunch, but he doesn’t have much of an appetite, so most of it ends up in the garbage. His stomach is in knots thinking about Shane.

    And then, around two hours after Shane’s last texts, he gets a text from Jackie Pike.

    Jackie: Hey, Ilya! Have you heard from Shane? He’s ignoring Hayden’s calls, and we’re a bit worried.

    Ilya’s brow furrows. Shane’s supposed to be practicing with his shitty team, why is Pike trying to call him? A pit of dread opens up in his stomach at the implications.

    Ilya: I haven’t heard from him since he arrived in Montreal

    Ilya: Did something happen, Jackie?

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    04 Aug 2026

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    Hayden wants to meet Lily, but Shane's not cooperating, so he has to play a detective to discover the truth.

    If he knew Lily was Ilya Rozanov, he would not have bothered.

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    03 Aug 2026

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    Lily: when you cry and beg

    Lily: you take my cock so well

    (And, wow, Hayden hadn’t thought Shane would be the one getting fucked at all but more the person doing the fucking—partly because he always assumed Shane had been straight and partly because who the fuck fucks a 5’10 hockey player??? Didn’t usually more feminine or, well, smaller guys take it up the ass? Apparently not. Hayden was as clueless about gay sex as he’d been about his best friend's sexuality.)

    or: hayden finds out shane is gay via some very explicit messages and spirals. turns out learning about your best friend's sexuality can lead you to questioning everything you thought you knew. and maybe even make friends with the enemy.
    or: yet another hayden pike finds out fic
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    02 Aug 2026

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    30 Jul 2026

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  14. Public Bookmark 63

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    Ilya Rozanov's last year playing for the Boston Bears. Saying a long goodbye to the first place to feel like home after his mama died. Figuring out how to be in love with Shane Hollander, and how to let Shane Hollander love him too. Chasing one last Stanley Cup. Completely canon-compliant.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    “Come on, man," Hayden teased. "Don’t tell me you’re jealous of her.” 
    “I’m not jealous,” Shane insisted through his teeth. “I don’t get jealous.” 
    Hayden blinked. “Shane, buddy, my guy, you’re the most jealous person I know.” 

    Or Shane has never been a jealous person. Until Ilya Rozanov and his group of ex-situationships came along.

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    25 Jul 2026

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    Shane approaches the door where Ilya is playing with Anya on the bed. He doesn’t say anything, he just stands in the doorway, phone hanging limply in his hand and the colour has drained from his face completely.

    “What is wrong, Shane?”

    Shane looks down at his phone. His eyebrows have fallen in confusion, but it’s the look in his eyes that makes Ilya’s stomach drop.

    “Um, I think you need to read these”

    *****

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    Shane and Ilya recieve communication from Ilya's niece, Yelena, after she has fled Russia on her 18th birthday after being outted to her family. From a hostel in Istanbul, Yelena takes a leap of faith, placing her future in the hands of a man she barely remembers and a country she's only ever dreamed about.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    “Can I tell you a secret?” Mom asks.

    Shane nods immediately. He likes secrets. Especially from his mother. She knows everything about everything.

    “It doesn’t matter what they say or do,” she tells him. “The only thing that matters is what you do on the ice.”

    “Score lots of goals?” Shane clarifies, since eleven-year-old boys do all kinds of things on the ice.

    “Score lots of goals.” Mom nods with a grin. “The ice doesn’t care who you are, Shane. So, you go out there and give it your everything. Then nothing else matters.”

    “You promise?” Shane whispers.

    “I promise,” Mom tells him firmly. “If you’re good on the ice, they won’t care who you are off it.”

    OR: An ode to the many layers of Shane Hollander.

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    20 Jul 2026

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    He knows it was a perfect storm of their youth, their naivety, and their competitiveness that caused the rivalry to spiral into what it became. It was an insanely good story for a league with two teams that were struggling to make the playoffs each year and needed something new and exciting to revitalize their frustrated fans.

    Sure, there were many times throughout their early years in the league where they would purposefully rile each other up enough for their rivalry to feel pretty fucking real. Or got each other so annoyed that Shane might've dropped his gloves if he were the type of guy to do that sort of thing. Sometimes he wanted to slam Ilya hard into the boards less to protect the puck and more to avenge his heart over an unanswered text. But if they had just allowed themselves to feel the feelings they wanted and hadn't been forced to appear to hate each other? Well. No one would be talking about a Hollander and Rozanov rivalry almost ten years later.

    The public still believes there is a rivalry. One they are trying to put an end to.

    --

    Or; an exploration of Shane and Ilya's first year as a couple while Ilya finishes out his final season in Boston.

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    07 Jul 2026

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    Hayden thinks Shane is asexual. Shane can't tell him why he knows he isn't.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    He had known, deep down, that it had been a bad idea to ask Ilya to come with him this summer. Perhaps if he hadn’t been injured, lying in that hospital bed high off his face on pain medication, he wouldn’t have found the courage in the first place. But when Ilya walked in looking like he was one word from falling apart, Shane had relented and let himself hope, desperately, pathetically, that Ilya felt a fraction of what Shane did as Ilya stroked his face with the back of his knuckles, how he felt when Ilya had confessed that Shane’s injury had scared him. And perhaps if Rose hadn’t filled his head with stupid, romantic fantasies, he wouldn’t be standing in the summer breeze at his parents cottage, feeling the same way he had after leaving the Vegas penthouse all those years ago.

    Fuck.

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    Shane starts to get anxious about the radio silence from Ilya following his invitation to the cottage. After a conversation with Rose, he finally reaches out to cauterise the wound and get an answer to the question he wished he hadn't asked. No one could have predicted what came next.

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    05 Jul 2026

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