Balluna
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I don't feel so good either, now you're just a memory by Balluna
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Iron Man (Movies)
30 May 2025
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Tony wants to forget his pains – most of the time.
The world had forced him to move on after years and years, but how can you deal with losing a kid that never was yours to keep in the first place?
"[...] Tony had thought of naming him after Peter. As horrible as it sounds, he is happy Pepper had vehemently protested his idea. He doesn’t know if he could’ve handled losing Peter twice."
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After Peter got dusted, Tony struggles. Him and Pepper try for a baby, and Tony just wishes to forget.
- a story leading with trauma, and ending with more of it. -
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The girl turns to Oscar and gives him a hug. All the while Logan is left to stand there, arm extended to return the phone with sweaty palms, praying for the interaction to end. A twing in his heart echos in the emptiness of it.
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And then Oscar wins his first ever Formula 1 Grand Prix, leaving Logan behind in the dusts of P19.
He finds himself mourning as he stands with shaking legs and looks over at his best friend hugging his team.
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pause, then Alex talks again:
"I think I'll need to show you some of those Lance-Fernando edits"Logan can't help but compare himself to Oscar, over and over again. He struggles with doubts about belonging, self-worth and trusting Alex in the truth; that it'll all be fine eventually.
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4x Logan feels like the most hated driver,
4x Logan feels welcomed,
1x someone else is the most hatedSeries
- Part 2 of F1 misery
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"Would someone come by with a knife – daring to stab the broken teen through his chest – he would probably scare them away with the state he was in.
Hands shaking harsher than a ride along an uneven country road strewn with deep potholes.
They'd be scared of what could possibly be going on in this man's head – a darkness clouding the Dutchman's mind, only rivalled by a black hole's nothingness.
It was just him, all alone, leaned against an old car, watching the stars as he wished for another one's life.
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He dreamed of a world where they'd at least understand where his recklessness originated."or
Max gets once again abandoned on a highway, doesn't cope well with the newly acquired trauma and learns that somebody does careSeries
- Part 1 of F1 misery
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One Day I'll Let Depression Win; Not Today, Not Tomorrow, But Maybe Yesterday by Balluna
Fandoms: No Fandom, Original Work
18 Dec 2023
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One day I'll let depression win;
Not today, not tomorrowI'll wait for sweet death to engulf my worthless body in darkness
I'll wait for it to let my soul roam free
I'll wait for it to pull me out of the weighted vest that pushes me into the earth beneathOne day i'll let depression win;
Not today, not tomorrow
But maybe yesterdayaka poet is just a tiny smidge depressed
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- Part 2 of Poems My Brain Has Fabricated
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Slam Poetry about my struggeling with longing for love, yet never receiving it (mostly meant in a romantic way)
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the poet is very lonely and wanted to express this
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- Part 1 of Poems My Brain Has Fabricated
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All my F1 FanFics ~
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Every night Yuuri leaves their bed to talk to someone on the phone, and Victor doesn't know how much longer he can take it.
Bookmarked by Balluna
27 Dec 2025
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After a few minutes, he gave up and sat down on the bed. Tears started pouring down his cheeks. His hands pulled at his hair, and his breathing began to mimic a hummingbird’s wings. Victor looked away from the devastated skater in front of him. He unlocked the phone and pressed the contact his partner had spent so many nights talking to. It only rang a moment before someone picked up; the male on the other end had a calm tone. Victor was ready to confront the Yuuri about the unknown caller.
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-> the woman was too stunned to speak (LITERALLY, MY ENTIRE FACE FELL AND I PAUSECHAMPED. (
SPOILER!!!) i really thought it would be his therapist but oh
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When Yuuri gets turned into a dog, the last place he expects to end up is Victor Nikiforov's apartment. He learns quickly that the only thing worse than being his idol's pet, is watching him pine for someone else.
Warning: Makkachin has recently passed away at the start of this story.
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Bookmarked by Balluna
27 Dec 2025
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AHHH, THIS IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN I EVEN IMAGINED
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He did wish they’d gone without trying to play fetch, though Victor had probably lost more dignity than Yuuri in the process. When Yuuri didn’t chase after the ball Victor tossed for him, he tried to demonstrate, crawling on all fours and holding it in his mouth. Though Yuuri had done his best to look disinterested, he couldn’t quell his amusement at watching Victor wiggle like he was wagging a tail, smiling around the ball, his eyes sparkling.
When Victor dropped the ball in front of him and looked up expectantly, Yuuri couldn’t resist catching him off guard by licking a wet stripe up the side of his face.
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Going to the basket of Makkachin’s toys, Yuuri pulls out the first thing he finds: a stuffed fox with a squeaky inside. [...]
He doesn’t realize until the door swings open that he’s surrounded by bits of shredded fluff and faux fur.
-> I just knew it had to be makkachin's fav toy from that sentence on
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Yuuri doesn’t sense something is wrong until it’s too late.
One moment Victor is on the other side of the cobblestone street, and then he’s gone. Yuuri looks around frantically, darting from one side of the road to the other. He hadn’t been distracted for that long. [...]
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“Yuuri,” Victor says, then laughs into Yuuri’s hair. “I feel weird calling you that”
“If helps, I used to have a dog named Victor.”
“Really?”
“And he was a poodle.”
“You’re kidding.”
“I’ve sort of…worshipped you since I was twelve.”
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In which Yuuri spends a 25 hour flight next to Victor Nikiforov, skating legend, and feels it might simultaneously be the best and worst thing that has ever happened to him.
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Bookmarked by Balluna
26 Dec 2025
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I loooove Yurio and Yakov in this one 😭 <3
SPOILER AHEAD!!
Yakov clapped his shoulder. ‘Will we see you at the Grand Prix again this year?’
Yuuri tensed beneath his hand. ‘I-I don’t know if I’ll watch.’
Yakov squeezed his shoulder, giving him a brief shake. ‘I’m not asking if you’ll watch, boy, I’m asking if you’ll skate again. You messed it last time, shouldn’t let that stop you.’
There was a thud as something hit the ground. Heart in his throat, Yuuri couldn’t bring himself to turn around. Not now. Surely not now, not after everything. He could see the baggage carousels from here and the final customs exit, it was so close to being over, this perfect mess of an amazing, disastrous flight. And Yakov had known all along. Despite himself he almost wanted to laugh, an over-tired, hysterical, hopeless laugh.
Frowning, Yakov stopped and looked over his shoulder.
Victor was staring in stunned silence, bag on the ground beside him.
‘Told you I wasn’t memorable,’ Yuuri tried to joke. It just felt hollow. It was out. It was done. Strangely, he almost felt relief.
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“Katsuki, you recently moved to Russia to train with your coach Victor Nikiforov,” Yuuri’s not sure why reporters need to tell him things that he already knows, but he’d rather not deal with Minako yelling at him over Skype so he just nods, and the reporter—Shana?—continues, “what do you like the most about training at Yubileyny?”
“Well the facilities are amazing…” Yuuri switches to autopilot and recites the list of training resources that Victor had galloped through after the Grand Prix Finals—when he mistakenly thought that Yuuri needed any incentive to move to Russia other than Victor himself.
He must answer the question well enough because she just nods along to some beat that Yuuri can’t hear. “What’s your least favorite thing about training in Russia?”
The answer bursts out of him before he has any time to consider a diplomatic alternative, “Victor’s driving.”
(Things escalate from there.)
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Bookmarked by Balluna
25 Dec 2025
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“Can you tell us the first time you were victimized by Victor Nikiforov’s driving,” a voice that sounds suspiciously like Yakov asks.
“I was only eleven,” Mila-on-screen wipes under her eyes, which are definitely dry, “Vitya agreed to take me back to the dorms after practice. He ran three red lights, hopped four curbs, and got a flat tire going less than five kilometers. I kissed the ground when I got out of the car and was still alive.”
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When Harry Potter unintentionally severs their soulbond before it can fully form, Draco Malfoy resigns himself to a slow death and decides not to burden Harry with a soulmate he's made it very clear he doesn't want.
He's never been selfless before, but for Harry, he can try.
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Bookmarked by Balluna
08 Mar 2025
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idiot rather dying than telling him (i am acting like that wouldn't be me) 🎀