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    Shane: All this hiding, and we can’t even be together when it really matters?
    Shane: Fuck that. Fuck all of it. I’m coming to Florida.
    Shane: I choose you. Always.

    Ilya: I love you.

    Shane: I love you, too.
    Shane: Are you going to tell me not to come?

    Ilya: Fuck no.
    Ilya: I need you here. Please hurry.

    Shane: I’ll tell the pilot to fly faster ❤️ I’m paying him enough.
    Shane: Don’t drink too much, because we’re going to have a lot of really emotional sex when I get there, and I can’t have your dick going limp on me.

    Ilya: He would NEVER.

    Shane: ❤️

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    Troy: Holy shit.
    Troy: HOLY SHIT.
    Troy: Shane Hollander is naked in your bed.
    Troy: Shane Hollander is NAKED in your bed.

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    18 May 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 57

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    the cottage is the first time Ilya & Shane get to experience being slow together -- what sated nights and unhurried moments can look like. And turns out that looks like a whole lot of discovering new tastes

    or: the one where Shane learns he likes eating ass

    title from "I'll Get the Coffee" by Kathryn Gallagher

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    16 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 32

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    They held hands all through their exit from the hotel and in the car. Shane squeezed Ilya’s hand as they drew close to the museum

    “You look pretty too.” Shane said softly to Ilya.

    His husband’s face lit up, never able to resist the gentle, awe-filled compliments Shane sometimes threw at him.

    “Ah, you like? Worth wearing my collar for then? Letting me show you off, letting them know you’re mine?”

    “Always,” Shane intoned, too enthralled by his husband’s sunshine smile to be anything but earnest.

    He pulled Ilya in for a kiss, sipping deeply from his lips to fortify himself as they pulled up to the curb.

    Ilya broke off the kiss as the car stopped.

    “Good. Because I am ready to show world just how pretty my husband likes to be for me,” he said devilishly before the door was pulled open.

     

    OR:

    First Husbands of Hockey at the Met Gala

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    16 May 2026

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    The permission was all he needed, bursting forth over Ilya’s chest and clenching hard around his cock and Cliff’s fingers.

    He collapsed down onto Ilya’s chest, half sobbing, as Cliff chuckled and pulled his fingers out. By the time he got back from washing his hands, Ilya was sitting up, Shane empty now but still straddling his lap, head cradled in the crux of his neck.

    Ilya looked up as Cliff walked in and smiled, gesturing him forward. Cliff sat down next to them, hand stroking Shane’s back. He nodded at the question in Ilya’s look.

    “Okay, moy muzh,” Ilya said, pulling Shane’s face up to meet his, “Are you ready now to take both of us?”

    or:

    Shane wants to be DP'd, badly. And Cliff Marlow loves making dreams come true.

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    16 May 2026

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    Ilya knew, right from the very moment he met Shane Hollander, that he would never be good enough for him. He’d seemed so…pristine, when they first met. Untouched. And Ilya knew his unclean hands would only dirty him up. He’s always been selfish, though; his father used to tell him that.

    So it’s no surprise, really, that Shane has finally gotten tired of it. Of him, always needing more from Shane than he deserves - always begging for more than he has earned.

    Ilya would leave himself, too, if he could.

    (Or, five time Ilya thought Shane would leave, and one time he knew he wasn’t going anywhere.)

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    13 May 2026

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    Ilya was only in town for two days, but when Hayden had asked Shane if he could babysit, Shane couldn’t say no to the delight in Ilya’s eyes.

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    Ilya is gorgeousness personified with children, and Shane wants a baby bad.

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    13 May 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 38

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    Shane is jealous of his cafe-owner boyfriend, Ilya, prepping a duck. Ilya obliges by stuffing Shane.

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    11 May 2026

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    When Ilya moves to the Centaurs, the number 81 is already taken. So, in true Ilya Rozanov fashion, he picks the number 24. People think he's just being an asshole, which is true, but he also does it to have Shane with him all the time.
    Of course, years later, Shane transfers to Ottawa. And lo and behold, the player who had number 81 retired, so when Shane has to choose a number?
    81 is available.
    --
    Or, Hollanov end up switching numbers and driving each other insane.

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    10 May 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 76

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    "It had been Shane who had suggested the weekend at the cottage. Ilya was in Montreal for a game, and they both had the first December weekend off. Ilya could always fly back to Boston from Ottawa on Sunday night - a tight schedule, but it would be worth the exhaustion. 
    Ilya had missed Shane. Had missed him enough to easily accept the idea of a weekend at the cottage.  It would offer a welcome reprieve from the world, that felt entirely too loud and overwhelming lately. He couldn’t even exactly pinpoint what it was that made everything just a little too much."

    The weight of everything, past and present, is catching up on Ilya. He tries to push it down until Shane recognises a voice that is not Ilya's and realises why Ilya has been denying himself the comfort of being taken care of, and the ability to be himself. Shane sets out to change that, one soft-spoken reassurance and offer at a time, until Ilya is finally able to let go.

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    09 May 2026

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    Wyatt’s gaze flicked from Hollander to Rozanov – who looked absolutely delighted with this turn of events – and back again. “You two follow playoff traditions as well then?”

    Hollander shrugged, still catastrophically casual, “I mean, when we played on different teams we sort of had to. Conflict of interests and all that. But I meant more generally. You know what it’s like, right?”

    Wyatt wasn’t sure that he did, and was suddenly very conscious of the fact that he might not be in the least bit emotionally prepared for whatever was about to come out of Hollander’s mouth.

    “Like, the other day,” Hollander continued, seemingly unaware of the proverbial bombshell he was about to drop. “Ilya tied me up and edged me for…was it two hours?”

    “Three, moyo solnyshko,” Rozanov corrected, sounding like Christmas, his birthday, and the Easter Bunny had all come at once.


    Shane Hollander joins the Centaurs, and the team discovers that their Captain might be a certified menace, but his husband is so, so much worse.

    OR: five times Shane accidentally terrorizes the Centaurs locker room, and one time he chooses to hold back.

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    09 May 2026

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    Tampa, Florida. Room 1217.

    In between fade out and fade in, Ilya Rozanov lets the fire burn and Shane Hollander lets the storm surge.

    A few hours in a hotel room can change you.

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    08 May 2026

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    "Do you think there's something wrong with me?" Shane broke the silence, lifting his gaze slightly. Ilya frowned and shook his head no immediately. "Ilya... there has to be. These meltdowns or whatever they are aren't normal. I know that."

    "Not being 'normal' doesn't mean you have a problem, Shane," Ilya countered softly, resting his chin against his husband's temple, settling him even closer against his body.

    "I'm sorry..." Shane's voice came out small. His unfocused gaze wandered around the room while his fingers mechanically scratched under Anya's chin. She was now blinking slowly, surrendering to sleep.

    "For what?"

    "It's just..." Shane let out a shaky sigh. "You're the one with depression. I'm the one who should be taking care of you, not the other way around. Having these meltdowns..."

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    08 May 2026

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    Scott Hunter is right next door! They can’t fuck! But what if Ilya begs and begs: Just the tip, I promise.

    They have no lube and no condoms, it’s risky. They should not be doing this.

    But then why is it so hot?

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    07 May 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 4378

    Mystery Work

    Part of Crypto
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    07 May 2026

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    The summer before his second season with the Centaurs, Shane Hollander is supposed to have his body and his life under control. He’s married, training hard, doing everything right.

    So the nausea, the bone-deep exhaustion, the aching chest and low back, the way his body feels wrong in all the old ways he thought he’d outrun?

    He blames stress. He blames the season. He blames anything but himself.

    Shane knows his body. He has spent years fighting for it.

    But one rushed doctor’s visit turns into an ultrasound, and suddenly he’s thirty-plus weeks pregnant with a baby he didn’t plan, didn’t want, and doesn’t know how to make peace with.

    Now he can’t outrun anything anymore.
    Not the dysphoria. Not the fear of the league finding out.
    Not the family he’s already carrying.

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    hi i need more trans!shane hollander. and as a trans man who wants to get pregnant someday obviously i had to make shane pregnant. without him knowing though. sorry bb

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    05 May 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

    +++

    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    03 May 2026

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    At the 2017 All Star Weekend, Ilya takes fate into his own hands to produce at least one out MLH player by the end of the season. Thus begins his part-time side hustle as community organizer, mastermind, and Commander-in-Chief of the Gay Hockey Army.

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    02 May 2026

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    NSFW fanart of Shane Hollander

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    02 May 2026

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    It's Fall of 2014 and Ilya Rozanov has cut all ties with Russia. But there's no such thing as a clean break, and leaving isn't as simple as never going back.
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    Basically a very self-indulgent fic about how hard it would be for Ilya to actually move on from the pain of the past and to go no contact with his family in a timeline where Grigori is still alive. Also, Ilya deserves to be known and loved by more people than just Shane and Sveta. Forced/Found Family here we come.
    *Sequel to my canon-divergence fic "To only ever know the cold" (go read that first or this won't make sense!)

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    01 May 2026

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    Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise.

    She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night.

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    Or, it's Sochi 2014 and Russia has lost to Latvia. Grigori Rozanov, not yet compromised by illness, punishes his son for shaming the family. When Svetlana finds an injured and emotionally fragile Ilya, she knows she needs somewhere safe for him to recover. And there's only one person in Russia who Sveta trusts with her Ilyusha: Canada's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander.

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    30 Apr 2026

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