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    Shane Hollander is horrifically injured during playoff game against the Boston Raiders. His face will never look the same. Ilya wants to take care of Shane during his recovery. Ilya wants Shane to stay in Boston. Will he?

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    23 Jul 2026

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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

    ⎯⎯⎯

    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov started their night thinking they'd get to know each other. Little did they know murder would be what connects them in a superstitious ritual of killing homophobes and fucking each other senseless.

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov meet before their first game against each other as official MLH players. After a flirty dinner and an even flirtier walk back to Ilya's hotel, Shane overhears violence that he can't ignore. Shane and Ilya spend the rest of the night facing the consequences of their actions....😏

    More context to come in chapter two!

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.

    He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.

    Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.

    A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.

    “What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.

    No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.

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    Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Ilya never made it to the cottage.

    Ilya Rozanov spent nine years in exile, convincing himself that disappearing was an act of protection. But when he returns to the NHL and signs with the Ottawa Centaurs, the team led by Shane Hollander, his former rival and secret love, he learns that distance has changed nothing. Their bodies still remembers. The air between them still crackles.

    Shane Hollander has built a life of careful normalcy: a captain's role, a dog named Anya, the performance of a man who doesn't need anything from anyone. But Ilya's return unmakes all of it in a single moment of eye contact.

    As proximity forces them closer to the truth they've been avoiding, Ilya and Shane has to finally confront the question that has haunted them both for years: Was the silence ever protection, or only destruction in disguise?

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    20 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov get assigned as roommates their first year of college.

    That's only the beginning.

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    19 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov have been friends since they were five years old. From neighbors, to peewee hockey, to college, and beyond, they've been in one another's orbits for nearly their whole lives. What happens when that level of knowledge and intimacy goes from friendship to... something more?

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    16 Jul 2026

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    Luca "the future of hockey" Haas has a meltdown on the ice in the final five minutes of the game.

    So naturally, the best way Luca thought to rebrand was by throwing himself into a summer athlete campaign with the Centaurs, in hope to outrun the fear that he’ll never be as skilled, confident, or sexually expressive as Ilya Rozanov was at his age.

    But when the harmless Luca Haas snaps and shocks everyone by fistfighting with Filipino-Canadian youth athlete Angelo Perez, summer quickly derails into a dilemma to be seen as mature, living up to the expectations of the team, and these newfound, guilty urges for the very guy he fought on day one.

    Centaur matchmaking. Missing home. A messy summer fling. A mean article. An exploration of what sparks are supposed to feel like. And Ilya catches Luca buying condoms.

    And a “bad influence” that makes Luca feel—maybe for just one summer—that it's okay to be a little selfish.

    OR; Practically a character study of Luca Haas' insecurities + his foil to Rozanov disguised as me trying to revive the scrapped Haas book

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    16 Jul 2026

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    Shane is an actor. It’s what he’s always wanted. Not really the fame part of it though, but to be a part of a movie or a show. That is his dream.
    Now the show he is on has become ridiculously popular and he struggles with how much his life will be scrutinized. And to make everything worse, the show has hired a new actor who is making Shane feel things he really shouldn’t be feeling.

     

    Ilya used to be a hockeyplayer. A good one. Unfortunately that career path didn’t go the way he wanted, so now he is breaking into the acting world. And when the lead of the show he has recently been hired to be in instantly hates him, Ilya is infatuated. With him, his weird habits and his adorable freckles.

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    14 Jul 2026

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    Ilya and Shane are broke roommates, until Ilya discovers streaming and starts making bank jerking off for the viewers
    Naturally, he offers his good friend Shane a chance at making money the same way
    And if they touch each other a little it’s only because of the tips, not because they are into each other

    ~~~~~~

    Shane and Ilya are both completely straight here
    #ISwearrr

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    12 Jul 2026

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    Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.

    But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.

    Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.

    Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?

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    09 Jul 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov leaves Russia at the age of 11. He moves to Ottawa with his mother to start a new life. He finds new joy in hockey, in friends, and learns what true happiness means. So when he's forced to leave hockey everything falls apart. Friends leave, along with his love for the game.

    Shane Hollander, the hockey prodigy, the golden boy with the utmost potential weaves his way through hockey tournaments and scouts. He didn't care about most things. Friends were put on the back burner, while hockey became his most prized possession. Which is why when he willingly walks away from the game, it creates a frenzy.

    When Shane Hollander ends up working at the same café as Ilya Rozanov, their forced to work through their issues, and face their biggest fears. During late closing shifts and after school tutoring sessions they learn to find who they are without hockey.

    But sometimes the closing shift, is all you need.

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    07 Jul 2026

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    Shane knows about the sensitive spot behind Ilya’s ear. He knows how long it will take to walk from Montreal to Boston, until his feet are bloody. He knows what Ilya tastes like after he’s had a cup of coffee. He knows about all the women Ilya takes home. But Shane also knows Ilya talks in his sleep. These small intricacies of their love is what keeps Shane’s head above water. There’s only a hint of an ache when he hears Ilya’s name. Ilya kisses him and that ache is now more apparent. Ilya kisses him and he unravels. No one is to blame. It’s just the way these things go. But it wasn’t until that day in the locker room, when he heard the news, that he realized just how much he had to lose.

    or, Ilya is lured away by his own sadness. Shane goes after him.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    (9:31pm) Ilya: I’m sorry I’ve been such a burden

    (9:33pm) Ilya: I know I’ve taken away your chance to explore yourself and find someone who’s good enough for you. I think you should take that chance now. If you find a nice boy in Montreal who you like, I promise I won’t stand in the way.

    (9:34pm) Ilya: If you still want me at the end of this, I’ll be waiting

    (9:34pm) Ilya: I’m sorry

    OR - Shane's friends keep telling him he can do better than Ilya. Ilya starts to believe them

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    04 Jul 2026

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    “Ilya, what are we gonna do?” Shane says.

    Ilya finishes whatever he has been doing on his phone, and tosses it gently to the bed beside him. He crosses the room to Shane, stands in front of him, squeezes into his shoulders with his big hands, rubbing them like he means to warm them up.

    “Looks like we will have a little vacation,” he says, with a big obnoxious grin.

     


     

    Boston and Montreal are sent to Paris to play against each other in an exhibition series in January 2017. Ilya and Shane decide to stay in Paris for one more night. Just one more night, so they can talk. Maybe finally understand each other.

    They aren't expecting a volcano to erupt in Iceland and close all the airspace in Europe, leaving them stranded there. Together.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    In 2003, Shane Hollander is assigned a PenPal, and gains a friend. A friend who smokes, calls him boring, and gives him ridiculous nicknames.

    Across the world, Ilya Rozanov practices his English with a curious Canadian boy whose name he can't fucking remember.

    Or, before they were Canada's Shane Hollander and Russia's Ilya Rozanov, they were Cat and Elijah. Shane has no reason to suspect his childhood PenPal is his hockey rival, and Ilya has never even considered that the man he's falling for is also the boy he already fell in love with through letters and postcards.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    So uh, you mentioned your teammate earlier. What sport do you play?

    you texted first!!

    am winning you over ;)

    and i am hockey player

    very good one

    strong and sexy

    No way??

    I'm going to ignore the rest of that.

    But I also play hockey.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander ended things for all the right reasons.

    He has Rose. He has hockey. He has a future that finally makes sense.

    Then Rose points across a crowded Montreal nightclub and says three words:

    "Isn't that Rozanov?"

    Or: What if Ilya ran after Shane that night at the club?

     

    *Hiiiiiiiiii

    So this is my very first fanfic! I am an avid reader here on A03 and after reading literally 100's of stories, I decided to take a crack at it myself. I do not have a beta, so this was all edited me, myself and I. If you see any errors......no you didn't.

    jk - If you see anything that doesn't seem right (grammatically), please let me know. Otherwise, I hope you enjoy this fic as much as I enjoyed writing it for yall!

    <3 <3 <3

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    28 Jun 2026

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    “Hi. Shane Hollander. I guess you guys are up next, good luck.” He said with a big smile. While the rest of the band simply glanced in his direction, ignoring him, the boy stared right back at Shane. “Ilya Rozanov. You better remember my name.” He replied, with a heavy Russian accent. He did not shake Shane's hand though, but kept his eyes on him.

    Shane gulped, but he didn’t back down, holding his gaze. That seemed to elicit a smirk from the other.

    “Shane! We have to go, come on!” he heard Farah call him and with one last look he hurried towards her, although he could still feel that boy’s eyes on him. A shiver ran down his spine. He was certainly not going to forget him anytime soon.

    Or, Shane is in a boyband, Ilya is the lead singer of a rock group. Rivals on stage, something more behind the scenes. Years go by as they try to navigate their feelings in secret.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander’s new neighbor is loud, disorganized, and somehow keeps getting dirt everywhere.

    Ilya Rozanov thinks Shane is fascinating.

    This is unfortunate for both of them.

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    28 Jun 2026

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