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Freckles and Other Versions Of The Truth by TheHeartWantsWhatTheHeartWants
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
13 Feb 2026
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26 Feb 2026
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they say, "you'll get used to it,"
but it never goes away
if I get through this,
I'll never be the same.
or, pieces of shane have been scattered to the wind but at least he had ilya.
at least he had ilya.
at least.
he had ilya.
ilya.
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25 Feb 2026
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In any case, in the dozens of fake scenarios birthed from the fear of being outed stored in his mind, he didn’t expect for it to happen like this:
It was a YouTube video. A young woman sat in the thumbnail of the foreground with pictures of him floating next to her head. The titled said, Undeniable PROOF that Shane Hollander is Gay. The image of this young girl with brown hair had been sent to him dozens of times in the last 30 minutes. The look on her face, he felt, was molded purposefully into an aesthetic portrait of shock and excitement, almost as if she was doing the world a favor.
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Or, Shane gets outed a few weeks after 'The Hit' and panics.
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24 Feb 2026
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An idea lodges in Shane's head, metastasizing quickly as his mind flies over dates and names and account numbers. An idea that would solve all of his worries, his fears, that was the best thing for everyone, in the end.
Everyone, except Ilya. But Ilya wasn’t here, was he? Shane had given him up for the sake of his legacy.
If he could sacrifice his heart and soul for his legacy, it was the easiest decision in the world to decide to end his life as well.
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23 Feb 2026
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We grow accustomed to the Dark by orphan_account
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Feb 2026
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“You scream in your sleep.”
“That was one night.”
“It was three.”
“You’re counting?”
“Yes. Because I’m awake for all of them.”
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“I don’t want you to see me like this.”
“I see you.”
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“It’s just a plate.”
“I can’t—”
“Can’t what?”
“I didn’t stop it.”
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“I was fourteen.”
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Or, Shane starts having episodes—flashbacks he doesn’t fully remember—that bleed into sleep, into games, into the space between him and Ilya. He loses time. He loses weight. He loses control of the carefully engineered life he built to feel safe. Ilya isn’t the only one confused—because Shane won’t let himself remember. And when the ice finally cracks, it’s not just their marriage on the line.
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23 Feb 2026
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Ilya barely holds it together until he walks through his front door hours later. And then he cries.
It's the first of many tears he'll spill.
But every single one always hurts like the first.
|Or| When Marleau crashes into Shane, Shane doesn't make it.
As Ilya lives with Shane's death, he learns over time to stop hiding and to step into the sunshine.
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22 Feb 2026
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What the public did know was this: despite all of the promos the league had done and despite all the interviews Shane had given over the years, despite all the talk talk talk about diversity in the league—at long last, the omega captain had done what all omegas were meant to do: breed.
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21 Feb 2026
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it's gone (all red now) by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Feb 2026
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If this is what growing up feels like, Shane Hollander doesn’t want it.
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5 times nobody took Shane Hollander seriously + the 1 time they finally are forced to.
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21 Feb 2026
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No One Noticed by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Jan 2026
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Some nights, alone in another anonymous hotel room, Shane scrolls through old photos on his phone. His face rounder. His smile easier. He tries to remember what it felt like not to think about food at all. The memory feels fuzzy, distant, like something that happened to a different version of him. He wonders—briefly, dangerously—if Ilya would notice if he got worse. Not better. Not “healthier.” Worse.
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21 Feb 2026
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The Long Game focuses heavily on Ilya’s mental health, but Shane’s own struggles are able to fly under the radar. Perhaps this is because Shane himself does not realize the full extent of his suffering, or is quick to dismiss it because his experiences are different from Ilya’s. What happens when this mindset catches up to Shane and he realizes that he can’t get away with hiding his problems from himself and his loved ones?
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21 Feb 2026
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“Was it better? With a guy?”
The question came out innocent, a natural follow-up. Shane took a deep breath, closing his eyes, allowing the memory to flood back. The shape of Rozanov’s face in the dim light, all the sharp lines softened. His warmth. His weight. The curve of his shoulders, the dip of his waist. Everytime he called Shane good, like it meant something more, like it was some fundamental truth and not just the sweet nothings lost to empty desires. How everytime they were together it felt like the first time, some newness continuously reinventing itself in the heat of their mouths.
“Yeah,” Shane gave Rose a small smile, “it was.”
“Is there,” Rose asked carefully, “someone?”
Shane has rules. Ilya keeps changing them. Shane ends things for good during the Florida All-Star Game. Ilya gets knocked out cold by Hayden. They find their way back to the cottage anyway.
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20 Feb 2026
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Most of his days are spent staring at his baby while silently willing her to stop crying. To stop needing him. When Ilya is gone, it's far worse. He can keep it together if Ilya is there, because he handles all the major tasks that Shane fears. Even holding her feels impossible, as if one touch to a hair on her head then she is going to break and fall apart in his grasp. While it all comes so naturally to Ilya—he holds her, smells the top of her head and grins like he is the happiest person on planet earth.
or, i saw a post that said "enough mpreg, what about mpostpartum depression" and i took that on as a mission
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19 Feb 2026
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If there’s anyone who is truly feral for a Russian-speaking hockey player, it’s Shane Hollander.
See, also: Shane Hollander is all of us.
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18 Feb 2026
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it follows like a friend (an itch that can't be scratched) by Lolli_poppies
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
03 Jan 2026
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he always likened the itch to the feeling of bugs, thousands of mosquito bites that litter the under layers of skin, the fat that stays below the surface.
or: shane used to self harm when he was younger. relapses happen, and sometimes over something small.
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18 Feb 2026
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“I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”
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or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.
Ilya has open hands.
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17 Feb 2026
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And he would've been happy, really, to have set it aside completely. Well, maybe not completely.
But it could've been one of those scenarios that stayed in his head and was useful for when they hadn't seen each other in weeks and Shane was driven to using his dildo and trying desperately to replicate the motions that were really awkward to perform on yourself, actually. It could've been something to drive him over the edge, quickly, right when he needed it, in the privacy of his own mind.
Ilya using Shane for his own pleasure, no matter what they were doing. Ilya getting what he needed from the interaction and then just stopping, sated. And that would've been fine, because then they wouldn't have had to address it, and Shane could've felt mildly guilty for having such odd desires, but he was used to being strange, strange and aware of it, always. So, fine.
Or: Shane wants something he feels he definitely shouldn't; Ilya is highly enthusiastic about the prospect of his boyfriend being into free use. Over time, they figure it out.
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15 Feb 2026
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Shane Hollander and his quirks lived through a lot. And Ilya is being great about it.
This is a story insight into Shane's quirks, how he deals with them and how is being loved by Ilya about it.
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15 Feb 2026
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Shane likes it when he has something in his mouth.
He thinks that might not be such a good thing.
Series
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15 Feb 2026
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“You are very particular with when you eat,” Ilya says, finally.
Shane tilts his head, moderately offended as he scrambles to say, “No, I’m not.”
“You are.”
“I’m not–”
“It is not question, Hollander,” Ilya says, and there’s no room for discussion. He’s moving on, popping another chip into his mouth. “It is fact.”
or, Ilya making observations about Shane's eating habits.
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15 Feb 2026
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“This is why we need a sex tape. So you can see.”
“No way. You would leak it immediately.”
“Ilya grinned, ‘Can you blame me?'" - The Long Game, page 181.
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Shane and Ilya are so obsessed with each other they have to make a sex tape about it.Bookmarked by SoMuch
14 Feb 2026