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Ok, so Castiel's in love with his best friend.
Which is what puts them here, in Dean’s car, eight hours into a nine and a half hour drive up north to bury Castiel’s mother on the grounds that he grew up on. Because it’s been eight years since Castiel cut ties with his family and left, supposedly for college, and there hasn’t been a word of communication since. Because Dean is, at his core, a good person and a better friend, and when he heard that Castiel’s mother had died and that he would need to return to his childhood home over Thanksgiving break, he knew enough to say he’d go with him.
This is, for sure, not helping Castiel get over his inappropriately persistent feelings.
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29 Jan 2025
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Dean meets a handsome stranger at a cheap diner, but the man might be more trouble than he really should get himself into.
As if that ever stopped him before.
A Dean Winchester character study, mostly.
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- Part 1 of Ghost of Yourself
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28 Dec 2024
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26 Dec 2024
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“Nonsense.” Jane turned to Dean. “You are a boy, yes?” Dean nodded. “You want to dance?” Dean looked at Mary, who froze then looked down. Dean shook his head. “Listen,” Jane said. “Dancing will be good for you. You will get all the ladies. You will get big and strong. Like a man.” Dean’s eyes were getting wider and wider, but he didn’t move. Waiting for Mary.
“Jane,” Mary said, stepping in to rescue Dean. “He’s a little shy. Maybe you can convince him tomorrow.”
Or, the 1980s is the peak of the Jazzercise craze. When Dean is four, Mary starts taking him with her.
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10 Jun 2024
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In Which Dean Has EDS by Butterbeerandbutterknives
Fandom: Supernatural, Supernatural (TV 2005)
12 May 2023
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09 Jun 2024
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Dean and Cas versus food, dinner parties, and each other.
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03 Jun 2024
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Dean looks at Jack, and he sees Cas in him, and he thinks: I can't fuck up the way Dad did. So he asks Sam for some advice.
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01 Jun 2024
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Dean’s pretty sure the definition of true love is pausing Die Hard to read an article about potting soil drainage.
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01 Jun 2024
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The thing is, he knows. He’s known.
Or: If someone tells you they love you and you don’t say it back, how much worse can a little sleeping with them possibly make things, really?
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01 Jun 2024
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A cool sort of efficiency settles over him. Dean’s not coming back, so Sam has to get up and eat breakfast and go for his run and not think about Eileen or Cas or Jack. He has to get on his laptop and look for cases and not call Jody and the girls. Sam asked for peace and he got it.
He’s inclined to think that it can go straight to hell.
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31 May 2024
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If Dean's honest, his life is pretty much a chick flick, at this point, and it’s fucking awesome. Seriously. And Dean’s been getting better at letting go of that Chuck Norris fantasy he had as a kid, uses his spare change to buy silly socks and skinny jeans and his Kiss the Cook! apron, which ain’t stuff his dad would have let him wear in a million years. He cooks dinner and lunch and he’s a neat-freak about his kitchen, and he’s become the kind of guy who nags Jack about wearing a jacket when he goes outside, so maybe he’s not much like what a man ought to be, either.
(or: dean and gender)
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30 May 2024
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Dean had a polaroid camera when he was six. He stole it from a nameless store, certain it contained pictures like the ones his father had left behind. He was wrong of course, but he stole some film and kept it anyway. It was his own. Pictures he could keep and wouldn't have to leave behind. Pictures of Sam and strange roadsides. Weird alleys covered in flaking graffiti, baked goods on display behind glass. But mostly of Sam.
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29 May 2024
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After Cas’s confession, Dean starts telling the people he cares about “I love you.”
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29 May 2024
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Dean treats his body as if it is a punishment: for the crime of existing, he must live in a body that he believes will never be his home. Castiel wishes (Cas, it’s Cas now, he thinks, and again feels a peculiar little twinge of satisfaction and longing) that he could make Dean see himself the way he deserves to be seen. You are beautiful, he wants to say. More so than most: body and soul, you create yourself. You are capable of so much, of building a home in your body, but you don’t think you deserve to live in it.
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29 May 2024
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world's most high stakes game of ten truths and a lie by amidsizedfrog
Fandoms: Supernatural
16 Jan 2022
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Here is what remains of Dean Winchester’s life: one brother (still living), one hundred fifty-seven thousand nine hundred and ninety-eight empty beer bottles, an unappreciated collection of cassette tapes, a pile of flannels that would very nearly outlive the existence of the species God called humanity, forty-two cents, seventy-three dollars, a car that will remain unused until after the passing of Sam Winchester where it will be then melted down into scrap metal, a weathered headstone, an already fading reputation, and a many-times folded square of a menu for the only restaurant in Lebanon that Dean had never attended but thought frequently of visiting with someone he loved very deeply.
There are, of course, other items, tangible and intangible, that Dean Winchester has left behind, but these are the ten items on which his Heaven is built.
Here is the sum total of Dean Winchester’s Heaven: nine perfectly happy moments and one fantasy, spread across thirty-nine miserable years. The fantasy is something Naomi lets Castiel give Dean. She knows Castiel thinks it will let Dean escape. Castiel is wrong.
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28 May 2024
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When Claire said she was dropping out of college to pursue hunting full time, Dean said, “right,” and left the room.
Or, the cross-generation conversation about formal education, choosing your own path and figuring out what it looks like to find a family.
Or, in other words: "But what I do have is a GED and a give-'em-hell-attitude, and I'll figure it out." - Dean Winchester
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27 May 2024
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A 26-year-old Dean is transported to 2021 and confronted with the unfathomable - a future where he is happy, safe, and loved.
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“Aren’t you gunna say it?” he asks tentatively, as if he’s crazy for picking up on the obvious.
“Yeah, you’re me. Past me, anyway,” the other Dean replies. “I wanna know from when.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Time travel,” the older Dean states as if it’s so obvious and ordinary. “It happens.”
“To who? Marty McFly?”
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26 May 2024
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Claire shows up at the bunker a day before Dean was planning to leave, with her hair cut short and a fresh tattoo on her left arm under a bandage.
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Chuck is dead, Jack has given up his godlike powers, and Cas is back from the Empty, which doesn't make it any easier for Dean to talk to him. Suddenly finding himself in a world without monsters, supernatural forces, or any need for hunters, Dean's solution is to go on a road trip. Claire tags along.
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25 May 2024
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Castiel slips from his chair to kneel at Dean’s feet. He takes Dean’s hands in his, and there on the floor holding something with devotion, he understands Communion. He understands Eucharist. He understands believing in someone so deeply that to shelter a piece of them within yourself is an act of untempered faith, love and prayer and deep-wide trust.
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Cas comes back. Dean can’t stop touching him.
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25 May 2024
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At the bottom of the grocery list, different from either Sam’s neat block print or Dean’s own messy scrawl, was just a few words of script.
Peanut butter, please. Thank you.
And then, squeezed in smaller script underneath so as to fit into the corner margin:
Love, Castiel
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25 May 2024