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Eddie loads the metaphorical gun, cocks it. “I would’ve found my way to you. That I'm even more sure of.”
Buck is burning. That’s the only way he can describe this. Eddie says something like that, and then Buck will end the call, and he’ll crawl into Eddie’s bed in Eddie’s house and stare at the patches in Eddie’s bedroom wall that he helped Eddie patch up, and he’ll pretend like this isn’t going to kill him. He’s entirely convinced he’s going to die before Eddie ever crosses the California state line again.
He digs his own grave. “You sound confident for a guy who doesn’t believe in fate.”
“Nah, it’s not fate. It’s us and pure determination.”
or: eddie moves to texas. buck moves into his place. he holds his breath for the one hundred and twenty one days it takes for eddie to make his way back home.
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14 May 2026
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Buck is a lot. Eddie knows Buck is a lot. Buck knows Buck is a lot.
But every single person who ever said that to Buck said it like a warning. Like a disclaimer, a heads-up, a you-should-know-what-you're-getting-into before getting too close so they can't say they weren't told.
And Eddie has never, not once, wanted Buck to be less.
The surplus, the overflow, the fourth tangent on a story that started somewhere else entirely — that's not the price of Buck. That is Buck. And more of Buck has only ever meant more to love, and Eddie spent enough years running on empty to know what it means when someone fills up every room they walk into so completely that Eddie is overflowing with it most days.
"Eddie. Are you listening?"
Eddie nods. "Gym Katie is alone at the gym and she's upset."
Buck blinks. His mouth is still open from the sentence he was about to say, his hands still mid-gesture, and he looks genuinely thrown, like he expected to catch Eddie zoning out and instead got caught himself. Caught being heard.
"You were listening," Buck says, a little breathlessly.
Eddie smiles. "I'm always listening."
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13 Apr 2026
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‘Uncle Buck?’ Jee asks, once they’ve all calmed down and her attention shifts back to the tea party.
‘Yeah, sweetie?’
‘Can I wear my Elsa dress to yours and Uncle Eddie’s wedding?’
In what is possibly his least proudest moment, Buck chokes on his tea. On his invisible, not really there because they’re having a pretend tea party, tea.
or,
what if you realise you're in love with your best friend when you're having a princess themed tea party with your niece
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09 Apr 2026
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Something strange hums in Buck’s stomach and he can’t stop himself from blurting, “Who was that?”
“Who was- oh, uh,” Eddie hesitates, “No one.”
Buck raises an eyebrow as a very not-no-one buzz comes through again. “No one?”
Eddie rolls his eyes without any real annoyance, “It’s just Alex.”
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After Buck hooks up with Alex, Eddie decides to fuck around.
They both find out.Bookmarked by deanitsnotbroken
08 Mar 2026
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"So," Buck says, sliding onto the seat next to Eddie while the auction winds down around them. "Mystery bidder. That's exciting."
Eddie takes a very deliberate sip of water. "Yep."
"You know who it was?"
"Nope."
"You don't even seem curious," Buck tries.
"Not really."
"Someone spent over two grand on you, Eddie. On a date with you. Like a date-date. With food and conversation. And you're just— what, chill about it?"
Eddie shrugs. The picture of nonchalance. "It's for charity."
"It's for— okay." Buck gapes. He’s got nothing. He’s standing at the door and Eddie has deadbolted it from the inside. "Cool. Great."
It is not cool. It is not great. Buck is aware that his definition of cool and great has always been somewhat flexible, but this doesn't qualify under any interpretation.
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Buck just wants to know who bid on Eddie. That's it. That's all he wants. He's being totally normal about it.Bookmarked by deanitsnotbroken
28 Feb 2026
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Signs of Life by jukoist for caffiend
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
28 Feb 2026
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There is a strong scent of antiseptic in the air, the kind that always haunts hospitals and morgues. Ilya thinks it is fitting. He thinks, perhaps, that some vital organ of his is failing irreparably, and he is only waiting for a doctor to call out his time of death.
“You have lost your memories.” It’s not a question. Ilya’s burning hand drops from Shane’s cheek.
“Yeah,” Shane says easily. “Wait, shit, did no one tell you?”
“Is it temporary.” Ilya’s voice is hoarse, pleading. “This memory loss, is it… tell me that it is temporary.” Please, please, God. I know I promised to give anything up, but-
Shane looks at Ilya with wide eyes. “They don’t know,” he says gently. He seems to be catching onto Ilya’s distress despite the drugs in his system.
Ilya feels cold all over. Yes, any moment now, they will cover him with a white sheet and take him away.
Shane's concussion in S01E05 leaves him missing his memories from the last decade. Ilya is now the only person in the world who knows the truth about him and Shane, and is forced to question whether to burden Shane with their complicated relationship or to walk away.
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04 Feb 2026
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Barstool Sports Canada reports that Montreal Metros captain Shane Hollander has started learning Russian from new teammate and Russian rookie Sergei Dovonchezky.
Ilya has some thoughts. None of them are particularly kind.
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- Part 7 of my heated rivalry fics
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30 Jan 2026
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“You think those stretches actually do anything?”
Summers had appeared beside him, the sound of his skates muffled under the blood rushing through Ilya’s ears– and elsewhere– as he stole another glance at Shane.
“I don’t do them and I am better than him, so no. Or maybe they do help and I could be best hockey player ever.”
“Mm. Hey, if he wants to put himself in that position it’s on him, I guess. I’m not gonna complain about the show.”
Ilya froze, turning himself on the ice to face Summers properly.
“The… show?”
*or*
Boston's new rookie has the hots for Shane. Ilya does not cope well.
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07 Jan 2026
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"I can't believe you went for boba without me and you liked it." Buck fakes a faint and falls back into Eddie's shoulder playfully. Eddie smacks at him and grabs him by the waist to hoist him fully upright. May watches the way his hands linger for a moment, and then as if sensing her eyes, he pulls back and slaps them against his waist.
"Are you alright?" Buck looks at Eddie with concern.
May watches Eddie's face panic, and being the wonderful human she is, she falls on the sword instead, "I'm having a gay crisis."
Or: When May's sexuality crisis hits a little too close to home for Eddie the two of them join forces to create May-and-Eddie-Mondays as they navigate their queer identities.
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23 Nov 2025
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“Yeah, about that.” Harry interrupted, and May sighed. So much for subtlety, she supposed. “You and Eddie.”
“Are best friends.” He answered, with the finality of a conversation finished.
Buck might be used to being the annoying little brother, and May might be used to being the tired older sister, but Harry was ready in a way May had to find a little funny.
“I was going to say super gay.” Harry answered casually.
Buck sputtered. “I’m bisexual and you know I’m bisexual.”
“Okay and what’s his excuse?”
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Harry and May take it upon themselves to use their weekly Bachelor nights to parent trap Buck and Eddie.
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04 Nov 2025
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“I’ll do it,” Eddie repeats, looking at Buck in one of those silent conversation ways again, but Buck actually can’t figure out what he’s trying to say this time. It messes with his brain, until Eddie speaks again, “I’ll pretend to only be a little offended none of you have thought to ask me before, but Buck, I’ve fixed a lot of cars. I can look at yours.”
(or, the check engine light comes on in Buck's Jeep, Eddie volunteers to fix it and carpool with him in the meantime, and it all breaks down from there, literally and metaphorically)
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05 Sep 2025
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Eddie Diaz was a prize Buck felt destined to lose
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Conor calls Buck after his surprise divorce from his wife, Kameron. The conversation sends Buck spiralling. Is his relationship with Eddie as secure as it needs to be? Should he be doing more?
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04 Sep 2025
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That’s the problem.
He thinks.
He thinks, I love you, every morning he wakes up and finds Buck making breakfast.
He thinks, I’m in love with you, every time Buck grins at him at the dinner table at the fire station, a quip on the tip of his tongue and a blush high on his cheeks.
He thinks, I don’t want my life without you in it, just like this, forever, when Buck’s sitting on their couch in the hours after Chris has gone to sleep, and exhaustion claws at Eddie’s skin, begging him to follow in his wake. But Buck’s looking at listings, Buck’s looking at listings and their time is limited, and Eddie—
Eddie thinks.
Eddie thinks and thinks and thinks every little thing that matters; every momentous thought that at once feels stifling and freeing in the same fleeting moment.
He thinks, endlessly.
And, hauntingly—
He thinks Buck straight into her arms.
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Or, Buck's new relationship is moving too fast and Eddie's not sure how to stop it.
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03 Sep 2025
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“You’ve seen it, right?" Eddie drags a hand down his face before pointing at her with said hand. "He’s all… secretive. Texting all the time. Laughing. He’s just... not telling me things anymore.”
Hen gives him a flat look. “Telling us.”
“What? Yeah. That’s what I said.”
She doesn’t say anything for a long moment. And for one sharp, uneasy second, Eddie braces for judgment. For the word overreacting. Which he’s not. Obviously. So she’d be wrong anyway.
Or, one's planning a Father's Day surprise, the other's planning a birthday surprise. Miscommunication galore.
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13 Aug 2025
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Buck remembers reading something once. He’s not sure where or when, and he’s not even sure who said it. But he’ll never forget the words. He’ll never forget the way they burrowed beneath his skin like an arrow aiming straight for his heart. Those words had made him ache back then, but now the memory of them is ripping him apart.
Someone has to leave first. This is a very old story. There is no other version of this story.
He’d always known it would be Eddie who would walk away first, but he hadn’t expected it to go like this. He hadn’t expected it to hurt quite so bad.
(Or, five times Buck thought Eddie would leave, and the one time he knew he would stay.)
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24 Jul 2025
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“Are you finally proposing?” Buck asks, and the air rushes out of Eddie like he’s been punched in the gut, a swift burst.
Hearing it from Buck makes it real, solidified, no longer a shapeless fantasy in his head.
"Proposing what?”
“Marriage, genius.” Buck snorts. “Duh.”
Buck peels Eddie's pomegranates, carves out the brown spots from his apples, eats the ugly, discolored fruit. Eddie wants to propose, spirals, and crashes a car about it.
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18 Jul 2025
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try to keep swimming (keep dad’s good word in my mouth) by lilacbarnes
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
24 May 2025
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Eddie refuses to look in the rearview mirror, knowing he’ll see Buck, somber and destitute, watching Eddie drive off like a ghost on the asphalt. Watching Eddie leave him, like all those before. Eddie is scratching another notch into the chamber of Buck’s heart dedicated to the people who’ve left him, and he won’t be there to lap up the blood dripping from the wound. That’ll fall to Buck. Be left, lick the wounds the leaving caused.
Or, Eddie moves to Texas, tries to find himself, and lets Buck send him to voicemail.
(Or a story about leaving, this time from Eddie's perspective.)
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- Part 2 of pain is cold water
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24 Jun 2025
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What the fuck.
That’s the only thing playing in Eddie’s mind as he watches Buck pause at the threshold on his way to the car.
It’s a Tuesday morning, right before Eddie, Buck, and Chris are supposed to leave for work and school respectively, and Buck is holding a gorgeous bouquet of flowers.
What the fuck!
The whole team had Monday off, so Ravi had invited them all to a party at some fun rodeo themed bar over the weekend, and now...
Now Eddie is so hung over he’s seeing things. He’s hallucinating beautiful flowers at his front door. He’s imagining his best friend holding a bouquet of sunflowers and eucalyptus and snapdragons and baby’s breath. Honestly, kudos to his brain for creating such an array of flowers, because there is no way that this is real.
Eddie’s brain repeats again:
What the fuck!?aka: The 7 times Buck is given a gift from his secret admirer + The 1 time Eddie figures out who it is
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22 Jun 2025
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Climb In Back, Heaven's Waiting Down On The Tracks by tomatosoupforthesoul
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
14 Jun 2025
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"Buck wakes up on the couch in Eddie’s living room, lungs refusing to expand properly, drenched in sweat like the aftermath of some battle fought in his own body. His heart hammers in his chest so hard that for a moment he thinks that it will simply beat out of his body, cracking his ribs and ripping through the skin just so it can get out and away from the pain that Buck consistently puts it through."
Or, Buck navigates grief and loss through taking Christopher to a Springsteen concert and along the way, discovers some truths about himself and the relationships in his life.
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- Part 7 of Best Of Buddie Soup
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15 Jun 2025
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“Captain, what are you saying?” Price demanded.
Another deep breath. “I regret to inform you that at approximately 04:32, Lieutenant Ghost was declared KIA due to an infrastructure collapse. The building they were infiltrating was lined with explosives – Lieutenant Ghost reentered the building to attempt to rescue a downed man when the explosives were set off, triggering a building collapse. I’m truly sorry, Captain. My men owe him their lives and none of us will ever forget that, I promise you.”
Soap felt his knees buckle underneath him, Gaz’s arms shooting out to grab him and ease his descent to the floor. Soap looked at Gaz and saw the distraught expression even through his increasingly blurry vision. “He’s gone?” Soap asked, searching Gaz’s eyes for any refute.
“Tav-”
“He’s gone?” Soap asked again, his voice cracking and shattering like his heart. He couldn’t breathe, his chest aching and burning as he tried to keep himself from breaking apart at the seams.
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11 Jun 2025