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    Shane Hollander has spent his whole life translating himself for a world that moves too fast and cares too little about the right things. Ilya Rozanov has never needed anyone to wait for him. Spring training gave them five weeks, a back field no one was watching, and a private language neither of them named.

    It wasn’t supposed to mean anything. A pitcher and a catcher from rival organizations, learning each other’s signals. Convenient. Temporary. Easy to leave behind.

    It wasn’t easy to leave behind.

    Now they’re both in the Majors – Boston and New York, red and pinstripes, opposite sides of the oldest war in baseball – facing each other eighteen times a season in front of a country that has opinions about this rivalry. Every at-bat is a negotiation between what they know about each other and what they’re not allowed to want. The chemistry that made them brilliant in secret could unravel everything in public.

    A slow burn about longing, bad timing, and the unbearable intimacy of knowing exactly how someone throws.

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    02 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander comes out and unleashes Shane Hollander Hysteria across the NHL.
    All-stars circle like it's free agency and he’s the only contract available.
    DMs combust. Rival captains get bold.
    Connections start forming faster than anyone can keep up.
    The Metros couldn’t care less because Shane keeps dominating on the ice while getting fucked in multiple time zones.
    It becomes the worst-kept secret in professional hockey: everyone wants their turn.
    Or:
    Shane Hollander comes out and discovers freedom can look like a lot of things.
    Sometimes it looks like sex across time zones.
    Sometimes it looks like queer community forming around him across the league.
    Sometimes it looks like becoming the most confident version of himself he has ever been.
    Shane Hollander is having a great time.
    This fic is loud, messy, and sometimes a little ridiculous until it isn’t.

    Shane-centric.
    Multiple partners/poly dynamics.
    Character studies of many different men.
    Finding queer joy and community.
    Autism, mental illness, and different attachment styles.
    Or as I like to say..
    A slow emotional horror story inside a romcom porno.


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    Chapters:
    32/?
    Comments:
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    30 Mar 2026

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    Shane glanced at his fox, Akane. Still between Rozanov’s legs.

    Dark eyes staring back at him. Akane didn’t have dark eyes. She had hazel eyes, brilliant, multifaceted gems that glimmered playfully in even the dimmest light.

    That was Rozanov’s daemon. Of course it was.

    Rozanov’s daemon was identical to Shane’s. The same body shape. The same small white diamond above the nose. The same deeper red blaze along the spine. But he still should’ve been able to tell it wasn’t Akane.

    Who can’t recognize their own daemon?

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    Chapters:
    18/18
    Comments:
    217
    Kudos:
    797
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    13,040

    28 Mar 2026

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    Shane’s team gifts him a soulmate reading with renowned soulmate seer Ilya Rozanov. The problem? Shane doesn’t want to know anything about his soulmate. Ilya promises to keep whatever he sees a secret; that way Shane can stay oblivious, the team won’t find out he refused their gift and the reading still gets done. Everyone wins, right? Wrong.
    Guess who turns out to be Shane’s soulmate…

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    41,117
    Chapters:
    9/9
    Comments:
    601
    Kudos:
    1,871
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    Hits:
    37,387

    27 Mar 2026

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    Three rookies. One season. Cameras everywhere. The First Shift is a reality show following the NHL’s hottest rookies from Draft Day through their first year — on the ice, off it, and everywhere in between. Which is a problem for Shane and Ilya almost immediately.

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    Chapters:
    11/?
    Comments:
    476
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    916
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    Hits:
    26,551

    27 Mar 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 85

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    товарищ
    (tovarisch: partner, companion)

    A companion series to вечнозеленый, threaded hand-in-hand into the original series' timeline.

    After meeting eyes at the club, Ilya and Shane have to cut the shit and just say the words they're scared of saying. An alternate timeline for the two of them to make or break, diverging from after episode 4 of the first season, serving as a sort of parallel fix-it to the series.

    Told in 9 parts with varying perspectives, the installments work as stand-alone pieces but it is encouraged that the series be read in the order it was posted, easily moving between both series with end-note navigation. It is decidedly happy ending, a scrapbook of snapshots from Shane and Ilya's life finally being as close to together as they can manage and carving out some semblance of a shared future over a roughly six-year timeline.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander has built himself around routine, his life blood is hockey. Struggling to understand his team off the ice and the people around him, he carves out a few silent hours to himself. It's just him and his skates. But the hard fought peace is fragile, like cracks in too thin ice. It only takes a slight impact to shatter. Shane is fighting to hold his team and himself together as everything comes crashing down around him.

    Someone hacks into Rose Landry's phone in a club, they then release the images of Shane's texts online and all hell breaks loose. Shane is left to pick up the pieces. Ilya makes some choices in the aftermath that change everything. Shane decides to stop hiding and Ilya is a possessive asshole who makes it everyone else's problem. With far less reason to hide himself anymore, Shane begins to show more of who he really is behind the polite, media worthy façade. They instead find a team who are ready to fight the world for each other and a found family that has far reaching threads.

    Maybe Shane can have both Hockey and Ilya. The world will just have to deal with it.

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    Chapters:
    67/?
    Comments:
    4,550
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    527,426

    24 Mar 2026

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    It was a harmless prank, or so Shane thought when he came up with it. It was an attempt to knock Ilya down a peg but it quickly spirals into something complicated.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
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    Comments:
    25
    Kudos:
    416
    Bookmarks:
    70
    Hits:
    4,822

    23 Mar 2026

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    After a year and a half of playing with Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov, the Centaurs could agree on one thing about the couple: everyone still knew almost nothing about their relationship.

    The conclusion was very clear: if they wanted answers, it was time to send in the SAPs.

    OR

    5 times the Centaurs send their partners on an investigation for the truth about Shane and Ilya's relationship, and one time the team gets the answers for themselves. And then they freak out about it in the group chat.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    571
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    3,270
    Hits:
    118,001

    20 Mar 2026

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    The queer NHL players (begrudgingly) unite via group chats in the face of social media scandals.

    These stories take place on a (slightly loose) chronological timeline and make the most sense when read in order. However, they're all independent stories/scandals and can be read as standalones.

    All stories take place post TLG and include spoilers for the books.

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    18 Mar 2026

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    After Ilya's almost-plane crash and Shane's proposal soon after, they agreed to come out and get married that summer. On their own terms. The way it fits them: Chaos.

    OR

    This is the author's attempt to further her agenda: Risk It All by Bruno Mars IS THE Hollanov anthem.

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
    327
    Kudos:
    2,699
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    Hits:
    29,445

    18 Mar 2026

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    One moment Ilya and Shane believe that the draft will turn them into opponents.
    But when they both get drafted to the Metros, the narrative changes.
    Yuna knows her son doesn't want to live with one of his older teammates. She also notices Ilya looking lost.
    So, there's no harm in suggesting they live together, right?

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    14/?
    Comments:
    431
    Kudos:
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    Hits:
    42,278

    17 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander is just trying to survive NYU biochemistry, hockey practice, and the graveyard shift at 7-Eleven. He's too exhausted to notice that his new regular customer is Russian mafia, or that Ilya's interest in him goes beyond terrible coffee and cookies.

    When Ilya hands him a $10,000 designer scarf and matching gloves, Shane doesn't panic. He sells them for next month's rent. Any normal person would be terrified. Instead, Shane uses the leftover money to buy a Hello Kitty watch, pastel pink, childish, utterly incongruous with the danger circling him. He wears it to his next night shift without irony or apology.

    Ilya notices immediately. He is fascinated.

    (Currently under major editing.)

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    32/32
    Comments:
    3,724
    Kudos:
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    Bookmarks:
    5,570
    Hits:
    628,298

    16 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander is finally ready to come to terms with his sexuality... he just isn't sure how to go about that. So, thinking it might make things easier, he hires an escort to take him through the first steps.
    Enter Ilya Rozanov, who will give him everything he ever fantasized about, and maybe some more Shane didn't even dare dream of.

    Language:
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    Words:
    70,768
    Chapters:
    11/11
    Comments:
    523
    Kudos:
    2,573
    Bookmarks:
    1,042
    Hits:
    68,721

    16 Mar 2026

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    The twin brothers Shane and Ethan are identical — so alike they’re impossible to tell apart.

    For years, Ethan vanished without a trace. Then, just as suddenly, he reappears with an unusual request: he wants Shane to take his place for a while.

    Shane agrees, unaware that Ethan’s past is filled with secrets, enemies, and danger.
    Worse still, Ethan is married — to the powerful and irresistibly hot husband Ilya Rozanov.

    What could possibly go wrong?

    Or: What if Shane has a twin brother — one who looks exactly like him but couldn’t be more different? And what if that twin brother just happens to be married to the unbelievably hot Ilya Rozanov?

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    Chapters:
    10/10
    Comments:
    522
    Kudos:
    2,459
    Bookmarks:
    838
    Hits:
    64,186

    16 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov's life takes an unexpected turn when a deadly plane crash in 2021 takes his life, right after a fight with his long-time partner, Shane Hollander. Though instead of the afterlife, Ilya is sent back to December 2008, just before his NHL career began, on the very day that he first met Shane. He finds himself in a familiar world, with knowledge of both the future and knowledge of the man he loves and the friends he holds dear.

    As Ilya navigates this new reality, he rebuilds his relationship with Shane, who is still finding his path in both hockey and his identity as a gay man. With their rivalry blossoming into a different experience than the one Ilya experienced the first time around, the two face challenges around acceptance, family pressures, and the struggles of being openly gay and lovers in the sports world. Throughout their journey, Ilya contemplates his first life, cherishes the present, and strives to alter the course of their futures (and the futures of their friends) for the better.

    Or, Ilya Rozanov discovers first hand what the butterfly effect is, and how it can drastically alter the future.

    Language:
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    67,594
    Chapters:
    11/11
    Comments:
    1,075
    Kudos:
    7,465
    Bookmarks:
    2,952
    Hits:
    143,789

    16 Mar 2026

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    Shane wears Ilya’s jersey....and Ilya? Ilya short-circuits so hard he nearly forgets how to stand.

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    17,258
    Chapters:
    9/9
    Comments:
    1,661
    Kudos:
    14,524
    Bookmarks:
    4,147
    Hits:
    201,705

    16 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it.

    Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it.

    So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.

    After five hundred miles of frozen highway, three and a half hours of driving like a man possessed, a hospital waiting room full of people who have every reason to hate him, and a boy who looks at him like he's something worth keeping, Ilya may have learned a thing or two about what it means to be loved—and to let himself love freely.

    Language:
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    101,622
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    704
    Kudos:
    8,568
    Bookmarks:
    3,109
    Hits:
    131,045

    15 Mar 2026

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    Russians do not blush. Russians do not get sick. Ilya gets concussions. He gets stitches. He skates on cracked ribs and calls it fine. He does not get sick. Which is why, when he wakes up at three in the morning in the middle of June, shaking so hard his teeth knock together, his first instinct is irritation.

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    36,373
    Chapters:
    16/16
    Comments:
    1,992
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    12,792
    Bookmarks:
    4,873
    Hits:
    328,164

    11 Mar 2026

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    “5 times people clocked Shane and Ilya being absolutely unhinged about each other and the 1 time it was encouraged.

    Or

    Cliff Pov: You want me too break your nose?!

    Yuna Pov: She can't stop herself from peaking, to make sure Ilya can calm Shane down - she see's something else

    Scott and Kip Pov: What do you mean i remind you of your brother? What do you mean you don't know your a bottom?

    Hayden Pov: First he fails at convincing Shane to become his third, then walks in on him getting his back blown out, then Shane gets kidnapped. Oh no.

    Svetlana Pov: Plane crash rewrite - somehow this leads to Svetlana following Shane up a mountain in hopeless rescue attempt

    Ilya Pov: My dick too big and my bitch too hot (Shane is in SubSpace then the hotel fire alarm goes off)

    Luca Pov: what’s a BDSM relationship? (Luca sees some stuff that sets of an internal alarm.)

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    92,776
    Chapters:
    7/8
    Comments:
    1,857
    Kudos:
    13,919
    Bookmarks:
    3,968
    Hits:
    240,975

    11 Mar 2026

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