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Dean is alone. Heartbroken. Trying desperately to hold himself together. But he's slipping.
Castiel wakes in The Empty. He needs to get back. Whatever the cost.
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- Part 1 of I Want You, I Need You, I Love You
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03 Nov 2025
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Dean’s jaw clenches and he stands his ground. “Say it again,” he says because he needs to know if what Cas said before was true and real and not something his mind made up. He's done that before, and the truth hurt more than what he made himself believe. He doesn't want this time to hurt but braces himself for it all the same. Because really, when is he ever allowed to be happy?
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After Jack pulls Cas from the Empty he heads home. To the Bunker. To Dean.
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19 Aug 2024
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“Even now, when I look at you and see myself. Even now, when you and I have begun to blur, I don’t think I’ll ever have enough of you.”
For the first time since Will spoke, Hannibal blinks.
“And when I have no more to give?”
“Then I suppose we’ll truly be one.”
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Will Graham isn't like most alphas. Hannibal Lecter isn't like most omegas. A beta society isn't equipped to handle either of them. Together, they're its worst nightmare.
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- Part 2 of Infinity
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09 Aug 2024
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It's been nearly three years since Dean lost Cas. What was supposed to be a lonely bite to eat after a routine hunt in a backwater town in Alabama turns into a night with a man who reminds him so much of Cas it's uncanny. It's a bad idea, but one night can't hurt too much, can it?
It can if Jack shows up after the man is gone to tell him it was Cas the whole time.
Cue the best and worst year of Dean Winchester's life: Trying to keep Cas in his, but never sure if he's doing the right thing. Running away and coming back on a loop that has to stop somewhere.
Written for DeanCas Bang (Taylor’s Version) 2022 / Song: The Last Time by Taylor Swift
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04 Feb 2024
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Brittle and battle-worn, Cas looks at him over coffee one morning and says, "I need to go," and Dean instantly knows that he's not coming back.
He's not really sure how he knows it, but he does. It settles into the pit of his stomach, curling hot and tight like something he instinctively wants to tear out with his bare hands. He takes a breath, and it gets stuck in his throat, hitching there. It hurts, hurts, hurts when he finally exhales.
"Yeah," Dean says, "of course you do," and he nods jerkily as he looks down at his phone. He doesn't say goodbye. He doesn't look up from the screen when Cas gets up and leaves the room. He doesn't finish his coffee, or move for a long time.
By nightfall, Cas is gone.
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Bookmarked by sunshinechloe
27 Dec 2023
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Peak alpha, Dean Winchester, has the perfect life on paper. He owns his own architecture firm, is building a real estate empire, and has the choice of just about any omega partner that catches his eye. A fateful flight to London changes everything for Dean when he finds his true mate, the intrepid freelance photographer, Cas. Cas is gorgeous, brilliant, competitive, and driven. He’s everything that Dean could have hoped for. He’s also keeping secrets from him.
Once they find each other, they must remain close until they mate or suffer from the debilitating and painful mating sickness. It wouldn’t be a problem if his mate would stay put, but Dean finds himself chasing his omega throughout Europe, using only the clues his mate leaves him.
Dean must choose between his old life and this stranger, his career and his future mate. As an alpha, he is used to being a leader, the one in charge. To be with Cas, though, he’s going to have to follow his lead.
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Bookmarked by sunshinechloe
02 Nov 2023
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"It isn’t unheard of for an angel who walks the earth too long to develop some human traits. Some of my brothers and sisters have shown displays of emotion after a mission requires they blend in with humans, which are quickly corrected. But I—" Cas pauses for a moment, a thumb coming up to absently stroke at his handprint on Dean's shoulder, "I believe I felt for the first time when I first touched you in Hell. Do you know how blinding, how overwhelming your soul is, even to an angel's grace? You are beautiful, Dean Winchester, and I knew that before I knew what beauty really meant."
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27 Sep 2023
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i want to do with you (what spring does with cherry trees) by sobsicles
Fandoms: Supernatural
29 Apr 2021
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Dean keeps going back.
When he arrives, it's always to blooming flowers and a windmill in the background, not too far from a brook, the sun painting the plains.
He likes it there. He likes to stand in front of the makeshift urn and check that it's still where he put it, switching out the flowers when they wilt. He likes to listen to the sound of birds chirping, insects singing, the faint sound of water trickling in the distance. He likes to turn his face up and feel the sun on his skin, wondering if Cas would do the same if he were here, somehow knowing that he would.
He likes to talk.
There's never a response, but Dean feels the breeze rustle through his hair and watches the flowers bob when bees come to them and stares as the windmill keeps turning, turning, turning. And he imagines that Cas is replying—the windmill is the tilted head, the bobbing flowers are a gentle smile, the breeze is whatever words Dean wants to hear at the time.
Sometimes, it's almost like he's there.
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Bookmarked by sunshinechloe
25 Sep 2023
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Louis never wanted a soulmate, didn’t really care for the whole Bonding thing at all, really. Enter Harry Styles, who’s wanted to be Bonded for as long as he could remember. With one fateful meeting in an X Factor bathroom, Louis gets a dagger on his arm and the realization that just because Harry is his soulmate doesn’t mean it’s mutual.
From the X Factor house to Madison Square Garden, from the Fountain Studios stage to stadiums across the world, Louis has to learn to love without losing himself completely, because someday his best friend will Bond to someone and replace Louis as the center of his universe. Meanwhile, Harry begins to think that maybe fate doesn’t actually know what it’s doing after all, because his other half has clearly been right in front of him the whole time. All he has to do now is convince Louis to give them a chance.
Or, the canon compliant Harry and Louis love story from the very beginning, where the only difference is that the love between them is literally written on their skin, and there’s only so much they can hide.
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- Part 1 of Hiding Place
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- 17/17
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14 Sep 2023
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“You shouldn’t be here,” Harry gritted out, wild-eyed. “You should be scared of me.”
Louis opened his mouth to speak, to cut him off, to disagree, but Harry was pushing. “I could hurt you.”
“You won’t hurt me,” Louis said, simple and assuredly. Calm.
“I’m capable of hurting you.”
“But you won’t. That’s not who you are, Harry. I trust you,” Louis whispered.As an omega carer that works at a rescue and rehabilitation centre for feral alphas and omegas, Louis has experienced all sides of ferality. So Harry- a cold, near mute, non-receptive alpha- was a challenging case for everyone at Phoenix Rehab Centre. Louis wasn’t expecting to feel drawn towards an aloof Harry, or to form a slow bond with him. He certainly was not expecting for his entire life to change in unforeseen ways.
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Bookmarked by sunshinechloe
28 Aug 2023
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Dean is straight. As straight as they come. Sure, he has guy crushes, who doesn't (Dr. Sexy and Harrison Ford amiright?)?
Until he meets Castiel, the new mathematics teacher. Dean begins feeling things that he's not used to feeling...like longing.
After a day of no blockers, the two men realize they're True Mates. But Dean isn't gay. He's not. Right?
Enter internet quizzes, denial, best friends, denial, talking, denial...did I mention denial? But then there's acceptance...and love.
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31 Jul 2023
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Dean takes a really, really long drive to kick fear in the ass. It might just be the best thing he ever decides to do.
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The seat squeaks, and Dean follows the sound, his gaze trailing down. There—where Jack sat moments ago—is a much tinier version of him. He looks mostly the same, just...smaller and more dimply and cuter, if that's possible. His clothes have shrunk to fit him, so he's casually sitting in a t-shirt, jeans, and scuffed tennis shoes. He swings his feet from side-to-side over the edge of Baby's seat the same way Sam used to in the back, and he stares up at Dean with clear eyes.
"Oh," Dean blurts out, eyes bulging, "Cas is going to fucking kill me."
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23 Jul 2023
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Castiel Novak is 27 when he suddenly loses his twin brother Jimmy, and his whole world turns to ashes. How do you deal with losing half of yourself when your whole life always revolved around the two of you, like yin and yang and black and white? How do you deal with a broken soul and old demons looming over you with no one to hold you back anymore?
After 10 years as a Navy Special Warfare Operator and more than a dozen deployments in both Afghanistan and Iraq, a battlefield injury forces 28-year-old Chief Petty Officer Dean Winchester to choose between being stuck behind a desk for the rest of his career or going back to civil life. When he learns about his friend Jimmy’s death, Dean makes his way back to Kansas with his heart in his throat and broken pieces at his feet.
Things are already complicated and painful enough as it is, but when former lovers Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak meet again after 10 years of radio silence and a galaxy of wounds and scars solidly standing between them, it feels like both a curse and a blessing has been placed on them both. Is there any hope in putting back their broken pieces together after a decade, and how do you deal with grief and broken dreams?
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- Part 1 of Patient Love verse
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Bookmarked by sunshinechloe
21 Jul 2023
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Twenty-three years of head-over-heels, devastating devotion and love, love, love for the man with bright eyes and dark hair. Fourteen years of friends, best friends, of always together. One moment of rejection.
Nine years of apart. Nine years of heartbreak, nine years of continents away, of not speaking, of no acknowledgement, no interaction, no closure, no peace. No happiness. Nine years of Dean’s life entering motions, going through them, constant, cold and mechanic, like clockwork. Nine years of alone.
God. Nine years. A lot has changed. And yet Dean still loves Cas just the same. Even if his heart hurts all kinds of different.
On the day of Jimmy Novak's funeral, Dean sees Cas for the first time in nine years. He adored Castiel the moment he met him, at only four years old. But after fourteen years of friendship destroyed by one moment of heartbreak, and after nine years of silence, Dean is convinced Cas will want nothing to do with him. And it's killing him.
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- Part 1 of The World to Come
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- English
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- 70/70
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14 Jul 2023
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Sam and Jess are getting married and Dean couldn’t be any happier for them. Honestly, they’re kind of disgustingly perfect for each other and Dean’s pretty damn excited about staying with them the week before the wedding. He’s Sam’s best man, of course, and he doesn’t even mind that Jess has her own best man to share in all the organisational duties. The more the merrier, right?
Except Dean must have done something to epically piss off the universe because Jess’s best man just happens to be Castiel friggin’ Novak. He’s got even hotter since High School, but apparently no friendlier and if Cas wants to spend the week pretending like they’ve never met before? Fine. Two can play at that game.
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- 8/8
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Bookmarked by sunshinechloe
07 Jul 2023
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Cas gets hit by a spell and forgets the last hundred years of his life. Dean tries to get his friend back, but this isn’t the Castiel he knew.
[If you read this anywhere but Ao3, you've been duped! Had! Swindled! This beast is free on Ao3]
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- 7/7
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Bookmarked by sunshinechloe
06 Jul 2023
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Dean dies with the Mark of Cain on his arm, waking up with black eyes and hellfire licking at his heels.
Cas, sick on the stolen grace that's rotting inside him, gives chase.
As his pursuit and Dean's evasion ebbs and flows, they begin to figure out the difference between marks given and marks received, and what it means when one such mark is faded but not forgotten.
Written for the 2015 DCBB.
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Bookmarked by sunshinechloe
06 Jul 2023
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“Is this the part where I say ‘make me, sir?’” Harry’s jaw clenched. Focusing back on the contract, Louis smirked inwardly. “Why can’t we fake the kinks again?”
“Primarily,” Harry said, voice dropping lower with irritation, “because my website promises real BDSM, not staged. Practically speaking, I’d love to hear how nipple clamps can be faked without falling off and halting a live stream.”
Louis wanted to take this contract and rip it apart. “Then why didn’t you get somebody who’d enjoy this? If I don’t enjoy sex with men, what makes you think I’ll enjoy getting tortured in addition?”
"I didn't want somebody who will get attached. Many subs do and hide it from me. Straight men are less likely to get attached.” Louis snorted at the response coming from someone who clearly never had been rejected a day in his life.“But I’ve changed my mind. I think you will enjoy this because you are definitely not straight, and I think seeing you have a gay spiral will be amusing.”
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Or when Louis needs to take money to keep his family afloat, he turns to the porn industry where hot-shot Harry Styles picks him to be his sub. The only issue is that Louis is straight and Harry doesn't believe him.
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- 10/10
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29 Jun 2023
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Dean doesn’t know what to do. Dean wants to say stay with me, stay with me and never leave. Dean wants to apologize. Dean wants to set his mouth at the hollow of Cas’s throat as gently as he’s ever done anything, feel the beat of Cas’s heart beneath his lips. Dean is so lonely, and he’s missed him so much.
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A year and a half after Cas is saved from the Empty, Dean is living out his days alone on a piece of farmland in rural Kansas. One day, Cas shows up on his porch.
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14 Jun 2023
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“How the fuck do you know my name?” Dean hisses.
The man doesn’t look scared. He is watching Dean like there is nothing else worth watching, lips a little parted, eyes a little soft. And blue. Real blue, like the ocean on a postcard.
The ice spreading down Dean’s spine makes him shiver.
“I suppose you could say I’m your guardian angel,” the man murmurs. His breath fogs pale between them. All of him is unnaturally warm, like Dean’s touching somebody with the sun sewn up beneath their skin. “I have known you, Dean Winchester, for a very long time.”
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Dean meets an angel who says he's from the future. It all gets a lot more complicated from there.
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Bookmarked by sunshinechloe
14 Jun 2023