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    Shane Hollander, captain of the Boston Raiders, is the the undisputed best hockey player of his generation. But he’s lonely. His relationships with women have never worked out, and he’s afraid he knows why.

    Ilya Rozanov is a charismatic, openly bisexual personal trainer and influencer. His Insta is half thirst traps, half brutal and perceptive hockey critique.

    It’s no surprise, really, that Shane falls for him so hard and so fast.

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    09 May 2026

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    Shane wished that he and Ilya had woken up that morning in Saskatchewan in 2008. Before anyone knew who they were. Before they became numbers instead of men. Shane would have kissed him against the rusted sheet metal and the No Smoking sign. He wouldn't have wasted any moment in any timeline. He'd go back again and again, kiss him and beg for forgiveness. And when he had been through every possible iteration, he would find a way to go back, fall to Ilya's feet and beg for forgiveness one more time. Then he would look into a mirror and try to ask for his own. But he hadn’t. And they couldn’t. This was the hand they had been dealt.

    Or: It's January, 2019 and Shane Hollander can see that the world's view of Rozanov is slowly killing the real Ilya. Roger Crowell orders them to be quiet and capitalise off the attention using Shane's golden image, which fans think is being ruined by association. Shane decides there is no better way to free Ilya now than to simply become the biggest PR nightmare the MLH has ever faced. Shane thinks it might even be fun.

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    09 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander has spent his entire life being quiet.

    Troy Barrett trying to make nice was the straw that finally broke the camel's back

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    09 May 2026

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    “I turned the other cheek every fucking time. I still got tossed on my ass the second I went too far over the line, and threatened by the commissioner, and told to kill myself on just about every social media platform because my nightmare that I’d get outed came true. And you, after everything you did, got to come out to a supportive team and fans, get a slap on the wrist, and have your happy fucking ending.”

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    Shane has been avoiding Troy for months. Ilya and Troy finally find out why.

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    09 May 2026

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    Shane is drunk, concussed, and hiding in a phone booth when he calls the only number he knows by heart.

    The man who answers is not Hayden Pike.

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    09 May 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 70

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    Four years ago, Shane Hollander suffered a career-ending injury after getting hit by Marlow on the ice. Despite Ilya’s best efforts to reach out, he never hears from Shane again. Nor does anyone as Shane Hollander disappears from the public eye. Complete radio silence.

    That is, until Ilya receives a call from his agent, asking if he is willing to ‘say a couple of nice words on camera about Shane Hollander’. Why? Oh. Because he will be induced in the MHL Hall of Fame in three weeks. And said Canadian golden boy will likely be there.

    Ilya is totally okay about this, of course.

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    08 May 2026

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    Shane knows it’s not a good time to have this conversation. He should wait until they’re not both tired from a stretch of tough games, until he’s not exhausted from having all the Centaurs over for the day. He should wait until he can’t feel anger simmering inside him and his shoulders aren’t tense. That’s probably why he doesn’t wait.

    “Stop trying to make me be friends with Troy Barrett.”

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    08 May 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 45

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    The Ottawa Centaurs are a new established team re-joining in the league.

    Two of the leagues biggest players just signed with Ottawa.

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    What if Shane never introduced himself to Ilya in 2008, they play respectfully against each other, not indulging the rivalry along the way before they both get traded to Ottawa, where connections start.

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    08 May 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 20

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    Shane has loved Ilya for most of his life.

    He never planned to tell him.

    Then Ilya announces he’s getting married to Svetlana.

    Shane congratulates him, helps plan the wedding, stands beside him through engagement dinners and venue tours and bachelor parties, and tries very hard not to let years of being in love with his best friend ruin everyone’s lives.

    It works.

    Until it doesn’t.

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    08 May 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 83

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    In 2014, just one week after winning his first Stanley Cup, Ilya is forced to leave everything behind when his brother abandons Moscow, leaving him to return to Russia and care for their dying father. Before he goes, he and Shane make a desperate promise: to wait for each other.

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
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    08 May 2026

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    This has an MCD—but I promise I would never let them die in vain. I believe that beauty can be born from tragedy, and this story comes with the promise of a happy ending.

    If you can’t put your faith in me, please put your faith in them:

    “This was, hands down, the most heartbreaking, soul destroying, gut wrenching piece of writing, that is also simultaneously breathtakingly beautiful, to possibly ever exist.”

    “Your views on life that you able to impart on your world is also incredible, with some of them making me stop and genuinely consider.”

    “The way I look at life and love and endings...you changed that for me.”

    “This story is so steady and comforting, even through the pain because you face it head-on, without flinching, with love and care and a gentle hand.”

    “It is a beautiful and honest portrayal of how they cherish every moment, and make the most of every day.”

    “I feel this story, with all its iterations, is inherently human. And that touches people who yearn for this kind of connection and family.”

    “So many words in this story have comforted me, and honestly I don't think there are any words that could describe how much this story has helped me.”

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    08 May 2026

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    07 May 2026

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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    Chapters:
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    07 May 2026

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    Flight 771 shouldn't have been any different than any of the hundreds of other flights that Shane has taken over the course of his career, aside from the fact that it was taking him towards his lifelong dream—towards the Olympics.

    It shouldn't have been any different.

    BEND OVER, STAY DOWN.

    BEND OVER, STAY DOWN.

    BEND OVER, STAY DOWN.

    It is.

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    Chapters:
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    07 May 2026

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    Shane doesn’t do relationships. That’s the rule, and it’s been working until Ilya.
    Whatever they have isn’t supposed to mean anything, right up until Ilya gets a boyfriend and Shane realizes he cares a lot more than he should. It only gets worse when Ilya keeps coming back to him anyway.

     

    or: Ilya has a boyfriend, and still ends up in Shane’s bed.

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    07 May 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    07 May 2026

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    After seeing their Uncle Shane crying, Ruby and Jade Pike spend their daily 30 minutes of iPad time assembling a squad of Hockey Uncles to protect their Uncle Shane from the Bad Guys.

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    06 May 2026

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    “Ilya, what are we gonna do?” Shane says.

    Ilya finishes whatever he has been doing on his phone, and tosses it gently to the bed beside him. He crosses the room to Shane, stands in front of him, squeezes into his shoulders with his big hands, rubbing them like he means to warm them up.

    “Looks like we will have a little vacation,” he says, with a big obnoxious grin.

     


     

    Boston and Montreal are sent to Paris to play against each other in an exhibition series in January 2017. Ilya and Shane decide to stay in Paris for one more night. Just one more night, so they can talk. Maybe finally understand each other.

    They aren't expecting a volcano to erupt in Iceland and close all the airspace in Europe, leaving them stranded there. Together.

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    Chapters:
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    06 May 2026

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    "I'm calling it 'Adopt a Stray,'" Cliff announced, pacing the rug. "Tomorrow night. Boston vs. Montreal. We announce a new 'tradition.' We say that Boston has noticed that not every team is as close as ours. We say we’re looking for 'strays'—players who aren’t really accepted by their team, always seem an outcast, that need a little extra team bonding or whatever. And the first 'stray' we’re adopting? Is Shane Hollander."

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    05 May 2026

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    Galina stopped writing to look at Ilya. "Do you think he'd be willing to talk to you next time it happens, even if it's late?"

    Ilya's stomach turned over. He didn't even want to consider it, but he knew the answer. "Yes. But he silences his phone at night."

    "Most phones these days have an option to let certain numbers ring through, even on Do Not Disturb. Do you think he'd be open to setting that up for you?"

    Imagining that conversation made Ilya nauseous. Yes, no fucking doubt, Shane would be open to it if Ilya explained the reason. "I'm not going to ask him to do that."

    Set during The Long Game, an alternate version where the plane scene doesn't happen. Instead, there's this: a car crash, a therapist's duty to report, and an urgent reckoning with priorities.

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    Chapters:
    6/6
    Comments:
    304
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    2,579
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    665
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    30,296

    04 May 2026

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