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A ghost shouldn’t bleed. A ghost shouldn’t fight. But those eyes, his eyes, had stared back at him like the dead had decided to walk.
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25 Jul 2025
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But sometimes, the nightmares still crawl inside to drag him back into darkness. Show him the most twisted and wretched places of his soul. The things he can never atone for.
How ironic that it catches up with him now of all times, ready to damage what is left of his battered connection with Ivan. Even after all this time, Till can’t help but to hurt him without even meaning to…
Unintentionally, his fingers are drawn back to his neck and he flinches briefly when they brush over the fresh bruises. The twisted smile on his lips deepens. He needs to set this right.
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Or: Ivan visits Till in his nightmares and brings him to have a conversation with the real Ivan
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- Part 2 of Love H̶u̶r̶t̶s̶ Heals
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25 Jul 2025
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Ivan doesn't know how to keep watching Till when Till is looking back.
Or.
Things go a bit differently and Ivan has to deal with the reality of surviving his plans to push Till to live longer. Since they were kids, he'd always watched Till, cared for him, and done his best to be there from a distance. But what does he do when those eyes are staring back, when he is within reach, free, alive, and willingly at his side?
Ivan doesn't know. He wants to run as much as he wants to spend every second near him.
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24 Jul 2025
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Oh.
Oh, shit.
“Ah, fuck,” he puts his head in his hands. He’s so fucked. “Mizi, I think I care about him, maybe just a little.”
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Till feels like Ivan is slipping past his fingers. Or, maybe, he's just a little in love and can't say it.
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01 Dec 2024
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See the Light from Afar by AdoreAventurine (AdoreLove1)
Fandoms: 崩坏：星穹铁道 | Honkai: Star Rail (Video Game)
23 Feb 2024
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The events leading up to the Cocolia boss fight, and a universe in which Sampo doesn’t desert the group as soon as they reach the surface and he, Gepard, and Serval join the battle against Cocolia.
Gepard takes a heavy hit meant for Sampo and Serval and Trailblazer gets impaled as per the usual, but they still win.
Featuring Sampo and Serval going batshit feral on Cocolia after Gepard gets taken down and protective Dan Heng for Caelus! (Because that was such a lackluster reaction in-game to the Trailblazer being impaled)
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29 Jul 2024
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Whatever the Fuck Benrey Is by DeckofDragons
Fandoms: Half-Life VR But the AI is Self-Aware (Web Series)
11 May 2024
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Following the events at Black Mesa, Gordon ends up learning more about Benrey. He might even end up liking him eventually.
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- Part 1 of Whatever the Fuck Benrey Is
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17 Jun 2024
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“Were you worried about me?” Aventurine asked, not sure if he were hoping for an easy out or to be drawn even further into Ratio's orbit.
“Do not state the obvious,” Ratio said, bluntly.
Oh.
“I see…” Aventurine muttered, thrown off by Ratio’s easy admission. “I can’t really help it, though. I don’t know how to swim,” he said with a small smile. “Lucky me, you’re here!”
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or, after a mission ended with Aventurine nearly drowning, Ratio takes it upon himself to teach the damned gambler how to swim.Series
- Part 2 of the appeal of domesticity
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27 May 2024
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You're just a little bit too much like me by TakeMyMora
Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)
10 Oct 2022
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Somewhat angsty Ayaitto Spin on the Miko vs Itto eating contest, feat my attempts to characterize Ayato and Miko.
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- Part 4 of Ayaitto World Building
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24 Mar 2024
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Eddie had done a lot of running recently. He’d run when Chrissy died, when Jason and his gang was hunting him, when the cops gave his name to the town and started a witch hunt for the freak. He’d run from all of it, and more.
He’d run from the lab. He’d run from Papa.
He couldn’t run any longer.
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My own take on the 'Eddie is from Hawkin's Lab' theory!
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- Part 2 of I wanna scream, I wanna run
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26 Apr 2023
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Alleyway Shadows by DeoPlunk
Fandoms: Six of Crows Series - Leigh Bardugo, Shadow and Bone (TV)
08 Apr 2023
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Wylan and Jesper are getting supplies for their next job but they get jumped in an alleyway by Geels' rather angry crew, it doesn't end well.
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09 Apr 2023
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This Notion May Be Naïve by engagemythrusters
Fandoms: Six of Crows Series - Leigh Bardugo, Shadow and Bone (TV)
05 Dec 2021
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Nobody had the luxury of showing up, completely new and completely strange, without people getting curious. Especially not when Kaz brought in that person. And especially when that person was Wylan Van Eck.
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- Part 2 of Fuckt Up Lil Bros AU
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06 Apr 2023
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150 meters of water by little_bugger
Fandoms: Half-Life VR But the AI is Self-Aware (Web Series)
02 Jul 2022
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Benrey's been dead for months. Gordon's certain that TV and pizza are enough to keep his life interesting.
Something's at the bottom of that lake.
And, well, the Science Team (sans one) can't go and just ignore it, can they?
or: you know who's at the bottom of that lake. it's not all too bad.
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19 Nov 2022
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The kids were gone. They failed. It’s been over half a year.
There wasn’t a time limit to this. To finding them. To bringing them back home. But it still felt like a metaphorical noose tightening around their necks with each passed, wasted second. They were exhausted. And well past the point of being horrified at their situation that they were now seated, practically squatters, in the backyard of downright despondent.
The kids were gone. They failed. They kept failing. The heartbreak was something physical now. Clawing into their chests like it had a personal agenda to make them all hollow. And there was an anger there, burning and coiled tight enough to make them all feel brittle with it.
The kids, their kids, were still gone. And their millions of impossible, stupid, desperate plans kept failing.
But parents, as Darius was quick to catch on, were impossible, stupid, desperate things too. Stubbornness something etched into their titandammed bones, and it didn’t really matter that their millions of plans kept failing.
They were exhausted, and horrified, and miserable and angry. They kept coming up with a million more.
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05 Nov 2022
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Vecna is still alive, and Steve & Co. are ready to finish him off, but not before an old friend can step in their way.
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16 Jul 2022
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"I love you," Harry says on June 25, 51, halfway through a game of cribbage. Cuno has done nothing more notable than tell a joke that made Harry laugh.
Cuno doesn't know what to say. Nobody loves Cuno. Loving Cuno should probably be an interisolary crime. "Gross," he says.
An exploration of those Cuno has lost, those he's gained, and those he can't let go.
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08 Feb 2022
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“I want you to capture the human, and bring her to me. Alive, preferably,” Belos commanded. There was no room for argument, as usual, and no room for questions. And even as Hunter’s gut clenched, he nodded.
“Consider it done,” he said, forcing the smugness into his tone. He rose, and his uncle was standing right in front of him, much closer than Hunter had realized. He tensed as the man laid a hand on his shoulder. A familiar gesture. The pain that followed was just as familiar as his uncle squeezed. Hard.
“I will not accept your failure again, Hunter. Do not mistake my mercy for forgiveness.”
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Basically, yikes the Emperor sucks and Hunter sucks less. He makes good choices for once. Yay.
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31 Jul 2021
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When Hunter's fostered by Eda, he has to learn how to handle a younger sister, a mother figure, a cat, and one extremely persistent green haired kid. With his past, Hunter finds it difficult to adjust to his new life. And besides, he's only going to be here for a few months before he's switched to a new home.
Or so he thinks.
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31 Jul 2021
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On Twyre, Repression, and Revising Your Thesis by candylemonsticks, tanzertime
Fandoms: Мор. Утопия | Pathologic
01 Mar 2022
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Daniil Dankovsky's life, it seems, has been in a perpetual state of getting weirder ever since he had to transfer to a small rural college. With a grand total of three people he can call friends (maybe, if you squint, and really stretch the definition) and the sudden revelation that none of his professors really believe him when he says he plans to defeat death before he graduates, you could say that he's... fine. He's fine. Stop asking, okay?
For Artemy Burakh, life has always been strange. The next in line to inherit a sacred blood-right of a dying people, he's neglected to tell his father that he won't be continuing that bloodline unless he manages to find a man who can pull off the whole "having a child" thing. But, given that the pickings on those are slim and he can hardly get a text back as it is, things aren't looking too hot for him. He also has a nasty habit of trying to raise two children he found outside on a budget of the scant money he can get in grants and whatever the locals will pay for Twyrine. But it's... fine. He's fine. He doesn't like to talk about it, okay?
Twyrine is illegal, life is fleeting, and goddammit, it's really hard to take care of yourself sometimes.
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09 Oct 2020
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The outbreak is over and winter has passed, but Town-on-Gorkhon's healers face a new challenge: Daniil has come down with a mysterious wasting illness with no name, and he will surely die when the twyre blooms again in September--if his spirit doesn't break sooner. A smaller crisis than the plague, but no less personal. Their knowledge and resolve will be stretched to their limits.
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- Part 3 of Tales-on-Gorkhon
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08 Oct 2020
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Serizawa returns to the office to find it lacking his friend and crush. When he does find Reigen, he has to help take care of the injury he got. This leads to discovering some old scars and the stories behind them.
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Serizawa is a good friend who wonders why Reigen has a katana scar on his back.Bookmarked by CalmButNot
18 Sep 2020