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    “How long?”

    Shane was shaking.

    “Coach?”

    “How long have you been fucking Ilya Rozanov?”

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    Instead of getting injured during the game after Tampa, pictures are released exposing the secret relationship between Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander. The two rival captains are forced to choose between everything they've spent years building and the person they never quite learned how to let go.

    Unfortunately, neither of them has ever been particularly good at walking away.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander was the number one draft pick and is now captain of the Boston Raiders. Ilya Rozanov quit hockey after his mother died and now owns a bookshop in Boston. When Shane moves into a new apartment down the street from One Good Memory, he finds more than just a convenient place to grab a new book.

    Or...Shane is lonely and closeted and reads a lot; Ilya is charmed and quotes books at him.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    “English is… is not first language,” the woman said quietly. Her accent was thick, and unmistakably Russian.

    “Oh, sorry! I’m speaking too fast, aren’t I? Sorry,” she took a breath, and held out her hand. “I’m Yuna,” she repeated. The woman took her hand quickly, her hands bony and delicate.

    “Irina,” she replied, before gesturing for Yuna to sit with her. Quickly, Yuna did. “Sorry, I have not been in Canada long.”

    “No problem at all; welcome to Canada! Is that your boy?” Yuna asked, gesturing over to the child that had similar hair to Irina, which was poking out from under his helmet. He was taller than Shane, though his little hockey outfit still seemed to still dwarf him. He had a serious look on his face, but his eyes were light as he watched the other boys play. He was tapping his stick on the ice, clearly itching to get into the game.

    “Ah, yes,” Irina nodded, taking a few seconds to translate the question, “Ilyusha.” Irina looked over at her son, a small smile on her face. “Is my Ilya.”

    Or: Ilya and Irina move to Canada for a fresh start when he is six years old. He meets Shane Hollander at ice hockey practice, and they grow up together (and of course, fall in love).

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    30 May 2026

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    When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
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    Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.

    “Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”

    “Mom,” Shane managed.

    “Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”

    Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.

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    18 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.

    No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
    No one knows he’s planning to run.
    No one knows how much he’s breaking.

    And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.

    Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.

    Shane is learning how to live again.
    Ilya is learning how to feel again.
    Both are learning how to trust.

    But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.

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    Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    Ilya and Shane have always played the long game. Staying quiet, careful, and together, just not publicly. Not yet. Maybe not for a while. Later, they’ll have everything they want. Later, they told themselves. It was always supposed to be later. Then Ilya gets a call from Russia that changes everything.

    Within days, their carefully planned future is replaced with something much more immediate: Ilya's four-year-old niece, who needs them now, not later. Suddenly, later isn’t an option anymore.

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    Or: Alexei and his wife are in an accident, leaving their daughter orphaned. Ilya is the only family she has left, leaving him with a life-changing choice

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    Chapters:
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    01 Apr 2026

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    Hayden hated the guy. Hated him.

    Hated his stupid, smug smirk and the myriad of insults he threw Hayden’s way and the way he made fun of Shane like it was a funny game then looked him up and down like a piece of meat and his reputation of sleeping with everything that fucking moved and the memories of being slammed into the boards by him and quite literally everything about this Russian dickhead.

    And he hated that he was now going to have to do everything in his power to learn how to tolerate Rozanov because Shane was inexplicably and hopelessly in love with him, and Shane was his brother in every fucking thing but blood, and Hayden was not going to keep being responsible for that sad puppy look on his face every time he realized how poorly they got along.

    So far, Hayden sucked at it. Big time.

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    It bothers Shane that Hayden and Ilya don't get along, so Hayden is putting in the effort to try and see these redeeming qualities Shane claims the guy has. Over the years it becomes easier and easier, until one day, he realizes he doesn't have to actually try anymore.

    or, 5 times Hayden realized he was starting to tolerate Ilya + 1 time they acknowledged they were actually friends now

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    26 Mar 2026

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    25 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander knows he’s not the easiest person to love.

    As Ottawa’s captain, he’s busy. He’s particular. But he manages it. He’s always managed it. Shane makes sure his anxiety never becomes anyone else’s problem.

    And he’s lucky—his boyfriend Clayton is willing to put up with him just fine.

    Clayton isn’t always perfect, but he’s a great guy. Shane knows how lucky he is to have someone like him.

    Even if it hurts sometimes.

    Ilya Rozanov has just been drafted, and he’s ready to prove to the league that it’s his year. He’s played against Shane Hollander for years. He knows exactly how good Ottawa’s captain is on the ice.

    But the more Ilya sees of Shane off the ice, the more something starts to feel wrong.

    Because Shane Hollander might be the perfect captain.

    But his life doesn’t look anything like Ilya imagined.

    And seriously—who the fuck is Clayton?
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    Or, Shane thinks he's hard to love. Ilya violently disagrees.

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    Chapters:
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    21 Mar 2026

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    At seven years old, Shane and Ilya swapped bodies for fifteen minutes, just enough time to change everything. That first swap, and all the ones that followed, marked the beginning of the most epic love story the hockey world has ever seen.

     

    Or, they were soulmates, baby ;)

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
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    04 Mar 2026

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    Years later, when he looked back, Ilya realized that that night had changed him. It was a decision that he didn’t voice at the time because words were fragile, especially in English, and could be retracted.

    "This one is mine."

    Or: Shane and Ilya grow up in the foster system together before they become pro hockey players.

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    Chapters:
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    25 Feb 2026

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    Odd-Man Rush: The situation that occurs when a team enters the attacking zone and outnumbers the opposing players in the zone.

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    Shane doesn’t know why he still feels so off-kilter. He should be the happiest he’s ever been—he won the Cup, he feels like he’s maybe starting to have a few friends on his team, and he’s finally starting to believe his parents when they tell him he won’t get traded again. He should be on top of the world, but sometimes he still feels like the lone defender on an odd-man rush, skating as fast as he can to prevent what feels like an inevitable outcome.

    The problem is that he’s not quite sure which outcome it is that he’s trying to stop.

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    Chapters:
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    22 Feb 2026

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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

    ~

    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Then Scott Hunter looked at him, really looked at him with no panic or consternation or grief, just something heavy and piercing that made Ilya feel like his heart was on the outside of his ribcage. “Be safe out there, okay?”

    “Okay,” Ilya said, softer than intended.

    In real life, they both turned around and walked away into the night. But in Ilya’s memory, that never happens. They just stand there, eye-to-eye, until the sun comes up and it’s too bright to see anything else.

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    Chapters:
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    20 Feb 2026

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    “I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”

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    or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.

    Ilya has open hands.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Loud beeps from his phone startled Ilya, and he slowed down, reaching for the device he’d put on the bar between his legs. Jane. He smiled to himself when he saw the notifications, and, checking Marlowe was absorbed in his own fitness, opened it quickly, smiling in anticipation of Shane's words.

    The smile was wiped off his face almost instantly.

    The blood drained from his face, and Ilya felt like the bottom had just fallen out of his world.

    *****

    Maybe he was naive, but Ilya always thought he had time. Time with Shane. Time to tell him what he truly meant to him.

    That, somehow, one way or another, Shane would always be there.

    But a text message late one night threatens to destroy the future that Ilya has spent the time carefully constructing in his mind.

    Maybe Shane wasn't always going to be there. That Shane would be cruelly snatched away from him before he had a chance to be honest.

    That he would be left behind. Alone.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    Everything in Ilya Rozanov's life is going great. He is the captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, married to his lifelong love and former rival Shane Hollander, and living the life he always dreamed of. Yet things start getting complicated when his old agent reaches out to him with absolutely shocking news: Ilya actually has a 10-year-old son from one of his old hookups—something his father tried to hide from him so as not to ruin his career.

    Now Ilya faces the challenge of confessing everything and figuring out how to balance parenthood with his relationship with Shane, while also learning how to become a good father—absolutely nothing like his own—to a rather rebellious ten-year-old.

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    16/?
    Comments:
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    480
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    19,456

    07 Feb 2026

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    Alexei is dead. Anastasia is his. And Ilya has no idea how to be a parent, a captain, and a heartbroken man all at once.

    The only thing harder than keeping a five-year-old alive might be keeping himself together.

     

    [set after shane walks out on ilya in episode 4]

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    05 Feb 2026

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    When Coach Wiebe suggests that Luca Haas should move in with Ilya for a while, as both of them seem lonely, Ilya nearly loses his mind. Not only does this mean he will see Shane even less than before, but it also means that the Centaurs have realised that Ilya's mental health is suffering. The worst part is that when Ilya tells Shane about it, Shane actually supports the idea, saying that it might be good for Ilya and Luca.

    Turns out it's the second-best thing that has ever happened to Ilya.

    or: ilya basically adopts luca aka the ottawa found family trope we all need.

    this is now a multichapter fic!

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
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    02 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is good at discipline.
    At routines. At control.

    He’s just not very good at not being in love with Ilya Rozanov.

    Or 5 times Shane Hollander said “I love you” without actually saying it.

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    Chapters:
    4/5
    Comments:
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    Kudos:
    816
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    254
    Hits:
    18,063

    01 Feb 2026

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