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He's still staring at the lit end of Blanc's cigar. "Can you put that out on me?" is what falls out of Jud's mouth, barely cognizant of being spoken.
Blanc chokes.
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- Part 1 of the agony and the ecstasy
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02 Feb 2026
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The ascension of Vincent Benitez, from the perspective of Goffredo Tedesco.
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03 Nov 2025
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Aldo has never really been one to think much about penance.
“We honor God in a multitude of ways,” he’d told Thomas once. “I agree that discomfort is useful. We learn to turn away from our sins and commit to do better. I don't understand what mutilating yourself in His name is meant to accomplish. We were not put in this world to suffer, Thomas."
Thomas had been quiet for a long time. "It is a different thing, though," he'd said finally. "You will agree on that much at least. Self-harm is a sin. Self-flagellation has a place in doctrine."
Aldo had winced. "Next thing you'll tell me is you've joined Opus Dei. You don’t think confession is enough? Prayer?”
“I think mortification of the flesh has its place,” he’d said absently, eyes faraway.
“Does it serve a purpose, though, apart from hurting you? Does senseless pain really bring you any closer to Him?”
Thomas had barely flinched. Aldo had felt possessed by the urge to grab his jaw and direct him forward, look at me, look!
“We must repent, Aldo,” he’d said simply. "By whatever means necessary."
He’s always thought Thomas did enough repentance as it was for the two of them. He thinks he understands better now.
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31 Aug 2025
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Tommy and Aldo go on date. In New York. Three years after they were excommunicated.
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26 Aug 2025
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Her father told her once that he always knew something was off with her. She was far more prone to playing with her sister’s dolls than to going out and playing kickball or building with the block set her aunt had gifted her a few Christmases prior.
Tommy doesn’t remember enough of her childhood to refute this.
But what she remembers most—more than any birthday, more than any lesson or punishment or kiss goodnight—is the feeling.
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And exploration into Tommy Lawrence's journey through life as a trans woman.
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- Part 1 of Transubstantiation
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24 Aug 2025
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Archbishop of Where? - A meta on Christianity in Afghanistan for the Conclave (2024) fandom by Jolie_Black
Fandoms: Conclave (2024)
27 Jun 2025
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What it says on the tin: A meta on the situation of Christians, especially Roman Catholics, in present day Afghanistan (both before and after the 2021 Taliban takeover), and how it may relate to the 2024 "Conclave" movie.
Part of Jolie's Occasional Lectures on Catholic Church Organisation, Canon Law and Other Things You Never Thought You Would End Up Reading About Until You Contracted the Conclave Bug.
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15 Aug 2025
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infinite joy by jolysabbatical (jolychetta)
Fandoms: Conclave (2024), Conclave - Robert Harris
30 Jul 2025
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He hadn’t realised until now that he, like his brothers, has become his father. As the doors of the Room of Tears close behind the Dean, he is left staring at a puzzle he cannot understand. Aldo walks up next to him.
“Well, at least it’s finally done.”
“What the fuck just happened?” Giulio replies.OR
Giulio Sabbadin goes through a bit of a crisis. he's good in a crisis, though, until he has to confront this pesky thing called his own feelings
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30 Jul 2025
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Early 90's, San Francisco. Newly-ordained Aldo Bellini writes a letter to Thomas Lawrence.
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- Part 1 of Wounds
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25 Jul 2025
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Santo Subito! (And Other Canticles of Love) by ennasthetic
Fandoms: Conclave (2024), Conclave - Robert Harris
10 Oct 2025
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Pope Innocent XIV is set to be canonized as a saint. Thomas Lawrence deals with the fragments left behind.
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Chapter 5 — Revelations
Magazine article excerpt: As the Vatican reckons with the beatification of Pope Innocent XIV, stories of miraculous healing and eerie visions about the deceased pontiff are taking the Catholic world by storm, baffling devotees and skeptics alike.
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13 Jul 2025
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Thomas struggles with eating. Tedesco might have a solution.
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10 Jul 2025
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“Read it,” Ray urged. “It was addressed to you.”
“Later,” Thomas said, but Ray shook his head.
“Look at the date.”
Thomas took Ray’s proffered reading glasses and scanned the sheet of paper, which appeared to be a drafted memo. His eyes widened at the date at the top of the sheet: 20th October, 2021. That was the day after the Holy Father’s death. He then read the actual content of the memo, and he regretted it deeply because by the time he finished, he felt dizzy.
He wanted to throw up.
Thomas Lawrence has the burdensome duty of organizing a conclave to elect the new pope. When he receives a message claiming that the Holy Father might have been killed, the burden becomes a race against time as he works to prove the claim before the Church can crown a murderer.
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04 Jul 2025
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if the clouds are gathering, it's just to point the way by jolychetta
Fandoms: Conclave (2024), Conclave - Robert Harris
29 Jun 2025
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Aldo Bellini finds love. Or rather, despite his best efforts, love finds him, over and over again.
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a journey through a life, and love
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i have feelings about aldo bellini (again) and i'm making it everyone's problem (again)
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01 Jul 2025
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Pope Innocent XIV has some questions about Thomas Cardinal Lawrence; Ray O'Malley didn't realise he had answers.
Jonathan said to David, “Whatever you want me to do, I’ll do for you.” - 1 Samuel 20:4
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30 Jun 2025
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Diplomatic Relations by habemusbellini (noxspell)
Fandoms: Conclave (2024), Conclave - Robert Harris
22 Jun 2025
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Every morning, Aldo sits in bed and completes the crossword. Thomas likes to watch him.
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22 Jun 2025
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"What will they think, when they read a hasty letter with a clumsy signature, citing health issues and a desire for peaceful reflection? He hopes they understand and perhaps one day he will explain, if God in His infinite mercy sees it fit to grant him the necessary wisdom. But not now, and not here. If he doesn't leave, Aldo fears he'll end up scaling into the rafters and screaming until his throat is raw."
Aldo Bellini, ever pragmatic, wakes one day to find that he has been given stigmata. Naturally, he handles it well.
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21 Jun 2025
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In his decades of service to the Church, Thomas thought he’d experienced all there was for him. Deliberately and to the best of his ability, he’d kept away from those things that the scriptures prohibited: excess, indulgence, personal pleasure. He had never tended to himself with more attention than required to sustain him. He had never engaged in lustful acts with another (though he had also never faced any great temptations). Certainly, he had never offered his ultimate devotion to anyone other than the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.
But then, there had never been a pope like Vincent Benítez.
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11 Jun 2025
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Between The World's Certainties by DavidAndre96
Fandoms: Conclave (2024), Conclave - Robert Harris
11 Jun 2025
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Of course, Vincent has always known that he isn’t particularly… well endowed, in the same way that, standing at only 5 foot nothing, he’s always been a head shorter than other men around him. He’s also aware that he never developed as much as his peers in his teens, and that he’s always looked noticeably youthful for his age, even now into his mid-60s. And he’s never needed to shave even once in his adult life. But he’s never really given any of this too much thought until now, because he hasn’t seen cause for alarm. Everyone’s different, after all, and none of that had to mean anything. Certainly not when also factoring in his partly Indigenous Mexican heritage.
But this?
Before he really has time to register what’s happening, he throws up every bite of the banana they managed to coax into him back in post-op.
The doctor and nurses assume his nausea is a result of the anaesthesia he was given for his surgery. Vincent doesn’t correct them.
He never eats banana again after that day.*****
Vincent Benítez, at the age of 64, grapples with discovering that he's intersex
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The author, at the age of 28, processes the realisation that he's intersex
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10 Jun 2025
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“Blink twice if you're having a medical episode.”
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08 Jun 2025
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papás in every lifetime by whackad0odle
Fandoms: Conclave (2024), Conclave - Robert Harris
31 May 2025
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Pope Emeritus Vincent Benitez and former Dean Thomas Lawrence become fathers to a fragile girl, discovering love, hope, and loss in a quiet Philippine seminary.
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01 Jun 2025
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under his white cloth, by Glowstar826
Fandoms: Conclave (2024), Conclave - Robert Harris
29 May 2025
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The brutality of war, where such sacred objects hold the impermanence of a speck of dirt, will never leave his body. He flinches at every loud noise and sudden movement, and with each waking minute, he can only think of the flock he left behind because for some reason, the people here believed in him.
He wants nothing more than to go back. He wants nothing more than to leave this restrictive post—this prison—and return to what he once knew. Worse yet, he wants this to the point of wondering if he should have declined the papacy. Yes, it would have been sinful—an act of selfish cowardice—but isn’t leaving innocents to die even more of a sin?
Two weeks after the conclave, Vincent’s anxious feelings about his election come to a crippling head.
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30 May 2025