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They’ve long lost their humanity.
That’s what living in the Circus does to people—it strips them of their complexity by assigning them a role. An inevitable fate for those unfortunate souls that set foot into this world. It’s only a matter of time before the system claims them. And yet, no matter how many times he tells himself this, he is unable to shake off the uneasiness that blooms in his chest whenever he interacts with her.
She’s still too complex, too unpredictable.
She’s too human.
Or, Jax tries to fit Pomni into an archetype, only for his defenses to end up crumbling under her caring nature.
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17 Sep 2025
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Laffy Taffy Brain by citrusam
Fandoms: Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (Cartoon 2018), Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles - All Media Types
18 Aug 2023
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It took a few tries for his shaking thumb to activate the green button on the too bright screen, but sure enough he managed and the loud music abruptly stopped. Silence.
“...Donnie? ..Ya' there?”
Yup that's Raph. Wait, he should say something. Right. What was the customary thing to say after answering the phone?
“...H-helooo.”
Nailed it. Well not really. His voice came out a bit too quiet, slurred, weak. Not like himself at all. He could at least recognize that between the obnoxious throbbing in his head. But he was sick, at least pretty sure he was sick; the softshell decided to give himself a break on this one. (spoiler alert: he was not sick)
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17 Sep 2025
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clipped wings by qolden
Fandoms: Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (Cartoon 2018), Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles - All Media Types
12 Feb 2025
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The hand in his squeezed. “You’re okay,” April said, her voice wobbling dangerously. “We’re gonna be okay. I’ve got you. Can you tell me what you remember?”
He blinked slowly, furrowing his brow. Swallowing was a struggle. His chest twinged. He felt embarrassed when he whispered, “I don’t…”
“That’s okay,” she soothed. “I… I’m sorry for not being here sooner. The guys, they told me what was going on. They told me everything.”
Donnie stared at her blankly, trying to piece together what she meant. Everything. What was everything supposed to mean?
Oh.
It slammed into him all at once. The large hand shattering his wrist, his head cracking against the floor, screaming as Leo ran his blade through his shoulder, Raph ripping through his shell like paper, dragging him back by the ankle, shattering his plastron, hands around his throat, squeezing, being dizzy and delirious and terrified and begging—
They’d tried to kill him. They’d tried to kill him and she knew.
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- Part 3 of the canary continuity
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coming undone (one step at a time) by qolden
Fandoms: Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (Cartoon 2018), Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles - All Media Types
24 Aug 2024
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They hadn’t told him, but Donnie had eyes. He could observe it. He wasn’t asking for thanks or open appreciation— he knew people only did that when they wanted something more from him or wanted to hurt him. Knowing they were content without him because of his actions was all that mattered.
(He missed praise. He missed turtle piles, and pizza weeks, and movie nights where they watched his favorites and actually engaged with them. He missed karaoke and DDR and biweekly Powerpoint nights where he deliberately picked the most moronic topic to rant about like a madman, just to revel in the sound of Leo shrieking with laughter.
And God, he missed S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N, so so much. Something had broken in him when he’d found his AI chip in the rubble, unsalvageable. Something about the grief of it all had made everything feel worthless. Even if he yearned for it—that didn’t really matter anymore, did it? It was gone.)
(or: in the middle of building their new lair, donnie is cursed. not wanting to slow himself down, he resolves to keep it from his family.
little does he know, that is the exact problem that got him cursed in the first place.)
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- Part 1 of two steps forward, one step back
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Insomnia of the Infected by Dapper_Monstrosity
Fandoms: Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (Cartoon 2018)
07 Jul 2023
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Donnie can't sleep, burdened by worries of the unknown, and is dissociating somewhat in the meantime. Until the brother he didn't expect finds him and helps - it turns out he has some night terrors of his own.
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26 May 2024