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    Yuna’s entire body aches, and it would appear that her instincts were right— Rozanov is small, and he’s vulnerable, and he’s tired, and he needed somewhere safe to rest.

    And Yuna can’t help the weird sense that she’s honoured— her home was somewhere for Rozanov to go, even if she and David knew nothing about any of it, even if they still don’t, Shane knew it would be safe for Rozanov here. Shane told him to come home.

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    03 May 2026

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    They fight. They have angry sex. In the aftermath, lying in the wreckage of the argument, they finally say the things they've not been saying for months.

    Or: the one where Shane is emotionally constipated, Ilya moves to Ottawa and uses it as a weapon approximately once, and three weeks is exactly long enough for everything to come to a head.

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    01 May 2026

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    Shane goes for a massage.

     

    Russian translation available here

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    30 Apr 2026

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    bruh

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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    30 Apr 2026

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    “They need to return to a conference based system,” Svetlana said, slamming her hand against the table. “It was fucking fine the way it was, why are we handing out participation trophies to shitty divisions?”

    Ilya raised his eyebrows from where he hovered in the kitchen, cracking open another Red Bull.

    “This is fun,” he said, deadpanned. “You guys should start a podcast or something. I would not listen, you are both terribly boring.”

    * * *

    Or, after an injury on the ice forces Shane into an early retirement, he and Svetlana start a podcast.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    unconnected hollanov/heated rivalry fics all by the same author (it's me, i'm the author) // blanket permission for translations (posted on ao3/linked), podfics (posted on ao3/linked), art of any kind inspired by the fics in this collection! i would love to know about them though

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    27 Apr 2026

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    genuinely some of THE best fics in this fandom fr. anon i wanna kiss u on the forehead

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    It starts simply enough. Ilya has him pinned to the bed, his mouth on Shane's neck the way he likes, his hands loose on Shane's wrists. They aren't naked, not yet, but that's just a matter of time; right now, Shane is enjoying the frustration of his cock held back by his pants, the pull of his shirt twisted tight at his waist. Ilya releases one of Shane's wrists to grope at his fly, sliding the zipper down, setting him free, and because it's too soon, too easy, too good, Shane moans "oh no" just softly, the barest whisper of breath, already arching up into Ilya's hand.

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    Shane says no, but he means yes.

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    It turns out, Shane can cum three times in a hour.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    “You didn’t like it the last time we tried it,” Shane said.

    Ilya gave a one-shouldered shrug. “Was years ago. Maybe it is an acquired taste, like licorice.”

    “You also don’t like licorice,” Shane pointed out.

    “Yes, but I keep trying it because Luca likes it so much.”

    “And then you make a face and tell him how awful it is.”

    “When have I ever told you your dick is awful?” Ilya said, looking mildly offended. “I am its number one fan.”

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    25 Apr 2026

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    “Fuck.” Shane melted into the strong hand at his neck, the pressure over his throat and the heat of the Alpha’s palm. “Fuck, that’s–” his eyes started to flutter closed, his knees going weak, but he heard the Alpha huff a laugh and immediately stiffened again. 

    “Don’t do that.” he warned. “Don’t laugh like me letting you put your hand on my throat is predictable submissive Omega behavior and you're making fun of me."

    “That is not why i was laughing.” Ilya squeezed Shane’s throat lightly, his thumb pressing over the suppressant patch covering the Omega's bonding spot and blocking his sweet scent. “I thought you would fight it, fight submitting. But you didn’t.”

    “No I–” Shane swallowed hard. “I like it.” 

    “Good.” Ilya smiled slow and a little dangerous, running his tongue over his bottom lip and then over the sharp ends of his fangs before he leaned in and growled into the Omega’s ear. “Now get on your knees.”

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Searching I woke up with a pussy brings anything from porn results to Creepypasta forums. Shane miserably clicks on a Reddit thread, trying in vain to find any sort of answers when there's a knock on the bathroom door. 

    "Shane? Are you feeling ok?" 

    "I- yeah." Shane jumps, nearly dropping his phone. "I'm fine. Why?"

    There's a pause. "Are you sick?"

    Shane swallowed. Was he sick? Is that what triggered this? 

    "You have been in there for almost half an hour. If you are sick, I want to know." 

    "No, not like-  not like that." Shane flushed. God, how was he gonna explain this? 

    ・・・・・

    On their first day of summer vacation, Shane wakes up with a pussy. He decides to hide it from Ilya and wait for it to go away. This decision has consequences.

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    23 Apr 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    21 Apr 2026

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    He moves, his hands steady, counting the measures as he pours. One-two-three, one-two-three. Ice sings against glass - liquid swirls in a chaotic, beautiful vortex. The world narrows mercifully to the simple logic of weight and movement, physics that he can control. For a few blessed seconds, the memories pressing against the back of his skull recede, and there is no phantom bite of ice under his skates, no roar of a stadium crowd worshipping a god that no longer exists.

    Just this.

    He slides the drinks down the bar with a practiced flick, flashes that curated smile again, feels the brief, shallow surge of satisfaction when one of them says, “Keep the change,” and tosses an extra bill into the tip jar. Small victories. Small comforts.

    Shane has learned to survive on crumbs.

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    20 Apr 2026

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    “I used to be so mad that she was gone sometimes, but it’s okay. I forgive her. I would forgive her every time.”

    Something in Yuna’s eyes fractures, like a bird bone under the sole of a shoe. “Your mother is very lucky, then.”

    “Yuna,” Ilya says, and he tries very hard to not look at Shane, to not see the unforgiving, enduring hurt in his eyes when he looks over at his mother, so far away from her that he can’t come home, even though he desperately wants to. He looks at Yuna instead, and somehow, even as he braces against the ice-cold concrete and lets the sound of the whistling wind settle in his ears and has been looking at her for a long time now, he finds himself entirely unprepared for familiar Yuna’s eyes will be when she turns her gaze from the distant streetlamp to him. “You’re very lucky too.”

     

    Shane Hollander is a ghost with a comatose body that won't work, unable to move on because his mom won't come visit him. Ilya Rozanov is the only person who can see and hear him, and against all odds, this is still a love story.

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    19 Apr 2026

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    Rather than give him the joint, Ilya takes it back between his own lips and sucks in a deep breath, the tip glowing as he does so. Then, before Shane can process it, he’s reaching up and sliding one large hand around the back of Shane’s neck, pulling him down so their lips meet.

    Shane gasps softly, and Ilya takes the opportunity to blow smoke into his open and waiting mouth.

    Oh, God. Are you there? It’s me, Shane Hollander. We’ve had our differences, but I think I’d like to convert for real this time. I’m ready. Open the pearly white gates. I’m coming up.

    Shane goes to a house party, gets high, then gets on his knees. bon appetite
    now a multi-chapter saga bc i couldn't help myself

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    19 Apr 2026

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    ”Just a few months,” he heard himself say, haltingly.

    Ilya’s eyes sparkled. ”Yes.”

    ”And you will behave, Rozanov.”

    ”I always behave, Hollander.” He shoved at Ilya’s shoulder at this. Ilya caught his wrist and held on. He was grinning. ”It’s going to be fine. No big deal, yes?”

    No big deal. Right. ”Just to get Hayden to leave me alone,” Shane muttered. Ilya nodded but didn’t make a comment about Hayden this time, which Shane appreciated, actually. And then he said, ”Fine, you’ll win your stupid bet,” and twisted his wrist out of Ilya’s grip. ”Let’s try.”

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    16 Apr 2026

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    welp there won't be a threequel. i promise myself that.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise.

    She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night.

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    Or, it's Sochi 2014 and Russia has lost to Latvia. Grigori Rozanov, not yet compromised by illness, punishes his son for shaming the family. When Svetlana finds an injured and emotionally fragile Ilya, she knows she needs somewhere safe for him to recover. And there's only one person in Russia who Sveta trusts with her Ilyusha: Canada's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    “Say it again?” Shane pleads softly. “Before I leave?”

    Ilya nods, pressing his lips to Shane’s chest. When he speaks, it’s like he’s trying to push it between Shane’s ribs—directly to his heart.

    “Baby.” This, first, in English. Then in Russian: “One day you’ll realize that you’re wasted on me.

    Shane utters a quiet sob, like he understands every word. Hours later, when Ilya’s trying to sleep, he’ll swear he can feel the same sound trapped in his throat.

    Or: Ilya loves pet names. One day, Shane returns the favor.

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    04 Apr 2026

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    At the 2017 All Star Weekend, Ilya takes fate into his own hands to produce at least one out MLH player by the end of the season. Thus begins his part-time side hustle as community organizer, mastermind, and Commander-in-Chief of the Gay Hockey Army.

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    04 Apr 2026

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