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  1. Public Bookmark 75

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    What is the price of your deepest, biggest desire being fulfilled? Is it worth it? Would it be just as worth later? But he wanted. Oh, how he wanted. And he wanted and wanted and wanted.

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    Shane is a normal person. He’s playing good hockey. He’s getting his degree. He loves his parents and his friends. He has a boyfriend. He’s still discovering some things about himself that might affect his whole life just like the fact that his boyfriend is an infuriating, breathtakingly beautiful, soul-consuming demon.

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    04 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander arrives in Vegas with a question he hasn’t spoken out loud.

    It isn’t complicated, exactly. It’s just the kind of question that requires honesty he isn’t sure he’s ready for - about what he and Ilya Rozanov have been doing for the past few years, about what six months of silence after Sochi actually meant, and about whether any of it is worth staying close to or whether he finally needs to go.

    He gets his answer in a locked bathroom at the NHL Awards.

    Ilya spends the summer convinced that Shane is fine. Upset? Yes. Angry? Definitely. But Shane always felt things fiercely despite what everyone said about him when he had his back turned. He’d calm down over the summer and then he’d be there like he always had been. He fills the silence with discipline and routine and the comfortable certainty that later is still available to him.

    He’s wrong.

    By the time Ilya understands what he actually lost, Shane is already gone; and Ilya is left trying to find a way back to someone who closed the door long before Ilya had ever thought to just walk through it.

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    02 Aug 2026

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    Shane & Ilya discover a new shared kink. This is basically a series of interconnected/chronological one shots of them figuring out how (and maybe why) they like it, while being domestic, in love Hollanov.
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    "Oh god, Ilya," he said, voice wrecked. "I'm so close."

    "Let go," Ilya said. "For me."

    Shane's eyes snapped open. He searched Ilya's face, like he needed the reassurance still.

    Ilya grabbed his hand and pressed it to his own hard cock. "You feel that?" he asked, voice low. "I'm about to come in my pants just thinking about it, Shane."

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    02 Aug 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 17

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    What if, to find a boyfriend, Shane have to kiss a hundred guys?

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    02 Aug 2026

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    Ilya is an asshole to Shane in Sochi. He's an asshole again in Vegas.

    Shane decides he doesn't hate himself enough to put up with this shit.

    It takes everything he has, but he ends it with Ilya.

    Ilya isn't having it.

    OR: What does Ilya Rozanov look like on his (figurative) knees?

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    31 Jul 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has a gift.

    He can speak to animals, which has earned him an incredibly successful career as a pet psychic, and far too much information about what people do when they think their pets aren’t watching.

    Shane Hollander has a problem.

    His cat, Pork, is permanently miserable. After exhausting every sensible option, Shane turns to the supernatural for assistance.

    After their first appointment, Pork grows visibly happier - his cat’s found a hobby and renewed sense of purpose for achieving his only goal: to destroy Ilya for good.

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    31 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander was the number one draft pick and is now captain of the Boston Raiders. Ilya Rozanov quit hockey after his mother died and now owns a bookshop in Boston. When Shane moves into a new apartment down the street from One Good Memory, he finds more than just a convenient place to grab a new book.

    Or...Shane is lonely and closeted and reads a lot; Ilya is charmed and quotes books at him.

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    Chapters:
    14/16
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    28 Jul 2026

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    “Eyes on me.” There is a sharp satisfaction as those eyes lift immediately to meet his again. “I need your name.”

    The man’s lashes flutter. “Shane, sir.”

    Ilya nods and lets his hand move through Shane’s hair. It is soft, and Shane leans into the touch, eyes closing briefly as if the contact alone is enough to ground him. The response is so natural that it gives Ilya pause.

    “Tell me about your limits.” Ilya doubts he is going to be close to any limits tonight, as Shane looks like he already had a pretty rough night. But he still needs to ask, good hygiene. 

    A small smile appears on Shane’s face, he looks at Ilya deeply, eyes not wandering away as he speaks, “There are no limit, sir.” He looks at the disbelief appearing on Ilya’s face and offers, “I’m the house slave.”

     

    Or, Ilya didn’t come for attachment, but Shane, bruised, obedient, and unraveling, becomes the one thing he can’t leave broken.

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    Chapters:
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    26 Jul 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov was not an alpha. He was not a beta. He was not an omega.

    Ilya Rozanov was nothing.

    And Shane Hollander was everything. And that's why Ilya could never have him.

    (Or - A story about recovery, reclaiming identity, finding peace, and falling in love. Starring my favorite soulmates, Ilya and Shane.)

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    10/?
    Comments:
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    26 Jul 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 56

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    Shane Hollander hates Ilya Rozanov.

    At least, that's what he's always believed.

    On the ice, Ilya is loud, infuriating, and impossible to ignore. Behind a mask in a private club, a man calling himself Lev is quiet, patient, and somehow becomes the one person Shane can't stop thinking about.

    What Shane doesn't know is that they're the same man.

    As rivalry turns into obsession and anonymity becomes intimacy, both men are forced to confront a question neither of them is prepared to answer:

    How do you fall in love with someone you've already learned to hate?

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    Chapters:
    9/?
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    25 Jul 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov no longer existed.

    After he presented as an Omega seven years ago, his fate was sealed and he spent the intervening years learning his place.

    He never expected to end up in an Omega shelter in Ottawa, being placed with a sponsor to help him gain his Canadian asylum citizenship due to his designation.

    He *certainly* never expected to be placed with the Alpha who he'd played against all those years ago, the Alpha with the soft doe eyes and the beautiful freckles.

    And what he finds there?

    Well, those things were the most unexpected discoveries of all.

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    24 Jul 2026

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    After tuna melts and their first night actually sleeping together, Ilya asks Shane for more. Shane agrees, not knowing that this was Ilya's way of asking him out.

    Comination of written fic and texting fic.

    The text scrolls!

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    Chapters:
    12/15
    Collections:
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    Comments:
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    24 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander invents Total Power Exchange out of his own beautiful mind. He and Ilya figure out what it means for Shane to belong to him completely.

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    23 Jul 2026

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    “Oh, I love it. I love ugly, brutal things. But you make it beautiful, too, Shane Hollander, with the way you play, and that is what I have come to watch. You are so light on your edges, so crisp and graceful. You are dancing on knives, and everyone else is trying not to fall.” He pushed himself away from the pillar, and Shane held very still, frozen, as Rozanov reached out to cup his chin, gripping it so hard Shane’s lips parted. “Beautiful,” he said firmly.

     

    Or: Shane Hollander, Gold Medallist, encounters Ilya Rozanov, leshy.

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    21 Jul 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 36

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    Shane Hollander is having relationship problems. Specifically, boner problems.

    Luckily, his teammate, Ilya Rozanov, is more than willing to help with Shane's newest project on how to get hard: cuckolding.

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    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    19
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    176
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    3,283

    19 Jul 2026

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    Fate liked to torture him, so Shane looked at Ilya.
    "What do you think?" He asked shyly, much less amused by all this when Ilya stayed quiet. He hasn't spoken a word since Shane left the bathroom. "I think…I think I could grow to like the eyeliner, but…"
    Ilya interrupted him with an unidentifiable sound that left his tight throat. He cleared it, trying to hold himself together.
    "Is nice." He mumbled out. "Pretty dress."
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    In which ilya thinks he's straight, until he sees his gay best friend dressed up in drag as a joke (he gets so hard he almost faints).

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    19 Jul 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is on top of the world. Fast cars, a hot boyfriend, a successful hockey career. Sure, he hasn’t fallen in love with his boyfriend yet, but like everything else falling in love just requires hard work. He’ll get there eventually.

    When Shane Hollander crashes back into his life, Ilya starts to question if the top of the world might actually be more of a home shaped place with a fluffy orange cat and an annoying hockey player. But Ilya can’t just ditch his plans to go to Paris with his boyfriend and run off with Shane Hollander instead. Right?

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    Comments:
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    19,506

    19 Jul 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 80

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    After a near-fatal shooting ended Ilya's hockey career before it even started, he left Russia to start a new life in Boston. At the airport, on the way to his connecting flight, he had a chance encounter with rookie Shane Hollander that changed their lives forever.

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    40
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    18 Jul 2026

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    "Special enough to come out of retirement for?"

    Ilya looks at the space between his legs that had once been occupied by dark eyes and a constellation of freckles and a smart mouth. He feels bereft.

    This sub, Shane Hollander, is special. Not quite a brat, though not sweet and obedient either. The thought of fighting for his submission, of smacking that smart mouth and then kissing praises against it, is tempting. 

    And he’d only had the sub at his feet for minutes. Ilya left the Mastigery for many reasons, but Shane Hollander is making him forget all of them. 

    “I will have a room ready for him in the morning.”

    Or; Professional Dom for Hire, Ilya Rozanov, struggles with his sadistic desires and meets his match in Shane Hollander; the failed Montreal trainee.

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    Chapters:
    6/17
    Comments:
    686
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    18 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a university student trying his best. He is managing three jobs, two majors, and one sexuality crisis that threatens to upend his hockey career before it even starts. When his best friend, Rose, begs him to come with her to an exclusive BDSM club to let loose and experiment, Shane cannot believe it when he caves to her demands and agrees. Oh and it just so happens that unbeknownst to Shane the club is owned by a Russian mob boss. But really, what could go wrong?

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    Or the one where organized crime boss Ilya meets hockey-playing uni student Shane and big feelings and kinky shenanigans unfold

    Updates ~2x/week <3

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    202,062
    Chapters:
    41/?
    Comments:
    3,285
    Kudos:
    3,847
    Bookmarks:
    1,368
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    187,664

    18 Jul 2026

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