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babies born in the month of may by bitterbloodyorange
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Jun 2026
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Yuna does not say, I’m sorry, I miss my mom, I can’t keep anything alive.
There are parts of her she never wants Shane to see. She never wants Shane to know about the car she crashed at twenty, the herbs that died because she overwatered them, the miscarriages, or that she wanted to play on a hockey team very badly until she was thirteen. Only now, when her son is seventeen and her parents are long gone, does she understand her father had simply lied to her about the things he never could have forgotten.
Yuna Hollander and the Art of Raising a Winner Without Giving Him (or Yourself) Too Much of a Complex About It; Ilya Rozanov's Incomprehensive Guide to Charming Your Stoned Boyfriend
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12 Oct 2026
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you're an asshole, afterall by bitterbloodyorange
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
28 Jul 2026
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Ilya’s obviously aware that there’s something up with Shane, okay? No one who spent their formative years (as well as their twenties and thirties) obsessively watching Shane Hollander Best Goal YouTube clips could glimpse what was going on with the Metros last season and think that nothing had changed. He asked and asked over the summer months, and Shane denied and denied and denied to the point where Ilya had to wonder if Shane knew there was something up with himself. But that was silly. Of course Shane knew.
Ilya likes to think he’s the Shane Hollander whisperer. He knows about Shane’s dormant exhibitionism kink and how to trigger it without triggering what neither of them like to call an anxiety attack. He knows the difference between Shane's hungry stomach grumbles and impending-stomach-ache stomach grumbles. There’s probably not a freckle on Shane’s body Ilya hasn’t licked before, if he’s being honest. That’s not really impressive or a key to revealing Shane’s psyche or anything, but it’s probably worth mentioning.
On Shane Hollander's transfer to the Ottawa Centaurs, and everything he left behind.
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- Part 2 of playing it any way i want
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12 Oct 2026
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a pox on all your houses by apocryphal
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
20 Jul 2026
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"Chlamydia?" Ilya has never heard Hollander's voice reach such heights in the absence of a cock. "You have chlamydia?"
"I did not get it on purpose," Ilya complains.
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09 Oct 2026
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It is December, and Scott has been out for long enough to pretend to be used to it, and things are not perfect but they’re fucking good, and Ilya Rozanov is at his apartment for dinner—has been for over an hour—and he’s still waiting so stupidly hopefully to introduce a boyfriend who very, very clearly isn’t coming.
(Or: studies on coming out, learning patience, one-sided conversations, and other absurdist waiting games.)
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- English
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- 13,255
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05 Sep 2026
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Cliff's Rookie year was kinda fucking awful. Being the new guy sucks.
Lucky for him, there's a new new guy to take the heat now.
Even luckier for him, the new guy is kinda fucking crazy...
Or, Ilya Rozanov Vs The Locker Room, featuring the epic bromancing of one Cliff Marlow.
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- Part 1 of Duty of Care
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- English
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15 Aug 2026
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Look at that. Another white guy with his little Asian sugar baby.
Twenty-seven years, and not once has a stranger looked at David Hollander and his son and seen a father. Then Ilya Rozanov sits beside him in a restaurant and a server says, "Can I get anything else for you and your son?" David does not correct him.`
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04 Aug 2026
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one of your eyes is always half-shut (something happened when you were a kid) by jade_werla
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
21 Jan 2026
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Shane Hollander is not a small fucking guy; he is all muscle, with big, calloused hockey-player hands and eyes nearly pretty enough to disguise the violence hidden in breadth of his shoulders.
Alexei is impressed.
Not a bad get, for someone fished out of a pool of hockey men who look like thumbs, their noses like squashed tomatoes and ears like boat sails. If it could not be beautiful, nosy bitch Svetlana, if it has to be a man, if it has to be a hockey player, then rich as God Shane Hollander isn’t the worst Ilyusha could have pulled.
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or Alexei is in deep shit. He can’t get to Ilya, so he tries the next best thing.Bookmarked by asthewindbehaves
11 Jul 2026
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the texture of memory by artifice
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
30 Jan 2026
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Shane has been missing for a long, long time.
Or: Ilya goes on a road trip. Somewhere along the way, he finds himself again.
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- Part 1 of texture of memory
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21 Jun 2026
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In late 2014, celebrity photos start dropping. Ilya deletes his texts, his photos, a video he should never have taken. It isn't soon enough.
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17 Jun 2026
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Ilya Rozanov’s opponents would describe him as a brutal savage with a dirty record, known for hitting after the bell’s gone off. Spectators would describe him as a cocky spitfire with the stats to back it up, dollar bills passed around like candy whenever he was in the cage. Commentators would describe him as a barreling force of nature with a promising legacy. Weighing in at a hundred and eighty-five pounds of raw muscle, he was the son of Grigori Rozanov, notorious Russian street fighter, and he pulled no punches, so to speak.
Shane would describe Ilya Rozanov as a fucking asshole with, admittedly, a pretty clean uppercut. Hardly any of the matches he’d watched him win had lasted the full five minutes.
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AU. Shane first introduces himself to Ilya Rozanov ten minutes before they’re slotted to beat the shit out of each other in front of a live audience. They go together like fire and gasoline.
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14 Jun 2026
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Eleven years ago, a total psychopath walked into a bar, onto a wharf, and all over Captain Shane Hollander’s life. And then he did it again, and again.
[Podfic available]
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- Part 11 of Medric's Greatest Hits Vol. 1
- Part 1 of Pardon’s Point
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11 Jun 2026
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and we all fall down by lowkey_existential_despair
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
21 Sep 2026
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The truth was, yeah, Shane married Ilya, but he’d married hockey first. He married hockey the second he signed his rookie contract with the Metros, and his courtship began long, long before. And his marriage to hockey wasn’t like his marriage to Ilya. Hockey wouldn’t ever love him back. Ilya wasn’t going to chew Shane up and spit him out at some nebulous point after he turned thirty and before he turned forty, his joints busted and his mouth full of dentures and his brain fucked to hell and back. And that marriage—his first marriage—had always come before his second, illicit shotgun wedding.
It wasn’t ideal, maybe, but that was just how things were. Hell, it was probably the same for Ilya, too. The fuck was Shane supposed to do about it? Nothing, nothing, nothing. He liked his life just the way it was. He didn’t want to do anything different. He still doesn’t. And that’s the worst, most shameful part of it all: at the end of the day, some part of Shane will always wish he could wind back time like adjusting a watch; erase that Instagram post before it ever hit the internet and go back to the life they’d had before; the life that was slowly killing them both.
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- Part 3 of two weddings and a scandal
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- English
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- 77,349
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- 9/11
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04 Jun 2026
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good on my own accord by impetuous
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
14 May 2026
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No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.
Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.
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- Part 1 of #42 Shane Hollander
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- 18/18
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15 May 2026
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Wyatt was not, like, nosy. For sure, he was interested. He was curious. He engaged with people, obviously, because most people were interesting and engaging and had cool thoughts and said neat stuff if you asked.
So, no. Wyatt wasn’t nosy, but he wasn’t stupid, either.
Or: A Bromance Blooms In Ottawa
Or: The Ballad of Wyatt and Ilya- Language:
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27 Apr 2026
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a year safe in your heart by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Mar 2026
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“And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”
Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”
“It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”
“Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”
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The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.
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- Part 1 of anonymous cottage collection
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- 6/6
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19 Apr 2026
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About Summer by chaentics for inkingbrushes
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
09 Feb 2026
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In 2008, Shane Hollander lost to Ilya Rozanov. Fresh-faced, hungry. Like he’d been living off victory points that were scraps compared to the real thing, compared to beating Rozanov, the first man in the world to make him feel second-best. Back then, he’d thought that was the only thing he felt, too. That the electric pulse jostling between them in the gym some time later was a trick of the mind. It was like seeing sky above for the first time. See you at the draft. Life in that paper body.
or: Ilya comes back. This is the crux of it.
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15 Apr 2026
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“Be careful,” Shane frets, one hand hovering over Ilya’s shoulder. “It’s icy, and I don’t want to be a widower.”
“Oh, we’d have to be much higher than this for the fall to kill me,” Ilya says, gaze still fixed on the cool black skyline. “At least seven stories.”
It’s not until much later, as the waitress is clearing the dishes from dinner, that Yuna finds herself wondering why Ilya knows exactly how high a fall needs to be in order to kill him.
Or: Yuna learns about Ilya's past bit by bit over the years.
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- Part 7 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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- English
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- 321
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08 Apr 2026
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Til They Retire Your Number by technicallyverycowboy
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 Dec 2025
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They lapse back into a comfortable silence. Shane looks at Ilya as he is and thinks about Ilya as he was at seventeen, smoking in the back of a Saskatchewan parking lot. The image is almost unbearably tender for Shane, where his own seventeen year old thrill at seeing Ilya Rozanov meets all the things Shane knows about that lonely boy now.
Shane thinks: Do you love number 81 more than you love this man?
"Hey," Ilya says, brushing his knuckles over Shane's cheek. "Whatever I do, I will be there when you come home."
Ilya decides to retire. Shane is very normal about it.
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- 5/5
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- 459
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30 Mar 2026
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holy matrimony by lowkey_existential_despair
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Feb 2026
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There’s a sign in front of Shane. It says Welcome to Scott Hunter and Kip Grady’s Happily Ever After in a cursive font that makes Shane think of Etsy. Shane’s stomach churns. He briefly squeezes his empty ring finger. He feels, all at once, like he might cry. Instead, he swallows, and breathes, and pastes a smile on his face, and marches his ass down to Scott and Kip’s fucking wedding of the century.
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- Part 1 of two weddings and a scandal
- Language:
- English
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- 31,700
- Chapters:
- 6/6
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- 789
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29 Mar 2026
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Morals Clause: A contract provision that may be used in endorsement, spokesperson, and similar agreements to give the advertiser the right to terminate the deal, seek damages, or remove branding if the individual engages in actions bringing disrepute, scandal, or negative attention, protecting the brand's image and financial interests.
Yuna does her research—apparently, a morals clause is common, in contracts like this.
It bothers her, a little, how vague it is, but ultimately, she doesn’t see an issue with it—at least, not really.
Shane is many things, and she is so, so excited to see how much more he becomes… but, for all of the many things she imagines in his future, she doesn't think he's capable of doing anything that could be accurately described as scandalous.
She's wrong.
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28 Mar 2026