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  1. Public Bookmark 49

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    Ilya Rozanov is being a vicious asshole, and he won't let himself think about why. After a fight with Yuna and Shane, he's forced to confront what's actually below the surface of his anger. Shane Hollander shows up to take care of his sad boy.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Angry tears spring to his eyes and his head spins. His breath picks up.

    Something bad is happening, he thinks.

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    Shane is finally settled into married life with Ilya when ghosts from his past unearth troubling secrets he didn't even know were buried. He's forced to go on an odyssey in search for the answer to one question: what really happened to him all those years ago?

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    27 Feb 2026

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    “Am I speaking with Ilya Grigorievich Rozanov?”

    Ilya went silent immediately. That was not his brother’s voice. Nor was it Katia’s, his sister-in-law’s. It was an aristocratic, cold voice. He went completely still.

    “Yes.”

    “I’m calling from the Child Services Department, Ilya Grigorievich,” the woman continued, and Ilya frowned deeply. “Your brother Alexei Rozanov and his wife died yesterday in a car accident.”

    Twice in his life, Ilya had felt like this. The ice around his heart melted just enough for the numbness to vanish and give way to a sharp, stinging pain. It lasted only two seconds before he managed to compose himself. He didn’t want to feel anything for Alexei, so even if Katia’s death carried a trace of sadness—she was a mess, but she always tried to smile at him and cook warm meals for him when he visited Russia—, he dismissed the feeling entirely.

    “So what?”

    “You are the only living family member of their daughter. Your brother named you as her legal guardian, Ilya Grigorievich.”

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    24 Feb 2026

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    Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise.

    She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night.

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    Or, what happens if Grigori Rozanov isn't that sick during the Winter Olympics and takes out his anger on Ilya in the worst way? What if Svetlana calls Shane for help . . . and where do any of them go from here?

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    23 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 17

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    An untranslatable Russian word - Vladimir Nabokov describes it best: "No single word in English renders all the shades of toska. At its deepest and most painful, it is a sensation of great spiritual anguish, often without any specific cause. At less morbid levels it is a dull ache of the soul, a longing with nothing to long for, a sick pinning, a vague restlessness, mental throes, yearning. In particular cases it may be the desire for somebody or something specific, nostalgia, love-sickness. At the lowest level it grades into ennui boredom."

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    Irina Rozanov missed Russia. The cold bit her skin with an addicting kind of pain, one that was dulled by cigarettes and sharpened again with hunger pains as her father, Andrei Rozanov, again lost his money to coke. Canada was fine, it was cold, but a different kind of cold, one that didn't bite as hard. Her Uncles Shane and Ilya were always kind and made sure there was food on the table for her after her dreaded Hockey practice with that bitch Ruby Pike. Irina was grateful, but she wished she was happier.

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    20 Feb 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 32

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    One year after being married and being on the Ottawa Centaurs, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov start couples therapy. They begin talking about the impact of hockey on their relationship, goals for a family, and dredging up hurts from their past. POV is from the therapist.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    Katerina, Ilya’s niece, assuming she was born in 2010, applies for college in Canada. A story of reconnection. I always want to heal Ilya in any fic. Both of them deserve the world.

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    “Hello,” she answered the phone.

    “Hello, I am looking for Miss Rozanova,” a man’s voice replied.

    “This is she.”

    “Aa, Miss Rozanova, I am very sorry for your loss. My name is Mr. Aliev. I am contacting you regarding the payments of your high school. We require proof of the new school year to proceed with payments.”

    “I’m sorry, I don’t understand what you mean,” she replied, confused.

    “I am sorry, Miss. Are you aware of your personal school funds? I have been communicating with your mother, god rest her soul, up to this point. I assumed you knew. Your uncle Ilya Rozanov has created a trust fund to ensure your schooling and your wellbeing, provided any expense is justified, under the aforementioned conditions,” the voice stopped, expecting an answer back.

    She knew she had an uncle; he had moved to Canada to play hockey. No one in her family talked about him.

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    01 Feb 2026

  8. Rec *

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    When Ilya and Shane decide that they want to start a family, the universe seems to listen.

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    31 Jan 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are first-time foster parents to a trans eleven-year-old who just needs a safe place to land for a few days. There are big challenges ahead of them, but Shane and Ilya are naturals at the whole parenting thing. Most of the time.

    This is a story for anyone who wants to see a trans child being loved and celebrated while a particular Russian hockey player heals his inner child along the way.

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    30 Jan 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov does not come pre-installed with good communication or healthy coping skills. Is he going to seek out help on his own? Hell no! But when a family member kills himself, fellow Boston Raider and friend Cliff Marleau decides that Ilya is going to therapy come hell or high water. And Ilya... well, Ilya is just playing along to keep the peace. Right? He doesn't need therapy. But if it helps his friend be less worried, so be it.

    OR: What if Ilya came into the tuna meltdown with slightly upgraded social skills and no one actually ran away before they had a conversation?

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    29 Jan 2026

  11. Rec *

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    Sometimes, late at night, he catches himself sitting still on the couch. Hours pass without him noticing.

    He thinks about his mother then. Not about the way she died, but the way she lived on her worst days. The way she would sit for hours, staring at nothing. The way he would sit in the corner of her room, quiet, and afraid to leave her alone.

    He shakes himself out of it. He’s embarrassed by the comparison. He’s not like that. He’s functioning. He’s successful. And most importantly, he’s loved.

    He’s fine.

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    24 Jan 2026

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    "It should never be said that Ilya liked getting injured. Sure, he loved getting up in his opposition's face and that had meant taking some serious hits over the years, but he hated being taken off the ice for stupid injuries. Injuries meant getting benched and doing tedious, repetitive exercises until the team doctor decided he was healed enough to rejoin the team. They meant his husband was more neurotic than usual, trying to tend to his every need (Ilya didn’t hate that part, but he did hate that it ruined their sex life). They also meant he couldn’t chase Anya around the yard and hold her like a baby. And that wasn’t even the worst part. The worst part of being injured was that he had to sit idly, especially with a concussion, and that meant he had a lot of time to think which never ended well. "

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    OR: Ilya gets hurt during a playoff game and tries to hide it from Shane until he can't anymore

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    23 Jan 2026

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    Harris Drover might be in charge of the Centaurs social media - he cannot tell Yuna Hollander what she can and cannot post.

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    20 Jan 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 32

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    By 2026 Ilya Rozanov is one of the most unforgettable names in hockey history.

    Whether that is because of his childhood, or in spite of it, is anyone's guess.

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    20 Jan 2026

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    Shane and Ilya always thought their kids would be pro hockey players but when their daughter sees one of the older girls 'flying' they become the most intense skating dads in the best way

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    Shane and ilya as girl dads

    -COMPLETED-

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    19 Jan 2026

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    In the video playing on the little screen in Shane’s hand, Hunter gets up with some help, his left arm cradling the elbow of his limp right one. That shoulder is probably dislocated, something that Shane distantly recognizes is going to suck tremendously for him to have to let heal practically at the start of the season. Ilya still isn’t moving.

    Ilya is injured during a game. Not only does Shane’s world not end in the aftermath, it gets a little bit brighter.

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    12 Jan 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 3

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    At BYU, Kevin Price thinks he has his life — and faith — all figured out. That is, until he meets Connor McKinley. Between stolen glances, too-long silences, and a friendship teetering on something more, Kevin finds temptation harder and harder to resist.

    Arnold Cunningham’s interest in Nabulungi Hatimbi seems like harmless puppy love — until campus prejudice and personal insecurities threaten to pull them apart.

    As the four of them navigate love, friendship, and the suffocating expectations of their environment, one question lingers: is it worth risking paradise for the truth?

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    26 Aug 2025

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