lilacretrograde
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- Fallout (Video Games) (8)
- Fallout 4 (7)
- Fallout 3 (2)
- Fallout: New Vegas (1)
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She was a legend once. Settlements defended, slaves freed, clean water flowing through a wasteland on the brink. But he remembers her differently, as the patient mentor who once taught him chess while he was being molded into a leader. She was too young to carry the weight of the wasteland. He was only a boy when they placed command on his shoulders. Then she vanished, leaving behind nothing but ghosts and whispers.
Now, clinics rise from the ruins. Blue tape stretched across broken thresholds like law. No weapons. No allegiances. No questions. Only healing. A nameless doctor builds them one by one, even as she searches for the key to making her impossible dream a reality. But the Institute’s shadow looms, and its secrets stand in her way.
He swears to save humanity from technology; she swears to save it from itself. What began as a boy’s quiet crush sparks into something far more dangerous, even as the savior of the Capital Wasteland takes up her fight again. She never wanted to be a legend. But legends don’t ask permission. Legends are made, one story, one battle, one strip of blue tape at a time.
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Deacon only ever calls her Whisper.
Over months of shared missions, rooftop stakeouts, terrible coffee, and stories traded in the dark, Nora finds herself drawn to the man behind the disguises.
Deacon finds himself developing a recurring problem involving a labyrinth.
Both situations become increasingly difficult to ignore.
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quicksave: new game by lilacretrograde
Fandoms: Fallout (Video Games), Fallout: New Vegas
08 Sep 2025
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Every loop is the same.
Wake up. Walk the Mojave. Kill the man who shot her.
Over and over and over and over and over again.But something’s changed.
Benny smiles differently now.
Her hands shake before she pulls the trigger.
She feels herself beginning to unravel at the seams.The longer the loops drag on, the harder it becomes to tell revenge from ritual, and the man she was supposed to hate becomes something far more complicated.
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- Part 2 of quicksave
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how we learned to stop worrying and love the bomb by lilacretrograde
Fandoms: Fallout 4, Fallout (Video Games), Fallout 3
24 Feb 2025
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The Commonwealth is gone. The Institute has won.
Nora should have died with it, but instead, she followed the old railroad tracks south, haunted by the ghosts of the home she failed to save. At her side is the only person left who understands what it’s like to lose everything—Deacon, the Railroad’s last surviving liar, lone survivor of a different kind of war. Deacon has some ghosts of his own that threaten to resurface. Together, they cross a wasteland on the edge of collapse, searching for a reason to keep fighting.
But the Institute is still watching. And they want Nora.
A story of survival, reinvention, and two people finding something worth living for in the ruins of the world.
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Brotherhood of Steel radio transmissions are always the same: endless call signs and code phrases, logistics, coordinates, and military orders. Scribe Haylen of Recon Squad Gladius monitors it all. One day, however, an FM Station from Diamond City breaks through the static. The DJ is rambling and nervous, but the pre-war music speaks to her. She might even find the DJ, Travis Miles, charming- in an awkward sort of way. Then, one night, she decides to request a song.
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quicksave by lilacretrograde
Fandom Fallout (Video Games), Fallout 4, Fallout: New Vegas
08 Sep 2025
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In the ruins of Cambridge, Deacon finds a basement that should not have survived. A dead woman's case files. Her journals. Her silk robe, still boxed. Two hundred years of a life packed away mid-living.
Every part of her archive is labeled. Everything except one holotape.
He should have hit stop.
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Bookmarked by lilacretrograde
13 Jul 2026
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Conrad Kellogg makes it out of Fort Hagen alive, but fucked in so many ways.
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Bookmarked by lilacretrograde
01 Jul 2026
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The one about the angry chick and her pet greaser boyfriend by PossumBones
Fandom Fallout (Video Games), Fallout 3
09 Dec 2021
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01 Jul 2026
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The Blood Underneath Her Fingernails by Grokazulu
Fandoms: Fallout: New Vegas, Fallout (Video Games)
28 Jun 2025
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This is a story about our courier before she was The Courier. As a budding young huntress, our courier is in trouble. Her mother is sick with rad sickness and the settlement their in is too dirt poor to afford rad-away. Across the Mojave lies hope: a sealed vault run by dwellers who might be inclined to help, if she can get there in one piece. Our young woman goes on a quest to save her mother, with her annoying talkative, "definitely-not-her-boyfriend" best friend at her side.
Bookmarked by lilacretrograde
13 May 2025
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There’s something in Blackwood’s gaze beyond the smugness. To consider it teasing implies a camaraderie that doesn’t exist between them. Any fondness they’ve ever held for each other, any kind regard, was burnt out years ago. Davos made sure of that. Aeron searches his eyes, staring deeper than he’s ever had leave to.
“You jest,” he says, incredulous. “About this?”
“I wonder what your uncle would say?”
It’s a marvel Aeron doesn’t reach across the table to strangle him. He ought to.
Bookmarked by lilacretrograde
15 Jan 2025