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It’s not where you come from, it’s where you belong.
The tires squealed as the car came to a stop. Trinity could feel her heartbeat get quicker. It wasn’t her first time in a foster home, but every time brought the feeling of walking into a viper's den.
Or: Trinity moves into a new foster home, the two dads: Michael "Robby" Robinavitch and Jack Abbot.
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23 Apr 2026
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The war doesn't start with a bang — it begins with a whisper.
James Potter overhears something he cannot forget. Regulus Black says something he cannot take back.
Slow burn Jegulus. Realistic consequences. A story about loyalty, survival, and what it means to choose each other anyway.
Prepare for angst (with an eventual happy ending!) >:)
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- Part 1 of Fallen Star Series
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17 Apr 2026
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Harry's summer after his fourth year is spent having to relieve the events of the third task each night, weighed down by guilt and trauma. He has never had it easy, but with the wizarding world turning on him, he feels more alone than ever.
After the dementor attack and being forced out of No4 privet drive, he spends his summer at Grimmauld far from happy. His friends and godfather do nothing to ease his turbulent mind.His fifth year at Hogwarts begins as he spirals into depression, turning to unhealthy coping mechanisms. It seems no one is able to save him from his worst enemy: his own mind.
He has not only this to contend with, but a malicious Dolores Umbridge who is out to get him. Despite this, Harry refuses to seek the help he needs.Harry's descent is brought to the attention of Severus Snape, much to his distaste. As no one else intervenes, will the potions master be able to move past his grudge against the boy and help before it is too late?
slowburn severitus (not biological)
there aren't any main romance storylines - maybe some slight wolfstar but not muchBookmarked by llmuddybootsll
07 Apr 2026
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After almost a year clean, Jude relapses. Willem helps him pick up the pieces.
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07 Apr 2026
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Yolanda overhears Trinity's conversation with Whitaker about Garcia not liking her and using her for stress relief. She confronts her and finds more than she bargained for.
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01 Apr 2026
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This series gathers my works related to Rabbot (Jack/Robby) and suicide (attempted, contemplated, achieved). Those works are not necessarily part of the same universe.
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09 Mar 2026
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The Rhythm and Routine by LunarWilde
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Mar 2026
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This like everything else in Shane's life this had a way it had to been done, a rhythm and routine, done the same way every time in a rotating place on his body so no one could click on to what the golden boy Shane Hollander did when he couldn't get his stupid fucking brain to shut up.
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08 Mar 2026
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As you sit on the roof ready to say goodbye, a phone call changes everything.
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22 Feb 2026
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As he stood there in Robby’s doorway, Jack’s gaze caught on the bottle of wine, cast aside earlier and forgotten. He had come to celebrate. His… best friend? The term seemed inadequate for what Robby was to him. His Robby had been planning to kill himself, likely for months, and Jack hadn’t even suspected anything was off until the last possible moment.
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Robby never really planned on taking that sabbatical. Jack finds him just in time.
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31 Jan 2026
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He mutters, "I'm not letting go until you tell me what you're going to do when you've crossed state lines."
"I told you," Robby huffs, "Beer. Hot apple cider. Maybe a chicken pot pie on the porch of some good Samaritan who takes pity on me."
"Yeah? Chicken pot pie?" Jack hums, raising his eyebrows, receiving an affirming nod from the other. "Gonna go on a stereotypical-ass spirit journey? That's what you're going to do, Michael? That's the reason you hugged me like that? Like you were savoring it?"
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And Michael Robinavitch would have gotten away with it, too, if it weren't for Jack Abbot.
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30 Jan 2026
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Jude self-harms, is unsure of what to do, and doesn’t want to burden anyone. He needs stitches though and decides to call Andy. Jude is treated, admits a couple things, and is so so tired. Harold and Willem help him stay safe for the next few days and lecture him, too, as loved ones do.
((INDEFINITELY DISCONTINUED))
NOTE: YOU are responsible for your own media consumption! Please be advised that this particular fic comes with very obv trigger warnings for self-harm/suicidal thoughts and behaviours. <3
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- Part 1 of The Oddities
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27 Jan 2026
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After the war and a long summer of rebuilding both their beloved school and their crumbling relationships, Harry and his friends are ready for something easy. Preparing for N.E.W.T.s, deciding careers, and coming down from the aftershocks of everything they've been through isn't exactly easy, but at least they're together. They're home at Hogwarts, taking in their last bits of youthful freedom before taking on the real world.
Maybe for once, it will just be a quiet year.
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- Part 5 of Summer sun forever
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26 Jan 2026
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When Draco goes storming into a rarely-used dungeon classroom to hide from Death-Eater rantings, the last thing he expected to find was Harry Potter bleeding out on the cold stone floor. Nevertheless he does, and what he decides to do next will change everything.
Written as a joint memoir with chapters by Harry, Draco & Severus:My therapist thought that this would be a good idea, to trace it back to where it all began.
I’ve asked Draco to tell his parts, and Severus too. I’m not going to make them, I haven’t that right – even despite everything, and despite what they tell me.
But I hope they will. This is not just my story; it is only one third.
And this, like so many things – both now and then – I can't, well, I don’t want, to do alone.Series
- Part 3 of Mainline (Collection)
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16 Sep 2025
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Harry Potter’s life was never a pretty one, he could admit. But, when his name was pulled from the Goblet of Fire against his own will, Harry gets to see just how ugly a life could get.
He really did think it couldn’t get worse than what it already was, but Harry should’ve known by now that nothing he wanted was ever to be granted.
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08 Aug 2025
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Harry Potter and the Will to Live by bellewritesalot
Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
15 Dec 2025
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From punches to punctures, Harry Potter was used to being hit around. After years living with his wretched aunt and uncle, stuck inside the walls of number 4 Privet Drive, the wizarding world was a surprise that was welcomed with open arms. But each summer returning to the Dursleys became harder as Harry's body weakened from the starvation and bruises.
Or what if the abuse Harry faced inside number 4 Privet Drive finally took a toll on his mental health, catching the attention of those closest to him?
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07 Aug 2025
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Sirius has a relapse into his self harm addiction and has to face Remus.
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- Part 27 of Marauders Oneshots
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04 Feb 2025
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Harry takes the death of his Godfather very hard to the point where Petunia has no choice but to contact Dumbledore for help. Dumbledore sends Snape to check on Harry and finds that the boy is not only depressed but suicidal and abused. Meanwhile Remus Lupin goes missing from his mission for the Order. SeverusXRemus and HarryXGinny shippings Mentions of cutting, suicide, and abuse. Possible Draco crushing on Harry......
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- Part 1 of Already Home
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27 May 2024
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24 May 2024
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“Harry Potter, my amazing, lovely, perfect, fucking brilliant partner. Listen to me right now, love. You would not be better off dead. Your godfather’s death is not your fault, and there are so many people who would agree and who love you dearly. You know better than to talk like that about yourself, especially when you know how much we all care for you, darling,” Cedric speaks the words gently, not scolding or admonishing. Harry requires a gentle tone when he’s like this, even when Cedric does have to remind him of the actual truth of things.
“My fault,” Harry replies, breathing starting to pick up as he clutches Cedric as tightly as he can.
“Not your fault,” Cedric repeats calmly as he starts to rub circles into Harry’s back. “None of it was your fault.”
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Harry thinks he’d be better off dead. Cedric makes sure he knows otherwise.
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- Part 1 of Proship April
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24 May 2024
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After Lily's death, Snape took it upon himself to care for her child— her child who looked all too much like his sworn enemy, but it was his eyes— it was his eyes that reminded him of Lily so much that it hurt, that it made him want to love the little one a little bit more every passing day.
Harry is seventeen now, and being raised by a protective and strict guardian was a hurdle all on its own, but add in being suicidal, depressed, apathetic and anxiety-struck, life truly went to the shitters. It does not help that his classes are even harder this year, and he just can't seem to stop piercing through his skin every waking moment.
And of course, there's those darn ice-grey eyes that he feels on himself wherever he goes.
Draco fucking Malfoy.
WARNING: This fic contains triggering and heavy topics like suicide, rape and eating disorders. Please put your mental health first. Thank you.
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26 Sep 2023