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Arthur doesn't die at Camlann, and Merlin is happy. Isn't he?
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“Thank you” Arthur chokes out, his first and last ‘thank you’ to Merlin. Who knew one simple ‘Thank you’ could kill so much inside of a person?
Slowly the man closes his eyes, his breathing slows down as well as his heart. Merlin cries out as the guy in front of him-his friend, his best friend, his lover, his other half of a coin, falls into the death arms as he’s holding onto him for dear life, tears streaming down his face, he had failed.
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Arthur rises after just one year
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When Mordred arrives in Camelot, all seems lost.
To Merlin, giving up on life seems to be the easiest - the only - solution.
His friends disagree.
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If silence had a voice, I wouldn't be going crazy by Fallingoffacliffcrying
Fandoms: Merlin (TV)
02 Mar 2023
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Merlin is thrown in prison in antimagic chains, and left there for months with no idea who his captor is and in these months, Merlin is left with only himself and a tray being slid into the cell twice a day, if he's lucky. Arthur has been dead for hundreds of years. But one day, Arthur is thrown in the cell beside him.
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- Part 30 of Merthur
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Merlin has had enough. What with the magic and being in love with his soon-to-be-married King. Married not to him, of course. For 6 years, he's endured all the struggles of working multiple jobs and fearing for his and all he has ever loved's lives and keeping his secrets. And now he just really wants it all to end. To be finally free from his destiny and his love. Love that will never be requited. Destiny that seemed to never will be fulfilled.
And maybe there is a solution to it all.
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Depressed Merlin finally gets the comfort he's been needing for so long
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- Part 19 of Merthur
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No one really speaks to Merlin after finding out about his magic, and he snaps.
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"He never knew something could make him feel better than a blade. But here he was. Kissing Arthur Pendragon and he never felt better. He thought, this was it. I'm fixed. "
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- Part 17 of Merthur
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When the sun crests the horizon, its effulgence peeking through Merlin’s window, cascading down onto his face, he can’t summon up the energy to rise along with it.
Or, in which Merlin has depression and doesn't know it.
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Merlin isn't the only one who knows how to scheme.
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- Part 6 of My Lady, Albion
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A horrifying thought entered his mind as he witnessed Arthur being laid dead in his arms. He had failed. That did not soothe his mind, as he saw everything he loved die or disappear. Such is the way of life. Witness the remnants of a failed mission as he tries to retrieve all the pieces left behind and make a name for himself in this ever-changing society.
What else was there to do? He was stuck there for a millennium and a half...
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- Part 2 of A Second Shot at Destiny
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Every day was the same. Drink, attempt, sleep, and repeat. Every suicide attempt left him emptier than the last. Nothing could kill him. He was destined to live forever. Forever alone. He had even attempted to kill himself with Arthur's sword Excalibur. Nothing worked.
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- Part 12 of Merthur
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Aithusa attempts to change fate by showing the Once and Future King and Queen and the Knights of the Round Table all their secret protector has done for them. How will they react to the magic and the lies? With no more secrets between Merlin and Arthur, fate has changed but will they build the Golden Age or has that path been blocked forever?
Now beta-read by the lovely AceKurai!
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"Merlin knew he shouldn't, but also couldn't help the way it made him feel better. Everytime he felt like he had made the wrong decision.
Everytime someone he loved got injured or died.
Everytime he had to kill someone.
Every time he made a mistake.
Every time he almost got caught using magic.
The only thing that could take the pain away was a blade.
He would sit there, not even crying, just taking the blade over the pale skin, over and over. While the injuries scarred and healed, he would do it again in between the cuts desperate for more space. This only led to layers of scar tissue over his stomach, thighs, chest, and parts of his arms."Series
- Part 20 of Merthur
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Arthur discovers merlins magic.
Merlin gets a papercut and spirals.
Arthur sees merlin for the first time since he found out about his magic, not expecting what he finds.Series
- Part 7 of Merthur
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*I know the tags are a cluster fuck but please go through and read the trigger warnings. Thank you.
He had one goal: to survive. Whether that meant figuring out self defense (which was often a trial by fire) or ways to get food on the table, he learned it all. And clung to it.
So you can imagine why a prick like Arthur, who never had to do a day of hard work in his life, fed from a silver spoon since birth and walked the halls like he owned them, pissed Merlin off so much.
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Whumptober Prompt no.30 Don't get kidnapped - manhandled, hair grabbing, “please don’t touch me”
Merlin tries to ignore the pains of his past. He fails.
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Waiting sometimes is the hardest thing
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Merlin is at his lowest point. He’s been alive for almost 1500 years and he isn’t sure if he can handle the world any longer. That night, someone walks out of Lake Avalon.
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Take me up, cast me away
For so long, you’ve been away
Grass has died and flowered many times
Mountains age as time flies- Language:
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