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His heart forgot to pump as hard.
Limbs became unmoving.
Skin turned ghostly pale.
Lips gained a blue tint.
Merlin was fading,freezing,
frozen.
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Merlin is all that's left of Avalon. After watching loved ones die, and kingdoms fall, none of it equated to the pain he felt when Arthur died.
But maybe Arthur won't be gone forever. After all: When Albion's need is greatest, King Arthur will rise again... if not in the way Merlin expected.%%%
I'm incapable of writing anything that isn't angst so TW for mental health issues, including thoughts and conversations about depression, self harm, suicide. Reader discretion is advised if these topics are triggering to you.
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Arthur hears someone (Merlin) singing and has a few thoughts about it. That's it- that's the fic.
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Merlin comes to some realizations when Arthur forgets him at the Cauldron. He makes a decision.
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Merlin gets sick of destiny taking away his loved ones so he takes matters in his own hands.
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- Part 2 of Canon-divergence
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The choice was once
your choosing,
before losing
became my loss.
I was there in your forgetting-
until I was forgot
–Lang LeavAfter Arthur's death, Merlin has to live knowing his own life to be immortal.
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A decade ago, Mordred left Camelot. Today, Gwen writes him a letter.
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- Part 1 of Diamond of the Not Today
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Knowing he couldn’t avoid it, knowing he would have to face the world even if he didn't particularly want to that day, he sat up groggily, wiping the dried drool on his face before reluctantly pushing away his covers and getting out of bed.
He looked out the window and nearly groaned once more.
It was snowing outside.
And as much as he wanted to feel joyful, excited about this—his little village hardly ever got any snow—he couldn't find the energy to feel anything besides sadness, loneliness, hopelessness.
Arthur loved the snow.
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It's been 1500 years since Arthur's death and Merlin's not exactly in the best of moods, especially with the holiday cheer around him. But, perhaps this might be the day his special someone finally returns.
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- Part 2 of My Merlin Grand Opening Free For All Fics
- Part 2 of January Flash Bingo 2022
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After Arthur's death, Merlin loses himself and becomes careless. Then, Arthur returns.
Or; What would happen if you lose all of your friends and you feel it is your fault? Trauma, probably.
there is an archive warning for graphic violence and rape, but it is not too graphic or very explicitly described, but better safe than sorry.
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Benjamin Manning and his partner Greg purchased Pennoyer Mansion in the hopes of flipping it and turning it into a profit. The estate has been relatively abandoned for many years, so the work is extensive. One Tuesday afternoon, they receive a mysterious stranger by the name of Merlin who claims to be the groundskeeper, although no evidence towards him actually doing any work in the house can be found. Will Benjamin be able to fathom out Merlin and his past? And what is up with the increasing feeling that there were other people in the house?
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As it says in the title in is a rewrite of the wedding scene in series 3 episode 6 of Merlin.
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One person can change everything. The stars may drive men's fates, but the stars never counted on a farm boy clawing his way back to life out of stubbornness and a wish to protect his oldest friend.
He might not be part of some prophecy, but by god he'll turn it on it's head.
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His kisses tasted of goodbye.
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Merlin is having a bad brain day and Leon goes looking for him. He does what he can to give Merlin space to heal.
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All my friends are dead and gone. What can I do now but hope and wait for their return? Living forever is enough to drive anyone insane. No slash!
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Title is subject to change but it is based on a quote I saw. It comes from a poem entitled "Calmly We Walk Through this April's Day" by Delmore Schwartz. -
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People ask him, time and time again, what it’s like to live forever. His answer changes over time (and he has a lot of time to ponder it).
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a short, badly-paced, angsty look into immortal life with merlin because sometimes it be like that
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“What's the matter with you?” Merlin turned to find the king’s gaze on him, a slight hint of concern in his eyes that most wouldn't catch.
Not knowing what to say, he shrugged. “Nothing.”
“You know, Merlin,” Arthur said annoyingly. “I know you much better than you think I know you.”
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Arthur is worried and asks Merlin what's wrong and the warlock finally airs out his feelings.
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- Part 10 of a fic a day, keeps procrastination away
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“Wait,” he said before he could stop himself and thank his lucky stars. “Why…?”
She raised her eyebrows. “Why what?”
“Why aren’t you angry with me?”
She sat back down on the ground, turning to look at him. “Do you want me to be angry with you?”
“I…” Merlin faltered, biting his lip. “For some reason, it’s scarier if you’re not yelling at me.”
She rolled her eyes, before wiping the sweat off her dress. “I am angry with you. Well, I was. I’m still annoyed but… not as much as before.”
“Why not?” Merlin asked. “What changed?”
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Merlin comes home late once again after the kids in Ealdor bully him. Thankfully, his mother is there to help him cope.
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- Part 8 of a fic a day, keeps procrastination away
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Merlin thought he was doing the right thing. He thought telling Arthur that magic had no place in Camelot he'd be able to save his friend. When he sees the mistake he made, he leaves Camelot. Unable to handle the burden of what he had condemned his friends to. Arthur, Gwen, Gaius, and the Knights of the Round Table seek out the Druids to find out everything they can about Merlin and his magic in hopes they can find their friend and bring him home.
(Merlin left letters behind explaining why he had to leave. A majority of the story will be centered on everyone except Merlin as they learn about him and his sacrifices)
Takes place after Season 5 episode 5, The Disir.
Trigger warning!! References to attempted suicide, please be aware. (Its in the tags, but there are a lot of tags)
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Leon waits for Merlin every morning because he's worried about him.
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- Part 6 of Merlin Post Season 5 Drabbles
- Part 6 of Merlin Drabbles & Microfics