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    Ilya widens his eyes, moves his hands in an impatient “get on with it” motion. He has the urge to say it for him, end both their misery. Shane blinks rapidly a few times, takes another deep breath. “I want to stop,” he says simply.

    Ilya lets out one humorless laugh, “Stop what?”

    Shane ignores him. “At the All Star Game, I told you I liked you. And you said about Russia and your family. And I looked some things up. I get it. I get it better now. I know we can’t but I can’t stop wanting to be…more. Unless we stop.”

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    Shane just wants to be friends and Ilya is, like, fine with that or whatever

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    29 Jul 2026

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    rpfactorfiction

    Oh my god, I didn't know there were any copies of this left on the internet. For those who don't know, this is like. This is a foundational text of hockey RPF. This is from before hockey RPF was really a thing even. It's from the mid-aughts and wasn't posted to a fanfiction website. Instead, OP dropped this insane RPF manifesto onto a normal ass hockey fan forum (which no longer exists) then deleted their account like two days later. Just handed this to a bunch of jocks and hockey bros and dipped. Legendary shit. Like, I don't think this kid even knew what fanfiction was, the fucking hand of god just compelled him to write about being an MLH player's sex slave and show it to the world. I pray every day that this insane child actually made it to the MLH and got to meet Scott Hunter.


    So maybe Shane had a little crush on Scott Hunter in his younger years. So maybe he anonymously posted online about it once. So maybe it had become an internet legend and a running joke in the MLH.

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    29 Jul 2026

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    Prompt from Twitter: Boston raiders once used akinator to figure out who montreal jane is and it kept telling them it was shane hollander and they kept thinking it was the weirdest bug

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    28 Jul 2026

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    Shane's first mistake was going to talk to Ilya Rozanov before their game. His second was immediately, stupidly, meeting the eyes of Rozanov’s very much dead mother hovering at his side.

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    28 Jul 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 60

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    "Never have I ever fucked my student," Ilya said. Shane narrowed his eyes at this, parsing the words.

    "That's a stupid one," Shane said, his defenses lowering and his words slurring a bit. "You don't have your own students." He kept his remaining fingers raised, and purposely did not take a sip to show Ilya his answer.

    "Hmm, very interesting," Ilya said. "So this is special occasion." Shane did not have the faculties to further parse Ilya's words, so he used one of his defenses when he was overwhelmed: he closed his eyes. He realized how tired he was, sort of all of a sudden, probably due to the alcohol. And from pretending I don't want him, his traitor brain added. He rested his head on the back cushion of the couch, feeling the day and his pushed-away thoughts wash over him.

    He suddenly felt Ilya's body weight rest on his legs. His eyes flew open, meeting Ilya's gaze as his face got closer to Shane's.

    "Ilya," Shane started to protest. "We shouldn't."

    OR: Shane Hollander, coach of the McGill men's hockey team, invites his team captain, Ilya Rozanov, to spend the week of Christmas with him at his cottage.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    26 Jul 2026

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    It’s like they think that Ilya's someone to put up with, rather than someone that Shane wants to spend every waking minute of his life with. Someone that is, in every single fucking way, Shane’s person. Someone that knows exactly how to make him laugh and someone he doesn’t have to hide his quirks from and someone who allows his own asshole side to shine when Shane wants it to.

    Shane loves Ilya, is in love with him. It’s just that Ilya is also his best friend.

    Or, 5 times that Shane gets annoyed by people thinking he's supposed to control Ilya, and 1 time he finally says something about it.

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    25 Jul 2026

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    Two years of playing together, and it still hit him every time. The casualness of it. My husband. Said out loud, in public. After years of hiding—stolen moments in hotel rooms, careful distance in public, the constant exhausting performance of just teammates, just rivals, nothing to see here—now Ilya could say it like it was nothing. Like it was easy, like it was the most natural thing in the world.

    Because it was. Finally.

    In which Ilya Hollander-Rozanov cannot shut up about his husband. (Subtitled: No one asked, Ilya. Ilya. No one asked.)

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    24 Jul 2026

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    “You do not know me?”

    “Huh. On second thought, maybe you are an asshole.”

    The man’s cheeks flushed, blinking rapidly as if embarrassment was something new for him.

    “I am Ilya. Rozanov. I play for the Boston Raiders, my face is plastered all over the city– sorry. This was rude of me to assume.” The man– Ilya– said sheepishly.

    “I guess I haven’t been far enough into the city,” Shane muttered, most of his focus on dabbing at the stain on his Reebok undershirt.

    “You are new here? Maybe I can… show you around?”

    *

    After being forced to quit hockey in juniors, Shane becomes a model. He avoids the hockey world until 2017, when he has a run in with Ilya Rozanov. Shane is out as gay and Ilya has already cut his ties with Russia, but that doesn't make things any easier for them.

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    24 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    ❤️❤️

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    “Shane, honey, what happened?”

    Shane inhales sharply, his breath hitching. “That house next door to you? The one that was just sold?”

    “What about it?” Yuna asks, unable to tell where the conversation is going.

    Usually, Shane is one of the easiest people to read on planet earth. He wears his heart on his sleeve, even though he typically doesn’t intend to, and it’s one of her favorite things about him. Now, though, she’s at a loss, and she finds that she kind of hates the feeling.

    “Your new neighbor is Ilya Rozanov."

    or

    David never catches them at the cottage. Months later, Ilya moves to Ottawa. Yuna figures it out as she goes.

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    23 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    ❤️😭

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    It's been two years since Ilya Rozanov told Cliff Marlow he was leaving Boston to be closer to a mysterious person named "Jane." He's done a great job of keeping that information to himself, but when Rozanov calls him and invites him to Montreal to help coach at the hockey camp he's starting with Hollander, Marlow can't help but think the two things are connected. Is he finally going to get to meet the woman who got Ilya Rozanov to join the worst team in the league?

     

    Marlow has proven he can keep a secret. He's earned the right to meet "Jane" and finally know why so much of Ilya's life as been secretive. But what's going on might be a little bit too much for Marlow to process, so Ilya has a plan: leave a trail of breadcrumbs that leads right to the answer and let Marlow figure it out on his own. After all, he was able to piece together that Ilya was leaving Boston without any help, so how hard could it be to get him to put together Jane's real identity?

    This is a sequel to F*ck You, Cliff Marlow.

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    23 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

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    "Hi, solnyshko.”
    The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.

    He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.

    “Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.

     

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    When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.

    Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.

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    23 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

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    Jane: We don’t send pictures

    Ilya: Pleaaaase Shane
    Ilya: My father just died
    Ilya: Need photos
    Ilya: Is grief!

    Jane: Jesus Christ

    Ilya: Yes he is dead too
    Ilya: Well…
    Ilya: Not anymore...

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    A look into Shane and Ilya's texts while Ilya was in Russia for his father's funeral

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Ilya is an asshole to Shane in Sochi. He's an asshole again in Vegas.

    Shane decides he doesn't hate himself enough to put up with this shit.

    It takes everything he has, but he ends it with Ilya.

    Ilya isn't having it.

    OR: What does Ilya Rozanov look like on his (figurative) knees?

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    22 Jul 2026

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    22 Jul 2026

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    This thing that they have—whatever the hell it is—it’s good. It’s easy. It feels like the only thing keeping Ilya afloat sometimes.

    He can’t let it get to a place where it’s more than just a good, convenient fuck and some fun teasing in between. Even if sometimes, in brief moments of tenderness, it already feels like it’s more than that. Or at least like it’s something that can be, if they just let it.

    But they don’t. They can’t.

    Although sometimes, Ilya does find himself giving in to the urge to look at Shane just a little bit longer, to let his touch be just a little bit gentler, more reverent, than what it would be for something as casual as they claim this to be—albeit sparingly.

    Sometimes, just for a moment, he lets himself indulge. He lets some of that affection bleed out of him because he feels like he’ll implode if he doesn’t.

    But he always catches himself before it can linger.

    ***

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    where six months of ghosting is shane’s final straw and he cuts contact with ilya after vegas, tired of the wall that just keeps getting higher each time he tries to chip away at it

    so ilya is forced to reckon with his feelings much sooner

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    20 Jul 2026

  17. Rec 239

    Mystery Work

    Part of HR works anon
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    20 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    ❤️❤️

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    The last thing Shane and Ilya expected when they died after living a long, happy life together was to wake up back in their 17 years old bodies the day they first met.

    They get to redo everything together and to fix what they got wrong the first time.

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    19 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    ❤️❤️❤️

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    “Sometimes in Juniors, I’d think about my teammates in a circle and me on my knees in the center. They’d all be jerking off, and I wouldn’t be allowed to touch myself until every one of them came on me.”

    Shane Hollander has spent a lifetime swallowing down every single desire. Ilya Rozanov finds his pleasure in making him speak.

    featuring: couch conversations about gay awakenings, ex-girlfriends, and sexual fantasies (and now, nearly 10k of locker room roleplay with the meanest Ilya I’ve ever written)

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    19 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    🔥

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    “You know, there are a lot of kids that look up to you—“

    It’s the refrain of Shane’s life. Everything circles back to this: a lot of kids looking up to you. That’s why you need to spend your summers doing ad campaigns. That’s why you need to let a social media manager handle your every interaction online. That’s why we need to sit here after family dinner with flash cards rehearsing the different ways you’ll answer reporters’ questions after you face Boston next week, and, oh, when we’re done, let’s do some French vocabulary flashcards, too, because it’s important to the Francophone fans that you’re thinking about them. There are lots of Asian Francophones in Quebec, Shane. Almost 13% of primary schoolers are of Asian descent, compared to less than 4% of hockey players. Isn’t that pathetic?

    As if Shane doesn’t know that it’s pathetic. As if Shane doesn’t know what he fought through to get here.

    Abruptly, Shane is furious.

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    35,874

    17 Jul 2026

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