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When did I forget love? by BlueJay2500
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Jan 2026
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Ilya Rozanov should be the happiest man on Earth right now. He should be floating on clouds, but why does it feel like he's on a free fall to the ground?
He's got everything he's ever dreamed of: his handsome, polite, sexy, hockey's golden boy boyfriend, future in-laws who love him like their own, and a team who desperately want to be his friends. He can't wait to play great hockey, retire with his boyfriend, and marry him. Maybe they'll even have kids of their own. Spend their days at the cottage wrapped in love and sunshine for the rest of their lives.
Yet, the only dream that he remembers, the one that haunts him daily, is the one of his mother. His mother's pale arms reach out to him. Her embrace was colder than any lonely night. One day, maybe he'll just hug her back.
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15 Jan 2026
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Alexei is dead. Anastasia is his. And Ilya has no idea how to be a parent, a captain, and a heartbroken man all at once.
The only thing harder than keeping a five-year-old alive might be keeping himself together.
[set after shane walks out on ilya in episode 4]
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14 Jan 2026
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so much of living is being unknown by dandelionclub
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Jan 2026
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Ilya gets injured during the Centaurs hot streak. Shane takes care of him, and has to get creative about it because Ilya doesn't like needing help or feeling physically vulnerable~ (aka they both have to grapple with some role reversals + Ilya gets railed for a change)
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11 Jan 2026
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we cannot waste time (—only ourselves.) by llamallamaduck
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Jan 2026
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The photos leak on a Wednesday. Ilya sets his life and career on fire on Sunday, mostly out of spite. On Monday, he is the first out queer player in the NHL.
Nobody handles the ensuing circus well, least of all Scott Hunter.
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- Part 17 of Miscellaneous 'Verses
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04 Jan 2026
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Don't Worry, It's Nothing by king_size_sardine_pies
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
23 Dec 2025
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Five times Ilya almost cries in front of Shane (and the first time Shane catches on).
Bonus: Scott Hunter does NOT have time to deal with a sick Russian, but Kip might murder him if he leaves Rozanov to fend for himself right now.
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03 Jan 2026
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My Cold Little Heart by Dead_p0et
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
04 Jan 2026
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Ilya wanted to get up, shake it off, keep playing, score his fucking hat trick. But it felt like his body wasn't his own. Like he was a marionette with its strings caught off. Gravity increased by tenfold it seemed and Ilya was too tired to resist it.
The sword was still in his chest and Ilya could vividly imagine in his head the blood pulling beneath him. But as he looked down there was nothing but white ice all around him.
In his last moments of consciousness, just like every night before falling asleep, Ilya thought of Shane. His lovely shane with his beautiful freckles.
As ilya’s world succumbed to darkness he had just enough time to think “I would take a sword to the chest for him” ,then everything went black and Ilya could no longer feel.***************************************************************
Or, Ilya should have known one day his body wont be able to bear Ilya's awful habits and sad life, he just didnt expect to have a fucking heart attack on the ice.
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03 Jan 2026
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Sweet Creature by brooklyn99
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Jan 2026
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Sometimes, late at night, he catches himself sitting still on the couch. Hours pass without him noticing.
He thinks about his mother then. Not about the way she died, but the way she lived on her worst days. The way she would sit for hours, staring at nothing. The way he would sit in the corner of her room, quiet, and afraid to leave her alone.
He shakes himself out of it. He’s embarrassed by the comparison. He’s not like that. He’s functioning. He’s successful. And most importantly, he’s loved.
He’s fine.
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31 Dec 2025
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I have everything I want yet nothing at all. by Chickennuggies613
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
30 Dec 2025
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Anger is the only language Ilya has ever truly known.
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31 Dec 2025
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“Are you cold?” Robby asks, taking in Frank’s shaking arms as he crosses them over his chest in an attempt to hide the tremors.
“They’re withdrawal symptoms,” Frank snarks, voice hoarse and so unlike the casual confidence he usually exudes. “I thought you were a doctor.”
“I thought you weren’t an addict,” Robby responds coolly.
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Frank Langon goes to rehab, and I fuck with the canon timeline for the sake of metaphors
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28 Dec 2025
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Weight loss was eighty percent nutrition, twenty percent exercise. The exercise part he already had, mapped out in neat pen-and-paper grids because he trusted that more than any app. Running five days a week. Swimming six. With just enough wiggle room to add more if things got “out of hand”. Which, of course, they wouldn’t. Not if he kept control. Not if he stayed on top of it.
When old habits start to resurface, Frank does what he does best. He runs.
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27 Dec 2025
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‘You’re in the hospital.’ His sister–what was her name?--supplied. ‘There was an accident at work.’
Work? Where did he work again? In the clouds? Maybe he fell from one of them.
‘Did you want me to get Eddie?’
A warm feeling bloomed in his chest. Eddie…yes that word was familiar. He nodded, slowly.
His sister smiled softly and squeezed his hand. His eyelids drooped, heavy.
‘You rest.’ Her voice was soft. ‘Eddie will be here when you wake.’
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Buck has been managing his recent bipolar diagnosis well. He and Eddie are finally together, he's back at work and everything is looking up. That is until, lightning strikes, Buck goes off his meds and well, things spiral from there. (Sequel to 'I didn't Know')
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04 Dec 2025
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Frank Langdon has a list. He actually has a list for many things. What he doesn't expect is that little by little, Mel King seems to make her way into every single one of them
[or: Frank Langdon goes to rehab, loses his mind a little bit, gets clean, gets divorced, fights with his boss and falls in love in no particular order]
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29 Nov 2025
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There’s just a single text from Robby, timestamped at 4:43 am. I am using this weekend to decide how I want to handle the situation. I suggest you do the same. We will talk Monday, do not try to contact me until then. And leave Dana alone.
Langdon presses the phone against his forehead. It’s not good news, exactly, but it is a reprieve. No one’s going to come banging down his door and taking away his medical degree. At least not yet.
Frank Langdon, on the road to Step One.
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21 Sep 2025
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“The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places.
But those that will not break it kills.”
― Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms, 1929.
OrFrank Langdon is pieced back together by his people. In the process he gains a new mentor, becomes friends with an old one and earns himself a second lease on life.
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20 Sep 2025
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Everything frank has ever let go of has claw marks on it from where he held on for too long.
as he repeats his final year of residency, he learns when to hold on and when to let go.
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17 Sep 2025
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He knows he could have called Maddie and she would have been there, though the memory of her disappointment last time stopped him. As for everyone else—even if he weren’t prohibited from talking to them by his lawyer, Buck doubts anyone would have come. The last time they talked was when they ran into each other in the grocery store a week back, and, since Buck is not eager for a repeat of that interaction, he doesn’t even consider calling anyone in to hold his hand for what is, he tells himself, probably just another little blip on his road back to the 118.
He is able to convince himself of this up until the moment Dr. Gutierrez walks into his room and says, “Well, Evan, you just can’t seem to do anything the easy way, can you?”
Because, as it turns out, there is a circumstance under which a tiny clot that doesn’t cause you to vomit blood in front of all of your friends and family is worse than three big ones that do: that circumstance is called ‘being on blood thinners.’
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In the midst of the lawsuit, Buck is diagnosed with cancer. Dropping the lawsuit is easy. Finding forgiveness, less so.Series
- Part 1 of Love is a Place
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07 Jan 2025
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The flu, an old letter and a missed shift culminate into an unfortunate misunderstanding between Buck and the 118. Things go downhill from there.
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Buck struggles with undiagnosed bipolar which culminates into a manic episode. He and his chosen family struggle to cope with the aftermath. Timeline is vague but set around season 5.
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24 Aug 2024
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She says, “Alright, so first I would like to know a little more about what brings you to therapy and what you wish to get from our sessions.”
Carmy grimaces. He scratches at the side of his face with a blunt fingernail, then shrugs and answers, “There’s a dog living in my house and I think I’m stressing her out.”
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Carmy gets worse. Then, he gets better.
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23 Jun 2024
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Despite the money in the cans, Carm's still been off. Worse, maybe.
Or an accident in the kitchen puts everyone on the same page.
(In light of season 2’s release, this is officially an AU after season 1 where Carmy’s mental health gets exponentially worse)
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02 Jul 2023
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About 30 in the street, at least 10 more in the building. One woman with a single GSW to the leg, none other critically injured. Four police chargers and six officers, all armed, more inbound.
One suspect. Male. Small caliber handgun and a hostage.
There was no time for Buck to think when his reactions needed to be faster than his brain. His body knew what to do, how to take a man down efficiently.
In which Buck joined the 118 after transferring to the Navy Reserves and struggled with becoming a civilian. Eddie showed him how to feel worthy again.
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- Part 1 of Sigma Six
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01 Jul 2023