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    Hayden wanted to apologize but wasn’t even sure what to apologize for. “If you’re so embarrassed about your choice of boyfriend, maybe get a better one?”

    It wasn’t any worse than anything Hayden had said before. In fact, it was probably fairly tame as far as insults went, but it didn’t matter. Hayden could see the moment something inside of Shane detonated. One minute Shane was standing only a handful of feet away, his suit jacket clutched in his hands, and the next the jacket was dropped to the floor in a heap, and Shane’s hands were fisted in Hayden’s shirt, his back slamming against the wall.

    Holy fuck, he thought. Shane is going to fucking hit me.

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    or, Hayden makes one too many shitty comments about Rozanov and Shane finally snaps. And while he never actually lands a blow on his best friend, the defeated way he talks about ending their friendship has Hayden rattled. After the Centaurs plane makes an emergency landing, Hayden knows he needs to do everything in his power to make it up to his best friend, with Jackie's help of course.

    edit: this started as a one shot and turned into a multi-chapter rewrite including Shane meeting the Cens, the proposal, and leaving the Metros.

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    23 Sep 2026

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    22 Sep 2026

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    SUBJECT: A long overdue apology
    FROM: [email protected]
    SENT: August 28, 2029, 16:12

    Ilya -
    It's been a long time.

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    22 Sep 2026

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    What if Shane wins MVP instead of Ilya in Vegas?
    What if Ilya has to do EVERYTHING that Shane wants. And not because Shane demands it, but because Ilya is exactly where he wants to be.

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    16 Sep 2026

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    Shane is traded to Boston during the hookup era, and his attempts to act normal and professional around Rozanov are a little too successful: fans start shipping him with Marleau, instead.

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    15 Sep 2026

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    “He thinks you like me. ...Do you like me?”
    "...You are difficult to not like. It is very easy to fall for you."

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    Ilya thinks Shane Hollander's boyfriend is an asshole, and he doesn't think that just because he's head over heels in love.

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    11 Sep 2026

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    A knee injury ends Shane Hollander's nineteen-year NHL career.

    Ilya Rozanov keeps checking in.

    Shane pencils in "big gay midlife crisis" between physiotherapy sessions.

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    10 Sep 2026

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    "He saw the corners of Ilya's lips curve up ever so slightly in that infuriating, tiny hint of a smile. “Goodbye, Shane Hollander.”

    Shane could only ogle as Ilya walked away. Fuck. His ass was fat. This was so bad.

    Shane Hollander, star athlete, D1 hockey team captain, campus heartthrob, was being completely undone by a brooding Slavic art major that he would probably crawl on his fucking knees and bark for."

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    Shane is ready for another boring semester where he has to pretend like he cares about anything other than hockey. Until he sits down next to a mysterious Russian art student who also happens to be the hottest guy Shane has ever seen.

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    10 Sep 2026

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    “This hot tub has not been well maintained,” Rozanov complained as they stood on the deck, staring at the built-in hot tub, big enough to fit 8 people. 

    “So, you can replace it,” Shane replied patiently.

    “I will be too busy to replace the hot tub. Then I will have a long day, and I will decide to have a soak in my rancid hot tub, and then I will catch diphtheria and die.” Rozanov looked at Shane, accusatory. “You want me to die?”

    Shane looked down. The hot tub looked no more or less rancid than any other hot tub. “I don’t think you can get diphtheria from a dirty hot tub.”

    “You are doctor now?” Rozanov asked, and Shane stayed silent. 

    Shane Hollander is a realtor who works with the Ottawa Centaurs to find properties for new players.

    Ilya Rozanov needs a home.

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    09 Sep 2026

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    “I feel bad, Shane. I want you to be able to sleep, if that is with twenty blankets, there will be twenty blankets. If that is with your duck, is okay, I can share you. Is not important, not as long as you are there with me.”

    “I don’t need them. Not… not when I have you. When you hold me or lie on top of me and let me hold you, it’s like I can finally relax. Like, um,” Shane's voice was gradually getting quieter, and he turned his face away from Ilya. “It’s like I can maybe just be… just Shane.”

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    In the years that follow their first summer at the cottage, Ilya notices that Shane likes to sleep a certain way. As the years go by, he learns it was always about more than just sleep.

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    06 Sep 2026

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    shane: Your tattoos suck and you do too.
    ilya: mmmm yes kitten keep going im close

    or: Shane and Ilya are rival owners of tattoo shops. They seem to hate each other's guts, but when a small inconvenience forces them to work together, they start realizing that maybe the rivalry was never real.

    a texting/social media fully coded au!

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    05 Sep 2026

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    Finally, something dawns on him, a way to handle two goals simultaneously. He’d seen Hollander’s mother flipping through papers rapidly when they first got here, seeming calm and in control and more than a little frightening in a way that made Ilya mildly glad he wasn’t one of the people responsible for a clipboard. If anyone can tell him if the long list of “Prohibited Items” he’d been sent in his email a few days ago is just standard practice for big shoots, it would be Yuna Hollander.

    Or, hopefully, her son.

    “Crazy we cannot even have peanut butter, eh?” He asks. “You also got giant list?”

    Hollander stiffens, almost imperceptibly, and Ilya tilts his head, just slightly, confused, wondering if he’s stumbled somewhere unexpected.

    (how ilya learns about shane's allergies) (and shane's sexual awakening tragically hits a speedbump in the process 😔)

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    05 Sep 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Daddy and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    05 Sep 2026

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    Ilya hesitated, staring at the number. He was captain of Hollander’s new team. It would have been completely normal, if not expected, that he would reach out to him soon. But his hand had turned to lead, his finger hovering over the “Call” button. What would he even say?

    “Hey Hollander. Sorry your team dumped you out of nowhere after building them a dynasty and you’re being shipped back to your hometown to play on an historically shitty team, captained by me, the guy who you’ve been pitted against your whole career and built up a decade’s worth of resentment towards, not to mention the fact that we sucked each other’s dicks that one time years ago and then pretended that it never happened. Haha, yeah, good times. Anyways. See you at practice.”

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    In June 2010, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov hook up for the first and last time.

    In July 2021, Shane Hollander is abruptly traded to the Ottawa Centaurs.

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    05 Sep 2026

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    Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.

    He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.

    Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.

    A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.

    “What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.

    No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.

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    Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.

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    05 Sep 2026

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    Shane Hollander was the number one draft pick and is now captain of the Boston Raiders. Ilya Rozanov quit hockey after his mother died and now owns a bookshop in Boston. When Shane moves into a new apartment down the street from One Good Memory, he finds more than just a convenient place to grab a new book.

    Or...Shane is lonely and closeted and reads a lot; Ilya is charmed and quotes books at him.

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    05 Sep 2026

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    Shane's accident was career ending. Instead of asking Ilya to the cottage he broke up with him in a displaced fit of rage. Ilya has not heard from him since.

    Until he does.

    Tues, Aug 29 at 4:46 AM

    Jane: Heey
    Jane: Long timr no dspeak
    Jane: I mean yeah I guess thats my fault
    Jane: How you been?
    Jane: Ive been great
    Jane: Shit
    Jane: Ive been shit actually

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    04 Sep 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, celebrated hockey star, gets perilously lost in the wilderness.

    Shane Hollander, wilderness expert and #1 Rozanov hater, finds him.

    They're stuck in the woods. Completely alone. Together.

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    04 Sep 2026

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    Spring of 2016: Ilya loses a father.

    Summer of 2016: Ilya loses a brother.

    Fall of 2016: Ilya gains a daughter, a lover, and a friend.

    Or: another "what if Ilya gained custody of his niece" fic.

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    29 Aug 2026

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    “Hollander,” Ilya murmured gently. “Bath is ready.”

    Shane cracked his eyes open, staring dumbly at the burly Russian hovering over him where he was still laying in bed.

    “…bath?” He croaked, voice raspy with disuse.

    “Mm. I ran you a bath. It will make you feel better before you go to sleep tonight. Will help with your sore muscles.”

    Shane asks Ilya to fuck him gently during one of their regular hookups, badly bruised from their game. Ilya runs him a bath afterwards, and they fall secretly and desperately in love that way, through whispered confessions and late night conversations while Shane soaks, and Ilya quietly observes him.

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    27 Aug 2026

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