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    He had known, deep down, that it had been a bad idea to ask Ilya to come with him this summer. Perhaps if he hadn’t been injured, lying in that hospital bed high off his face on pain medication, he wouldn’t have found the courage in the first place. But when Ilya walked in looking like he was one word from falling apart, Shane had relented and let himself hope, desperately, pathetically, that Ilya felt a fraction of what Shane did as Ilya stroked his face with the back of his knuckles, how he felt when Ilya had confessed that Shane’s injury had scared him. And perhaps if Rose hadn’t filled his head with stupid, romantic fantasies, he wouldn’t be standing in the summer breeze at his parents cottage, feeling the same way he had after leaving the Vegas penthouse all those years ago.

    Fuck.

    Or:
    Shane starts to get anxious about the radio silence from Ilya following his invitation to the cottage. After a conversation with Rose, he finally reaches out to cauterise the wound and get an answer to the question he wished he hadn't asked. No one could have predicted what came next.

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    29 Aug 2026

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    23 Aug 2026

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    Shane is at their local coffee shop grabbing Ilya's favorite iced protein coffee and his normal tea when it happens.

    He'd noticed the older man watching him since he'd entered the small shop, his body tensing when he'd followed him inside.

    Shane feels the man's watchful gaze, the way he tracks him without a smile or any excitement and he can tell this isn't a normal fan. His guard is automatically up as he grabs their orders from the pick up area with a small smile and a polite 'Thank you' to the baristas, and turns toward the door.

    But the man is there, blocking his path.

    There's something predatory in his dark eyes, an empty smile on his face that is unnerving to Shane as the man takes one more step closer.

    "I've always wanted to know who my brother abandoned his family for…”

    The accent is familiar yet colder than anything he's ever heard from Ilya.  But there is no mistaking the similarities now as it all clicks into place.

    His brother.

    Alexei.

    OR

    What if Alexei shows up in Ottawa after they get married, during their first season together on the Ottawa Centaurs? Why is he here? What does he want?

    Shane doesn't care. He just wants him gone.

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    23 Aug 2026

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    Shane would like to tell his very human boyfriend that he’s a vampire before they move in together. Ilya, who is also a vampire, has a similar problem.

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    22 Aug 2026

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    For Shane Hollander, life has always been about playing a part. On the ice, he plays the best (or second best, depending on who you ask) hockey player in a generation. With his family, he plays the role of golden boy - kind and resilient and responsible. Even with Ilya, Shane has a part to play; reliable, happy, secure.

    But after the big move to Ottawa and a summer full of life changes, Shane can't catch his footing. This is supposed to be the start to the best chapter of his life – so why does he feel like he's drowning?

    Or:

    Shane Hollander-Rozanov navigates an Autism diagnosis during his first season as an Ottawa Centaur.

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    Chapters:
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    18 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander one time mentioned wanting a cat. And Ilya has never forgotten.
    The story of how Harris, Troy, and Anya helped Ilya make Shane's 30th birthday one of his best ever.

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    18 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander would probably rather die than admit to the world (or himself) that he’s a sub, because all respected NHL players are doms. When years of living a touch-starved, repressed, hockey-focused life finally catch up with him and cause a medical emergency, he’s not scared or sad. He’s fucking angry. And he becomes Ilya Rozanov’s problem at the Behavioral Education & Authority Relationships Services (B.E.A.R.S. for short).

    or: Shane is strong, stubborn, difficult and he bites. Ilya is extremely patient but instantly whipped. A not entirely typical bdsm AU.

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    14 Aug 2026

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    Shane and Ilya have a lot of sex. A lot of hot, intimate, dirty sex. But sometimes they don't. Sometimes, for one reason or another, they find more intimacy in the unexpected moments where their plans to fuck don't work out.

    Or:

    Shane and Ilya taking care of each other.

    • • •

    I: Shane Hollander has too much to drink.
    II: Ilya Rozanov gets the fucking flu.
    III: Shane Hollander suffers an Autistic shutdown.
    IV: Ilya Rozanov misses his mother.

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    Chapters:
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    13 Aug 2026

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    “I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”

    ---------

    or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.

    Ilya has open hands.

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    12 Aug 2026

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    Statistically speaking, there was a very long list on one end which Shane sat solidly at the top of. On the other end, there was a list with only one name on it.

    Shane was the best of everyone Ilya had ever fucked.

    Sasha was the best to ever fuck Ilya.

    Shane would never have gotten two Stanley Cups if he didn’t know how to pivot and change direction when needed.

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    65,177

    03 Aug 2026

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    A fiery plane crash claims Ilya Rozanov’s life in January. By April, Shane Hollander is dead of a broken heart. The truth dies with them.

    Yuna Hollander will do anything to get her son back, including hiring a shady shaman to resurrect him. There’s just one complication — Shane isn’t coming back alone.

    Now there are codependent (not)zombies in her house wearing Ilya and Shane’s faces. When they inexplicably act more like a married couple than the bitter rivals she expected, Yuna is convinced that they came back wrong.

    It’s easier than admitting she never understood them from the start.

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    Chapters:
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    31 Jul 2026

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    Shane and Ilya had mutually agreed to keep their whatever-they’re-doing out of Sochi. It was an easy decision to make: this was bigger than any MLH rivalry and definitely bigger than a few hotel hook-ups. There was no room for distractions, not with Olympic gold on the line.

    So it’d be really fucking great if their daemons could get on the same page and stop trying to cause an international fucking incident.

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    Chapters:
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    29 Jul 2026

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    29 Jul 2026

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    “Shane, honey, what happened?”

    Shane inhales sharply, his breath hitching. “That house next door to you? The one that was just sold?”

    “What about it?” Yuna asks, unable to tell where the conversation is going.

    Usually, Shane is one of the easiest people to read on planet earth. He wears his heart on his sleeve, even though he typically doesn’t intend to, and it’s one of her favorite things about him. Now, though, she’s at a loss, and she finds that she kind of hates the feeling.

    “Your new neighbor is Ilya Rozanov."

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    David never catches them at the cottage. Months later, Ilya moves to Ottawa. Yuna figures it out as she goes.

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    25 Jul 2026

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

    -
    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Six months after their Boxing Day breakup, Shane puts the cottage where they once learned to love each other openly up for sale. Ilya buys it anonymously, unable to bear the thought of anyone else living inside the life they built there.

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    20 Jul 2026

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    The second Shane hit the ice, Ilya knew something was wrong. Bood didn’t mean to hit him, it was a clean play and an even cleaner hit. A regular hockey hit. But the way Shane landed and slid into the boards, seeing the blood but not knowing where it was coming from, had Ilya’s heart stopping. Even now, almost three hours later, it didn’t feel like his heart had started again. He could hear Bood in the bed next to him asking him something, but all he could do was refresh the tab ‘shane hollander injury update’ and hope some news article somehow leaked information. He knew he didn’t actually want that to happen because Shane deserved privacy, but he was dying inside not knowing if his boyfriend was okay.

    ***

    All Shane knew was he was in pain, the medication wasn’t masking it, and he needed Ilya. His parents were both in the room, as was Hayden, doing their best to figure out how to get ‘ily to the hospital.

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    what if instead of montreal/boston shane got hurt in ottawa/montreal but no one knows they’re together & Irina foundation doesn’t exist yet & what if the injury was just a little bit worse? (not entirely canon timeline)

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    20 Jul 2026

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    Name: Shane M. Hollander
    Sex: Male
    Secondary Sex: Other
    (If other - please elaborate): A3O2 gene mutation
    Age: 22
    Height: 6'0
    Weight: 180 lbs
    Profession: tax auditor
    Gender and Secondary Sex Preferences: M/Alpha

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    Name: Ilya G. Rozanov
    Sex: Male
    Secondary Sex: Alpha
    Age: 28
    Height: 6'3
    Weight: 245 lbs
    Profession: prefer not to answer
    Gender and Secondary Sex Preferences: not picky :)

    ~~~~
    Ilya and Shane meet using a government ABO matching agency. Shane is drawn to the process because he can be open about his genetic mutation while remaining anonymous. The A3O2 genetic mutation presents itself as having both Omega and Alpha secondary sex characteristics. Three time winner of the Stanley Cup, Ilya Rozanov has cemented himself as a titan of the NHL. But it's lonely at the top and he craves the companionship of a partner - a mate.

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    Chapters:
    10/10
    Comments:
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    17 Jul 2026

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    In 2008, Shane Hollander lost to Ilya Rozanov. Fresh-faced, hungry. Like he’d been living off victory points that were scraps compared to the real thing, compared to beating Rozanov, the first man in the world to make him feel second-best. Back then, he’d thought that was the only thing he felt, too. That the electric pulse jostling between them in the gym some time later was a trick of the mind. It was like seeing sky above for the first time. See you at the draft. Life in that paper body.

    or: Ilya comes back. This is the crux of it.

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    68,730

    16 Jul 2026

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    His fingers move steadily as he smooths the front of the shirt, as he adjusts the cuffs, as he forces himself to stand still long enough to look presentable, and it's all because Shane asked him to, because it’s a special day.

    And because anything Shane asks, Ilya will do, even now.

    Even after all this time.

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    04 Jul 2026

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