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    18 Aug 2026

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    Ilya never made it to the cottage.

    Ilya Rozanov spent nine years in exile, convincing himself that disappearing was an act of protection. But when he returns to the NHL and signs with the Ottawa Centaurs, the team led by Shane Hollander, his former rival and secret love, he learns that distance has changed nothing. Their bodies still remembers. The air between them still crackles.

    Shane Hollander has built a life of careful normalcy: a captain's role, a dog named Anya, the performance of a man who doesn't need anything from anyone. But Ilya's return unmakes all of it in a single moment of eye contact.

    As proximity forces them closer to the truth they've been avoiding, Ilya and Shane has to finally confront the question that has haunted them both for years: Was the silence ever protection, or only destruction in disguise?

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    24 Jul 2026

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    Summer 2007: Shane Hollander arrives at a remote Wyoming summer camp with one goal: prove himself as Activities Director and secure the job permanently when current director Scott Hunter steps down at the end of the season. He needs this job: structure, stability, a future he can finally hold onto.

    What he doesn’t expect is Ilya Rozanov.

    The camp’s barn manager is sharp, self-contained, and impossible to ignore. It quickly becomes clear he’s not just a coworker, but Shane’s biggest competition for Scott’s position. Their friction is immediate, their clashes constant, and working together is impossible.

    As long days blur into charged nights and forced collaboration pulls them closer, the line between rivalry and something far more dangerous begins to erode, and a reckless decision to cross the line shifts everything, leaving Shane caught between what he wants and what he’s worked so hard to build.

    Wanting Ilya might cost him the job he came here to win. Walking away might cost him something he’s not sure he can live without.

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    20 Jul 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is a real estate agent with a broken heart and a broken-down Victorian home he needs to fix up and sell. Shane Hollander is a down-to-earth architect who loves himself a good project.

    The emotional/psychological abuse tag is part of a relationship Ilya had that has passed.

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    19 Jul 2026

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    When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
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    Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.

    “Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”

    “Mom,” Shane managed.

    “Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”

    Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.

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    17 Jul 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 77

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    When Shane Hollander hears Ilya Rozanov call him "Shane" after years of refusing to call him anything but that, his world shifts. He runs from Ilya and himself. He meets Rose at a party, and they start to date. In this universe, they don't break up before the All-Stars Game, so she comes along and meets Ilya, who is tangled in a family mess, haunted by the words of his father and brother every day. Shane realises that he is stuck in the 2014 night in Vegas, holding against Ilya that they didn't kiss, while Ilya is convinced Shane's life doesn't deserve the mess that follows his. So, the two continue to fight with each other and themselves, while an invisible thread keeps pulling them towards each other. There is angst, and a lot of yearning so be prepared, Loons!

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    16 Jul 2026

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    Ilya and Shane are broke roommates, until Ilya discovers streaming and starts making bank jerking off for the viewers
    Naturally, he offers his good friend Shane a chance at making money the same way
    And if they touch each other a little it’s only because of the tips, not because they are into each other

    ~~~~~~

    Shane and Ilya are both completely straight here
    #ISwearrr

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    15 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov have been friends since they were five years old. From neighbors, to peewee hockey, to college, and beyond, they've been in one another's orbits for nearly their whole lives. What happens when that level of knowledge and intimacy goes from friendship to... something more?

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    13 Jul 2026

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    After the tuna meltdown, they never really get the chance to get back together, only watching each other’s lives from a distance, occasionally reaching out through texts, pretending it’s enough.

    Until one day, Shane receives a package at his doorstep.
    It’s a book. It’s Ilya Rozanov’s memoir.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    Anyway, Shane didn't remember exactly what was in the folder ... But he knew they were all good shots of him.

    He hastily clicked open the folder, his eyes barely glancing through the dozen or so shots there, vaguely registering a picture with a sunset background from his condo balcony, something of him laughing, a picture of him working at his laptop with his glasses on...

    The director called him again, and he shook his head, the photos blurring. Whatever. It would have to do.

    He clicked "select all," then the messages icon, then Rozanov's name. Hit send.

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    Or: When never-hooked-up Shane and Ilya have to collaborate on a league charity project, Shane accidentally sends Ilya a nude.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    After more than a decade apart, Shane and Ilya are back together, happier than ever, and expecting a baby. Life is good.

    Then a cancer diagnosis rocks their family, and they find themselves, their relationship, and their relationships with their children tested like never before.

    Set shortly after the epilogue of The Hollanov Trap.

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    10 Jul 2026

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    A/U : A world where Hollanov breakup before they even get together

     

    There is no version of "them" that survives the real world. Shane has convinced himself of that. He’s traded the possibility of holding Ilya’s hand in a silent art gallery for the right to hoist a trophy in a screaming arena. He sees the end coming even if Ilya doesn't, so he steps up to be the villain the one to call timeout on their impossible fantasy. But looking at the wreckage in Ilya’s expression as he says the words, Shane realizes he hasn't saved them from anything. He’s just destroyed the only thing that mattered.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    Ilya is an asshole to Shane in Sochi. He's an asshole again in Vegas.

    Shane decides he doesn't hate himself enough to put up with this shit.

    It takes everything he has, but he ends it with Ilya.

    Ilya isn't having it.

    OR: What does Ilya Rozanov look like on his (figurative) knees?

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    08 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander needs housing.
    Ilya Rozanov needs to improve his reputation.
    A fake engagement solves both problems.

    OR: Professors Shane and Ilya fake an engagement, but end up with some very real feelings

    New chapter posted every Monday.

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    Chapters:
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    07 Jul 2026

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    Shane is an actor. It’s what he’s always wanted. Not really the fame part of it though, but to be a part of a movie or a show. That is his dream.
    Now the show he is on has become ridiculously popular and he struggles with how much his life will be scrutinized. And to make everything worse, the show has hired a new actor who is making Shane feel things he really shouldn’t be feeling.

     

    Ilya used to be a hockeyplayer. A good one. Unfortunately that career path didn’t go the way he wanted, so now he is breaking into the acting world. And when the lead of the show he has recently been hired to be in instantly hates him, Ilya is infatuated. With him, his weird habits and his adorable freckles.

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    07 Jul 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 17

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    Ilya’s eyes glinted in the low light as he leaned closer. “I get the sense you would prefer it the other way.”

    Shane's breath caught in his throat for just a beat before he moved his jacket to flash the handgun at his waist.

    “A bit dramatic, are we?” Ilya laughed.

    “I don't tolerate disrespect.”

    Ilya used the advantage of his extra few inches in height to plant his arm to the left of Shane's head and crowd him against the wall.

    “It would not be disrespectful,” Ilya whispered in the other man’s ear. “Unless you want it to be. Of course.”

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    Shane Hollander has been raised to take his place at the top of the Hollander family, the current heads of the Irish Mob in New York City, since his father's death. Him and his mother's ambitions upset the Italian Mafia and birth a gang war, where Shane finds himself working side-by-side with Ilya Rozanov, the brash second son of the Bratva's Rozanov clan (and the one-night stand he's been trying to avoid). Shane and Ilya fight to survive while learning they're stronger together than apart in more ways than they expect.

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    07 Jul 2026

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    Ilya is a photographer with a reputation. Shane is the golden boy on every magazine cover, and he's taken. They keep running into each other at shoots and after-parties, and it turns into a hot-mess situationship that they both think it’s casual, until it wasn't.

    Told through flashbacks and songs that got tangled up in all of it, this is the story of two people finding their way back to each other, and back to themselves.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    Loud beeps from his phone startled Ilya, and he slowed down, reaching for the device he’d put on the bar between his legs. Jane. He smiled to himself when he saw the notifications, and, checking Marlowe was absorbed in his own fitness, opened it quickly, smiling in anticipation of Shane's words.

    The smile was wiped off his face almost instantly.

    The blood drained from his face, and Ilya felt like the bottom had just fallen out of his world.

    *****

    Maybe he was naive, but Ilya always thought he had time. Time with Shane. Time to tell him what he truly meant to him.

    That, somehow, one way or another, Shane would always be there.

    But a text message late one night threatens to destroy the future that Ilya has spent the time carefully constructing in his mind.

    Maybe Shane wasn't always going to be there. That Shane would be cruelly snatched away from him before he had a chance to be honest.

    That he would be left behind. Alone.

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    04 Jul 2026

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    Shane makes a drunken mistake in the name of protecting his carefully constructed closet, his life explodes in spectacular fashion. Suddenly faced with an unplanned pregnancy, a movie-star girlfriend, and a team of publicists convinced that "devoted family man" is a better headline than "gay hockey player," Shane commits himself to a future that looks perfect on paper. The only problem is that his heart still belongs to Ilya Rozanov—the man he left behind a few months earlier with a broken heart, several unresolved feelings, and a belly button full of cum.

    Featuring an unforgettable supporting cast of ridiculous characters—including the endlessly supportive Rose, a delightfully meddling book club of old biddies who adopt Ilya as one of their own, and a sweet baby who changes all of their lives—this is a funny, emotional story about parenthood, forgiveness, grief, healing, and two grown men who could have avoided most of their problems by having one honest fucking conversation.

    or- Shane knocks up Rose, almost dies, and he and Ilya find their way back to each other the way they always do...only now they have an adorable baby to love too.

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    03 Jul 2026

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