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In spite of his skepticism, Eddie decides to start journaling, following his therapist's advice.
The man gives him a list of 365 prompts and questions to write about each day, to help him untangle the mess his brain has become.
Under the knots, he might find much more than just peace of mind.
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19 May 2026
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Eddie huffs. It’s respectable and masculine, probably. “You know I’m not interested in—”
“Yes, Eddie, I know,” Buck drolls. “You’re off the horse. The meat market is closed. Your dick is on Do Not Disturb. I just think the pot shouldn’t be calling the kettle out,” he gestures between them with an emphatic finger, “for bad dates. Not when the pot is, ostensibly, a born-again virgin.”
“I’m not a born-again virgin,” Eddie grumbles. “Don’t start this again.”
“I’m not starting anything,” Buck lies. “I’m watching the movie.” Another lie. Then he flops unceremoniously back down, head strewn across Eddie’s clenched thighs.
Or: Buck’s mouth moves faster than Eddie’s brain.
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17 May 2026
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I know what you like (what you’ll really like) by astraIis
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV), 9-1-1: Nashville (TV 2025)
08 Mar 2026
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When Buck and Eddie’s flight home from the Firefighter Games gets cancelled, the only option left is a twenty-seven hour drive back to Los Angeles.
Somewhere between Nashville, and one very small motel room with only a one bed, a line they’ve both been pretending not to see finally disappears.
Turns out the long way home might have been inevitable.
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- Part 4 of station stories, season nine
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16 May 2026
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This is all perfectly applicable to friendship. Friendships require effort. Intentionality. Sometimes you have to watch a minute long Instagram video about attracting men to figure out how to get your male best friend to come back to your house and fall asleep on your couch again. Or in your bed. Either one.
Whatever Buck's comfortable with. Eddie's not picky.
Eddie will take whatever proximity Buck is willing to offer and be grateful for it, and if that sounds desperate then fine, it's a little desperate, but it's friend-desperate, which is a completely different thing than regular desperate.
He replays the video and takes mental notes, formulating a plan that is simple: get Buck's attention. Spend more time with Buck. Stop feeling like his ribcage has been hollowed out with a melon baller every time he goes forty-eight hours without hearing Buck laugh.
Easy and straightforward. He’s got this.
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Five times Eddie tries to show Buck how much he misses him; plus the one time he just says it.Series
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13 May 2026
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"Leave it," Eddie says, his voice pulled taut like a wire about to snap, tight enough to hum.
Buck looks at him, and Eddie’s whole body has gone so rigid he looks carved from stone, but Buck will ruminate on that later. But he can't exactly leave his phone under the seat for the next eight hundred miles, it's got his whole life on it, every stupid photo he's ever taken of Christopher and Eddie and Eddie and Christopher and, embarrassingly, just Eddie, so many just-Eddies, an entire hidden album of candids he'll never admit to because they constitute evidence of something he's been pretending he doesn't feel.
"I can't leave it, it's my phone. It's got— hold on, I think it slid under your seat."
“Buck, don’t.”
It’s as if Eddie doesn’t even know him, because Buck has never once heard the word don’t and responded with anything resembling obedience. So now he’s stretching across the center console with one hand braced on Eddie’s thigh for leverage, the other reaching blindly into the dark gap beneath the driver’s seat, and he’s aware on some level that his positioning is— that he’s essentially— that his head is—
He’s in Eddie’s lap.
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What's a little road-head between friends?- Language:
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13 May 2026
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Dragging a hand down his face, Eddie says, “It was thirty seconds.”
“Of betrayal,” Buck says darkly.
A laugh bursts out of Eddie. “You’re–”
“I’m what?” Buck advances on him before stopping abruptly in the middle of the room. Behind him, the curry they’d been working on sizzles, oil burning. Neither of them does anything about it. “I’m right?”
“Jumping to conclusions,” Eddie grits out. He hates being cornered like this. “Like you always do.”
“Oh, okay,” Buck says, too brightly. “Same way you keep jumping through hoops to avoid saying anything you actually want to fucking say?”
Buck’s not being fair. None of this is fair. It’s not right, it’s not–
“Fuck you,” Eddie snaps.
OR: Buck and Eddie argue after Buck hooks up with a married couple.
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- Part 7 of cjo + 911
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12 May 2026
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“We don’t have drinks. I should get some,” Eddie offered as an excuse.
“No, you stay, I’ll get it.”
Before Eddie could insist, he was silenced by the view of Buck standing up from the water, swim trunks dripping wet and plastered to his large, muscular thighs. Every curve of his body was accentuated in that moment. It was like a slow motion Baywatch scene and Eddie was no better than a horny teenager.Buck's housewarming party ends in the hot tub, where one thing leads to another, and Eddie finds himself feeling very attracted to his best friend.
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12 May 2026
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Ravi: i take back everything, i’m no longer glad to be here
Ravi: buck’s sighs have been taken out of the chat
Chim: If you sigh one more time I’m going to smack you
Buck: can't a man be dramatic in peace
Bobby: Please no threats of physical violence in the work group chat. Gather for roll call. Thank you. – Bobby Nash
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11 May 2026
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When Eddie starts touching Buck out of nowhere, Buck.. stays silent about it.
Or, Eddie is sick of pretending what he and Buck have is platonic, so he starts acting like they're dating.
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08 May 2026
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When Christopher starts matching Fortnite skins with his girlfriend with characters that do not go together, Buck is rather surprised -and turned on- to find out that Eddie knows much more about the topic than Buck thought.
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08 May 2026
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„You slept with your ex bec-“ Eddie choked on his words momentarily, „Because...of me?“
He felt that sizzling sensation behind his ribs for the umpteenth time today, as he looked at his friend´s face. Flushed and heaving, stormy ocean eyes wild and desperate. Almost...
„Yes! I mean-“ Buck clasped his hand over his mouth, eyes wide. „No- n-no, of course not because of you, I mean-“
His pink cheeks deepened to a raspberry red, as he stumbled over his words and Eddie´s heart leaped at the sight. Like Icarus, it then plummeted to unknown depths.
„Buck,“ Eddie interrupted him once again, calmly, too calmly. He had to control his breathing so as not to gag at the next part. „Did- did you have sex with fucking Tommy in my room?“
Buck was fiddling with his fingers. „Technically, it was my room at the time...“
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Eddie stumbles across some hidden truths that send him spiraling more than once, which could mean nothing
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05 May 2026
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The epiphany hit him like a stray bullet. No, literally, Eddie would know.
All the air got sucked from his lung, creating a vacuum that muffled and drowned out everything around and inside of him. His eyes fell on the only thing in bright, blinding focus, just as it had the day he was actually shot. The only thing in 4K edge cutting ultra high definition in a world running on a pixelate, black and white RCA Playmate, was Buck.
I am gay , Eddie´s mind simply stated into the deafening silence in his ears and his lips fell slack.
I am gay and in love with my best friend , Eddie thought gayly- he gayed thoughtly. Gayed gayly. Eddie was having a stroke. Gayly.
„Hey Eddie, you okay?“
„Gay!“ Eddie yelped, turning his head so quick it gave a crack. „Yes, okay, me okay. I am-“
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Eddie dreams of Buck and his entire world comes tumbling down around him
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05 May 2026
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“How come you’re still awake?” Buck asks, antsy. He pulls at a loose thread inside one pocket with pinched fingers, rapidly picking apart the stitching. Better to unravel that than eight years of friendship all because said friend’s shorts have ridden up agonizingly at the thigh.
“I was waiting for you to get back. You’re kind of early, though.” Eddie’s eyes are tracked to the TV, but they dart over at Buck when he asks, “You strike out with Dixie?”
Which… Buck doesn’t even know where to start. He desperately needs to buy a vowel.
“Huh? Why—what—did I miss a text?”
Eddie, sat cross-legged on top of pearly-white cotton sheets, a vision so soft it’s making Buck dizzy, has the audacity to look puzzled. “Not from me. Why?”
or: Eddie leaves a light on for Buck.
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05 May 2026
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Do you remember? The very first time you kissed your best friend? (No) by mielydrama
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
20 Aug 2025
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“Of course kisses are for everyone, it could be entirely platonic”. Buck stretches his arms, a gesture to remark he thinks he’s right. “I mean, look at Eddie and I. At your bachelor party".
"What about the bachelor party?” Hen asks this time, her face showing a funny, confused grin. Karen shares her expression at her side.
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“That we kinda made out. And it was never weird. Right, Eddie?”
All the baffled looks follow Buck’s encouraging one. Eddie squints his eyes when he finally speaks.
“We did what?!”
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Buck is gonna help. They are going to kiss for the sole purpose of him remembering. Nothing more. Doesn't mean anything. That's what a best friend would do.
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04 May 2026
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Eddie moves before Buck can blink—one smooth, unhesitating motion. His hands find Buck’s waist first, then slide lower, bracing under his thighs as he lifts. The world tilts, and for a second Buck feels weightless, the heat of Eddie’s palms searing through denim, the strength behind it dizzying against Buck’s already crumbling composure.
Then the counter meets him—cool beneath his thighs even through the fabric—Eddie’s hands leaving heat in their wake like a brand. Eddie’s still standing close enough that Buck’s knees frame him, not backing away immediately. His breath grazes Buck’s chest, eyes flicking up, the space between them charged with something that makes every cell in Buck’s body scream more, more, more.
“Now sit,” Eddie says firmly, hands still resting under Buck’s legs before he finally backs away. “Stay.”
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Eddie picks Buck up, Buck is totally cool and normal about the whole thing.- Language:
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01 May 2026
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“You’re cheating,” Buck accuses.
“I’m winning,” Eddie pants, looking far too smug.
“I’m—” Buck tries to tug his arms free from Eddie’s hold to no avail. How is Eddie so damn strong? “I’m letting you.”
“You’re letting me pin you down? Do you like getting your ass handed to you, Buck?”
Heat floods Buck’s gut. He does like getting his ass handed to him. Or—no, well… he likes being pinned, or thrown against walls, or–or floors. But that’s different. That’s a sex thing. This is definitely not a sex thing. This is a bro thing. They’re bro-wrestling. Bro-housing. This is the most platonic thing Buck’s done in his entire life. He doesn’t know why he’s sweating.
Channelling his inner carpet python, he gives a determined wriggle, but Eddie’s hands tighten around his wrists. The feeling sends a shock through Buck’s spinal column.
Oh no.
Eddie, breathless and beautiful above him, repeats, “Say uncle.”
Breath stuttering out of him, Buck freezes.
Use your head, Buck thinks. His dick twitches. Then, panicked, the big one.
Or: Buck and Eddie wrestle over the remote. They forget the remote.
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- Part 16 of cjo + 911
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01 May 2026
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Eddie was—
Eddie was.
Eddie’s brown eyes flashed behind his eyelids whenever he closed his own. His voice echoed in his head as he laid down to sleep. He imagined his sharp canines sinking into his throat every time he wrapped a hand around himself, biting into his knuckles until they bled to keep quiet.
He wanted. He craved. And that was his problem.
He knew Eddie better than anyone, and worse, Eddie trusted him.
Eddie trusted good ole reliable Buck, the best friend, the babysitter, the guy to call in a crisis. He didn’t know about the cavernous hole that housed a snaggled beast, hidden behind his organs, in a place Buck didn’t have a name. He didn’t know how fucked up and needy Buck was.
So, Buck did what he did. He plastered on a smile, was punctual to every movie night, joked with Eddie in between every call, and tamed the lonely monster that nipped at his heels, inching closer and closer every day to ripping open his carotid artery
Or, the one where Buck wants, wants, and wants.
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01 May 2026
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u/firedad • 1h agoI (M33, Straight) Just Accidentally Discovered That My Best Friend (M33, Bisexual) of 7 Years is In Love With Me. By stalking his Grindr... What do I do?
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Or, Buck runs from his feelings realization by dating, and Eddie's jealousy leads him down a path of self-discovery.
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01 May 2026
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8x08 coda, buck flips the tablet to find out Eddie's leaving for El Paso. He rightfully is pissed off about it and they argue. Said argument gets a little heated, and they fuck nasty about it.
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30 Apr 2026
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Oh, alright, cool.
Cool, cool, cool. Neat.
That is a photograph of Eddie Diaz's dick.
It's just there. On the screen. In his hand. In high resolution. His best friend’s dick is in his hand. Well, wait — the photo. The photo of the penis is in his hand. Eddie’s dick isn’t in his hand. That would be absurd.
It’s just a penis. Buck has one of those.
So does Eddie, apparently and it’s… Buck has seen it, absorbed it, and every thought he's ever had has been replaced by a high-pitched tone and the image in front of him, which is — and this is the last coherent observation he'll produce for the foreseeable future —
Big.
Genuinely, impressively big.
Buck closes out of the photo and locks the phone so hard he's surprised it doesn't crack in half.
"Maddie say anything?" Eddie asks.
"Yep," Buck squeaks. Like a mouse. A giant, shocked mouse that has just seen its best friend’s erect dick.
"You okay?"
"Great. Y-yep. So great. I-I'm just really— the sunset was really— it's very— yep."
"It’s yep?"
"Uh-huh. Very yep."
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Stumbling upon your straight best friends' nudes is fine. Buck is fine. Everything is fine.- Language:
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30 Apr 2026