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  1. Public Bookmark 60

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    Shane Hollander hates Ilya Rozanov.

    At least, that's what he's always believed.

    On the ice, Ilya is loud, infuriating, and impossible to ignore. Behind a mask in a private club, a man calling himself Lev is quiet, patient, and somehow becomes the one person Shane can't stop thinking about.

    What Shane doesn't know is that they're the same man.

    As rivalry turns into obsession and anonymity becomes intimacy, both men are forced to confront a question neither of them is prepared to answer:

    How do you fall in love with someone you've already learned to hate?

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    06 Aug 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 44

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    An AU where Shane works as a nursing home activities director. As he maneuvers through the aftermath of a break up with his toxic ex-boyfriend, he's left with uncapped anxiety and a crushed self-image. Meanwhile, ex-photographer Ilya is on probation and in early substance abuse recovery. He's trying to pick up the pieces of his shattered life while barely managing to keep himself pulled together. Their paths cross and an unlikely connection blooms. As they confront old wounds and learn to trust again, they realize that healing is easier when you don't have to face it alone.

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    04 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    03 Aug 2026

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    The day after attending a charity event in Vancouver, Shane, Ilya, Scott, and a few other players board a plane to take them to Tampa for 2017 All Stars.

    The plane goes down somewhere in the wilderness, in the middle of a storm.

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    03 Aug 2026

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    Jackie Pike convinces Hayden to steal Boston Lily's number from Shane's phone and adds her to the WAGs chat.

    But what the WAGs didn’t know was that Lily was indeed the addition to the group they’d needed all along.

    Or:

    Ilya is a drama queen, matchmaker, and someone who just needs love.

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    21/?
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    02 Aug 2026

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    Finally, something dawns on him, a way to handle two goals simultaneously. He’d seen Hollander’s mother flipping through papers rapidly when they first got here, seeming calm and in control and more than a little frightening in a way that made Ilya mildly glad he wasn’t one of the people responsible for a clipboard. If anyone can tell him if the long list of “Prohibited Items” he’d been sent in his email a few days ago is just standard practice for big shoots, it would be Yuna Hollander.

    Or, hopefully, her son.

    “Crazy we cannot even have peanut butter, eh?” He asks. “You also got giant list?”

    Hollander stiffens, almost imperceptibly, and Ilya tilts his head, just slightly, confused, wondering if he’s stumbled somewhere unexpected.

    (how ilya learns about shane's allergies) (and shane's sexual awakening tragically hits a speedbump in the process 😔)

    (chapters can standalone but will be updated as inspiration strikes)

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    02 Aug 2026

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    Shane watched the first draft pick stand next to him, for the photograph.
    Number 81 gleamed in gold on the back of his Boston jersey.

    Was that deliberate?

    Had Rozonov chosen it himself?

    Or was it just a coincidence that the number stitched across Rozonov’s back was the same one that had once belonged to Hollander. Two years ago. In Russian red.

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    They met at fifteen in Moscow.

    Neither of them ever really recovered.

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    01 Aug 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 48

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    “Good. I am glad that everyone was able to make it out today. I know you are all familiar with my husband…and maybe have felt some frustrations about his mouth getting ahead from him sometimes.”

    There were chuckles around the room. Bood let out a snort as if to signal, you could say that again.

    “But I also know many of you want to do other things to his mouth. Don’t think I don’t hear when some of you say you would pick my husband for a gay pass” he throws a glare out at the room. Luca turned visibly pink and Troy shifted uncomfortably in his chair.

    “Tonight I am offering you an opportunity to do something about that. Whether you want to take out some pent up rage into his mouth, or if you simply want to live out a fantasy with a very hot man, I am offering up my husband for one night and one night only.”

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    What if Ilya is the one who gets gang banged by his teammates while Shane watches. Part 2 now added!

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    01 Aug 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is many things—a pain in Shane Hollander’s ass, hockey’s biggest playboy, a better chirper in his second language than most people are in their first, the only player who can challenge Shane for the title of “best of his generation.” But when Shane and Ilya get stuck next to each other on a long-delayed flight to the MLH Awards, Shane realizes something else about him: Ilya Rozanov is hot.

    ***

    Shane and Ilya never hooked up at the CCM shoot. Seven years later, they end up on the same flight from New York City to Las Vegas.

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    30 Jul 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 99

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    The guys had always chirped Hollander for being a bit of a mama's boy. Well. They aren't chirping anymore.

    (I was thinking about how Shane would handle future business ventures if Yuna wasn't there/how the Irina foundation would work if Yuna wasn't there & how Ilya would try to help Shane through a pain he knows uniquely)

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    30 Jul 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, celebrated hockey star, gets perilously lost in the wilderness.

    Shane Hollander, wilderness expert and #1 Rozanov hater, finds him.

    They're stuck in the woods. Completely alone. Together.

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    29 Jul 2026

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    At twelve, Ilya Rozanov is sent to Canada to be trained by the best of the best.

    Shane Hollander is immediately mesmerized by the small boy with golden curls and broken English standing on his front doorstep.

    The friendship that develops between them blossoms into something more, until one day Ilya suddenly leaves without warning.

    They meet again in 2008 as strangers.

    A lot of things have changed. Nothing is as it seems.

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    Childhood AU about two boys too frightened to fall in love, but they do it nonetheless, and them finding their way back to each other.

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    28 Jul 2026

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    Sequel to Breathing Room

    Ilya Rozanov has spent five years holding Shane Hollander at arm’s length - not because he didn’t love him, but because he loved him too much to ask him to risk everything for something that could fall apart. He was good at that: the careful distance, the walls that looked like indifference, the way he’d learned to be close without being close. He’d had a lot of practice.

    What he didn’t have practice for was what came after he was done lying to himself. He didn’t have practice for this - for something warm and bright and absolutely terrifying. Something that fits in the spaces between games and cities and the distance between Boston and Raleigh. Something that makes Ilya think, for the first time in a long time, that maybe the risk is worth it.

    He just needs to figure out what to do with it all before their careers swallow them whole

    He doesn’t get the chance to think about it for very long.

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    24 Jul 2026

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    "Chlamydia?" Ilya has never heard Hollander's voice reach such heights in the absence of a cock. "You have chlamydia?"

    "I did not get it on purpose," Ilya complains.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Ilya doesn’t even try to stop the litany of Russian swears from spilling out. He also doesn’t stop himself from cursing Marly’s whole family line, and then verbalizing some of his more homicidal thoughts about Scott Hunter and the kitchen sink. He lets his Russian ranting die out and takes a few deep breaths.

    Everyone has quieted to look at him.

    “Feel better?” Marly asks.

    Maybe Ilya could drown Marly in the sink along with Hunter. Maybe he could kill everyone in the suite before Shane wakes up. He’d have to kill the butler guy, too…and the front of house staff…and the wedding chapel staff…and then convince Shane to run away with him to somewhere that would neither extradite to the US nor prosecute them for being gay. Messy. Too messy.

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    Ilya wakes up with a wedding ring and a WHOLE LOT of questions...but at least Marly and Scott fucking Hunter are having a good time. This is Ilya's worst nightmare which, as it turns out, features a night of blackout drinking, misguided but supportive friends, and some VERY stupid decisions.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Shane returns from the showers to find the locker room far more animated than when he left it. Everyone has their phones out, and when he sees Shane coming, JJ says, “Câlisse, Hollander, about fucking time! Ilya Rozanov got caught kissing a man.”


    After the tuna melt debacle, but before Rose, Ilya makes the reckless decision to go to a gay bar to take his mind off of Shane. When photographs get published, Shane has a realization and devises a plan: he's going to ask Ilya Rozanov to marry him.

    Ilya's going through enough without things he can't have being dangled in front of him. He needs to figure out a different way to avoid going home, because eventually Shane Hollander will realize what Ilya already knows: Ilya isn't worth what Shane wants to do for him.

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    Chapters:
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    21 Jul 2026

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    What if Troy Barrett met Shane Hollander first?

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    By the second period, it was clear even to fans in the farthest, cheapest seats that something unusual was taking place on the ice.

    “The Centaurs haven’t looked especially in sync all season, but this is something else,” one commentator said. “Rozanov and Barrett do not look like line-mates tonight,” the other commentator agreed, disbelief in his voice.

    “Seems like Rozanov’s forgotten which team he’s playing for.”

    [...]

    It went on like that well into the final period, until Barrett finally had enough. One more snub, one more chirp, one more empty lane Rozanov should have covered, and Troy was on him. Gloves hit the ice.

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    20 Jul 2026

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    “Just got the word from the officials, Metros are shutting Miitka down for the night," LeClaire says almost dispassionately. “Third period we’re up against,” LeClaire consults his clipboard, “Shane Hollander. Drafted 2009, current starter for the Laval Maples, posts a .905 save percentage.”

    Ilya stays where he is, rolling the name around in his head once, without much interest.

    Hollander.

    Doesn’t ring a bell.


    Inspired by that one twitter post, what if Shane was a goalie?

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    20 Jul 2026

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    One delayed flight. One closing airport bar. One truth or dare game that gets significantly out of hand.
    Ilya Rozanov came to his ex-girlfriend's wedding to prove he was over it. Shane Hollander came to his best friend's wedding to prove he was fine. They were both lying, but they didn't know that about each other yet.

    Then they had to share a room.

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    Chapters:
    8/8
    Comments:
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    305,481

    19 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander was the number one draft pick and is now captain of the Boston Raiders. Ilya Rozanov quit hockey after his mother died and now owns a bookshop in Boston. When Shane moves into a new apartment down the street from One Good Memory, he finds more than just a convenient place to grab a new book.

    Or...Shane is lonely and closeted and reads a lot; Ilya is charmed and quotes books at him.

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    Chapters:
    14/16
    Comments:
    5,065
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    2,855
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    235,209

    14 Jul 2026

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