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World on Your Shoulders by Latigra
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
22 Feb 2026
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Shane's new rookie is great at hockey, hair care, and making Shane think about things that don't matter and distract him from the things that give his life meaning: Ilya Rozanov and hockey.
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- 15,471
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- 1/1
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18 Apr 2026
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Please don't leave (I won't ever) by 17darwinism
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Mar 2026
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“What did you actually think?”
He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…”
“Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers.
Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.”
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Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.Series
- Part 2 of Please, God, I'm finally loved
- Language:
- English
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- 33,429
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- 1/1
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16 Apr 2026
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a place between by Thementalistlover2013
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Dec 2025
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Ilya crumpled against Shane. Outside, the lake was black glass. A bat cut across the moon again, quick and gone.
“She would like this place,” Ilya murmured softly, sniffling and failing to smile. “Quiet. No shouting. No boots.” His voice dropped. “She would love you.”
Shane pressed his mouth to Ilya’s hair, careful, reverent. “You are so beautiful, Ilya. So perfect. Your mother was right. I know she loved you so much because I can see her in you.” Ilya whimpered softly, eyes closing and lashes fluttering against his cheeks.
(They make it to the cottage but Ilya's got a lot of unresolved trauma and wakes Shane up in the throes of a nightmare. In the quiet of their cottage they work through some of it).
Added an epilogue:
“You’re my good boy, aren’t you, Ilya?” Shane’s voice was soft and deep. He loved watching how Ilya reacted-biting his own lip and closing his eyes, a tear spilling down as his thrusts became erratic. Ilya was a really emotional person and, deep down, wanted to be told he was good, even if he would deny himself it.
“Please, please, please l-let me.” Ilya mumbled out, words heavily accented and wet as he gasped for air.
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15 Apr 2026
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pretty (kind of dirty face) by angeluvxx
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Apr 2026
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Shane Hollander, a well booked, in demand model is back for the summer for a well deserved break. It was all going so well until his car decides to break down. Unsure of what to do, he calls the first garage he can find, not expecting to meet the most infurtiating, aggravating and beautiful man he had ever seen.
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Shane's a brat who is used to getting what he wants, Ilya Rozanov doesn't give into a pretty face that easy.
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15 Apr 2026
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Shane and Ilya are different behind closed doors.
A multi POV fic that allows other characters to get a glimpse behind the wall.- Language:
- English
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- 22,470
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14 Apr 2026
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Shane’s fingertips lazily trace down the middle of his back, and then tap their way back up. Ilya wants to die here.
“If you could be any animal,” Shane asks, yawning in the middle of the sentence, “what animal would you be?”
Shane and Ilya play a game.
- Language:
- English
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- 1,810
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- 1/1
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- 432
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13 Apr 2026
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a year safe in your heart by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Mar 2026
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“And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”
Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”
“It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”
“Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”
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The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.
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- Part 1 of anonymous cottage collection
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 54,996
- Chapters:
- 6/6
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10 Apr 2026
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in your arms i'd start a war by stammiviktor
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Jan 2026
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After an eventful day, Ilya, Shane, Yuna and David enjoy dinner together at the cottage. (Then Ilya and Shane enjoy dessert.)
An episode 6 continuation.
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10 Apr 2026
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as it picks me up, puts me down by quellerdemon (hobihobihobi)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Mar 2026
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Shane Hollander hasn’t texted Ilya back in 26 hours and Ilya is completely neutral about it. 26 hours is, objectively, when considered in the larger patterns of Ilya and Shane Hollander’s texting relationship, not an extraordinary amount of time. And were Ilya to feel anything about it, which he doesn’t, it would have much more to do with the fact that every hour of every day for the past three days he’s felt like a fucking live wire (for absolutely NO fucking reason) than it would have anything to do with Shane Hollander as a person, specifically.
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5 times Ilya is extremely bipolar + 1 time Shane is there to notice.
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01 Apr 2026
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none of these stories are interconnected. they can be read in any order, and you're not missing something if you skip some of them. it's just all my HR fic, gathered in one place.
- Words:
- 149,120
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- 21
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01 Apr 2026
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Change the Subject by Griffin_Bronstad
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Apr 2026
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Set after the events of The Long Game. Shane has joined the Centaurs in Ottawa. I wanted to look at how Shane would recognize and cope with his eating disorder. I did my best to keep this realistic but please take care when reading. I promise this will have a happy ending if you stick with it.
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31 Mar 2026
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Please Text by EveFrancesca
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Mar 2026
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In retrospect, they should have called. Texted. Rang the doorbell. Heralded their entry with a trumpet. Something. But everything is clearer in hindsight, especially the sight of your father’s behind.
Shane suppresses a shudder.
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Shane and Ilya walk in on an awkward situation. Ilya intends to make it worse.
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31 Mar 2026
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i've been seeing ghosts again by Pale_Blue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
19 Apr 2026
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Ilya spirals following the move to Ottawa.
The Hollanders do their best to catch him.
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31 Mar 2026
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Yuna and Ilya might not be close yet, but she certainly isn’t going to abandon him in some random Ottawa hotel room when he’s sick. And Ilya's powerless against these Hollanders — their earnest kindness, and their insistence on caring about him as though he deserves it.
Or: Yuna + Ilya's mortifying ordeal of being known.
- Language:
- English
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- 21,351
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- 14/14
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- 329
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- 1,598
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25 Mar 2026
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A Danger to Yourself or Others by onetrueharem
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Apr 2026
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Galina stopped writing to look at Ilya. "Do you think he'd be willing to talk to you next time it happens, even if it's late?"
Ilya's stomach turned over. He didn't even want to consider it, but he knew the answer. "Yes. But he silences his phone at night."
"Most phones these days have an option to let certain numbers ring through, even on Do Not Disturb. Do you think he'd be open to setting that up for you?"
Imagining that conversation made Ilya nauseous. Yes, no fucking doubt, Shane would be open to it if Ilya explained the reason. "I'm not going to ask him to do that."
Set during The Long Game, an alternate version where the plane scene doesn't happen. Instead, there's this: a car crash, a therapist's duty to report, and an urgent reckoning with priorities.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 37,182
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Comments:
- 237
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- 1,629
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- 410
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25 Mar 2026
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i'm sorry, i tried, i love you by herrealname
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV) RPF
19 Apr 2026
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Set in the years after the cottage and in non-TLG canon, Shane and Ilya’s secrets become too heavy to carry, and things begin to fray at the seams. In their 30’s, unresolved traumas lead to a disastrous collapse of their coping mechanisms. Will a love that can only exist in the dark be able to transcend the silence of individual suffering?
"i’m sorry, i tried, i love you" is a story about the insidious realities of mental health and grief, but also about self-compassion and love.
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25 Mar 2026
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8-year-old Shane Hollander thinks he knows everything. About hockey, life, friendships, school. It isn’t until the Rozanov family moves in next door that he realizes he doesn’t know much about anything at all.
Or: Childhood best friends to lovers.
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- Part 11 of Hollanov
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,596
- Chapters:
- 3/?
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- 242
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- 586
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24 Mar 2026
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i will not be great (but I'm grateful to get through..) by broadley
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
28 Mar 2026
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There are three things everyone knew about Ilya Rozanov.
1. At the age of 12 his mother killed herself and Ilya found her.
2. 5 years later at the age of 17 Ilya tried to kill himself.
3. His father shipped him off to a mental hospital in the middle of nowhere Canada because he was an embarrassment and couldn’t bare the thought of someone from his blood being so weak in the same country as him.What Ilya didn’t know was when Shane Hollander arrived two months ago, he would fall hard for the boring Canadian with the most beautiful freckles.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,567
- Chapters:
- 3/?
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- 111
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20 Mar 2026
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"Normal" by meterokinesis
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
13 Feb 2026
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It started, as so many things do, with a tweet.
“Hey, Hollzy! Look at this! It’s so you and Roz,” Evan Dykstra said, shoving his phone in Shane’s face. Shane squinted at the slightly blurry screen, willing his eyes to focus on the small font. He never brought his glasses to practice (much to Ilya’s chagrin), but he also never anticipated reading whatever stupid meme the Centaurs decided was vital for his desolate knowledge of pop culture.
Me and the bad bitch I pulled by being autistic, it read, followed by a photo pulled from Centaurs socials of Ilya and Shane smiling at each other like idiots at a team event.
Shane read it a second time, then looked up at Dykstra, who looked incredibly proud of himself. Clearly, Ilya was supposed to be the ‘bad bitch,’ because no one had ever put those two words in the same sentence as Shane Hollander.
“Funny, D,” Shane began, “but I’m not autistic.”
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Shane Hollander realizes he might be autistic. He is the last person to do so.Bookmarked by poly_styrene
19 Mar 2026
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будь нежной (Be Gentle) by PassengerPidgin
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
05 Apr 2026
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The ash from the end of his cigarette missed the ashtray and landed on his arm. It stung, enough to drag his attention back to the present. He brushed the gray flecks from his arm, but paused, marvelling at the sting it left behind. It felt like control. He stared at the cigarette, slowly burning out in his hand.
Taking a deep breath, steeling himself for the impending pain, he quickly jabbed the hot cherry into the meat of his arm.
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Or, what if Ilya had another reason for loving cigarettes? It gets worse before it gets better (as with all mental health).Bookmarked by poly_styrene
19 Mar 2026