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    The day after getting kicked out of the playoffs by the Centaurs, Hayden Pike shows up for a post-series debrief along with the rest of the Metros. They are greeted by a roomful of cops, a recording of a late-night 911 call, and an empty chair where Shane Hollander should be.

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    24 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️very short but interesting premise and we might get to see more!! (kind of in progress?)

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    On June 17th, 2017, Ilya Rozanov is declared dead following the crash of Air Canada Flight 11040.

    On June 24th, he comes back to life.

    Shane spends the intervening week on a silent retreat, more or less.

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    24 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

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    Shane never got over what happened in that last season in Montreal. The first year in Ottawa was never supposed to break them like this. Neither of them know it's the last time they will argue like this. After a brutal loss and a worse fight, Shane vanishes-taken by the one person Ilya has spent years trying to ignore and forget. When the case ends in Ottawa River, everyone else accepts the inevitable.
    Every except Ilya. Because Shane has never been good at letting go. And Ilya has never been good at giving up on him.

    Shane disappears into the river-and Ilya is the only one who refuses to let him go.

    Everyone else believes Shane is dead; Ilya believes he's still fighting his way home.

    Complete.

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    21 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
    this is an example of the best version of this trope, one where it deals with the aftermath as well as the actual ordeal. i’m obsessed with the style and tone. it’s got a purposeful messiness and a vagueness that circles back around to specificity and i am so impressed by the authors ability to trust their reader to fill in all the gaps bc it’s so much more effective this way. also just really strong and consistent characterization and the use of repetition here is really elegant! no gimmicks just the continuous referral to a set of symbols and images that convey a feeling (the river, the ring, the cabin, the phone charger) i feel like writing essays about this. i have writer envy

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    “Fuck it,” He mutters in Russian before just pressing his thumb down onto the phone next to Hollander’s contact.

    Ilya puts it onto speaker, listening to just up to the first half of the second ring before pressing the big red button, not letting it go on any longer.

    Fuck.

    He drops his phone and presses the palms of both of his hands to his eyes, trying to stabilize himself.

    Ring.

    His heart practically jumps out of his chest when he hears the sound coming from his phone. He looks down at where it’s sitting on the bed, the screen reads “Jane."

    Fuck.

    Out of panic, Ilya declines the call but quickly makes his way to his messages app, finding Hollander’s contact and typing out a quick few messages back to back.

    Ilya: did not mean to call.
    Ilya: was accident
    Ilya: no need for call back

    Ilya takes a deep breath and sets his phone back down only to be met with an immediate response from Hollander.

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    OR, 5 times Ilya had a nightmare & called Shane + the 1 time Shane was there to comfort him in person

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    21 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️SO SWEET

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    Yuna Hollander was born to chirp.

    Ilya is more than happy to be her mouthpiece.

    Featuring Ilya roping Yuna into his antics, Yuna Hollander knowing more about MLH players than their own teammates do, and Shane ready to kill them both.

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    20 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️light hearted crack!!

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    He makes it to an empty hallway. It’s quiet but he can hear the faraway buzz of usual nighttime hospital noises. He braces a hand against the wall, feeling his pulse thread faster and faster even at a stand still, he ducks his head and squeezes his eyes closed shut as curls fall over his sweating forehead.

    He hated the thoughts that circled around in his mind like a vicious whirlpool: of David laying there so deathly still and unwell, of his mother in her own bed, slumped and pale, of his father on that cold, metal table in a quiet Russian morgue. He bit back the bile that rushed up the back of his throat.

    He’d never had much luck with his own family back in Russia but he’d been welcomed so openly into Shane’s, embraced by their love, folding him in like he was one of their own — he’d just never really given any of it much thought of what it’d be like to have to lose one of them, too.

    or: david hollander has a heart attack and ilya has a lot of feelings about it

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    19 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

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    Angry tears spring to his eyes and his head spins. His breath picks up.

    Something bad is happening, he thinks.

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    Shane is finally settled into married life with Ilya when ghosts from his past unearth troubling secrets he didn't even know were buried. He's forced to go on an odyssey in search for the answer to one question: what really happened to him all those years ago?

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    19 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ gorgeously written, perfectly in character, but DEAD DOVE!!!! also the chapter names parallel the Odyssey and it’s not superfluous and it’s actually a really elegant touch and that one choice really elevates this for me

  8. Public Bookmark 84

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    “Ilya… What’s wrong? You can talk to me.”

    Ilya shakes his head, mouth trembling. “I— I don’t—”

    He does not know why he is feeling sad again. It should be so easy. This life is everything Ilya has ever wanted, that he honestly doubted he would ever get to experience. Yes, he knew it would not be perfect, living with Shane, that he might get sad sometimes like his mother, but he did not expect to feel hurt like this.

    And how can he explain that it hurts, let alone why? That would be so painful for Shane to hear. He might feel like he is being a bad husband if he can’t fix it, like he is failing Ilya. That would be horrible because Shane is a wonderful husband and Ilya is the failure. Shane is trying to understand him, to help, and Ilya can’t give him that because it’s not something Shane can fix.

    Ilya and Shane are married, the team is great, the sex is awesome. There are no problems. Okay, some problems.


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    18 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️.5 only these FREAKS would have an emotional breakthrough DURING sex stuff!!! anyway I live and die by well written slice of life for these guys and today I live good!!!

  9. Public Bookmark 81

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    Shane doesn't learn about it – any of it – until the first February he plays for the Centaurs. February 1st, there's an event in the team's calendar, titled “Mandatory Safety Workshop”.

    Shane is confused, until he sees that the event was created by Ilya, and then he is flummoxed.

    Or Ilya, patron saint of women everywhere, makes sure that his teammates don't forget Valentine's Day.

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    18 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️short and sweet, fic equivalent of a pick me up

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    “I turned the other cheek every fucking time. I still got tossed on my ass the second I went too far over the line, and threatened by the commissioner, and told to kill myself on just about every social media platform because my nightmare that I’d get outed came true. And you, after everything you did, got to come out to a supportive team and fans, get a slap on the wrist, and have your happy fucking ending.”

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    An exploration of Shane Hollander's struggle against racism and homophobia in hockey, and how others come to understand it

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    17 May 2026

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    in progress! (in which shane has the breakdown he has EARNED and it’s not ooc!!) v excited abt ch 3 :)

  11. Public Bookmark 55

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    Ilya leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, a silhouette painted in moonlight and shadow. And Shane thought, as he often had, that he might explode from loving this man so much. That thank god they’d had a kid because now Shane had someone else important and hallowed to pour this love into, or else it might be too much to bear.

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    Six Octobers in the lives of Shane & llya's family, and a beloved book that is woven into their past, present, and future. Companion piece to The Importance of Strawberries.

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    17 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️may a love like this find me!!!!!!!

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    “I’m sorry I’m not him,” Shane says, looking away.

    “Who?”

    “Future me. Whoever you fell in love with.” What’s unsaid hangs in the air: whoever fell in love with you. Because this Shane – 2010 Shane – doesn’t love him. Is amused by their daily lessons, comforted by his presence, even grateful. But love?

    “That’s the thing, Shane,” Ilya says. His eyes are shining. “You are, right now, exactly who I fell in love with.”

    In 2031, Shane wakes up in the hospital certain that it's 2010. Ilya is there to remind him of the two decades he's missed and the life they've built along the way.

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    16 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️(easily one of the best (if not the best) amnesia fics i’ve ever read) (big fan but i must admit i don’t entirely understand the strawberries of it all lol)

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    “You are not broken, Ilya,” Terry says, sounding a little stern now. “I told you to keep an eye on the side effects. How long have you been experiencing this?”

    “Since last night.”

    “What?”

    “Since last night,” Ilya repeats. “Or afternoon, technically.”

    And Terry…Terry fucking laughs.

    Ilya is going to die, and Shane will be sad forever and Terry fucking laughs.

    “It hasn’t even been a day?” Terry clarifies, still chuckling. “Well, this could have nothing to do with the medication. It could just be an off day—”

    “Off day?” Ilya repeats incredulously. “Have you seen my husband? There are no off days with an ass like that.”

    OR: Ilya starts taking antidepressants only to realise it's fucking up his sex life. And, he acts totally very chill about it.

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    15 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️SO GOOD

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    Hayden could not imagine someone losing that and their mother in the same day. It would age you. It would change you. Perhaps by the time Ilya had been thirteen, and fourteen, perhaps he had already been grown.

    Hayden Pike grit his teeth because he knew he had been wrong. Ilya Rozanov had never just been an obnoxious hockey player with a colossal ego and nice smile - nice enough to entrap Shane Hollander, anyway - and now his hatred was mostly unfounded. He hated it when people were more complex than they seemed. It meant he had to change his mind.

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    Five times people see the impact of Ilya growing up too fast, and one time a tiger becomes a boy again.

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    14 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

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    New York Post ✅ @nypost

    Andrei Rozanov blasts NHL-superstar brother Ilya: “Shocking lack of respect for real family"

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    14 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️crack of the highest quality!!!

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    “Are you ever angry?” Scott asks.

    Every day.

    “About what?” Shane says. “The leaked video? The reactions? The commissioner of the NHL trying to shove us back into the closet? About the fact that all of you -” He vaguely gestures towards Scott and then to the table in the back where it seems like Harris is currently trying to take a selfie with everyone. “- got to come out on your own terms?”

    Shane visits the Kingfisher for the first time. It doesn't go as planned.

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    13 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

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    It’s Christmas Eve, and they just lost a game, and there’s a freak snowstorm, and they’re stuck in JFK, and Mariah Carey is there, and Shane thinks he’s getting sick.

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    13 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

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    “And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”

    Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”

    “It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”

    “Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”

    The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.

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    11 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️so completely unique and fascinating

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    The beginning of the process was fairly easy. Ilya turned on the new phone and followed the directions to start the transfer, but it stalled out at the same step as it had for the genius person. Ilya spent some time scrolling through Reddit and checking if it was his photos, or maybe his contacts, until he saw a post from BigPapi27: my problem was with my voicemail lolll never checked it and it was full as hell. had to clear it out and then everything was fine.

    Well. That was probably it. Ilya didn’t think he’d checked his voicemail since he’d played for Boston. He wasn’t even sure where it lived on the phone, so he googled that too, and found out that not all the notifications on the phone call app were from missed calls. A lot of them were, but just as many were voicemails he hadn’t known were taking up all this space, causing him problems. 

    And, he realized as he scrolled, so many of them were from Shane.

    (or, shane starts leaving ilya voicemails. years later, ilya finds them all)

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    09 May 2026

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    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

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    Fresh off four blissful, sun-soaked weeks of nothing but lazing around in various states of undress across assorted boats, beds, and beaches, Shane and Ilya are back from their honeymoon and ready to finally start their new life together. They’d won their happy ending, fair and square, and nothing can take the joy out of that.

    Not even the tedium of unpacking the dozens of boxes that had been shipped over from Shane’s house in Montreal.

    Or so Shane thought.

    The joy is still there. But it also turns out that happy endings might be a little more complicated than Shane believed they were.

    Or: The one where the Shane finally confronts some things he didn’t realize he had buried and the boxes aren’t the only things that get unpacked. Six boxes that lead to six moments of healing.

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    09 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️therapy in fic form!!! (i’m gonna walk into traffic)

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