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    Twenty years after everything fell apart, Shane Hollander is on the cusp of becoming MLH Commissioner when Ilya Rozanov walks into his office and back into his life.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Rather than give him the joint, Ilya takes it back between his own lips and sucks in a deep breath, the tip glowing as he does so. Then, before Shane can process it, he’s reaching up and sliding one large hand around the back of Shane’s neck, pulling him down so their lips meet.

    Shane gasps softly, and Ilya takes the opportunity to blow smoke into his open and waiting mouth.

    Oh, God. Are you there? It’s me, Shane Hollander. We’ve had our differences, but I think I’d like to convert for real this time. I’m ready. Open the pearly white gates. I’m coming up.

    Shane goes to a house party, gets high, then gets on his knees. bon appetite
    now a multi-chapter saga bc i couldn't help myself

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    04 Jun 2026

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    ...I guess I should just say it. I was wondering if you'd—”

    “I think we should stop seeing each other.”

    “—like to come to my cottage this summer.”

    The plate slips from Shane's hand and shatters on the kitchen floor.

    Or: Shane doesn't get injured that night Montreal plays Boston. Ilya follows through on his plan to break things off with him. Well, he tries, at least.

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    20 May 2026

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    “Okay. You want to say no, you want to fight me. Pretty boy, all alone in his glass house. You want me to force you?”

    He didn’t need Shane to answer, really; Shane was fully hard against Ilya’s thigh and pink under his freckles. But it was best to be direct about these things. And he wanted to hear Shane say it, anyway.

    “I—yeah. Make me. Is that too weird?”

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    19 May 2026

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    “Shut up,” Rozanov snaps. He whips his head around, crowding Shane towards the wall. A sky-dividing sharpness to his anger, his mineral blue gaze. It fizzles out. “I did not say you are a girl.”

    Shane freezes. His heart opens before he can stop it. “Do you want me to be one?”

    or: Shane does not want Rozanov to make him ask.

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    14 May 2026

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    Immediately following the events of Episode 6, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov return to the cottage and spend the next number of days talking, fucking, and sharing secrets about their relationship the other person doesn't know.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    "We are actually so fucking washed," Shane bitches. "I'm never getting better and you are stuck on a losing team that sucks. Everyone is going to forget about us."

    "Don't make me trip you," Ilya says, calmly. "Let's do another lap."

    "No," Shane barks. Ilya raises his eyebrows.

    Shane refuses to accept this. This perpetual cycle of suck. When he invited Ilya to his cottage almost four years ago now, he didn't expect their relationship to turn into their fucking burial ground.

    Shane finds himself grounded in Ottawa for the foreseeable future. With his newfound free time, he hangs out with his family, eats Costco Rotisserie chicken, and whips Ilya Rozanov back into a champion.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    Ilya laughs. He finds that once he starts, he can't stop. He laughs at the fact that he's in France with Shane Hollander. He laughs at the fact he's Shane Hollander's boyfriend. He laughs at the fact that he gave up Moscow for a better life, only to end up in fucking Ottawa. 

    Ilya's dick stops working one month before he's supposed to leave for the South of France. 

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    02 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander has chemistry with his new American linemate. Montreal fans are thrilled. Ilya Rozanov is not.

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    30 Mar 2026

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    "Stop asking me if it's okay. If I want it. You're always, like—whatever. I'm not one of your fucking girls, okay? If I don't like it, I'll stop you. I can make you stop."

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Lily: U might want to get tested

    Jane: Hilarious. Fuck you.

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    Set in the liminal situationship timeline between episodes 3 and 4.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    That girl at the club meant nothing. Shane drunk-texting Ilya at 2 AM means everything.

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    A bandaid for my brain following the Club Scene in episode four.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    In 2008, Shane Hollander lost to Ilya Rozanov. Fresh-faced, hungry. Like he’d been living off victory points that were scraps compared to the real thing, compared to beating Rozanov, the first man in the world to make him feel second-best. Back then, he’d thought that was the only thing he felt, too. That the electric pulse jostling between them in the gym some time later was a trick of the mind. It was like seeing sky above for the first time. See you at the draft. Life in that paper body.

    or: Ilya comes back. This is the crux of it.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    “Y-you want me to be a girl?”

    Ilya rubbed the base of one of his thumbs with the other. Seeing Ilya’s shyness so plainly made Shane’s nose twitch.

    “No, not all the time,” Ilya said after a moment. “And not if you don’t want to. Never if you don’t want to. I just . . . I think about it, sometimes.”

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    Ilya loves his life and his husband. But lately, he's found himself missing girls. Luckily, Shane is happy to indulge this fantasy.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    A video of Shane sucking Ilya’s dick is leaked. Over the next twenty-four hours, Ilya goes on an odyssey.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    “Rozy—shit,” he manages, voice strangled, want bubbling molten and inescapable in his gut, hips trembling with the force of not rudely bucking up into Rozanov’s warm, far too talented mouth.

    Because I just wanted you to fuck me, he thinks after he’s finished making Shane unravel with soft, unforgiving motions, as Rozanov—as Ilya—laves his tongue hungrily over the mess dripping down the planes of his abdomen, blinking overwhelmed tears away from the diminuendo of pleasure. But then I became greedy. And now all I want is for you to love me.

    Or: despite the initial fear, the world doesn't end when Shane Hollander realizes he loves Ilya Rozanov. Now, he just has to convince Ilya of that same truth.

    An adjusted timeline. A collection of moments. A story about completing someone, despite the odds.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov on the Art of Fiction: “I write because I need to write, I read because I need to read, I eat because I need to eat, and so on. I imagine it’s the same for everyone who feels compelled to put words on a page."

    twenty or so years after "the texture of memory," ilya sits down for a chat with michaela kerrigan about life, writing, and love.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    alternatively: “that’s his baby,” or maybe, “romanza, andante con moto.” Shane tries to write a love letter to his husband. He succeeds, more or less.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    Shane has been missing for a long, long time.

    Or: Ilya goes on a road trip. Somewhere along the way, he finds himself again.

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    26 Mar 2026

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