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  1. Public Bookmark 73

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    When Shane suffers a season-ending injury at the hands of one of Ilya's teammates, Ilya reacts in a way nobody could ever predict. The impulsive decision causes immediate media uproar, and Shane must consider how to deal with the consequences of what Ilya has done--and what he fears Ilya might be telling him with his actions.

    Canon divergence AU. In which Ilya throws a punch at a teammate for purposefully, seriously injuring Shane. When Shane later finds out, he knows that everything is about to change.

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    12 Mar 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 97

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    “We want you to at least consider waiving your no-trade,” his general manager is saying, but the words barely register in Shane’s head. “Ahead of the playoffs, we want to make sure our team cohesion is as strong as possible, and there have been concerns about locker room dynamics . . .”

    And of course there are. Of course that’s what this is about.

    OR: When Shane comes out to the Voyageurs, a breakdown in team dynamics results in a last-minute trade to their divisional rival. In Boston, Shane and Ilya are forced to figure out whatever it is they're actually doing.

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    11 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    11 Mar 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 23

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    Shane takes the divorce certificate out of his inner jacket pocket and just looks it over again, letting it sink in. He realizes just how miserable it feels to be holding something that so plainly says in black and white something that Shane has never really had to grapple with before.

    He failed.

    At thirty years old, Shane Hollander is divorced and miserable and forced to start his life over. That much is bad enough. Then the Metros sign a new center who's freshly transferred from the KHL, and Shane knows he's really fucked.

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    11 Mar 2026

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  5. Public Bookmark 77

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    Shane has a terrible first date with a finance-bro. Svetlana overhears and forces Ilya to save him.

    Inspired by @merikiii on twitter!!

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    11 Mar 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 45

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    After a video gets posted of Shane and Ilya kissing on a roof in Las Vegas, they have to figure out what to do in the aftermath. With Ilya scared of deportation and Shane scared of, well, everything, they decide to forgo their flights and drive the forty hours back to Ilya's house in Boston.

    Or, a road trip fic about eating McDonald's salads, losing your virginity at a Marriott in Utah, and getting to know the fuckbuddy you've irrevocably intertwined your life with.

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    10 Mar 2026

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    It was supposed to be a rivalry campaign.

    But somehow it spirals into #hollanov becoming the most talked about thing in the world of hockey. Now the NHL must choose: profits or homophobia?

    Vance smiled. It was a cold smile. “The money is green. And right now, the gays, the girls, and the… whatever the hell 'furries' are… possess a lot of green. And they want to give it to us.” He turned back to Crowell. “If we deny this,” Vance said, “we alienate a massive new customer base. We look like out of touch dinosaurs. The stock drops. The revenue dries up. We go back to fighting with the NBA for scraps of the market share."

    A fic where homophobia and corporate greed duke it out, and to no one's surprise, its another victory for capitalism.

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    10 Mar 2026

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    After Vegas, Shane just wants to feel wanted. A fake name and below-the-jaw pictures get him all the attention he could want online, even if he’s called a tease for never meeting up; it’s frankly too risky, and knowing other people want to fuck him is all he needs. Of course, Ilya doesn’t know that when he sees a certain notification on Shane’s screen.

    Added: This has snowballed into an AU of what their communication could look like if the Rose Landry jealousy effect happened much earlier. Come on this ride with me and we'll find out together.

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    10 Mar 2026

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    It's the 2020-2021 season. Ottawa Centaurs forward Derek Briggs, an undrafted player from the Swedish Hockey League, is having a fantastic rookie season. He makes the team out of camp, claws his way up to the second line, lives through an almost plane crash, and has a crush on his fellow rookie that just might be reciprocated. The Centaurs might even make the playoffs.

    Then, news breaks that Shane Hollander is suing the Metros and MLH for terminating his contract after he came out to them in 2017. Derek, who played with Shane in Sweden after he was forced out of Montreal, gets a lot more popular for all the wrong reasons. The media seems to think he's the secret hockey player Hollander's dating, Crowell is breathing down his neck, and all of a sudden, Centaurs captain Ilya Rozanov has it out for him.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    “Is Boston even interested.”

    Ilya scoffs at him like Shane is an idiot.

    “Is sky blue? Is water wet? Is English stupid language? Yes, Hollander, of course we want best player in the league.” Ilya mutters more in disgruntled Russian and Shane gets up off the couch to Google Russian lessons on his ipad while continuing their conversation.

     

    Or, a Shane goes to Boston story.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander suffers a career ending injury in Metros training camp derailing his pro hockey dreams before they even start. He is forced to come to terms with who he is without his sport and find a new direction. Ilya Rozanov with nobody around to push him has lost his love for the game. More than a decade later, the new team doctor brings up old feelings that never had the space to grow all those years ago, but are now growing out of control.

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    09 Mar 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 87

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    Rough palms slip past his coat, under his sweatshirt, to his skin. “So it’s not serious then? Your upper body injury.”

    Shane almost laughs. “I don’t know.” He almost cries.

    A hand slides up towards his chest. “Hollander—”

    “Stop.”

    He holds on to Rozanov’s wrists even as they pull away. Rozanov's thumb returns to trace tentative circles on his hip. “Did I hurt you?”

    “No,” but the cardiac monitor would’ve been palpable under his skin.

    September 2010: Shane’s MLH career ends before it begins; Rozanov's doesn't.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    “Rozanov needs a place to stay. His visa won’t allow him to go home to Russia over the break, and we don’t have the cash to put him in a hotel.”

    Did the Harvard dorms completely shut down over the winter break? What about the dining hall? Shane supposed he didn’t really know. He’d never stuck around to find out, when he was younger. 

    “Okay?” 

    Coach raised his eyebrows. “So, he’s staying with you.” 

    Shane’s eyes went wide. 

    “What?” 

    “Come on, Captain,” Wiebe looked down his nose at Shane. “Try not to look too thrilled.”

     
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    or, Shane's a senior captain with an empty house over winter break. and Ilya's the freshman who will be crashing his Christmas. 

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    08 Mar 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 85

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    Lily: Who are you? Jane’s friend?
    Shane: Not Jane, or a prank.
    Shane: I thought you were Lily. I met her last night.
    Lily: clearly not
    ..

    When Shane Hollander gets an unexpected dick pic from a number he he thought belonged a girl, he falls into an explicit texting-only affair with an anonymous man that slowly becomes more. Too bad he doesn't know that the person on the other end of the line is his career rival, Ilya Rozanov.

    Or, a wrong number au

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    08 Mar 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 55

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    Shane got a concussion followed by post-concussive syndrome during his rookie season. Three years later, he returned to the NHL as an assistant coach for the Boston Bruins.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    God, he can't go through with this now. He really fucking can’t. He’d planned the whole thing out—rehearsed it on every car ride, every flight, all the little breaks in between—but he really, really can’t.

    We can’t do this anymore, his brain screams. That’s all he has to say. Five words. Five, measly little words. But Shane is standing right there, a dream made into reality, and his mouth won’t move.

    Ilya Rozanov has spent much of the past six months wondering how, exactly, he would call off this whole thing with Shane Hollander. Now, as Shane stands in his living room, the fact of the matter is that Ilya wants nothing more than for him to stay.

    or: boston, but if ilya hadn't let shane run.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    In Vegas, after they’d said everything right up to the edge of I love you, Shane and Ilya came up with a plan. It was long term, with many, many steps. There might be a spreadsheet somewhere that Shane won’t admit to.

    But it’s a plan, nonetheless. Over the summer of 2014, they tweak it and add things important to the both of them. There are even many, extensive, contingency plans.

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    Thanks to Shane's small lie the first time they hooked up, Shane and Ilya are together years earlier. Now, they have to figure out what to do about it.

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    07 Mar 2026

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    A second, then a blur. Ilya knocking over one of the kitchen island stools to engulf Shane. His shaking frame holding Shane so tight, Shane felt himself shaking back. He could only hold on back, just as tightly.
    “Please.” Came the strangled voice by his left ear. “Please, tell me.”
    And who was Shane to ever deny a wish of Ilya Rozanov.
    “I’m signing to Ottawa. Tomorrow. If you would want to come with.”
    And then Ilya was shoving him back, holding him close to his face. “Of course. I drive. Of course I come.”
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    Shane, fed up with Montreal, signs to Ottawa before their relationship is revealed. While he doesn't plan on keeping that a secret for long, he asks Ilya to let him get to know the team first, before they come out. To maybe have a normal season. Meanwhile, the rest of the Centaurs are going crazy trying to figure out what is going on between their captain and Shane Hollander and why they keep showing up in the same car??

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    07 Mar 2026

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    Hello! Hello!
    Here's just a random collection of alternate, non-canon, relationship reveals. None of the works belong together so feel free to read in any order you like! :)
    If you want to listen in to my writing playlist/general HR vibes: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/34S7xZUjTo6axcbqqd7gjZ?si=EM1G-yx5RjG00lH6aly8Bw&pi=UoUvEiEYSiGaE
    Thanksss

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    07 Mar 2026

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    Boston.

    Shane just got traded to fucking Boston. To where Ilya was. With no apparent fucking reason in the middle of the season. He just won them two cups, why was this happening?

    Shane gets traded in the middle of the 2016/2017 season, just before the All-Stars. The Tuna Meltdown never happens and Shane and Ilya amicably decide to stop seeing each other but remain ‘friends’. Both are very ‘happy’ with this decision until Hollander is traded to Boston. Now they must work with each other on the same team while Shane wonders what the hell happened in Montreal to get him traded in the first place. The Boston Raiders learn that Shane Hollander is not a chicken, or a virgin (lol) like everyone believes. And the Metros learn just how important Shane was in winning those cups.

    And Cliff Marleau is just trying to figure out why Ilya’s messages to Jane stopped.

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    07 Mar 2026

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