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    A series of fics that follow Shane and Ilya over the course of the last year that Ilya is in Boston

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    26 May 2026

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    Being smarter or more perceptive than an average hockey player doesn't stop the panic that sets in within goalies' hearts on the news of Hollanov.

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    26 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 23

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    Three years isn't that long, really. It's long enough to get a Master's Degree in Art History. Long enough to build the foundations of a relationship that could last the rest of their lives. Long enough for a professional hockey player to figure out how to tell the world he's gay.

    What happened between episode 3 and episode 5, with our sweet boys and all the people who helped them get there.

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    24 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 17

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    Scott from 2014 to 2017, as he finds, falls in love (and bed) with, and almost loses Kip - while struggling to come out and be his full, authentic self.

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    23 May 2026

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    “The ache for home lives in all of us. The safe place where we can go as we are and not be questioned.”
    ― Maya Angelou

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    3/?
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    22 May 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 61

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    As veteran hockey captain Scott Hunter prepares for the final season of his career, the New York Admirals trade for rising star Luca Haas. His successor.
    While Scott struggles with questions about legacy and relevance, Luca is still reeling from being traded away by the team - and captain - he’d considered family. He finds himself caught between the fierce protectiveness of his former captain and the possibility of building a new life, a new family, and unexpected romance in New York.

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    20 May 2026

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    Their rivalry, as history has written it, has finally come to an end.

    "I won," Shane breathes, and the smile, the smile that's been plastered on his face since he scored, grows wider.

    Montreal knocks Boston out of the playoffs. Shane learns how to be Ilya Rozanov's boyfriend. Ilya wears Shane's jersey. Set about a year after the finale.

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    18 May 2026

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    The photos leak on a Wednesday. Ilya sets his life and career on fire on Sunday, mostly out of spite. On Monday, he is the first out queer player in the NHL.

    Nobody handles the ensuing circus well, least of all Scott Hunter.

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    Chapters:
    38/?
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    6,201
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    17 May 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 62

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    Shane is technically moving on.

    Objectively, he’s doing great. He has a stable relationship with James, an emotionally healthy businessman who texts him good morning every day, folds laundry correctly, and somehow makes stability feel both comforting and slightly alarming.

    The problem is that Shane has unfortunately never loved anything normally in his entire life, and definitely not Ilya, his ex-boyfriend, former secret, and current ongoing psychological condition.

    Shane and Ilya broke up after the Boxing Day fight and have both theoretically moved on. Now Ilya has Alice and Shane has James.

    Unfortunately, they are still completely in love with each other and handling that with the emotional maturity of two men who communicate primarily through hockey and prolonged eye contact.

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    Or basically Shane and Illya broke up after the Boxing Day fight and they "moved on" but not really because they physically and mentally cannot fully give themselves to other people.

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    15 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander has built himself around routine, his life blood is hockey. Struggling to understand his team off the ice and the people around him, he carves out a few silent hours to himself. It's just him and his skates. But the hard fought peace is fragile, like cracks in too thin ice. It only takes a slight impact to shatter. Shane is fighting to hold his team and himself together as everything comes crashing down around him.

    Someone hacks into Rose Landry's phone in a club, they then release the images of Shane's texts online and all hell breaks loose. Shane is left to pick up the pieces. Ilya makes some choices in the aftermath that change everything. Shane decides to stop hiding and Ilya is a possessive asshole who makes it everyone else's problem. With far less reason to hide himself anymore, Shane begins to show more of who he really is behind the polite, media worthy façade. They instead find a team who are ready to fight the world for each other and a found family that has far reaching threads.

    Maybe Shane can have both Hockey and Ilya. The world will just have to deal with it.

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    68/?
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    15 May 2026

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    A few days before Shane’s seventeenth birthday, he told his parents he’d broken up with Elise. “It just didn’t work out,” Shane said, not really looking at either of them; instead, he was staring at the TV, obviously not really watching the hockey game he’d put on. There was a faint rosy tint to his cheeks.

    Or: in which Yuna and David try to figure out what's going on with their son through the years while trying to be good, supportive, non-overbearing parents.

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    14 May 2026

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    This fic lives in the spaces Rachel Reid leaves quiet. It follows Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov from the end of Heated Rivalry through The Long Game, then imagines a future shaped by love, community, and consequence.

    Chapters 1–16 focus on the four-year gap between Heated Rivalry and The Long Game. These chapters trace the long, uneven process of staying in love while being forced apart by careers, secrecy, and fear. They linger on stolen moments, missed calls, private rituals, and the emotional labor of choosing each other over and over again after committing exclusively to each other.

    Chapter 17 is a deliberate rewrite of a key scene from The Long Game that I couldn’t live with as written.

    Chapters 18–45 imagine what comes after The Long Game in the upcoming Unrivaled era through my thoughts. This section centers on Shane and Ilya learning how to live publicly, build a community. Luca Haas becomes a vital part of that future, not as a threat, but as proof of how love expands rather than divides. Together with their growing chosen family, they confront an antagonistic podcast, TopShelf.

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    45/45
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    13 May 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are finally on the same team! The Centaurs’ communications and PR department hasn’t known peace since.

    Featuring: the unhinged internet, chaotic group chats, Ilya being a menace, Shane being very tired, Harris trying (and failing) to contain the chaos, Luca accidentally starring in his own little rom-com, wholesome group dynamics and love all around.

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    11 May 2026

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    “So,” Shane said, after another minute. “Welcome to Montreal.”

    Ilya just started laughing, his body shaking against Shane’s.

    “Do not tell me you prepare for all your home games this way,” he said.

    “I shouldn’t have prepared for any home games this way,” Shane said, glancing at the clock by the bed. He should go, but he couldn’t make himself.

     

    There's a year between the ending and the epilogue of Heated Rivalry. This is it.

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    11 May 2026

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    “You’ll text when you land, right?” Shane asks as he takes an exit ramp labeled Airport Departures.

    “Yes. Promise.”

    “And you’ll call tonight?” Shane’s throat works over the words, like he still doesn’t trust this new thing between them. Ilya thinks he understands. He also doesn’t know how to trust this love. How can he when it has been trapped in his own heart so long. Neither of them know what the next year will bring. There is so much time before Ilya can have his agent, or his future agent, he will need a new one with no connections to Russia, reach out to Ottawa and hope that they’ll be interested in a future Hall of Fame center. The one thing Ilya is certain of is that he will do everything in his power to make their plan work. He spent his entire adult life lusting after, and then pining for Shane with his whole heart.

    “I will call.” Ilya reaches for the hand Shane has left on the gearshift and threads his fingers through his. He wants to say so much, but he has always been better with touch than words, especially when the only shared language was English. “We will talk every day.”

    Or, There is a year before Ilya can sign with Ottawa, Shane counts down the days until their forever.

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    11 May 2026

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    After six years of marriage, Shane and Ilya enter the next chapter of their life together... parenthood.

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    21/21
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    3,596
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    11 May 2026

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    11 May 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 78

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    This was what tended to scare Shane the most, when Ilya was unwell: the gradual loss of him, despite being physically there. He would go quiet, blank, slow to speak and slow to respond, nothing like the pulse of intense energy and liveliness that sparked in him at his baseline. Shane missed him, when he was away in that place. It was not a place Ilya could always describe, and it was not somewhere Shane could rescue him from, or even join him in for company. So Shane waited, every time, for him to come back. He always came back. That was the only relief in it.

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    10 May 2026

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    Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.

    So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.

    Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.

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    Chapters:
    10/10
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    10,319
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    627,249

    10 May 2026

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    “Mic’ing us up? Did I hear that right?” Hunter questions.

    “Someone in PR thought it would be funny to hear the three of you during all of your games,” Coach LeClaire explains, “The idea got out and spread like wildfire.”

    “Huh,” Hunter responds.

    “It would be funny to hear me,” Ilya corrects, “I am funny. The other two are boring.”

    He hears Hollander huff out a laugh and bump shoulders with him as Hunter continues to ask questions. Casually glancing over to the other man, he sees a small smile playing at his lips. His eyes, though, there was a gleam that he hadn’t seen before. He wasn’t certain what it could mean, but it couldn’t be good for Ilya.

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    Or what if Shane had stayed with Ilya that night in Boston?

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    10/10
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    141,438

    10 May 2026

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