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    In the offseason, a steamy video of Shane and Ilya dancing at a club goes viral. Already out and married for years at this point, the first husbands of hockey can't believe this is news. For once, it's Shane whose media responses blow it up even further. Ilya’s not about to let an opportunity to compete with Shane go to waste.

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    The rivalry still hasn't died, they just find new ways to keep it going. Why choose silence when you can choose violence?

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Lately, playing hockey wasn't even as much fun as it used to be. Games were always the highlight, but even that, it didn’t feel as good since his team had been falling apart.

    And all that because he came out as gay.

    He didn’t really fault them for taking some time to accept it, so Shane let them talk. If that helped them digest the news, so be it.
    He let them distance themselves from him, let them gossip around to other teams, let them make him the butt of jokes he didn’t understand.

    Shane didn’t mind, all things considered.

    Everything was fine.

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    31 May 2026

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    Ilya widens his eyes, moves his hands in an impatient “get on with it” motion. He has the urge to say it for him, end both their misery. Shane blinks rapidly a few times, takes another deep breath. “I want to stop,” he says simply.

    Ilya lets out one humorless laugh, “Stop what?”

    Shane ignores him. “At the All Star Game, I told you I liked you. And you said about Russia and your family. And I looked some things up. I get it. I get it better now. I know we can’t but I can’t stop wanting to be…more. Unless we stop.”

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    Shane just wants to be friends and Ilya is, like, fine with that or whatever

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    31 May 2026

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    In late 2014, celebrity photos start dropping. Ilya deletes his texts, his photos, a video he should never have taken. It isn't soon enough.

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    29 May 2026

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    Read, awesome, reread

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    Sochi Olympics, 2014.

    "MASSIVE ICLOUD HACK REVEALS PRIVATE PHOTOS, MESSAGES, VIDEOS OF HUNDREDS OF OLYMPIC ATHLETES"

    Ilya feels a trickle of unease down his spine. He shakes it off impatiently as he clicks on the article.

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    29 May 2026

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  6. Public Bookmark 19

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    Emiko Fyodor Hollander-Rosanov gets introduced to all the important people in her dads' lives.

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    29 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    wip read chapter 2

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    Shane has decided to join Ilya at his Halloween Party. Not as a couple but as another small step forward in changing their narrative. Shane has finally worked up the courage to meet Ilya's new team.

    Meanwhile the Centaurs have decided to use the party as a chance to solve the mystery of who is Jane? Ilya's mysterious girlfriend who he seems to have moved countries for.

    Except
    When Shane called him back the next day after practice Ilya was ready to try to talk him into it. And also ready to be disappointed. He just knew Shane was going to say no.

    But then Shane surprised him. God he loved Shane. Apparently he had gone through a whole pro-con list and decided it wasn't a bad idea. The whole point of Ilya moving to Ottawa was to change their narrative. For them to appear more friendly.

    A Halloween party was a step in that direction. They weren't ready to go to the party as a couple yet, but Shane could go as Ilya’s friend. It was a small step but it made Ilya so loved.

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    29 May 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 52

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    “Fuck you, Rosanov.” Maybe his ability to speak wasn’t fully gone after all.

    Ilya sighed dramatically as he walked toward his husband. “No, probably not for many days.”

    Shane couldn’t help the stupid smile spreading across his face. “Come on,” he said, grabbing Ilya’s hand and tugging him towards the showers. “Let’s hurry. We’ve got a baby to meet.”

     

    When one of the teen girls from the Irina Foundation's summer camps finds out she's pregnant, she can only think of one couple who should adopt her baby.

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    29 May 2026

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    "There in the photo was a young man in a hammock with a serene lake behind him, bathed in an orange sunset. A book was open in his lap and he was smiling up at the camera, easy and relaxed. Ilya didn’t think he’d ever seen anyone look so effortlessly gorgeous in a pair of ratty sweatpants and a bleach-stained t-shirt. He also didn’t think he’d ever find a personal family photo of Shane Hollander, the up-and-coming hockey sensation from Canada who had gone missing in November of 2008, in a thrift shop in Boston."

    Ilya and Shane never met at world juniors because Shane vanished without a trace. Against all logic, he appears almost two years later in Ilya's dreams. Those dreams begin to blur the line between fiction and reality, becoming muddy and impossible to navigate. As Ilya falls in love with a dead man, he finds that he cares less and less about those lines. When the opportunity to solve the mystery and bring closure to Shane's parents presents itself, Ilya must face whatever reality may truly be, even if that means losing the love of his life for good.

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    28 May 2026

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    Ilya takes a liking to Shane's flannels.

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    28 May 2026

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    Ilya crouched down until he was at eye level with Shane.

    He reached out and brushed his hand along Shane’s jaw gently. Shane’s eyes fluttered closed as he leaned into Ilya’s touch.

    Ilya watched it happen, how it was so instinctive… the same way Shane always softened immediately under his hands or when in his presence.

    “You’re so responsive for me, Shane,” he murmured, lifting Shane’s chin slightly to face him. Shane slowly opened his eyes to look at him.

    Ilya leaned in, bringing their faces close enough that he could feel the hot air from Shane’s breath.

    “So tell me something,” Ilya said quietly. “Does Hayden ever get to see you like this?”

    “Or is he just playing with my property?”

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    OR: Hayden finds Shane after the MLH Awards in Vegas where Ilya left him sub dropped & hurting. Hayden makes Shane feel better and the lines between their friendship get blurred. Ilya gets incredibly jealous and fights to win him back. They all end up hurting until they learn how to communicate.

    There are both Shayden & Hollanov spicy scenes but *no threesomes* - This fic gets VERY messy and toxic but has a happy Hollanov ending!

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    28 May 2026

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    Unconnected one shots of me pushing Shane over the edge a bit just to see what happens. Will he punch someone? Yes. Will there be meltdowns? Also yes. Will he be a dick? Very likely.

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    28 May 2026

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    AU — The Centaurs’ plane crashes. No deaths are reported, and that should be a relief.

    Ilya survives. He just isn’t waking up.

    As Shane waits, the world continues on, and he’s forced to confront just how fragile their life truly is.

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    28 May 2026

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    @Wadjilicious gave the prompt: Montreal Club AU Fix It.
    I heard: All the things they (never) said but make it worse. Alternate ending to Ep 4 and the missing scene in room 1217 in Tampa Bay
    AKA "I ordered a beer and all I got was the crushing realization I might be gay"

    Smutbrix to the face.
    We're crying, we're smutty, we're crying while we're smutty. Enjoy. Happy Ending Guaranteed.

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    28 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is on the Ice when an overhead announcement causes him to spiral. The Centaur's Plane has crashed. Shane needs to hear from Ilya now. There is only one person in the world who can pull him back from the brink and Shane doesn't even know if he's alive.

    NO MAJOR CHARACTER DEATHS HERE

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    Shane snapped around “If what? What the fuck did you say?” His voice was wild now, no attempt to conceal his fear or his breaking heart.

    The bewildered other player just said “I just saw the news report, coach had it up on his phone, said someone died in the crash…” he said more but Shane's brain had stopped processing anymore information beyond the fact someone had died.

    In fact it wasn't just his brain that had stopped, his limbs went numb, he sucked in a sharp breath and his heart was trying to claw it’s way out of his chest. Ilya might actually be dead; this wasn’t just Shane being Shane this was real. Way to fucking real. He was vaguely aware of the feeling of the cold ice against the side of his head. Shane had dropped down onto the ice. He hadn't passed out, he hadn't tripped, he's body simply gave out from the shock.

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    27 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander has a secret life. No, not the one where he's hiding his trysts with his rival.

    He's a pseudonymous hockey romance author under the alias Jane Dutch.

    And the Metros WAGs have just picked up his first release for their book club...

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    27 May 2026

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    The week before the 2017 All-Star Game, Ilya Rozanov is placed on IR. Ten days later, he disappears from the league entirely. Boston says nothing, and for once, a notoriously fickle league closes ranks.

    Every attempt Shane makes to find him hits a wall. In one last desperate, life-altering bid to reach him, Shane comes out to the world, only to be met with Ilya’s silence.

    By the time the 2020/21 season begins, Shane has nothing left but hockey and regret. He builds a dynasty, guts his life, and pins the last scraps of his hope on the Metros’ newest transfer, the dangerously hot-headed Cliff Marlow.

    Stepping back into the public eye after the worst three years of his life, all Ilya wants is to find some kind of purpose. Shane is done with him, he made that much clear. Ilya isn't about to try to convince himself otherwise. He just wants to prove he still has some use left in him.

    Fortunately for both of them, they're still fucking stupid for each other.

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    27 May 2026

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    When someone takes it too far on the ice, Shane forgets to drop his gloves first. Ilya only feels a teensy bit responsible but has zero regrets.

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    26 May 2026

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    The pounding on the door is what jolts Shane awake. Instinctively he tries to jump to his feet and rush to get it, but a heavy weight around his torso and on top of his legs prevents him from moving. As consciousness slowly returns to him, breaking through the haze of his hangover—and possible still-drunken state—he realizes that he is being held by Rozanov.

    “Shane Hollander, open the door, now!”

    “Oh my god, oh my fucking god. Jesus fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fucking hell. That is my fucking mother.”

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    After getting drunk at the 2016 NHL Awards, Shane Hollander wakes up married to Ilya Rozanov

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    26 May 2026

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    Shane doesn’t realize he’s braced for silent eyes until he feels the absence of it — the weight of teammates immediately finding him and going quiet, waiting for him to fuck up, to say the wrong thing, to exist wrong. He expects the chatter of a room to drop when he enters and its disconcerting to find it doesn't yet in Ottawa.

    He stands at the entrance a beat too long.

    --

    It’s the start of Shane Hollander’s first season in Ottawa and he should be settled. The Centaurs are friendly, the room is easy, and Ilya is finally close enough to touch. But, as Shane is intimately aware of, old habits learned the hard way will linger.

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    26 May 2026

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