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  1. Public Bookmark 95

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    Shane isn't an easy person to like.

    He does his best to appeal to those around him, but he always somehow falls short.

    He’s fundamentally “other”. It’s one of those things that is woven into his very being, factual and insoluble. No matter how hard he tries, he can never fit into the mold others were born into.

    And he was at peace with that.

    Most of the time.

    ~

    Or, Shane pushes himself to have sex with Ilya. Misunderstandings follow.

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    16 Oct 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 60

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    His mind was racing. He shouldn’t have eaten the cookie. There's so much sugar, fat, and calories. He is so fucking stupid...something inside him, something sinister and enticing, told him nothing will hurt as good as cutting will.
    Nothing.

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    Shane self harms and Ilya finds him

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    14 Oct 2026

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    It's 2006 and Shane Hollander, in a gay panic, hooks up with his girlfriend Jessica. The consequences of that night – well. It might be the stupidest thing he's ever done. But also, maybe, sort of the best.

    Like hell is he going to let it affect his hockey.

    Or: Teen dad Shane learns to love his kid. Ilya helps.

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    13 Oct 2026

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    A collection of Heated Rivalry fics set in an A/B/O universe where spanking/discipline of omegas is common and expected! I am open to requests/prompts for fics to add to this series.

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    12 Oct 2026

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    Shane cups her cheek in his hand, running his thumb over the plush of her bottom lip. She looks at him through her fawnish lashes. He roves his eyes over her body. Her shoulders and biceps, her abs… She's so strong, so…

    Incredible.

    "I've never done that before," he admits, "Not with... with a woman, at least."

    "Right, well," she rolls her eyes, "Would probably be better with a real man, yes?"

    He shakes his head, "No. It wouldn't have been the same at all."

    - - -

    or, Shane comes to terms with his sexuality only to get thrown right back into confusion by Rozanov.

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    11 Oct 2026

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    Luca hears Ilya punishing Troy in the hotel room next door and touches himself.

    He then decides he wants a punishment too. Little does Luca know, the punishment he receives has unintended consequences.

    Or: Spanking as a normal part of professional sports AU. This includes hole spanking and tip punishment.

    Kinktober Prompt List:

    Day 1: Watersports

    Day 6: Held Down

    Day 9: Discipline

    Day 14: Roleplay

    Day 15: Power Imbalance

    Day 21: Overstimulation

    Day 22: Sharing

    Day 27: Spanking

    Day 29: Wet And Messy

    Day 31: Fingering

    Writer’s Choice: Hole Punishment

    Bonus Prompt: Kink Discovery

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    11 Oct 2026

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    "You're a traitor," the alpha spits, "fucking kneel."
    The command rings across the ice, impossible to miss by players or refs. Shane sees Ilya bare his teeth, ready to attack. He's not fast enough.
    Shane growls, a feral sound coming from deep within his chest and drops his gloves to claw at the alpha's face.
    ___

    The Metros never liked it when Shane behaved like an omega. They liked the goals he scored and the cups he won, but the rest of him was unwanted baggage.
    The Centaurs are different.

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    06 Oct 2026

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    Ilya keeps making jokes about Shane.

    Bood starts to think the jokes aren’t so funny.

    OR: Bood calls Ilya out for the way he has been treating Shane since Shane joined the team.

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    05 Oct 2026

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    "Hockey talent or not, for the rest of his life, the onus will always be on him to dodge this bullshit and come out squeaky clean on the other side. The strict rules binding him simply don’t exist for other people."

    A few months into his first season with the Centaurs, Shane is rapidly approaching a breaking point for reasons nobody would ever guess, and he himself is only beginning to understand.

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    05 Oct 2026

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    Ilya wakes up disoriented and overly hot. He blinks his eyes open and slowly comes back to the land of the living as he notices that he isn't even tucked under the blanket. Then why is it so damn hot? The answer lies in the omega lying half on top of him.
    "Oh shit," Ilya mumbles, realizing that Shane is burning like a furnace. "Hollander? Hollander, can you hear me? Shane?"
    The only response he gets is a garbled whimper, half-buried in Ilya's chest.
    "Okay, you said heat was bad, let's knot you again, will make the fever go down," Ilya says and slides his hand between Shane's thighs to his wet hole. He doesn't get much further before Shane clamps his legs shut, closing his eyes with a pained expression.
    "What is happening?" Ilya asks into the room as Shane starts sobbing and writhing on the bed.

    _________________

    When Shane has to get off his suppressants for medical reasons, he is advised to spend his next heat with an alpha, otherwise the strain on his body might leave permanent damage. When he asks Rozanov, he tries to explain the severity of his heats, but the alpha thinks he is overreacting, expecting a week of easy heat-sex. He should have believed the omega when he warned him.

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    05 Oct 2026

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    “I thought that it would help me get over you,” Shane admits, embarrassed. He squeezes his eyes shut and takes a deep breath. “That maybe I could have sex with a girl and realize that I could do it, and then everything would be easier because I could be like you.”

    “Like me?” Ilya echoes.

    Shane sighs. “Like, also like girls, but I can’t. I’m gay. Just plain old gay.” He sniffles, tears welling in his eyes. “I tried not to be, I really tried not to be. But I just can’t help it.”

     

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    Post tuna melt, Shane doesn’t start dating Rose Landry, and the next time they’re in Boston, Hayden convinces him to come to a club with the team to drink away their loss. After a disastrous hook-up with a woman, Shane wanders around Boston in the middle of the night until he finds himself at Ilya’s house, unsure of how he got there.

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    04 Oct 2026

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    Shane Hollander had an eating disorder. He's fine now. He knows better now. And that's the problem.

    One little setback almost ruins everything.

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    musings on Shane's non-specified eating disorder because it didn't get enough attention imo

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    02 Oct 2026

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    After an overtime win, Ilya kisses his roommate Shane on the mouth.

    It was just celebrating. Shane is straight. Everything is fine.

    Except Shane hasn't spoken to him properly in three days.

    So, naturally, Ilya asks Reddit.

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    27 Sep 2026

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    The truth of it all was gnawing at him: Shane had been bad for the locker room in Montreal. He had made people uncomfortable. And it was homophobia at the root of it, sure, but he’d been the problem. Before he’d come out, things had been fine. After, it was a shitshow.
    So, as the new season approached, a different logo on Shane’s jersey, his shoulder missing the C it had held for almost ten years, one thing was clear: Shane couldn’t let that happen on the Centaurs.
    Which was why today, media day, mattered so much. Shane needed to make a good impression. He needed to be viewed as a teammate, not a liability or a mascot. He needed to be fucking normal.

    ***

    It should be a fairy tale, to play on the same NHL team as your husband, with a supportive team excited to have you. Shane knows that. If only his mind could get with the program.

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    21 Sep 2026

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    “Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”

    “How bad is it?”

    “Shane, please.”

    “Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”

    He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”

     

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    After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?

     

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    16 Sep 2026

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    A collection of married Hollanov being utterly, stupidly in love with each other as they settle down post-The Long Game. Each work can be read as a standalone, but all are part of the same universe. Sometimes smutty, always sweet.

    * Marital bliss
    * Shane Hollander has an exhibition kink
    * Nonlinear healing
    * Professional ragebaiter Ilya Rozanov
    * The radical intimacy of trusting and growing together
    * Oh my god they just love and care for each other so much

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    10 Sep 2026

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    Shane Hollander would probably rather die than admit to the world (or himself) that he’s a sub, because all respected NHL players are doms. When years of living a touch-starved, repressed, hockey-focused life finally catch up with him and cause a medical emergency, he’s not scared or sad. He’s fucking angry. And he becomes Ilya Rozanov’s problem at the Behavioral Education & Authority Relationships Services (B.E.A.R.S. for short).

    Or: Shane is strong, stubborn, difficult and he bites. Ilya is extremely patient but instantly whipped. A not entirely typical bdsm AU.

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    09 Sep 2026

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    Svetlana’s voice is tense, “Rose suggested I reach out to you. We have an omega here who needs a place to live and I was wondering if you’d be willing to house him.”
    “Me?” Shane blurts out, “Why me?”
    “Because, I believe having a familiar face will help him.”
    “A familiar face?” Shane is even more confused than before, “I mean I know I’m a hockey player-”
    “No,” Svetlana cuts him off. “The omega is a former hockey player, and there’s mention that you two have crossed paths before. Do you remember Ilya Rozanov?”

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    Right before the MHL draft, Ilya Rozanov went missing after presenting as an omega. Years later, he turns up at an auction house where he’s rescued after a police raid. However, due to his unpredictable nature, Ilya is sent to live with star hockey player, and former crush, Shane Hollander.

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    08 Sep 2026

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    “Holy shit! Have you all seen this?!” He yelled out with glee, breaking through the noise of the locker room. Several heads turned to look in his direction. Cameau’s eyes were glued to his phone, and he had an almost manic smile on his face. He continued to swipe down his screen and let out a booming laugh. Hayden caught Shane’s eye and raised his eyebrows in question to gauge whether or not Shane knew what had Cameau so fucking happy. Shane just shrugged and rolled his eyes. 

    “Are you going to tell us what you’re looking at or just keep laughing like an asshole?” Mitty piped back as he zipped up his bag and threw it over his shoulder. Drapeau walked over to Comeau to glance over his shoulder at this phone, and his eyes almost comically bugged out. He let out a sharp laugh. 

    “Who would have thought Rozanov was a fucking faggot!” Drapeau exclaimed as he threw his head back. 

    Shane felt like his heart stopped. The air was suddenly thicker. His vision blurred. He was pretty sure he was about to pass out. 

     

    Or, ghosts from Ilya's past make Shane realize he was always going to risk it all for the other man.

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    05 Sep 2026

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    Ilya hadn’t known the video existed. If he had known, he would have paid someone to have it destroyed. Would have paid someone to murder Kuznetsov, maybe, just for redundancy's sake. But it was peak stupidity, to keep evidence of your homosexual perversion around in a country where that crime could get you sent to jail for several decades, and Ilya hadn’t thought that Kuznetsov would be that dumb.

    Now here Ilya was, watching a video of his fourteen-year-old self on Twitter getting fucked by his former hockey coach.

    So. There go the plans for the rest of his life.

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    Or: in 2018, during Ilya's last year with the Raiders, an old video is leaked on Twitter. Ilya reacts, or overreacts. Shane does, too.

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    951
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    126,206

    05 Sep 2026

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