Beaniesintheclouds



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  1. Summary

    Prefacing this with a HUGE trigger warning for every part of this. This deals with a lot of unreality (dissociation and hallucinations), flashbacks and panic. If I missed any or forget to update this list, let me know.

    Sing a song for us in the silence. Fill the void with your terrible screams and hope you stay alone. My dear, you have so much to fear; you are not safe. Safety is impossible, just as your band-aid healing is inconsequential.

    A breakdown series of Leo, a way to release my inner pains and fears, and a feeble prayer I never experience anything like that again. A very experimental style is used in this series.

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  2. Summary

    “My identity left with the last train. I went to catch it, only to forget again.”

     

    Of the lost minds each must deal with after everything.

    Aka: the collection of dissociation fics I write to cope with my own problems.

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  3. Summary

    The fics I write surrounding our local blue turtle! …what? He’s not just local? Someone should’ve told me that.

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  4. Summary

    This is a collection of all the rise one-shots I’ve written! Most are unrelated with a couple stated exceptions.

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  5. Summary

    Of teddy bears and tears, of painting and panic attacks; the two eldest discover new ways to release the memories and hurts inside.

    Aka a collection of self-indulging agere fics surrounding Little!Leo (and hopefully Little!Raph, eventually).

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  1. Public Bookmark 39

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    “Kinger, I… I experienced something terrifying today.” Pomni murmurs, and it’s a wonder that Kinger can hear her.
    “What happened?” Kinger whispers, and his voice is so gentle, so… fatherly, that it takes every fiber in the woman’s body not to break down in sobs.
    “I… I had a seizure.” Pomni’s voice cracks at the honesty of it.

    CW: Detailed depictions of seizures / When it seems as though Pomni is beginning to adjust to her new life and body in the circus, a distressing new symptom comes into play, forcing the woman to conquer fears and physical torment beyond what she’s experienced before.

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    05 Dec 2025

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    Pomni isn't an adventurer-- she's just a regular bard, who travels from town to town, singing songs to keep everyone happy and hopeful during these dangerous times. But her travel companion Caine has an important Quest she needs to deliver to a notoriously chaotic adventuring group the general public likes to call the Traveling Circus. Despite what her best friend Gummigoo thinks, Pomni embarks on her very first adventure with the strangest rag-tag group of people she's ever gotten to know, to eradicate the Abstraction Virus that's been terrorizing the world for centuries now. Will she be able to find some new material to write more songs with? Or will she lose her mind learning to cope with the craziest adventurers she's ever met?

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    02 Dec 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 24

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    A Transfem Jax AU—because joy should remain at the centre of who we allow ourselves to be, and it's never too late—even in a digital purgatory.

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    30 Nov 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 51

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    Jax is exhausted. Keeping up his "funny" facade day in and day out is finally taking a toll on him, especially after his huge fight with Pomni, the last person in the circus who gave him the time of day. So when he finds a strange new friend, who offers him a curious way out of his anxious predicament, he takes it - only to start slipping away in front of everyone's eyes.

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    26 Nov 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 50

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    When a petty joke from the suggestion box gets twisted up into an entirely new adventure by Caine, the entire cast has their genders swapped for the day: the boys are girls, the girls are boys, and Zooble is—well, Zooble with a hue shift.

    For most, it’s awkward, and maybe a little bit funny in places. All they have to do is coach each other through a series of whatever Caine’s ideas on stereotypical, 'gendered activities' are, and they’ll go back to normal.

    For Jax, however…

    It’s perhaps a bit of an eye-opener.

    (Or: In a move that surprises everyone but makes complete sense in hindsight, it turns out that Jax actually is an egg that needs to be cracked open.)

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    17 Nov 2025