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    With sudden, obvious clarity, Hayden realized that maybe it wasn’t that Shane wasn’t comfortable with intimacy, but rather that the world—especially the world of the NHL—wasn’t comfortable with the type of intimacy Shane wanted.

    Or Hayden Pike POV as Shane comes to terms with being gay.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Jackie Pike convinces Hayden to steal Boston Lily's number from Shane's phone and adds her to the WAGs chat.

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    Ilya Rozanov is a dramatic freak

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    Lily fits in perfectly with the real housewives of montreal

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    26 Feb 2026

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    RC: Boston?
    Bonnie: Noooooo now I see why Shane took so long to lock you down!
    Lily: 😎Shane likes a girl who knows what is quality hockey
    Lou: I can’t imagine how hard it must be, knowing that your girlfriend is probably a fan of Ro*anov
    Lily: what is *?
    Lou: It’s to keep our chat clean and family-friendly. No talking about the enemy.
    Lily: what if enemy is hot? Not as hot as Shane but still hot?
    Nat: omfg Lily you crack me up
    Jackie: I’m dying. Does Shane know you think Ro*anov is hot?
    Lily: 😇I must go now. Nice to meet you ladies!
    Bonnie: what a girl. I love her.
    Nat: she didn’t answer Jackie’s question 😭😭😭

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    In which Ilya accidentally outs himself and the Montreal WAGS become Hollanov’s greatest defenders post-FanMail Incident

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    26 Feb 2026

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    This fic is an alternate ending (major character death) to Built to Break. It begins in Chapter 18, in the OR, when surgeons discover Shane’s Ewing sarcoma cannot be fully removed. Clean margins aren’t possible, and the goal shifts from cure to comfort.

    What follows is the story of his final year— intentional, painful, and deeply beautiful—and the love that carries him through it. But this story does not end when Shane does. It continues through the aftermath: the firsts, the grief, the anger, and the slow, stubborn choice to keep living a life he would be proud of. It’s about chosen family, about carrying someone forward, and about believing that love doesn’t end here.

    If you’ve read Built to Break, you can start at Chapter 18. It also works as a standalone—though rereading from Chapter 1, knowing how it ends, might hit a little harder in the gut.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    none of these stories are interconnected. they can be read in any order, and you're not missing something if you skip some of them. it's just all my HR fic, gathered in one place.

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    24 Feb 2026

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    Because, sometimes, it takes almost losing everything to realize just how much you have to lose.

    Set post The Long Game (book 6).
    TW for suicide, descriptions of suicidal thoughts, depression.

    Fic 1: Two years after getting diagnosed with depression, Ilya becomes suicidal. (published)
    Fic 2: After Ilya's suicide attempt, him and Shane have to learn that getting help is even harder than it looks. (work in progress)

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    24 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander had a plan. It was a good plan, just as every other plan he’d ever made was a good plan. Then he watched a video of a burning plane carrying the love of his life and it became the only plan he’d ever changed.

    or...

    Shane goes to Tampa. The next morning, Troy Barrett receives a text from Ilya:

    “Bringing boyfriend to breakfast. Tell team to be not weird.”

    The Centaurs are, unsurprisingly, weird about it but become the best support system they could ask for as Shane and Ilya navigate the choice to fully begin their lives together and love each other out loud.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    A collection of snippets about Ilya's life with the Ottawa Centaurs, who'd know he was happily domesticated by Shane Hollander if they didn't firmly believe Ilya was straight.

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    22 Feb 2026

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    Ilya keeps breaking the internet with his interviews and shenanigans. The internet, predictably, keeps losing its shit.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Shane wears Ilya’s jersey....and Ilya? Ilya short-circuits so hard he nearly forgets how to stand.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are finally on the same team! The Centaurs’ communications and PR department hasn’t known peace since.

    Featuring: email threads, the unhinged internet, chaotic group chats, Ilya being a menace, Shane being very tired, Harris trying (and failing) to contain the chaos, and Luca accidentally starring in his own little rom-com.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Shane and Ilya just want to tell the world about their relationship, on their own terms. If only anyone would actually believe them.

    Or: the closet is reinforced steel, apparently.

    "I think we tried too hard," Ilya says from the opposite end of the couch, probably scrolling through the same articles as Shane. "Was easier to keep secret than we thought. I could have kissed you on center ice, and everyone would say aww, I love their…what is word again?"

    "Bromance?"

    "Yes. That."

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    18 Feb 2026

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    18 Feb 2026

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    “Y-Yeah, totally,” Shane replied. “D-Do you uh– do you know who that kid with Rozanov is?”

    Scott laughed a little, tilting his head in confusion.

    “Probably Rozanov’s kid,” he informed Shane, causing his brain to stall completely.

    “You didn’t hear?” Scott asked, and Shane blinked, trying to reboot his mind from the crash that Scott had just caused. “It’s why he took time off,” Hunter informed him. “Found out he had a kid, I guess. Or something like that, I didn’t really get the details.”

    Of all the reasons he’d thought of for Ilya disappearing for the past month, this had never crossed his mind. A million different thoughts raced through Shane’s mind. How the hell was Ilya a dad, and why hadn’t he told Shane and how the fuck did Scott Hunter of all people find out before him and—

    And what the fuck was Shane supposed to do now?

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    After the tuna melt situation, Ilya suddenly disappears from hockey for six weeks, claiming some sort of family emergency. Shane showed up to the All-Star game ready to try and fix things, only to be shocked to find a little girl at Ilya's side with remarkably familiar blue eyes.

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    Chapters:
    21/?
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    18 Feb 2026

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    when shane gets the injury that would come to end his career, in the moment he’s just thankful he didn’t break his jaw.

    or: shane knew, in the abstract, that one day he would play his last professional nhl game. it never occurred to him that hockey would choose that day for him.

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    Chapters:
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    12 Feb 2026

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    Gianna: what'd I miss??

    Sarah: my cousin needs a date and shane hollander has a girlfriend

    Gianna: omg????

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    another WAG Ilya fic <3

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    Chapters:
    5/?
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    887
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    09 Feb 2026

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    @ESPN: Breaking: Ilya Rozanov has been traded to the Ottawa Centaurs.

    @hollanovtruther: who wants to bet Shane Hollander is to blame?

    Or how a high-profile trade sparks one of the greatest conspiracies in hockey history... that just so happens to be true.

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    Chapters:
    8/?
    Comments:
    544
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    09 Feb 2026

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    09 Feb 2026

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    “How long has this been here?” Shane asked.

    Ilya frowned. “What?”

    “This,” Shane said, pressing gently.

    Ilya flinched, more surprised than hurt. He twisted awkwardly, reaching back, fingers searching. “I don’t feel anything.”

    “You don’t feel that?” Shane asked. His voice sounded wrong to his own ears.

    Ilya sighed, irritation creeping in. “You’re poking me. Of course I feel that.”

    “Ilya.”

    “It’s probably nothing,” Ilya said, already pulling away, sitting up. “Muscle knot. I don’t know.”

     

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    Ilya is used to surviving alone. Shane won’t let him. When illness forces their lives to change overnight, they learn what marriage really means. Not in vows, but in the relentless decision to stay.

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    Comments:
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    09 Feb 2026

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    Hayden took a bite, chewed pensively, then asked, “So, where are you going?”

    Shane felt his lips twitch into a small smile. “New York.”
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    OR: Instead of Ilya moving to Ottawa, Shane moves to New York. Now that he's playing with Scott Hunter, Shane finds himself more involved in the queer scene and on the fast-track to another MLH Cup final. Since he stays in Boston, Ilya's still at the top of his game, setting records as he leads his team straight through the playoffs. What happens when being closer together, means their rivalry is stronger than ever?

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    Chapters:
    6/?
    Comments:
    398
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    2,334
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    731
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    33,440

    08 Feb 2026

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