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    “There’s no need to help. Everything is fine,” Ilya tries to reassure him and wraps his arms around Shane’s waist, pulling him closer. “Come here. Give me a kiss.”

    Give me a kiss.

    The words echo loudly inside his head.

    It’s not how he used to say it.

    Back when words didn’t come so easily and back when he was too scared to ask for what he wanted, everything was simpler and smaller.

    OR: As Ilya's English gets better, his Russian gets a little rusty. So, he has a crisis about it.

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    25 Apr 2026

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    The Montreal Voyageurs finally face their downfall as Shane Hollander-Rozanov shows the world exactly who he is and exactly who they are. #fuckthevoyageurs

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    24 Apr 2026

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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

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    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    “They both want to fuck you. That entire family is trying to fuck you. I think we should call the police. Put restraining order for your hole.”

    “Ilya, are you drunk?”

    “Hollander, this is a serious problem!”

    “Just because he is gay, it doesn’t mean he wants to fuck me.” Shane scoffs. “Maybe he’s a bottom too.”

    “So, that’s your problem? Not that he wants your hole?”

    “Ilya, I swear, if you don’t stop saying that word—”

    “It’s wrong, you know,” Ilya informs seriously. “You fucked Rose Landry. Now Peter Landry is trying to fuck you. All the holes are connecting. This is basically incest.”

    “Didn’t you sleep with those Swedish twins in Cabo?”

    “They were not identical. It does not count!”

    OR: Ilya's life gets plagued by a different Landry this time, AKA an interpretation of the 'let's sleep with other people' fight mentioned in TLG, AKA, an ode to Jealous Ilya.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

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    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    He doesn’t mean for it to happen that way. He sees the asphalt before he reaches it.

    He thinks, Ilya.

    He doesn’t remember much after that.

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    SHANE HOLLANDER, CAPTAIN OF MONTREAL METROS, FOUND UNRESPONSIVE AFTER FALLING FROM APARTMENT BALCONY
    The incident occurred mere hours after rumors of the hockey star’s sexuality started circulating, stemming from an online video of a private conversation between the young captain and actress Rose Landry. There is no update on his current status after being moved to…

    Or, Shane gets outed and accidentally hurts himself, the world thinks he's tried to end his life, and Ilya struggles to come to terms with mortality in more than one sense of the word.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.

    Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.

    Or:
    Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

    A slice of life.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Instead of Shane, it is Ilya who suffers a concussion during the Boston-Montreal game in April 2017. Dazed and agitated, Ilya briefly starts speaking and responding only in Russian and the medics can’t calm him down. Luckily, Shane started studying Russian after Ilya spoke to him in Russian on the phone from Moscow. For no particular reason. Certainly not because he’s fallen in love with Ilya Rozanov.

    In Montreal with lingering concussion symptoms, Ilya is advised not to fly home for a few days, and the hospital won’t release him without assurances that he has someone to stay with him until his symptoms improve. Luckily, Shane conveniently has a condo in Montreal no one knows about and a few days before he has to travel again.

    But Ilya’s symptoms don’t resolve after a few days. Which is okay; Shane can handle it. He can take care of Ilya, study Russian, lead his team into the playoffs, and keep Ilya’s continued presence in Montreal a secret. He can do everything, no problem. He is Shane Hollander after all.

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    A whump fanfiction that is secretly a fix-it.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Loving Shane Hollander had taught Ilya Rozanov how to slow down.

    They had a plan now. A life that made sense. Something quiet, stable, and boring. For once, Ilya believed peace might be something he could actually have, not just something he pretended not to want.

    Then Troy Barrett arrives from Toronto and starts looking at what Ilya has built like it’s something he might take. Like peace is something might need too.

    Ilya tells himself it’s nothing. A misunderstanding. He plays captain. He plays fair. He plays nice.

    But loathing has always come easier than love, and once everything starts to unravel, Ilya learns there are only so many times you can choose peace before you are forced to show how far you’ll go to keep Shane Hollander to yourself and let yourself unravel in the meantime.

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    Troy Barrett wants Shane badly enough to burn with the ship. Ilya is determined to get rid of him before everything between him and his freckled love falls apart and what happens after it does?

    Ilya’s POV of jealousy, mental health journeys and the miscommunication final boss rollercoaster

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    24 Apr 2026

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    A reporter stepped forward. "Rozanov. Thoughts on Shane's new look?"

    "The wolfcut is falling perfectly," Ilya explained. "Also, Shane had very good game tonight. But I could not appreciate properly because I was too busy thinking about how pretty he is."

    On Twitter: Rozanov looking at Hollander’s wolfcut like it personally saved his life is my Roman Empire 🙏

    When Shane grows his hair out into a wolf cut and starts tying it into a bun, Ilya becomes distracted on the ice, and very publicly on the internet.

    Featuring: a viral hair tuck, a possessive tweet, and a team rule that exists solely because Ilya cannot behave.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    24 Apr 2026

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    A squawk, followed by an incensed, “Jesus! It’s Hayden! Hayden Pike! Shane’s best friend? A guy you’ve played against for years?”

    Oh. This is… not good.

    Ilya very slowly lowers himself down on the bed, spine straight. “Why are you calling?”

    Pike huffs. “Trust me, I don’t want to be.”

    “Okay, then, why? How do you know… Lily?”

    A beat. Then, “You’re Lily.”

    Protectiveness rears its ugly head. Severely, Ilya declares, “This is none of your fucking concern.”

    “He’s asking for you.”

    OR: when Shane gets hurt on the ice, Hayden Pike reaches out to Boston Lily.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    24 Apr 2026

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Does it feel like agony for you too?

    On loving someone who gets chased by everyone else.

    Part 1: Ilya
    Part 2: Shane

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Everyone in the NHL wants Shane Hollander. Maybe that should make Ilya feel proud, accomplished, even. Because he's the only one who has ever really had him. The only one who will.
    But really, it only seems to piss him off. Make him possessive.
    Shane kind of likes that.

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    23 Apr 2026

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    Sorren Miitka knows how lucky he is. He gets paid millions of dollars a year to play hockey. He’s the starting goalie for the Montreal Metros, and they’re coming off back-to-back championships. And he never has to defend his net against Shane Hollander in an actual game.

    Because Shane Hollander is his captain. The Shane Hollander—the sleep paralysis demon of Major League Hockey—is Mitty’s captain.

    And also his wet dream.

    (It’s the hockey, really.)

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    23 Apr 2026

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    “Has Shane Hollander ever fought anybody?”

    No, Ilya answers petulantly as he rewinds the clip. He wishes that Hollander had fought him on ice the last time they’d played. Really, if the world was going to bear witness to Hollander losing his shit on ice, wouldn't it have been more fitting for it to be at him? The details of this strange scenario flood his imagination as Ilya stews in his envy. He wonders what it would be like for Hollander to hit him. Ilya would like it, he’s sure, however painful it’d be.

    He wonders if Hollander would like it, too, and if he’d like Ilya to hit back. The answers come to him quickly, as if fed to him by the man himself.

    Yes and yes.

    Ilya goads Shane into punching him during a game. What happens next will warm your heart.
    Inspired by this

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    23 Apr 2026

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    JJ didn't think the others saw it. Hayden, maybe, but Jackie was the only WAGs's name Shane had committed to memory so Hayden never brought it up. JJ didn't have a wife or girlfriend. He had his hookups and the names of the best restaurants in each city they player in. If JJ had a dog, Shane would probably mix its name up with Drapeau's. The others didn't get that however pathetic or sad they might think Shane, Shane thought the same of them tenfold when they missed shots at practice or ate fast food on weekdays. Shane wasn't being prissy or funny when he said, don't embarass me—JJ still doesn't know exactly what it was, but he doesn't care to find out.

    Shane had poured everything into his team (possessively: it was his team) and he asked them to give it back that day, so they delivered. When Shane smiled at them afterwards, it felt like love.

    Character study on neurotic batshit hardass Captain Shane Hollander. The awe-inspiring and aloof Canadian Hockey Jesus Shane Hollander. Unwilling MHL sex icon Shane Hollander, the face on many mens' dart boards.

    or, JJ on the enigma of (his feelings for) Shane Hollander over the years.

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    23 Apr 2026

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