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  1. Public Bookmark 21

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    Sometimes, Shane didn’t like to be touched. 

    It wasn’t the biggest thing in the world, and it was a quirk that was generally unproblematic enough for it to be conflated into anything bigger than just a personality trait. In fact, it made sense for Shane, given his slightly aloof and shy nature. He wasn’t the best at communication, so it wasn’t the craziest thing in the world that he was like this. He knew his team noticed and he knew his friends noticed, but it didn’t really mean anything. Shane just didn’t like to be touched and he didn’t like it when people came near him. It was as simple as that. 

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    Alternatively, someone from Shane's early training days comes back to haunt him.

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    26 Sep 2026

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    ch1

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    Shane Hollander only likes to eat a handful of foods. He only thinks about hockey. He only feels comfortable around about five total people. He hates crowds and loud noises and bright lights and shoes that aren’t sneakers or skates.

    Ilya thinks Shane is completely perfect the way he is. He wishes things were not so hard for his husband, but is always happy to help Shane navigate a world that isn’t built for brains like his.

    Yuna and David Hollander love their son more than anything. They don't want any limits placed on his life, or any labels that would hold him back. He can thrive without a diagnosis being put on him.

    Or: Everyone knows Shane Hollander is autistic. Except for Shane.

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    26 Sep 2026

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  3. Public Bookmark 90

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    But right now the whole anger is gone and there is only helplessness, and it feels much worse. Because Taehyung hasn’t moved from his childhood bed under the 200 glowing in the dark stars in minutes or hours or maybe even days and he doesn’t even care. 'Cause it's all over now, all out to sea.

    ________________

    Taehyung finds out he’s pregnant after he and Jeongguk break up. But before he gathers the courage to contact him, every single thing to come has turned into ashes.

    Now he needs his alpha, whom he still loves, more than ever.

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    18 Sep 2026

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    Shane wants to give Ilya a family. He wants that badly enough that he's willing to go off the suppressants and birth control he's taken religiously since he presented as a teenager.

    But not all things in life goes according to plan.

     

    Or: A study in grief. And mostly, a study in love.

    *updates every Thursday*

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    15 Sep 2026

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    ch21

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    15 Sep 2026

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  6. Public Bookmark 76

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    He awoke, launching himself off the bed. His body reacting before his mind did. It wasn't until his feet were on the floor, chest heaving, that he understood what happened.

    A strangled sob tore its way across the room. Hayden's eyes shot up, a bolt of fear coursing through him at the sound.

     

    Or - Rookie Shane begins to have frequent nightmares, his mood deteriorating as he desperately pretends he has everything under control.

    Hayden struggles to get his rookie to let him help, while Shane grapples with what happened to him. Over time, with the help of those closest to him, Shane comes to terms with the fact that it wasn't his fault.

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    14 Sep 2026

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    Shane looked up at him. “I’m fine, Ilya. Just tired.”

    “Okay. It’s fine if you’re not okay, though. We can handle that.”

    He doubted that Ilya, Anya, Harris, Coach Wiebe, his parents, The Irina Foundation, Rose, or even the gas station attendant down the road from their house could handle the idea of Shane looking at the black hole in his mind. It would swallow him. Everything would get out of control again.

     

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    Graphic depictions of self harm and discussions of trauma and dissociation. Deals with hazing and the ways the institution of hockey hurts anyone who doesn't fit the white, conservative mold.

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    14 Sep 2026

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    ch6

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    Ilya Rozanov is the founder of the Irina Foundation, which battles the barbaric, antiquated treatment of Omegas across North America. For years, he has worked tirelessly to change restrictive laws created by Alphas to uphold a toxic system, rescuing Omegas who have been sold for breeding and sex work.

    An unexpected call leads to the discovery of two kidnapped Omegas, and Ilya's world is slowly upended. Humanity has shown itself to have a vile underbelly, and this work has taken its toll on him. But maybe there's solace to be found in the recently rescued Omega he can't stop thinking about, with the most beautiful dark eyes and freckles he's ever seen.

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    Shane: I know what you really want from me.

    "Shane," Ilya said. "That's not going to happen here. No one here will hurt you or do anything to you. That's not how the foundation operates."

    Shane: I don't trust Alphas.

    "I know that too. Believe it or not, I am quite stubborn. I know you are familiar with this." Ilya watched Shane's nostrils flare. "For as long as it takes, I will work every day until you believe me. Even if it takes years. Even if it's the rest of our lives. I will prove you wrong. I swear."

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    12 Sep 2026

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    ch7

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    Everyone knows Shane Hollander. Captain. Franchise player. Olympic silver medallist. The face of the NHL.

    Very few people know Shane.

    Cliff Marleau certainly didn't expect to become one of them after a chance encounter in a quiet hallway of a Vegas hotel. He'd only meant to make sure Shane Hollander was okay.

    He didn't expect the day to end with Hollander's phone number, or to spend the summer exchanging messages with the man. He certainly didn't expect to become the one person Shane actually wanted to hear from.

    Friendship was never part of the plan... but then neither was falling in love.

    (Or: Cliff finds Shane having a panic attack, helps him through it and then everything goes from there)

    - Cliff/Shane endgame

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    12 Sep 2026

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    ch13

  10. Public Bookmark 43

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    Point is, these kinds of hangouts were used to talk about stuff that Hayden wouldn’t understand, so J.J. didn’t feel too bad about not inviting him.

    (And, if J.J. was lucky, he could convince Shane to relax a little and smoke with him. Shane didn’t get high with him often, but they had a few days before their next game and with how down Shane has been as of late, J.J. really hopes he’ll take up the offer.)

    Or: Shane and J.J. get high after a game and hook up

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    10 Sep 2026

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    After the tuna meltdown, Shane's plan to win Ilya back in Tampa is a spectacular failure. The cottage never happens.
    So what's left? Rolex still want him at Wimbledon, so why not spend summer in Europe?
    And he'll be sitting next to a Swedish princess.

    Except...The princess turns out to be a Swedish prince. Very charming, very hot, and very gay. And very much into Shane.

    When the photos hit the internet, Ilya is going to have some feelings about that. And way more than Rose Landry to worry about.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov is about to find out what happens when you tell Shane Hollander you're nothing to each other and then have to watch him move on.

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    10 Sep 2026

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    It was no secret that Shane Hollander loved one thing and one thing only, which was hockey. He spent his free time reading hockey books and watching game tape. He had an entire synthetic rink built at his cottage. He had an encyclopedic knowledge of every hockey stat from the modern era. It was so obvious - the reason he hadn’t fallen in love yet was because he needed to be with another hockey player, someone who cared about the game just as much as he did. Or, at least, almost as much as he did. Hayden didn’t know if there was anyone in the universe that loved it as much as Shane.

    And, thankfully, there were twenty-three professional women hockey players in their city!! Sure, that didn’t sound like a lot, especially when you factored in how many of them were probably single, but it was better than nothing! Now he just had to figure out how to get Shane to spend some quality time with the Victoire players. How hard could that possibly be?

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    Hayden tries to set Shane up with PWHL players. Instead of a girlfriend, Shane finds community and the support he needs to go after the man of his dreams.

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    10 Sep 2026

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    Draco has returned to Hogwarts oddly quiet. Witness to the chaotic last days at Malfoy manor, but unable to confide in anyone, he's slowly coming apart.

    Harry has also returned for his final year, dismayed to find that in the aftermath of the battle, the castle is not only damaged, but continuing to decay.

    And naturally, he's determined to find out what Draco Malfoy is hiding.

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    09 Sep 2026

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  14. Public Bookmark 22

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    The Head Doctor glanced at the thick chart in his hands, rifled through the papers for a moment before continuing. “We did every test we thought would be relevant to you, and they all came back with the same answer: your lung functionality fell drastically when you had your asthma attacks, but they’ve since stabilized and have held ever since.”

    Shane knew that. Why was he going over all of this again?

    “The thing with those functionality results, though,” the doctor paused, “is that your lungs seem to be holding steady in the range we see with active cases of asthma. All of your testing points to an active case of chronic asthma."
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    Or: Shane's childhood asthma comes back and no one can tell him why. Doctors say his active lifestyle is only making it worse and the best way forward is to quit hockey.

    Shane knows they're right, and would never argue with a professional but... this would ruin everything he'd ever worked for! How can he just quit!? What would he even do without hockey?

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    07 Sep 2026

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    ch15

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    Shane Hollander is hockeys next greatest thing. Alongside Ilya Rozanov, of course. What the public doesn’t know is that Canadas Golden Boy hides a lot under the surface. Shane struggles to love hockey again as he plays in the MLH after quitting his travel team three months before the draft. Reporters and journalists have endless guesses as to why, but when a shocking headline about Shane’s former coach rattles the hockey world, the truth is too close for comfort

    Will Shane finally start his road to recovery, now that his biggest secret is out? Or will it all come crashing down around him?

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    Or: Shane Hollander has been sexually abused by his hockey coach for most of his life

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    06 Sep 2026

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    ch15

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    "No," Shane cried out. "Please, no." But a knot was already forming.

    He grabbed the nearest pillow and bit into it, then he clawed at the blankets loosely lining his bed. His body was actively betraying him, and he felt sick. He was meant to feel pain in his abdomen, not his dick. He was supposed to cry because of the discomfort, not because he was disgusted by his body.

    Or, five times Shane feels like an omega, and one time he accepts that he is an omega.

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    06 Sep 2026

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    It was like he was drawn to the podcasts, the articles that went on ad nauseam about how much the Metros blamed Shane for the loss, or the thinkpieces about how Shane’s trip was unforgivable to team members and to the city of Montreal as a whole. He had stopped listening to Man in the Crease weeks ago, at Hunter's suggestion, but he couldn’t bring himself to stop everything.

    Maybe he was hoping that just one of them would speak well of him. Hoping that maybe one person would understand that the accusations of cheating were so far below what Shane would do that a conversation about them was laughable.

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    06 Sep 2026

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  18. Public Bookmark 8

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    There is a ghost in the Westchester Manor. And it's hunting Charles.

    But only Erik can see it.

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    03 Sep 2026

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    ch5 this is getting so good

  19. Public Bookmark 28

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    Charles is struggling with his mutation, Erik is a survivor searching for his tormentor. One night, their paths cross.

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    25 Aug 2026

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    It would have probably been wise to make the drive in the morning, but he'd much rather get up at an ungodly hour with his boyfriend than sleep in on his own. He tiptoed up the stairs, but when he opened the bedroom door, it was empty. Shane's Egyptian cotton sheets were untouched, the comforter tucked in so tight you could bounce a quarter off it.
    Worried, he checked his phone again.

    Jane:

    Good luck tonight.

    Their 2nd pair left defenseman has a terrible RSA.

    I love you.
    5:27 PM

    Lily:

    I love you too ❤️

    Getting on plane now

    See you in four hours
    9:35 PM

    Just landed, sorry about tonight. Your mother says you were great though. She would not lie about hockey
    12:02 AM

    I am at your house. Where are you

    Just I am worried about you, i love you
    Now

    Or: Shane is the victim of a hate crime and sexual assault by two of his teammates, after coming out as gay at the start of the 2018/19 season. Leading to a media frenzy and the need for a new plan.

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    24 Aug 2026

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