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    The summer before his second season with the Centaurs, Shane Hollander is supposed to have his body and his life under control. He’s married, training hard, doing everything right.

    So the nausea, the bone-deep exhaustion, the aching chest and low back, the way his body feels wrong in all the old ways he thought he’d outrun?

    He blames stress. He blames the season. He blames anything but himself.

    Shane knows his body. He has spent years fighting for it.

    But one rushed doctor’s visit turns into an ultrasound, and suddenly he’s thirty-plus weeks pregnant with a baby he didn’t plan, didn’t want, and doesn’t know how to make peace with.

    Now he can’t outrun anything anymore.
    Not the dysphoria. Not the fear of the league finding out.
    Not the family he’s already carrying.

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    hi i need more trans!shane hollander. and as a trans man who wants to get pregnant someday obviously i had to make shane pregnant. without him knowing though. sorry bb

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    07 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is the youngest Commander in ISS history; straight-backed, closeted, and so tightly on his own leash that seven months in orbit with Ilya Rozanov have not produced a single crack in his composure.

    Ilya Rozanov is the Russian cosmonaut who should have had his job, won’t stop bouncing a tennis ball off the walls, and is still looking for a fissure. Thankfully, a solar storm finds it for him.

    or: Near-death, zero gravity, and the wrong man’s hands in exactly the right places.

    A Cosmonaut!Ilya x Astronaut!Shane AU 🚀

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    05 May 2026

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    none of these stories are interconnected. they can be read in any order, and you're not missing something if you skip some of them. it's just all my HR fic, gathered in one place.

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    05 May 2026

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    Since I have joined the grand tradition of writing heated rivalry fics on anon, here is my version of a collection. Stories aren't connected unless explicitly stated. Thanks for reading :)

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    04 May 2026

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    ESPN @espn ✅
    Time for the reveal!
    Boston’s Legend @ilyarozanov will be the surprise commentator for the BOSTON VS MONTREAL game!
    💬 122K 🔄 508.2K ❤️ 1M

    emma @rozanovstits
    THEY GOT ROZANOV OUT OF RETIREMENT FOR THIS GAME????
    💬 10K 🔄 30K ❤️ 430K

    Replying to @rozanovstits
    leo @rizzanov
    oh my god i’ve missed his face please thank u jesus
    💬 2K 🔄 23K ❤️ 200K

     

    or: retired hockey god ilya rozanov and hockey god shane hollander

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    02 May 2026

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    One would think that a hockey themed queer bar is simply too weird to attract enough people to stay in business long. However, it's perfect for Ilya Rozanov, who never had a job he loved more than tending the bar at the Chill & Shooters.

    It's also probably the best place for one Shane Hollander to finally figure out if he likes men.

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    01 May 2026

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    If this is Christmas, Ilya will start to believe in that stupid man who lives with polar bears and makes toys.

    He'll believe in anything, any God, any religion, if Shane Hollander’s body is its temple.

    Or: the sugary highs and lows of Christmas Day through the years, from Ilya Rozanov's perspective.

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    01 May 2026

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    Stuck in an alt-world where he and Shane never hooked up as teenagers, Ilya is determined to get Shane back. To do that, Ilya has to figure out a way to get Shane to see him as anyone other than the Russian asshole who has spent a decade pissing him off. It can't be that hard to make your husband fall in love with you... right?

    Basically: Shane Hollander makes a wish with good intentions. Ilya Rozanov wakes up confused, single, closeted, and miserable in Boston.

    +Bonus Chapter where AltWorld!Ilya wakes up confused, married, out, and carefree in Ottawa

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    27 Apr 2026

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    "Special enough to come out of retirement for?"

    Ilya looks at the space between his legs that had once been occupied by dark eyes and a constellation of freckles and a smart mouth. He feels bereft.

    This sub, Shane Hollander, is special. Not quite a brat, though not sweet and obedient either. The thought of fighting for his submission, of smacking that smart mouth and then kissing praises against it, is tempting. 

    And he’d only had the sub at his feet for minutes. Ilya left the Mastigery for many reasons, but Shane Hollander is making him forget all of them. 

    “I will have a room ready for him in the morning.”

    Or; Professional Dom for Hire, Ilya Rozanov, struggles with his sadistic desires and meets his match in Shane Hollander; the failed Montreal trainee.

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    25 Apr 2026

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    Shane is twelve when he realizes he can understand Russian.

    Or, in a world where you can understand whatever language(s) your soulmate speaks, it takes Shane and Ilya an embarrassing amount of time to realize they’re soulmates.

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    23 Apr 2026

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    “Ye gotta give me something, LT,” Soap joked as he scanned the Shadow’s lifeless form for anything useful, “Is it a unique mark?"

    "All marks are unique, Soap,” Ghost’s sigh was crackly in his ear.

    “I mean, would ye know if ye met them?” Soap continued, pulling a knife from a holster on the Shadow’s waist.

    There was a pause over the comms.

    “I’d know. Might take me a few minutes, but I’d know,” Ghost’s voice had dipped to a low rumble and Soap was pretty sure he’d been able to hear his own heart break over the words.

     

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    Soap spends his life chasing after death and pining for skeletons.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    “Luca,” he swallows.

    Fuck. Maybe it’s just the heat radiating from Luca’s body, but Shane is starting to get a little hot under the collar as well. It doesn’t help when Luca tucks his head into his neck and whines softly at Shane calling for him.

    “Haasy,” Shane tries again. “Have you had your first heat yet?”

    For a moment, Luca’s hold tightens. The word heat was scary; foreign to someone as young as Luca. He’d only just turned twenty-one, he should have another year or so before his body ripens.

    He surely looks ripe now, though. He suddenly pushes away from Shane’s chest and stares at him with wild, panicked eyes.

    “No way,” his voice trembles. “I still have… I’m not—“

    And; Luca's heat triggers Shane's, good thing Alpha Ilya is there to take care of them both!

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    18 Apr 2026

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    “If you ever talk about my fiancé like that again, then I will end your career.”

    The words are pure vitriol, dripping from Shane’s mouth like venom from the fangs of a snake. He doesn’t raise his voice, he doesn’t even sound angry, he just sounds lethal. Like a man you don’t want to cross. Like a man who fully intends to honour his promise…or threat.

    He’s met with stunned silence.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    He doesn’t mean for it to happen that way. He sees the asphalt before he reaches it.

    He thinks, Ilya.

    He doesn’t remember much after that.

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    SHANE HOLLANDER, CAPTAIN OF MONTREAL METROS, FOUND UNRESPONSIVE AFTER FALLING FROM APARTMENT BALCONY
    The incident occurred mere hours after rumors of the hockey star’s sexuality started circulating, stemming from an online video of a private conversation between the young captain and actress Rose Landry. There is no update on his current status after being moved to…

    Or, Shane gets outed and accidentally hurts himself, the world thinks he's tried to end his life, and Ilya struggles to come to terms with mortality in more than one sense of the word.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    Shane loves yoga. It has always been an escape for him—an escape from his body and his mind. When a bunch of other NHL players interrupt him in a hotel gym during a conference, he is not surprised when they make fun of him, but he is surprised when Ilya asks him to teach them a few poses and they all go along with it. He gets to show off his flexibility, and it seems harmless enough to show off a little extra for Ilya, until-

    “Holy shit, Hollander, wait—can you suck your own cock?”

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    07 Apr 2026

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    “What are you doing here?"

    He’s thankful his voice doesn’t shake, but he’s trembling. And he knows Ilya notices. Even all these years later, he’s sure he can still read Shane like a fucking book.

    Ilya’s smile softens and he points to the ice, where the player whose eyes had brought Shane back to Before lines up with the other boys.

    “My son."

    Ilya never goes to the cottage. Nearly two decades later, they meet again.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    “Why not strip poker?”

    Shane blinks. Over the roars of the rest of the table, Ilya has to lean over so that Shane can hear him. His hot breath tickles across Shane’s cheek.

    “Hollander? This is okay with you?”

    Shane opens his mouth to say no are you all crazy there is no way I could get naked in front of you without you being able to see how desperately I want you, but swallows it down.

    “Sure. Yeah, it’s fine. I’m okay.”

    Or: the boys gang up on shane during strip poker and ilya is going to kill them dead

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    06 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander struggles to reconcile his faith with his undeniable attraction to a man.

    Or a case study in Lust.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    “Say it again?” Shane pleads softly. “Before I leave?”

    Ilya nods, pressing his lips to Shane’s chest. When he speaks, it’s like he’s trying to push it between Shane’s ribs—directly to his heart.

    “Baby.” This, first, in English. Then in Russian: “One day you’ll realize that you’re wasted on me.

    Shane utters a quiet sob, like he understands every word. Hours later, when Ilya’s trying to sleep, he’ll swear he can feel the same sound trapped in his throat.

    Or: Ilya loves pet names. One day, Shane returns the favor.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    The woman had her hair tucked under a knit hat, and her eyes were actually kind.

    "You are cold," she said.

    "I'm fine," Shane said. His teeth betrayed him with a chatter.

    She unwound her scarf from her own neck and wrapped it around his.

    Eight-year-old Shane goes to a hockey camp in Moscow, becomes a victim to language barrier, and gets rescued by a woman who gives him her scarf and tells him snow angels are real.

    Eighteen years later, Ilya finds out his mother had already met the love of his life.

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    01 Apr 2026

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