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  1. Public Bookmark 45

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    It’s a series of light, measured pats, steady and absentminded, before Shane withdraws and returns both hands to the wheel.

    The touch lingers anyway and Ilya can feel it through his dress pants, the warmth of Shane’s hand seeping into his skin, curling around the coil that’s twisted too tightly in Ilya’s chest, pressing in on all the right places.

    He isn’t sure what Shane meant by it. Reassurance, maybe. We’re okay. You’re okay. Or maybe it’s damage control, the quiet smoothing-over Shane does so well, his press conference voice without the microphones. There’s no way Shane can’t detect the tension Ilya’s still carrying, the way he’s wound so tight he feels as if he could snap at any moment. Maybe he meant for the simple, short touch to act as an anchor to keep Ilya from unraveling in the passenger seat, a way to keep the night from getting worse.

    The worst part, Ilya realizes, is that it works.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    Celeste Navarro:
    PAUSE.
    BACK UP.
    Did Jackie add Ilya to our WAGs group chat?

    Hannah Wilson:
    Is this even allowed?
    It kinda feels illegal.
    No offense, Rozanov. It’s just that you play for the other team.

    Ilya Rozanov:
    Is that…
    How you say? Double meaning?

    Celeste Navarro:
    HA!

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    Or the one where Ilya Rozanov has a minor crash out after learning Rose Landry is still in the Metros WAG Group Chat but he hasn't been added & now he must infiltrate the group because he is the ultimate wife.

    **This is a current crack fic WIP that accidentally developed a plot. I hope to have updates posted once a week-ish, but there is no publishing schedule.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Shane scratched the back of his neck. “Rose, uh… she figured it out. Us. Our history. All of it.”

    Ilya turned his head slowly, disbelieving. “Figured it out?”

    “To be fair, you and I weren’t exactly subtle in Montreal,” Shane said, sheepishly.

    Ilya huffed, scowling.

    “So, she knows.” He swallowed. “Everything?”

    “I mean, not all the gory details,” Shane said, shrugging. “But enough.”

    There was a pause long enough for the surf to swell and retreat twice.

    “And? What?” Ilya asked finally, jaw tight. “She is… disgusted?”

    Shane actually snorted. “Uh. No.”

    “No?”

    “No,” Shane said again, dragging a hand down his face. Then, half-laughing, “She, um. She thinks it’s fucking hot.”

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    Or, in essence, what if Rose clocks Shane and Ilya in Montreal, she's like, I want two boyfriends and I want the boyfriends to be boyfriends, too. God gave me two hands for a reason.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    “Marley.” Ilya says evenly, suddenly knowing he can actually breathe. He had a plan and he knew what he needed to do. And he couldn’t do it from the locker room bench. “If he is very injured, if he cannot play again, if he is very bad, I will kill you. I will kill you painfully.”
    Cliff gapes at him.

    In which the hit that Cliff Marleau had on Shane Hollander goes a little different. For one, they’re in Boston. For another, Ilya realizes he might be panicking? Which is probably not something to do in the middle of a game. And, oh yeah, he just outed both himself and his not-boyfriend to an entire locker room of hockey players.

    But that’s okay, because while Boston may be vicious, they do take care of their own. And they quickly realize that their captain’s happiness and willingness to stay with the Bears is tied to Shane Hollander. The solution is easy, they’ll just have to make Shane Hollander a Bear.

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    11 Jun 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 30

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    A day or two after Ilya tells Shane about his mother's passing, Shane remembers something he said to Ilya on a rooftop 8 years ago and spirals.

    Ilya has too much to hide, but Shane sees right through him.

    They comfort each other.

    · · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·

    “Ilya… I am so sorry,” he practically whispered. He couldn’t look at the other, too ashamed and embarrassed by his younger self and his willingness to joke about something so important.

    “Hey,” Ilya said softly. He placed his hand under Shane’s chin, trying to get him to meet his eyes but Shane shook him off.

    “Don’t say it's okay, it's not okay,” he shook his head. “I never should have said something like that.”

    Ilya shook his head, looking around as if the walls could help him with an answer but came up with nothing. He clenched his jaw and sighed.

    “No, is not okay,” he agreed. Shane looked up so fast Ilya wondered if he had gotten whiplash. “Maybe not okay, but it is forgivable.”

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Hello! So while finishing up this fic, multiple side stories have popped up and I just? keep? writing??? Whoops.

    So this is just going to be a collection of the original work (they (don't) know about us) followed by a collection for extra fics that are in the same universe.

    Hope you enjoy them!!

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    11 Jun 2026

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    “Puppy!” Came Jade's happy cry as Chiron licked her face. Both of Hayden's twins lay giggling on the floor of the Ottawa locker room, a squirming puppy bouncing between them.
    “Can we get a puppy, Uncle Ilya?” Ruby's voice rose even louder as she spoke, eyes pleading towards Ilya.
    Shane heard the door slam open behind him. Hayden Pike, his best friend and beloved father, staggered to his side. Out of the corner of his eye, Shane could see him taking in the mess in front of them.
    “Well, shit.”
    Or
    What if Shane and Ilya's relationship was revealed to the Ottawa Centaurs before Hayden's video. It was still Hayden's fault though.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Shane stares down the medic, “Get a tourniquet on his leg and Cliff will leave but not a fucking second sooner.”  
    The other medic, a woman, starts going through their medical equipment bags and kneels next to Cliff. The loud one, a man, nods at Shane. 

    “That’s fair. And other than holding his hand, what are you doing to help, Mr. Hollander?” Shane glances down at Ilya’s pale and frightened face. He briefly takes stock of what just happened. He’s on the ice holding Ilya Rozanov’s hand. He's in his regular clothes at a game he’s not playing in. He steels himself and meets the medic's eyes again. Fuck it. 

    “I’m his boyfriend. I guess I’m here for moral support. Give me something useful to do and I’ll do it. But I’m not going anywhere.” 

    Shane looks down at Ilya. He shrugs his shoulders and smiles tightly. He watches as Ilya goes from shocked to awed to joyous and finally to overwhelmed. His eyes are glassy and he swallows roughly. “Have I lost too much blood, or did you just tell someone you are my boyfriend?” Shane scoffs and smiles down at him, “A little bit of both. Just stay awake, ok?”  

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    11 Jun 2026

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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

    ⎯⎯⎯

    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    A cancer diagnosis forces Shane and Ilya to stop pretending they have time. They don’t slowly fall into each other—they crash into it, trying to make up for seven years of almosts and what-ifs. But illness doesn’t magically fix who they are. The same walls, fears, and habits that kept them apart are still there—only now they have to face them while fighting something much bigger than themselves.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    After the longest season of his career, Ilya retreats to the cottage with Shane, expecting rest, recovery, and a month of stolen peace. Instead, exhaustion lingers. Small things feel wrong. And the body that has always carried him through pain begins to falter in ways he can’t explain.

    As concern grows and outside eyes begin to notice, the life Ilya and Shane have carefully built—careers, borders, futures—starts to feel fragile. When a medical crisis shatters their summer before answers arrive, love is no longer something they protect quietly. It becomes something they fight with.

    A story about what happens when the body speaks before you’re ready to listen, and the people who refuse to let you face it alone.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Built to Break is an highly requested alternate-universe story within The Quiet Fight series, where Shane—not Ilya—is the one facing cancer.

    During their eleventh NHL seasons, a lingering injury reveals a devastating diagnosis, forcing an early coming out and the potential end of Shane’s career. As Shane fights, he is forced to find a new purpose, proving that even when the body breaks, a life—and a legacy—can still be rebuilt.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Before Shane and Ilya are out Montreal plays Ottawa and Shane has a bad panic attack before the game. Hayden's solution is to take Shane to Ilya in Ottawa's locker room for Ilya to help Shane calm down.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    After a head injury Ilya doesn’t remember anything past tuna meltdown they decide to help with his memories they’ll tell their whole love story and Ilya gets to tell the parts he remembers.

    OR Shane & Ilya’s love story… as told by Shane & Ilya

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    11 Jun 2026

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    After their engagement, but before the Fan Mail video Ilya is hurt during a game playing Montreal. And Shane doesn't care if everyone will find out their secret, he has to be by Ilya's side.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    selbindery (on ao3 and instagram!) has fic bound this entire series and it is so, so wonderful, please go check out their beautiful work of art here:

    https://www.instagram.com/p/DWhgjfuFsVr/?igsh=MTlmbDBvbDBmMG55bQ==

    (fic binding is only ever acceptable for personal use! do not attempt to sell or monetize fanfiction!)

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

    +++

    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Five times Ilya lied (but not really) to his teammates about Shane, and one time he didn’t have to.

    Inspired by two Cliff Marlow lines: In the airport, when their game with Montreal gets cancelled and he tells Ilya, “Whoever she is, she’s gonna get over it,” and the scene in the locker room when he says, “Wow, this Montreal girl works you up, brother—you’re straight up blushing, Roz.”

    Or, the Boston Bears’ perspective of Ilya and Shane’s “secret” relationship over the years

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    07 Jun 2026

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    What if Rozanov's secret girlfriend Jane had been in the Official OttaWAGs chat basically since the new captain first arrived? What if the Centaur plane's emergency landing in Florida had been a bit ... bumpier, with the majority of the team completely or partially incapacitated? What if Rozanov's secret girlfriend showed up at the hospital out of nothing even before the families and team staff did? Ah! What then?

    In other words: Lisa Hayes, M.D., who has – not least because of her profession and her nerdy persuasions – seen some strange shit go down, hasn't slept for 36 hours and is in for a wild ride.

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    31 May 2026

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