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    “Can I have sex?” Shane asked. This seemed both the most easy and the most difficult question. He was in bed. That part was easy. But Ilya was setting the boundaries of what reality was today. And realistically, especially based on the fears Shane had shared with Ilya all those weeks ago, Shane wasn’t sure if the answer would be yes.

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    14 Oct 2026

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    Ilya is rescued from an Alpha sex ring in Russia and brought to Canada. Shane is an Omega hockey player. He’s pretty private about his personal life and secondary gender but his hockey playing speaks for itself. Ilya isn’t adjusting to life in the rescue facility for quite a few reasons. Which leads to him being placed with Shane for his rehabilitation.

    This is my first time writing A/B/O! I’m writing a bit of an AU version where Alphas face more discrimination than Omegas which I know isn’t how it usually goes. Omegas still face some but in general they are respected and have equal rights. They are thought of as compassionate people that bring life into the world whereas Alphas are thought of as dangerous and even feral by some people. I'll get into it. Let's have a little fun :)

    This work will have some very dark themes! Please read the tags!

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    14 Oct 2026

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    Maybe Ilya was right. He really is too afraid.

    Shane feels a tear streak down his face, and he lifts his numb fingers, pressing his cold fingers to his equally cold cheek, and then smiles to himself. He can’t stop the laugh from leaving his mouth, even though it makes his lungs hurt, even though it makes his chest feel like it’s about to cave in.

    His entire life has been spent on the ice. His entire life has been cold, and so maybe it’s fitting that he dies in the cold, too. To let his body be reclaimed by the elements, and then the world is left wondering just where Shane Hollander disappeared to.

    At least the sun is somewhat warm as it basks on his face, and Shane manages one little smile, thinking about the sunlight that would stream into the cottage, and illuminate his boyfriend’s face.

    It’s the last thing he thinks about before he succumbs to unconsciousness.

    Or: The Boxing Day fight goes horribly wrong, leaving Shane and Ilya to reevaluate their lives, relationship, and careers. A story of loss, bargaining, and reconciliation.

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    10 Oct 2026

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    “What should I call you?” He asks his new alpha.

    “Uh, you can call me Shane. You’re Ilya Rozanov, right?” The man says.

    So he is being renamed. Ilya is a nice enough name, and he wasn’t particularly attached to the name his last alpha gave him anyway.

    "Okay! I can be Ilya Rozanov."

     
    Or: Ilya is on his way to meet his new alpha owner. Shane is waiting for his university roommate to show up. Some flaky paint means that Ilya knocks on the wrong apartment. A dark comedy of errors unfolds, in which Ilya thinks he is doing what he was purchased for, while Shane just thinks he has the best roommate ever.

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    07 Oct 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov goes first overall in the draft to Boston. Shane Hollander goes three rounds later, to the same team, which nobody saw coming, least of all Shane.

    The only person in the building who isn't surprised is the guy who's been thinking about Shane Hollander since January.

    OR: the one where Shane goes to Boston instead of Montreal, he's deaf, there's no rivalry, and Ilya Rozanov falls first and falls hardest.

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    30 Sep 2026

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    Ilya knows that Shane will be open to new things. He just needs a little training.

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    22 Sep 2026

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    Shane first meets Ilya the winter of 07'. The omega is 16 years old, just like him, and already mated. There's a fucking dog collar around his neck.

    He's the best hockey player Shane has ever met. He beats Shane, at the most important competition of his life, and then disappears into the black hole of omega abuse that is the Russian system for the next eight and a half years.

    Then, the 2014 Olympics happen. Then, overnight, the world is faced with the talent that is Ilya Rozanov, and becomes conveniently so much more open to the idea of omegas in sports.

    The Metros become more open to it. They become open to the idea, too, of pairing a newly-out Shane with the most socially acceptable secondary gender for him to be mated to, if he's going to insist on being gay.

    It's not Shane who buys out the remainder of Rozanov's contract, but it is Shane who picks him up from the airport, and who's expected to mate him before the summer is up.

    Shane agrees to go through with it, because Rozanov agrees, and he wants to help Rozanov get the fuck out of Russia. He's wanted to help the omega get out of Russia since he was 16 years old- but neither of them are the same people anymore.

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    21 Sep 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 80

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    Ilya Rozanov was disowned by his father at fifteen and sent to the states to recouperate some of the money his father had lost on all of his hockey training.

    Shane Hollander made it all the way to the draft and through the first season of his career, only to lose his father and become disabled in a drunk driving accident.

    Yuna Hollander is doing her best to help her extremely depressed son. She also needs to learn to say "no" to helping everyone around her when she's already so overwhelmed, as she's agreed to take in a very traumatized Ilya Rozanov.

    Note from the author: Please abide by "don't like, don't read policy." :) Lmk if there are any tags I missed though if you don't mind!

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    20 Sep 2026

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    At age 46, Ilya Rozanov, retired former Captain and star forward of the Ottawa Centaurs, six time Stanley Cup Winner, and widely regarded as one of the most talented hockey players of all time, is diagnosed with dementia.

    Five years later, the legacy he leaves behind is beautiful.

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    13 Sep 2026

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    “Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”

    “How bad is it?”

    “Shane, please.”

    “Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”

    He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”

     

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    After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?

     

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    13 Sep 2026

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    Ten years after his retirement, generational talent Ilya Rozanov broke his equally long public disappearance to do the biography that will change everything.


    "You… didn't hate him. You two weren't rivals at all."

    Ilya glanced at him, eyes half-mast.

    "You…"

    Adam had never stared at someone so openly before.

    "You loved him."

    And for twenty years, the world never knew.

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    12 Sep 2026

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    Shane is left with a spinal cord injury after a catastrophic team event, and now he is left to rebuild a life that he didn’t sign up for.

    Told through Shane’s therapy sessions and the memories he refused to face, the story follows grief, survivor’s guilt, rehab, and the slow realization that finding a way forward into his new reality may also mean finding a way back to Ilya—even when neither of them knows what that path is supposed to look like anymore.

    This story is heavy, but it is also packed with tenderness, hope, and so much love. Enjoy!

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    09 Sep 2026

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    After the tuna meltdown, they never really get the chance to get back together, only watching each other’s lives from a distance, occasionally reaching out through texts, pretending it’s enough.

    Until one day, Shane receives a package at his doorstep.
    It’s a book. It’s Ilya Rozanov’s memoir.

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    04 Sep 2026

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    Ilya smiled down at Shane and his eyes gleamed with mischief. 

    "You know, Troy is just a few doors down. We could call him over, make it a little party." 

    Shane's eyes snapped open only to narrow again as he glared up at Ilya.

    “Would you like that?”

    “No, I wouldn’t,” Shane snarled. 

    But his face was screwed up in frustrated pleasure. Ilya hummed thoughtfully and pretended to consider. 

    “Perhaps we could make it a competition then.” 

    Shane made an irritated noise and turned his face away. Ilya leaned closer and let his teeth drag down the length of Shane's clenched jaw.

    "You want Troy to see how well you take it, or do you want to see if he's better at riding my cock than you are?" 

    He had been teasing him, pushing at the jealousy that usually made Shane squirm and glare and tell him to shut the fuck up while his traitorous cock twitched and throbbed at how much he secretly liked it. 

    So when Shane did squirm away from him, Ilya followed automatically, pressing their chests flush together. He thought Shane was playing.

    “Get the fuck off me,” Shane spat.
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    Shane safewords out of Ilya's teasing about Troy.

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    29 Aug 2026

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    Shane wakes up in the hospital, the last few months missing from his memory. There's a man there, too - an omega - who claims they've been living together in secret. Shane doesn't think he's the kind of person who would ever buy - and, apparently, abuse?! - an omega, but... here they are. He's determined to make up for all the hurt he and others inflicted on Ilya. He's going to give him a wonderful home.

    Ilya is a big bad liar. But it's life or death for him, and besides, Hollander makes it all too easy. Maybe easy enough to fall in love.

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    25 Aug 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 59

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    “Rose, I can’t… I can’t go to a…” Shane looked around, voice hushed and cheeks red with thoughts of what his best friend had just insinuated, “a sex party.”

    At a Hollywood star's lavish birthday party, closeted hockey superstar Shane Hollander meets Ilya, a charming prostitute hired to make sure guests have a good time. As Shane starts to meet with Ilya regularly, allowing himself to discover his own sexuality, he begins to grow attached to the other man. What Shane doesn't know is that Ilya is being trafficked, and those meetings with Shane are the only time Ilya feels free. Can Shane help Ilya out of a dangerous situation, or are their shared moments behind closed doors the only reprieve the pair can get from the lives they've been forced to live?

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    Shane is a famous hockey player. Ilya is a trafficked prostitute. A chance encounter at a party forever changes their lives. But will love be enough to save them?

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    22 Aug 2026

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    Cocaine was somehow everywhere in Shane’s life, at every party, in every pre-season lecture from coaches, in every post-season warning, every wild story the guys told to tempt the rookies into pleasure and scare them into line. And yet, Shane didn’t actually know much about it. He was too chicken, too prudish, maybe. He thought he was too good to ever need to know. Maybe Rozanov was right.

    “Okay.” Ilya’s agreement startled Shane from his thoughts. “My Jane… she is good lay, mm? The best, maybe. And she doesn’t like coke, not even for fun. So, I will not do it. One year. To prove a point and keep her happy. I do not have addiction problem, so will be easy-peazy. And when I win, I will get whatever I want. Okay?”

    -x-

    Or, my Shane and Ilya cocaine thesis

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    16 Aug 2026

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    Ilya was barely back from the World Juniors and had barely met Shane Hollander when his hockey career was taken from him. He was so close to escaping everything in Russia, only to be caught by his brother, ruined by his father, and forced to marry Svetlana to escape.

    Now he's finally on his own, with his shitty studio apartment, his shitty job as a facilities tech in the Raider's Stadium, and his overall shitty life. Nothing could get worse from here, and he has no reason to think it'll get better. Until he runs into Shane fucking Hollander while smoking behind a club, maybe he could get a second chance with the man he's been secretly crushing on for years?

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    13 Aug 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 46

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    For a decade, they kept their love a secret. To the world, they were just rival hockey stars. In private, they were each other’s whole life.

    Then, a brutal injury changes everything. Trapped in pain and darkness, Ilya completely breaks down.

    Shane stays by his side, desperate to help him through the nightmare. But one painful fight pushes their relationship to the breaking point—and years of hidden love might finally tear them apart.

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    13 Aug 2026

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    It's 1985, and a mysterious disease is taking the lives of thousands of young queer men across North America. It seems like nobody has an explanation - or, at least, nobody wants to mention the explanation they're finding.

    It's 1985, and Ilya Rozanov has suddenly dropped out of the playoffs due to an "undisclosed injury". Shane Hollander goes to find the real reason and becomes intimately familiar with the unexplainable.

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    10 Aug 2026

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