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In the dream, Jonathan was falling.
It was not the first time he’d dreamt of the radio tower.
For days now his sleeping mind had trapped him there, racing and panting and sweating as he climbed to fix the antenna.
Jonathan wished these were nightmares. He wished that when he looked down, he saw monsters racing after him. Wished that when he looked up he'd see Nancy or Will dangling from the edge of the top platform. It was a fucked up thing to wish for, he knew, but he hated that the most alive he'd felt in two years was while he was racing up a radio tower with a boy he’d hated since high school.
This dream was not like those. It was cold and fast and soaked with dread.
It was knowing nothing except the roar in his ears and the certainty of the ground below ending his life.
Even weirder, he was holding Steve Harrington's hand.
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Alternate version of Operation Beanstalk where Jonathan and Steve fall down the radio tower and Jonathan has to take care of an injured Steve, leading to some honest conversations between the two of them and some sparks Jonathan doesn’t quite understand yet.
Jonathan’s POV throughout.
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10 Apr 2026
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Jonathan always believed it was his role to protect Will—to be strong when no one else could.
But when Will dies, that promise turns into an open wound.
Consumed by guilt, Jonathan begins to punish himself, convinced he doesn’t deserve care or love.
Joyce, lost in her own grief, fails to see it at first… until the damage becomes impossible to ignore.
Facing him will be painful, but it’s the only way toward forgiveness, love, and the chance to remain a family.
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- Part 7 of Family Byers
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10 Apr 2026
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As if Billy wants to be in this position. He would give anything to be able to help move shit, but seeing as he can’t fucking see, he can’t do shit except trip over every fucking thing because there’s boxes littering their new house everywhere and everything is new and different and not what he’s used to anymore back in California.
Not now that he’s stuck here in the middle of bumfuck nowhere, Indiana.
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07 Apr 2026
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Heaven Hits Me When I See Your Face by trashcangimmick
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
28 Jul 2019
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College is wild. Steve’s doing his best not to be a disaster. It’s just hard when his next-door neighbor seems to be allergic to shirts and looks like a goddamn supermodel.
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06 Apr 2026
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Billy realized he's screwed up the last eighteen years of his life, the last year especially. That's probably why he doesn't tell anyone when he starts to get sick. They wouldn't really care, would they? What starts off as a small cough evolved into something more serious, just like his relationships.
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29 Mar 2026
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I guess I never really faced my fears before (so stay with me) by J1NX3D_4ND_CURS3D
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
18 Feb 2026
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„Jon…athan?” Steve breathes, head lolling to the side. Shit.
„Yeah? Steve?” He pants. His head is full of
Don’t die now, don’t die now, fuck, Steve, don’t die now.„Don’t take a selfie right now.” Steve smiles. It stupidly makes his heart flutter. „’m not… in the… the mood.”
The joke doesn’t land.
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Based on something I saw on Pinterest a while ago. Mindless fluff mixed with suicidal tendencies and uhm. They’re all a mess.
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28 Mar 2026
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Steve hasn’t been sleeping. The panic attacks are getting worse, the ringing in his ears won’t stop, and he can’t look in the mirror without seeing what the Russians did to him. So he does something he never thought he’d do—he shows up at Jonathan Byers’ door asking for weed.
What starts as a desperate attempt to quiet his mind for a few hours turns into something else entirely: an honest conversation, a vulnerability he didn’t know he was capable of, and maybe, finally, the understanding that he doesn’t have to carry his trauma alone.
tl;dr: Steve Harrington shows up at Jonathan Byers’ house with a lie about wanting to try weed “for fun.” Jonathan sees right through it.
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28 Mar 2026
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After stumbling upon a flyer for a shared apartment, a depressed Jonathan leaves home in the hopes of finding peace. When he discovers who the other tenant is, he considers leaving—but remaining changes things in his life.
As he studied Steve, he noticed something was different. Something about him had changed. Whether it was maturity, he couldn’t tell—but things weren’t as he remembered. For one, he looked worn out, like life had finally caught up to him. The confident sparkle in his eyes was no longer there—instead, it was replaced with something else. Something darker. Hurt. That alone was easy enough for Jonathan to identify.
Even though his instincts screamed at him to pull away—something else, something he couldn’t suppress—urged him to stay. Jonathan couldn’t decipher what it was. Desperation, empathy, or perhaps a sense of longing. Because when the two of them made eye contact, Jonathan found that outwardly, they were no different.
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23 Mar 2026
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"Jonathan is pretty used to taking risks. Hell, even being around Steve is risky. But a one-in-three chance of kissing Steve shakes him to his core. He wonders if Steve is thinking the same thing. Probably not. Steve never seems anxious about anything. The bottle slows and lands almost perfectly dead center on Steve. Fuck"
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Steve and Jonathan kiss during a game of spin the bottle and it sends Jonathan spiraling.
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16 Mar 2026
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A sentence from Robin about Jonathan doesn't sit well with Will. Really, really unacceptable. Will decides to defend his brother, but things turn chaotic as he gets lost in painful memories. A short story around the Byers brothers and an exploration of the underestimated character of Jonathan Byers... who has undeniably been through a lot.
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- Part 2 of Irresponsible... and other problems
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06 Mar 2026
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All the Days I’ll Have to Live Without You by orphan_account
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
06 Jun 2023
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“Losing you is going to hurt Steve, but I promise I will heal. I’ll be okay. You don’t have to worry about me.” Eddie says with a deep breath.
“I watched you die in 1986, and it was terrible, I don’t want you to have to watch me die Eddie. I can’t do that to you. I won’t do that to you.” Steve says softly as he lies in their bed, while Eddie holds his hands in an effort to warm them up. It’s November of 1989, and even though Eddie has the heat in their apartment turned up, Steve’s hands always seem to be cold lately.
“I’ll be there with you, and it will be my greatest pleasure.” Eddie says softly. “I’ll hold you until you’re gone. I won’t let you go alone…”
Or: Shit hits the fan when Steve Harrington gets diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor.
COMPLETED
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05 Mar 2026
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Steve Harrington has just turned twenty, and finally confessed that he's been in love with Eddie Munson for over a year. Everything seems perfect, until Steve learns that he's dying...and has less than a year to live.
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05 Mar 2026
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Surely Someone Will Reach Out A Hand, And Show You A Safe Place To Land by lilies_in_a_vase
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
11 Feb 2021
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She reaches a hand up to feel his forehead and sighs at the heat she finds there. Billy’s shoulders shake as he turns his head down to stare into the sink.
Joyce strokes his hair. “You’re feeling really bad, huh?”
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Billy gets sick with rashes on his skin.
He thinks it’s AIDS, because it’s the 80’s.
It isn’t.Series
- Part 15 of Looking For A Safe Place To Land
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04 Mar 2026
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I Know Your Soul Is Not Tainted (Even Though You've Been Told So) by NeroAnne
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
29 Dec 2017
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"You don't know me!" Jonathan yelled, his eyes lit up with his fury and an angry red flush creeping up his pale neck. He didn't seem to realize just how close they were. It was the closest he'd ever gotten to Jonathan without the younger man wincing, Steve realized.
"I know that you think you're disgusting!" Steve shot back, his own anger vibrating in his chest, "I know you think you're dirty and that you don't like to be touched because you think you're tainting people, but you're wrong." His voice softened as he noticed the wetness in Jonathan's eyes. The trembling of his body, his quivering lips, "You're wrong, Jonathan."
Sometimes you need reminding that you are loved. Steve Harrington sets out to remind Jonathan Byers. Slowish burn.
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24 Feb 2026
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Jonathan thinks it’s the end of the world the first time he realises he’s jealous of his little brother.
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16 Feb 2026
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Could you be there ('Cause I'm the one who waits for you) by Aki_of_Eyluvial
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
22 Oct 2022
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He tripped on a root and fell, slamming his face on the ground. Great, now, on top of a crying-induced headache he was gonna have a bruise too.
When he stood and looked around he immediately noticed the change.
A growl made him turn, finding himself face to face with a demodog. Cursing again he turned and ran.Jonathan finds himself in the Upside Down, unexpectedly.
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- Part 10 of A very Stranger Things Whumptober
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15 Feb 2026
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it was never the dying that made me tremble, it was the remembering by moonagedisasterr
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
12 Sep 2022
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It had been six days when Steve found himself on the Byers’ doorstep. Six days since Jonathan Byers was stolen from the living and given a home among the dead.
Steve had spent a fair share of his days mourning alone, crying in his room and not letting anyone in to comfort him, not even Robin. It wasn’t enough anymore. So, when Joyce opened the door in a haze of her own grief and saw a mirror of herself in Steve, it was almost like a consummation.
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06 Feb 2026
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My Heroes Had the Heart by paladin_cleric_mage for LadyFrandrews, peirypatt, Fantasysci5
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
24 Dec 2018
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In less than twenty seconds he takes down the rest of the bottle, leaving it as empty as he is. Billy is gutted by the shame and fear he refuses to look at, filled instead by booze and smoke, safe distractions, and a love that hits like ecstasy. Why wouldn’t he cling to it with a fever? And he wants to, now more than ever. He wants to be someone Steve deserves, but fear tells him what everyone else already has-- that’ll never happen.
What if the reason that he can’t change isn’t people or places? He’s thought this before a thousand times, always in the mode of self-deprecation. Never with such honesty: what if the problem is him?
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- This fic is Post-S2
- A timeline for this work is available upon request
- All the songs featured: [https://open.spotify.com/user/sidneyhummel/playlist/4r3OOFwdsynyIzkQVlLLjf?si=CAuHY5bvS9yeKu_9Li4aBA]Series
- Part 1 of My Heroes Had the Heart
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03 Feb 2026
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The Dead Poets Society creates a group chat. Naturally, it goes just about as chaotic as you'd expect it to.
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- Part 2 of Dead Poets Fics
- Part 1 of Poets (But Dead) Universe
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20 Jan 2026
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Crossing into the room, Will has the sudden, violent urge to throw himself between the two men. The first—Jay, unhurt, not a speck of blood on him, is sitting in the corner with a beat of laughter halfway out his mouth, totally oblivious, totally unaware of the flickering skip of his brother’s heart. And the other—oh, the other—legs dangling off the edge of the bed, his gaze quickly catches Will—steel and river eyes, Will never could forget that shade of blue.
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Will came back to Chicago with a few more skeletons in the closet than he's willing to tell anyone. And this would all be fine if those old bones didn't decide to come back and haunt him, if Connor would stop looking at him like that, if only Will knew how to quit before it was too late.
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13 Jan 2026