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    The second he asked, the whole room turned into a trapdoor. There is more in what he’s not saying than what he is—but it’s as what is often said: there’s no nothing without something, and if Kanato had not spoken into existence his tentative misgivings, Hibari would never have heard the shape of intention.
    𝘐𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵? 𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘐 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵? 𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘐 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨?
    Instead of any of that, what comes out is a maladaptation. “You know what I mean.” Hibari is useless at complicated matters.

    OR: Hibari thinks moving in might be a simple solution to the way he and Kanato keep barely missing each other.
    It is a severe miscalculation.

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    English
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    9,074
    Chapters:
    1/8
    Kudos:
    5
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    The world presents three problems:
    1. Watarai Hibari’s devastating, all-consuming crush—
    2. On none other than his closest friend of six, seven years—
    3. And he is, ordinarily, too great a stupid coward to do much of anything about it.
    So he sat there, hopeless and helpless and completely speechless. Fixated on this enigma—Fura Kanato. Who toyed with his bangs, averting his gaze to the window. Noon framed his contours, flirted with skin. Singled out that vulnerable, soft little smile that emerged to betray the boy beneath the man.
    “When it comes to men,” playing off sincerity with mild teasing. “I’ve thought about it for a while. There’s maybe one.”

    OR: Watarai Hibari takes a hint, then a leap, then a chance. Fura Kanato takes his hand.
    And there's a hot tub.

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    English
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    2,477
    Chapters:
    1/3
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    14
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    90
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    Touch—touch was not scarce, not between him and Kanato. It hadn't been since the moment they met; Hibari had assailed those boundaries before they'd even known each other's names. What's with this? Or, better yet-why now? The tingle burrowed into skin and sat cosy in the pads of his fingers. That itchy, nagging urge to snap out and grab Kanato's wrist and not let go. As if Hibari's palm had learned the feel of a precious jewel, and never wanted to put it down. Curling, his fists clenched, then were shoved into his pockets.
    𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵'𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦? he asked himself, scathing.
    𝘏𝘦'𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶.
     
    Or: Wishes worn in the form of a heart on the sleeve; an exercise in the most artful version of starvation. Watarai Hibari, and a study in the nature of touch.

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    English
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    18,372
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    16
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    Boyfriend Shirt (srng: akira vs sera's shirt | 1017 words)
    Car Wash (zfr: kanato washes hibari's car | 628 words)
    Found Tired (zfr: hibari is found napping on the floor | 598 words)
    Pet Names (zfr: kanato, and nicknames as a language | 2148 words)
    Ingenuousness (mafi-shan zfr: christmas, work conditions, and specks of childhood | 2060 words)

    Series
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    English
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    6,476
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    21
    Bookmarks:
    2
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    307
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    Experts say, three months. The one-and-some months of tentative 'dating' doesn't compare to the over-decade's worth of hopeless pining. Maybe he's being greedy, asking for an acceleration. Kanato crams the remainder of the sandwich in his mouth. The cream sticks to his gums.
    Something that sticks—the way Hibari's big, boyish, toothy laughter does to the back of his mind. Something that stays, and lives in the corners of a home for two. Something without a shelf life—a memory. One that can be slipped into the sleeve of a photo album, that Kanato can point out on rough days—hey, remember this? Simple and mundane and with Hibari; everything he could ask for.

    He has but one modus operandi; one reason it has to be best of the best. Just one, selfish wish. He needs to hear Hibari say,
    I love you.

    OR: Hibari has terrible fears, and a huge heart—things that crack when Kanato starts slipping through his fingers.
    The terror of his grief stretches until reality can't hold it anymore.

    Series
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    English
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    25,982
    Chapters:
    4/5
    Comments:
    17
    Kudos:
    28
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    There is a memory, that often circles the edges of the mind. A promise in the shape of a dog by the door. An afterimage, eleven years lukewarm.
    It is the cloudy figure of a child, haloed by moonlight—too old to be clever but too young to be patient.
    He remembers the streets—back alleys, laughter, chasing this mirage and his grandiose stories. A scream in an unbroken voice, cracking partway. Ache that becomes sharpness that becomes blinding, white-hot, blooming out from the sternum like lashes on his insides. The rest is a blur dashed by time.

    OR: Prince of a kingdom that worships the stars, Fura Kanato tries to rid himself of a lineage blessing. A botched process tears a chunk out of his soul, and the perpetrator flees into the night. Akira is left with the brunt of accusation, and sets course for the kingdom to investigate. While Hibari follows a memory of guilt to the castle window, Seraph swears to find the culprit responsible.
    A four-way collision, that leaves the kingdom in ruins.

    Language:
    English
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    8,766
    Chapters:
    1/4
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    15
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    170
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    Watarai Hibari versus the inability to catch Fura Kanato beneath the mistletoe.
    And Shikinagi Akira, who catches someone else three times too many.

    Two little Christmas drabbles to make the holiday magic sing.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,441
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    39
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    276
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    A sentiment is… an intention? An expression with meaning, fuelled by a belief or a feeling. So does that make a feeling a sentiment? Concern? And in which case, is an unspoken sentiment a feeling? Care? And as Seraph plants one shoe after the other, footfalls heavier than they ought to be, he wonders:
    Are feelings secrets?
    𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘮 𝘐 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨?

    OR: Seraph Dazzlegarden, and the challenge of communicating a secret not even the keeper can articulate.
    And, of course—Shikinagi Akira, the exasperated hopeful.

    Series
    Language:
    English
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    8,546
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    10
    Kudos:
    27
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    283
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    "Professionalism" (zfr: theyre not good at it | 761 words)
    Seven Minutes in Heaven (zfr: exactly as it says | 1593 words)
    Melty Days (zfr: just a little sleepy | 605 words)
    No. 1 Fan (zfr: knt is hiba's no1 fan for sure | 872 words)
    Ghost in the Rafters (zfr: kanato is a ghost haunting hiba's new place. | 2417 words)
    White-Picket Possibilities (zfr: domestic hiba in an apron | 1027 words)
    Pocky Up, Prince Charming (zfr: pocky day | 1461 words)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    8,768
    Chapters:
    7/7
    Kudos:
    25
    Bookmarks:
    2
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    Hiraeth (zfr: kanato has a quiet realisation | 558 words)
    Awumbuk (zfr: hibari has a quiet realisation | 578 words)
    Snow Through the Ages (zfr: of snow, from childhood to now | 1172 words)
    Height Optimality (zfr: hibari is the perfect height for a kiss | 801 words)
    Welcome Home (srng: a new page of life, together | 2299 words)
    A Mixed-Up Heart (zfr: sharing earphones | 1131 words)
    Erfolg Hibirthday (zfr: for hiba's birthday | 1568 words)
    Just a Little Sweeter (zfr: potions your bird boy | 1039 words)
    SSR Charm Points (zfr: the rare charms we never get to see | 997 words)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    10,144
    Chapters:
    9/9
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    29
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    262
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    Bad Night Kiss (zfr: misunderstanding | 4415 words)
    This Rose Isn't Yellow (zfr: domestic confession | 1559 words)
    Crown Jewel (zfr: erfolg; a malfunction in Kanato's eye | 779 words)
    Homecoming (srng: seraph meets akira at the airport | 651 words)
    It's Nearly 5am (zfr: kanato gets hurt, and hibari doesn't ask why | 2965 words)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    10,017
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    28
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    324
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    He flicks on the flashlight, just his phone, and the beam is pitiful: a slice of pallid white, bouncing off algae-slick walls. Water sloshes over his shoe. Somewhere far off, thunder coughs behind the buildings. He thinks about Hibari's laugh, Hibari's obsession with guitars, Hibari's tendency to follow stray dogs, except this time it's been too long. Kanato presses his fist to his mouth. He's not calling out, not when his voice is already half-ruined from yelling all night, not when he can't take the idea of hearing nothing but echo.
    The concrete narrows—a culvert? Maybe. Obscene graffiti curls up the wall. Kanato stumbles. Something hard under his foot. He swings the light down—that's when he sees it.

    Rain spits overhead. The wind picks up.

    OR: In this era of warm blankets and shuddering windows, shelter truly is taken for granted. The thunderstorm chews Hibari up and spits him right back out.

    Series
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    English
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    3,760
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    15
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    156
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    Gathered on the grass at the edge of the pitch, cross-legged in a cluster like schoolkids on a field trip. And wolfing down what looks like a spread of conbini lunches. There's a white-haired guy in a black cap, a number of girls and a number of boys—orange hair, red hair, black hair, pink-blue-brown-blonde—what might be a rabbit or something, and—

    Shikinagi, legs crossed on a folding chair, spots him over the tops of his glasses. He leans in toward the white-haired guy—the coach, presumably—and his mouth moves. They both look over. One pair of slitted reds under white bangs, and one pair of dusk blues under frames. And then thirteen more pairs of eyes in gradual succession, as heads start turning.

    Well. It's always awkward being the new kid.

    OR: Two years of out of a high school he only half-remembers, Watarai Hibari is an amateur baseball player chasing the vague idea of a dream. After he signs onto a new team, a run-in with a blonde heckler changes life's trajectory.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    10,383
    Chapters:
    2/7
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    20
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    248
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    What is the definition of a secret? Fura Kanato, who lives a very complex life, would say there's a ranking.
    1. Things that aren't hidden, but unmentioned: the closet stands blatantly in the room.
    2. Things lied about to cover up: the location of the closet's key.
    3. Things that have to be pried from the cavity of one's chest: the closet doors are jimmied open.
    4. The biology of a secret: out pour the skeletons.

    OR: Fura Kanato, and the universal human failure to say what we want when we most want it.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    7,295
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    28
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    267
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    A fence is merely signage. It won't do anything for those who ignore it. The fence groans—another yank. The tension bar whines; fatigued, brittle metal. The rusted links snap in pieces, and at once, the pane of fence lists inwards and sags with an underwhelming keen. That's better, isn't it? The patch of city sprawls at his feet. Good—let it all make sense.
    There. Across the street—hovering at the open door of a café, maybe the one the bell from before belongs to. A blonde, bright-eyed boy with a familiar height and a familiar face and a familiar hairstyle and a familiar everything—
    Because that's just him. He, himself.
    A smiling duple of 'Fura Kanato'.

    OR: A version of Kanato slips into a kinder world. The villain's story.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    12,248
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    8
    Kudos:
    29
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    286
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    It’s not very etiquette, Hibari thinks, with his mouth crammed full of sweet chilli crisps. But there’s a spring in his heels and a helium bloom in his guts that he only ever feels chasing Kanato. It must show on his face, because Kanato checks over his shoulder and his expression breaks out like a sunbeam.
    “How about it, Hiba?” he titters in the elevator, eyes gleaming. With dramatic aplomb: “This is youth.”
    Hibari is a listener, fundamentally. That’s him, summed up. The music man, the songbird boy ‘built for the stage’. Notes in his bones, whatever. He loves music, but it’s not just music he listens to. He hears everything. Sometimes, he doesn’t know what to do with it.

    OR: Watarai Hibari, and one very temperamental summer 'vacation'—with far too much Fura Kanato.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    18,960
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    18
    Kudos:
    57
    Bookmarks:
    6
    Hits:
    807
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    On a summer’s Friday night, he has time. With the sky perfect— begging for a horizon shot of the city’s silhouette sinking into velvet. The ideal Friday.
    “So,” Hibari cranes his neck at Kanato’s phone— it’s already gone dark. “What’s the plan?”
    Plan? Nothing, really. Just Hibari, standing there bright-eyed and clueless. Probably doesn’t know that Kanato’s plans are vague hopes at best: The taste of toothpaste, not his own. The ghost of lips on his cheek. Or… even a chance of sweat-slick skin—? Nope, not that. But a million other things… give or take.

    OR: Fura Kanato and a cocktail or two, and a summer night that's a tad too soft.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    4,641
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    30
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    361
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    Kanato takes a sleeping pill.
    Hibari’s head lolled. Seraph shouted something, but he didn’t hear it. Hibari was frighteningly light and bleeding. As Kanato lifted him, he went utterly limp; wrists dangling and body slumping. Horrifying, that 183 centimeters of dying man could fit against his chest so well. A testament to the vitality slowly spilling free in deep, dark red.

    He doesn’t remember anything after that.
    No, that's not right— who's the one forgetting, really?

    Or: Hibari takes a bullet for Kanato. What saves him ruins everything else.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    35,044
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
    59
    Kudos:
    131
    Bookmarks:
    14
    Hits:
    2,594
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    1 - Pafun-Pafun Parlour (frhb: about asmr... or something | 1409 words)
    2 - Salty (srng: akira, a scientist, meets the mer, sera | 1500 words)
    3 - Collapse (frhb: a request for major character death | 538 words)
    4 - Dumpster Fire (no pairingish?: fura flubs a mission and gets picked out of the trash | 1082 words)
    5 - Devil in Silk (frhb: a shirt... and a request for more spicy | 1421 words)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    5,990
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Kudos:
    49
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    602
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    Come morning, Hibari’s anxiety will have died. Gone with a giggle— laughter his birthright— or stood up as a challenge. Before tomorrow, it might sink into his strings and hum sadly through the floor.
    This choker is a dumb idea— but… if he can restore the sunshine to that silly face a little earlier, being dumb could be worth it. If— if, he likes it— if-if-if— don’t stammer. If it isn’t, y’know. Over the top. Too much. Too… all that. Words you’d find in Akira’s sappy books.
    It’s fine. It suits him.

    Or: Wishes disguised in gold and promises wearing leather. How do you learn a language that not even the native knows he's speaking? A story about objects and what they mean to the emotionally blind.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    10,591
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    20
    Kudos:
    50
    Bookmarks:
    7
    Hits:
    496

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