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    Shane Hollander expected a lot out of the combine before the 2009 NHL draft: meeting the competition, impressing possible future teams and ultimately securing his spot in the NHL.

    What he didn't expect was 50 questions that were about to change his whole damn life.

    Or: How an autism diagnosis, a therapist and something magical called communication rebuild the whole trajectory of the Hollander/Rozanov saga bit by bit.

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    26 May 2026

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    Ilya is tired of being called stupid. Tired of reporters blinking at him like he’s buffering. Tired of social media deciding that an accent equals ignorance. So he decides to fix it.

    Shane lets it be a joke — until he hears Ilya sanding down the edges of himself under bright arena lights. He doesn’t interrupt interviews. Until he does.

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    25 May 2026

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    Everyone at McGill knows three things: their hockey team is the best in the country, the Rozanov family could buy half of Montreal, and Shane Hollander is completely off limits.

    So when new students start asking Shane out after winter break, Ilya Rozanov decides he needs to put a stop to it.

    Or: the horrifying realization that Ilya Rozanov might be in love with his best friend.

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    25 May 2026

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    A reimagined alternative reality where Yuna and Irina were best friends from international school and after her death, Yuna forcefully advocates for young Ilya to be part of her family and while she figures that out, he becomes penpals with her son Shane.

    What if Ilya was given comfort as a child?

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    25 May 2026

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    "We have newest member of the team with us today, as you all have seen.”

    Shane glanced up again, watching as the captain gestured vaguely toward Shane without looking at him. “Shane Hollander.” The name came out of his mouth like it was laced with poison.

    Shane became very aware of many eyes turning to him now. He felt a few claps on the back and tried to force a tight smile. But his eyes wandered back up to Ilya Rozanov, who was looking at him with so much quiet contempt, that Shane started to understand the phrase ‘if looks could kill.’
     

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    OR: Ilya spirals into a deep depression when Shane breaks things off with him definitively after a horrifying run in with their feelings (and tuna melts).

    They go no contact for close to a year until Shane is unexpectedly traded to Boston the following season.

    Shane finds his new captain is a version of Ilya he's never seen before: dark, icy, and distant.

    But their newfound proximity mixed with old feelings creates a complicated dynamic that they can't ignore forever.

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    25 May 2026

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    When Ilya Rozanov goes down on the ice, the Boston Bears are already moving to defend their captain. No one expects Shane Hollander, captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, to be the one who throws the first punch.

    Or: the Boston Bears figure out Ilya and Shane's relationship first-and decide that instead of letting their captain move to Ottawa, they'll just kidnap his boyfriend instead. Shane Hollander would make a better Bear anyway.

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    13/?
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    24 May 2026

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    Shane flees to the cottage four hours before his marriage to his biggest hater, Ilya Rozanov. He doesn’t expect to find Ilya, who thought of jilting him first, at his destination.

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    Chapters:
    5/5
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    23 May 2026

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    22 May 2026

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    22 May 2026

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    In 2006, the Hollander family billeted a player to the Ottawa 67s - Ilya Rozanov, a 15 year old Russian Bostonian with a hockey talent to rival Shane's.
    Years later, they’d once again share a team, and a home: Boston College.

    “Why did you choose Boston? It’s not like you couldn’t have gone anywhere else.”
    Shane remembered his surprise at Ilya’s commitment. The college didn’t exactly fit Ilya’s predisposition.
    Ilya looked thoughtful for a second, underneath the tumult.
    “Other than the obvious? I don’t know. I think I just felt like this place was where I was meant to go.”
    Shane understood that.
    Ilya nudged him. "Now you. Why are you here, Canadian boy?”
    The corner of Shane’s lip raised, and he shrugged.
    “I wanted to be more than hockey. At least, for a little while longer.”
    Ilya’s eyes locked on him, and a small smile reset the lines of Ilya’s face. “You couldn’t have done that in Canada?”
    Shane laughed lightly. “Sure, but Canada didn’t have you.”
    Ilya looked down at the ground, and didn’t look back up as he spoke.
    “The NHL didn’t have you.”

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    22 May 2026

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    Shane has everything he could ever ask for. A loving family. A devoted husband. The life he'd always dreamed of.

    So why does it feel like his chest is caving in when his mom calls Ilya her favourite?

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    21 May 2026

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    Ilya takes a liking to Shane's flannels.

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    20 May 2026

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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    20 May 2026

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    Twelve years after his mother’s death, Ilya finds some of her in somebody else.

     
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    Desperate to delay his return to Moscow, Ilya finds himself spending an off-season coaching at the Hollanders’ hockey summer camp. There, he spends three weeks with Shane Hollander, twenty four overactive children, his dissipating sense of self, and his parents’ upbringing fighting for control over him.

    He’s doing alright.

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    20 May 2026

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    "You do realise half of our fans want to fuck you?" Shane exhaled, watching the fireflies dance in the evening sky. Ilya shrugged.
    "They want to fuck all of us, that's how it works. What, do you think they don't want to fuck you?" He lowered his voice, teasing him. "Because I read some interesting things on Twitter."
    "Shut up."
    "You are very popular with the girls. Good boy, bass player, good looks, gentleman, probably they think you are a beast in bed."
    ---

    Shane Hollander is the goody-two-shoes Canadian bassist of Ice Crawlers. Ilya Rozanov is their loud Russian drummer. As the band reaches unprecedented levels of success and fame in the early 2010's, these two can't stay away from each other - even though the last thing their careers need is a sexual scandal between two of the most popular rock stars of their time.

    Rockband AU!

    If you're like me and Hollanov hit you the same way Larry Stylinson did when you were 12, good luck and have fun.

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    18 May 2026

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    High school was never supposed to be complicated.

    Then Ilya transfered to Canada and saw cute boy with freckles.

    He was supposed to be in Canada to learn how to act correct, Shane was everything but correct.

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    12,034

    16 May 2026

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    "Do you think there's something wrong with me?" Shane broke the silence, lifting his gaze slightly. Ilya frowned and shook his head no immediately. "Ilya... there has to be. These meltdowns or whatever they are aren't normal. I know that."

    "Not being 'normal' doesn't mean you have a problem, Shane," Ilya countered softly, resting his chin against his husband's temple, settling him even closer against his body.

    "I'm sorry..." Shane's voice came out small. His unfocused gaze wandered around the room while his fingers mechanically scratched under Anya's chin. She was now blinking slowly, surrendering to sleep.

    "For what?"

    "It's just..." Shane let out a shaky sigh. "You're the one with depression. I'm the one who should be taking care of you, not the other way around. Having these meltdowns..."

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    130,924

    16 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is the most respected hockey journalist in Canada. He's been covering the Boston Raiders for three years. He has interviewed Ilya Rozanov fourteen times in a professional capacity. He has written 47,000 words about Ilya Rozanov's career. He has approximately zero words for what happens when Rozanov corners him in a hotel corridor after Game 7 and says, very quietly, in that voice: "You always leave before I can talk to you." Shane has absolutely no idea what to do with that.
    (Or: Shane doesn't play hockey. He just writes about the man who does. It is, objectively, worse.)

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    Comments:
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    43,664

    15 May 2026

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    "It's not that bad, I'm overreacting."

    Their words aren't even hurled at him. They're tossed about carelessly, without insinuation or thought; yet that doesn't stop them from sliding under his skin, tearing through his flesh, and burying into his bones. He shakes himself, blinking over and over, trying to clear the haze that has settled like fog over his vision.

    Long fingers intertwine with his own, squeezing, grounding him in place. Shane raises his eyes to meet Ilya's.

    "No." It's gentle yet firm; a reminder that Ilya can see through his bullshit, a skill he has somehow always possessed. Shane opens his mouth for a futile retort but Ilya tightens his grip on Shane's hand again. He doesn't let go.

    "They've been saying things, calling me things."

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    Shane is struggling with something. He has a breakdown. Ilya is there to pick up the pieces.

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    3,838

    14 May 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 89

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    From the moment eight-year-old Shane crossed out the wrong letter on that first Valentine's card and slipped it into Ilya's cubby along with his favorite teddy bear, he started something he couldn't quite name. Year after year, he kept giving, and Ilya kept showing up, through childhood, through hockey, through all the messy years of growing up. Neither of them ever said what they were really thinking, but maybe they didn't need to. A Childhood Friends to Lovers story about how love can be completely obvious even when you're completely oblivious to it.

    **This story starts when they are young, but their romantic relationship develops when they are older.

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    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    20
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    450
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    5,568

    14 May 2026

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