16 Works by Naikawa
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Seungmin knew he wasn’t special.
He tried countless times to gain his members' attention and affection, however, each attempt only ended in failure. Seungmin might’ve been the second youngest member in his group but he never felt like it; compared to their maknae, Seungmin felt like nothing but a second thought.
Living unnoticed became Seungmin’s second nature— However, the longer his insecurities piled up, the further he found himself spiraling towards his breaking point, his insecurities overtaking his life and dragging his members down alongside him.
Maybe Seungmin didn’t deserve to be loved. And if no one truly loved him maybe Seungmin needed to work for it. Maybe Seungmin needed to change himself. Maybe Seungmin lost sight of who mattered most.
Maybe Seungmin lost himself in the process.
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Jisung felt his breathing quicken to an erratic pace as he watched photos of him and his ex pass through the screen. Not a single soul was supposed to find out but now the whole world knew he was gay.
Now, no matter how much Jisung had to offer, he’d never be seen as more than just his sexuality. He’d never be seen as more than that stupid photo. The one secret that tore him apart would be forced into the spotlight, for anyone and everyone to judge. His career was over. It had to be. He’d come so far only to be taken down by one mishap. And as if that wasn't enough, his love for Minho only seemed to be growing stronger day by day.
The journey through the aftermath would be long and hard. Jisung didn't know how he'd get through it or if he'd get through it at all.
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Jisung hid his identity away from his members and away from the world because he was afraid of loosing all that he cared for. Everything appeared to be going smoothly; the group was quickly rising their way to fame, and success- until a photo of Jisung's former high school relationship leaked onto the internet.
Translation now available in Polish! :))
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[Jisung] So how long have you known Hyunjinnie?
[Felix] uh actually
we kinda just met
like just now
I’m a dance major and I’m studying abroad
Chris made this group chat so I could get used to the school :)
[Jisung] ...Hyunjin you can’t keep calling everyone your best friend
[Hyunjin] And why not?
You don’t mind right, Felix?
[Felix] oh, it’s not a problem :D
AKA the skz uni chatfic I wrote at 2 AM -
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Chan was happy with the way things were. He was happy with his little space. His members were happy as his caregivers. Everything was perfect.
So if everything was so perfect, why did he still have so many doubts? Why did he still feel so guilty for regressing? Why did he still feel an overwhelming sense of shame whenever he thought about his near…accident?
Chan realized he was still scared.
He was scared of wanting to feel younger, he was scared of having accidents, he was scared of wanting baby space, he was scared of being so vulnerable, he was scared of putting unwanted responsibility on the others, and he was scared of change.
AKA Chan thinks it's a good idea to repress his regression again and makes the mistake of going on VLIVE
(This is an age regression story! It’s only tagged as ageplay so others can find it easier)
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- Part 4 of little channie :)
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Bang Chan had been working nonstop for the past few weeks. Stray Kids’ schedule can be stressful especially for someone who never knows when to quit working- like Chan. It especially didn't help that he had been ignoring his need to regress for the past few weeks during promotions. Chan had a hard time accepting that that he needed a break, or that he was a little.
How was he supposed to be a leader when he acted like a child?
AKA Chan hides his little space until his members find out
(This is an age regression story! It’s only tagged as ageplay so others can find it easier)
EDITED: 11/06/22
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- Part 1 of little channie :)
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Labels didn’t really matter to Yoongi. He was what he was; liked what he liked, and that was that.
He was comfortable with his sexuality but he still didn’t want to officially come out. He didn’t mind keeping it to himself...but maybe a part of him still wanted someone to know. He didn’t have to, but he wanted to. And Yoongi didn’t believe he had anything to be ashamed of.
After a lot of thinking, Yoongi came to a conclusion.
If a situation ever came up, Yoongi decided he wouldn’t hide anymore. He wouldn’t force it but he’d let it come naturally. He wouldn’t make it a grand reveal, but if there was ever a reason to mentioning his sexuality, he wouldn’t bother trying to hide it. His members loved him for him and it shouldn’t change anything...however, it did make for a few interesting moments.
AKA a mess of a fic with a lot of fluff, deep thoughts, crack, and a little angst :)
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“So, you don’t have romantic feelings for Felix but you want to kiss him again?” Changbin clarifies.
Jisung quickly nods his head, aware of how stupid his situation sounds out loud.
“I know, it sounds stupid,” Jisung starts.
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Jisung goes through a crisis after kissing his best friend. He doesn’t know what he’s doing and he doesn’t want to risk his friendship with Felix. It all comes crashing down before he discovers what being aromantic is and what his ‘feelings’ towards Felix really mean.
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Today was the day.
A lot changed after the last conversation Chan had with the others, including Chan’s feelings about regressing. It was the day Chan had waited for in anticipation for weeks. It was the day he’d actually regress in front of his members.
Well- Of course, this wasn’t exactly new to Chan. But what was new was purposefully regressing. In some way, regressing without meaning to or noticing took some of the nervousness away. He didn’t have time to think or worry about what the others might think. But now that he was actually trying to regress in front of the others- what if something went wrong?
Chan had been debating the idea for a while but came to the decision that he at least wanted to try. Sure, he still had some doubts. But his members had seen him through his best and worst times- little or big. And clearly, they weren’t about to leave him now. It’d all be okay. He just had to keep reminding himself that.
AKA Chan purposefully regresses with all the members for the first time and also takes an impromptu trip to the grocery store!
(This is an age regression story! It’s only tagged as ageplay so other’s can find it easier)
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- Part 3 of little channie :)
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Bang Chan was so hopelessly in love with Felix.
There was nothing Chan didn’t like about Felix. Felix was so sweet and kind. He was an angel sent on earth. Chan didn’t know what he would do without him. Realizing his feelings for Felix was hard enough but realizing the extent of them was frightening. It certainly wasn’t just friendship and it wasn’t just a harmless crush. It was love.
It was almost like everything in Chan’s life revolved around Felix. If Chan was happy? It was because Felix gave him a comforting smile. If Chan was sad? It was because he remembered his love for Felix was entirely one-sided. It was a repetitive flip-flop-see-saw of emotions. Yet somehow everything came back to Felix. Chan knew it wasn’t healthy but there was nothing he could do to stop it.
Chan was aware that Felix didn’t like him back, he’s known so long he’s grown accustomed to it, learned to deal with it, and come to terms with it. He was okay with Felix not liking him back. But for some reason, Felix not liking Chan back yet also him having feelings for Changbin hurt so much more.
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Adrien felt so empty yet there were so many emotions inside his chest, making it hard to breathe with the lump in his throat. The day began this way from the moment he woke up and the feeling only became worse as it continued. The date on the calendar taunted and mocked at him with bold numbers.
It had been three years since his mother left. He missed her so badly.
Adrien was so used to repressing all his emotions. He had never opened up so deeply to even his closest friends. He barely mentioned his mother to them before. So, out of all people, why did Adrien suddenly want to open up to Luka?
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Luka and Adrien confide in each other about their family struggles and maybe almost kiss (who knows?)
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- Part 2 of lukadrien <33
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Even though, Chan no longer constantly worried about his members finding him regressed, he would still never purposefully regress in front of the others. It wasn’t that he didn’t trust them, it’s just that in his little space he’s so vulnerable and he isn't sure if he’s ready to fully share that with anyone yet. Deep inside, all he wanted was to let go and let his members take care of him. He wanted to play, talk, and have fun, with the others when he was little. But the over-thinking corners of his mind wouldn’t let him. Even though he knew all his members accepted him, it was still hard to accept it himself.
AKA The 5 times the members each find Channie accidentally regressed + the 1 time Chan starts to accept it within himself
(This is an age regression story! It’s only tagged as ageplay so others can find it easier)
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- Part 2 of little channie :)
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Zuko had never been enough.
All his life Zuko had been alone. Drifting, in a lonely universe trying to make a path for himself. If only he was stronger, if only he had worked harder, if only he could do something right in his life. Maybe he wouldn’t be in this situation, maybe he’d know what it’s like be wanted.
No matter what he did. No matter what path he chose. It would never be good enough. He’d never be good enough.
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Adrien lived his whole life trying to achieve the ‘perfect’ standard that was placed on him. He could never do wrong. He had to be perfect at all times. Yet he was never enough .
No one would ever know the despair that was repressed down into the depths of his heart. No one would ever know how deep his hurt ran. No one would ever know how many nights he cried himself to sleep, wishing he could be that perfect Adrien. He’s tired of living everyday trying to be something he’s not. He’s tired of living everyday trying to achieve something impossible.
He’s tired of living.
“I’m sorry.” Chat whispered under his breath, apologizing to the world for what he was about to do and for who he couldn’t be.
He took the last step over the edge.
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Adrien doesn't know what he wants.
His whole life he’d done whatever it was his father wanted for him. None of the things he does are something that he actually chose for himself. His whole life is already planned out for him. He has no say. For the first time he asked himself what he wanted- yet his mind went blank. Any thoughts of his desire for his future were unclear if not nonexistent.
There was nothing that he wanted for himself. And that scared him. Who is Adrien? Adrien doesn't know.
But maybe Luka can help him find out.
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- Part 1 of lukadrien <33
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Yeonjun likes skirts.
He likes the way they feel around his waist, he likes the way they gracefully sway as he moves, and he likes the way they gently brush against his legs.
Yeonjun didn’t know why he was so attracted to skirts or even dresses, but there was something freeing about it. He felt as though it suits him and flows with him nicely. Though, there didn’t really need to be a grand reason to why he liked skirts- Yeonjun just liked it, and that’s that.
Unfortunately, the world couldn't always seem to accept that.
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"Do you want to go for a drive?”
That’s how it all started.
Long endless drives down the empty roads, the sun lost in the clouds with nothing in their heads except the dark sky that surrounded them. Yeonjun’s hand tightly wrapped around the steering wheel, never missing a chance to glance at Soobin, laying contently in the passenger seat. The only noise being the wind seeping through the slightly opened window or the staticky radio playing a tune. It started off slow but It began happening more frequently. If it ever became too much. Anytime any of them couldn’t handle it anymore, a single look to the other and they’d be on the road. Away from all their issues with only the two of them.
“I’d drive to the end of the world and back if it meant I had you.”